"2009, December 25th, Christmas. She cried her heart out for Qin Yinan. She was the one crying, but I was the one in pain. I wanted to console her, but I didn't dare get close to her because I was afraid, afraid that I, who had ulterior motives, would affect her beautiful life. I thought about it for a long time and finally came up with a solution. I got a phone number that wasn't linked to any ID and sent her a message wishing her Merry Christmas. She didn't reply, but it didn't matter. After all, she had gotten used to her indifference.
"2010, October 8th. I officially registered my company in Beijing. I chose this day because I met her on October 8th."
"2011, April 5th, Interview for a secretary. Actually, I didn't want a secretary because I was used to being alone, but I had no choice. There were many people who came for the interview, but I chose Cheng Qingchong. The reason was simple; Cheng Qingchong came for the interview wearing a blue checkered dress that Song Qingchun also had.
"2012, March 6, Qin Yinan joined the army. She had been waiting for his email, but Qin Yinan did not reply even after a long time. Seeing her sad, I couldn't help but feel sad as well. I think I really loved her to the point where I couldn't help but let myself live in darkness and filth for the rest of my life. That's why I went crazy and stole Qin Yinan's email and replied to his email. After receiving the email, she was so happy. Seeing her happy made me happy as well. Even though my heart ached, I got used to the pain, so it didn't matter anymore."
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"2013, April 8th, in one year, we've exchanged 99 emails. She doesn't know it's me; she thinks it's Qin Yinan. She loves Qin Yinan more and more, right? Even though I'm sad, it doesn't matter. It's better for her to love someone else than me. However, there's a little secret that no one knows. Every single one of the 99 emails has the same word count, 520 words. 520, I love you. 99 emails, 99 times I love you. "
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"2015, 7th of August. Song Cheng died. Perhaps it was because we were related by blood, but when I heard the news, my heart skipped a beat. Then, I thought of her and went to find her. As expected, I saw her crying like a child."
"2015, September 17th, Song Empire's stock market plummeted, and Song Menghwa was hospitalized.
"2015, October 2nd. She came to see me. I didn't see her."
"2015, October 29th. I didn't expect her to be so stubborn. I said all kinds of nasty things to her, but she still didn't give up."
"2015, November 2nd. She waited outside my office for a whole day. Actually, I really wanted to help her, but I didn't dare to open my mouth. I only dared to bring up our previous argument and treat her coldly. I didn't dare to be nice to her, not even a little bit, because I really wanted to be nice to her, but I was afraid that once I was nice to her, I wouldn't be able to restrain myself from being nice to her forever. I was afraid that my kindness would affect her, I was afraid that I would drag her to hell, so I could only harden my heart and be a person that she hated to the bone."
"2015, November 23rd. She's clinging to me even tighter. I'm very annoyed. I feel like I'm swaying more and more. I want to be closer to her. I've always wanted to, but I'm afraid that my selfishness will destroy her."
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