Chapter 773
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"2017, February 6th, haze. After returning from Hai Nan, I reunited with my biological father, and she called me big brother. At that moment, I realized there was no such thing as darkness in my life, only darkness. "I haven't written a diary in a long time, so I don't know where to start. I guess I'll start with sorry. "Tingting, that night at Hai Nan, we made a promise. You'll go back and get married, and I'll meet a new girl. We'll start a new life, and when we meet again, we'll be brother and sister. "But I'm sorry, I lied to you again. I promised you because I wanted you to stay in heaven. "I've been trapped in hell for many years, and I can't return to the world anymore. If I'm asked to give up on loving you, I'd rather die. "You'll never know, from the day I met you in 1996, I was destined to live the rest of my life without you. "If there was really someone who could replace you, I would've given up on you when I found out you were my biological sister. "Perhaps I've been too stubborn, but there's nothing I can do about it. When I found out I loved you, I locked up my heart. I drew a prison for myself and used all the energy in my body to throw the key away. My heart can't be opened anymore, and no one will be able to enter it anymore, and you won't be able to walk out either.
"2017, February 10th, Song Menghwa helped me choose many marriage partners. He even called Song Qingchun over to help me. I could tell she was a little sad, but she still tried her best to help me find a girl. "When I returned home from the Song family, it was already 11 pm. After a shower, I lay in bed, but I couldn't fall asleep. I replayed our story from start to finish, but I still couldn't fall asleep. This was the fourth time I couldn't sleep since I returned from Hai Nan. I knew she had to marry Qin Yinan, and I knew that no matter how much pain I was in, I had to make sure she didn't see me hurt, but I also knew I might not be able to hold on any longer. I'm not that strong, strong enough to watch the love of my life marry another man, strong enough to raise my glass and say 'Blessings for a hundred years' to her on her wedding day.
"2017, February 14th. Her marriage has been set. March 14th, White Valentine's Day. Today, I had a headache for nearly three hours. I stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, watching the sunset. Suddenly, I rushed forward. Thankfully, the floor-to-ceiling windows stopped me. In that instant, I realized that I might have fallen sick because I had the intention to commit suicide without even realizing it. "I know I should go see a doctor, but I didn't. Instead, I went to buy some tranquilizers. The reason I didn't want to see a psychiatrist is simple; I've fallen in love with my biological sister. I don't care if people look down on me, look down on me, hate me, or even hate me. However, I don't want people to know she's my biological sister. I don't want her to be looked down on because of me. She's the most beautiful thing in my life, and I'll protect her with my life.
"2017, February 16th, missing her has another name; it's called stabbing myself a thousand times. I miss her very much, and I'm stabbing myself a thousand times every day.
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