How could I not overthink it! His childhood sweetheart was using a comic book as a cover and crying on the bed! Xiao Qin, you even held the manga upside down! You even said you were crying because you were moved by the manga!
"Xiao Qin, are you blaming me for being too heartless?"
I sat down on the chair across from the bed and asked Xiao Qin with my hands on my knees.
"No, no." Xiao Qin avoided my gaze, "I was the one who suggested for Ye Lin classmate to expel me because I was too afraid of losing the identity of being his girlfriend. I became more and more extreme and not only did I cause a lot of trouble for Ye Lin classmate, I even threatened to endanger his life …"
"You can't say that. Wasn't it because of you that I was saved from the mountains?"
Xiao Qin, who gradually stopped crying, shook her head and said dejectedly: "That can only be considered as atonement. Ever since I became Ye Lin classmate's girlfriend, I've been worrying about personal gains and losses and I've almost lost my rationality …"
I was about to interrupt when Xiao Qin continued: "Although I was still hoping that Ye Lin classmate would make me stay when I suggested for him to expel me, but … Ye Lin classmate didn't hesitate and expel me … that's fine, it saves me from having any unrealistic hopes …"
"No." I said decisively, "There was a special reason why I demoted you back to childhood friend."
"Huh?" Xiao Qin widened her eyes, "What special reason?"
"It's, it's …" I hesitated. At the time, I had just found out I was suffering from a viral heart disease and thought I wouldn't have long to live. So, I thought if Xiao Qin didn't have the identity of my girlfriend, it would give her one less reason to commit suicide for me. If I didn't plan on revealing the viral heart disease, then I couldn't tell Xiao Qin what I was thinking at the time.
"Anyway … I didn't demote you back to childhood friend because I hated you." I said loudly, "I just felt I was too rash last time. Let's just start getting along as childhood friends and everything will come naturally. "
Now that I think about it, the reason I agreed to let Xiao Qin be my girlfriend wasn't simple. At the time, I was planning to bully Xiao Qin as her boyfriend until she couldn't take it anymore and ran away.
For a long time, Xiao Qin was my absolute secret girlfriend. Even if it was exposed in front of He Ling and the others, it was only occasionally. Most of the time, Xiao Qin had to hide her identity in front of everyone.
The reason why Xiao Qin accepted Winnie as her best friend so quickly was because Winnie found out that Xiao Qin and I were dating at the amusement park. Then, as an insider, Xiao Qin had someone she could share our 'relationship' with.
But to get to the bottom of it, Xiao Qin's girlfriend identity isn't complete. Just like the pen name 'Teacher Celery', there's a lot of fake information. Instead of keeping this incomplete identity, it's better to completely abandon it and start all over again. She'll find a normal, complete girlfriend identity.
Actually, although it wasn't explicitly stated, Xiao Qin's current situation was actually a downgrade. Because her previous identity as his girlfriend wasn't real, it was also mixed with her resentment towards the Little Tyrant's "arch-enemy". The current Xiao Qin could be said to not have been downgraded, but from "arch-enemy" to "childhood sweetheart", from "Evil Demon King scarier than Godzilla" to "childhood sweetheart".
Damn, what kind of shitty game and setting is this! How can a demon king become a childhood friend! There must be a mistake in the order of the upgrade!
Demon King Piccolo: "Hello, I was a demon king for a while, but now I've joined the righteous team and became your childhood friend. Please take care of me!"
Who are you childhood sweethearts with?! I don't want a childhood friend who can lay eggs from his mouth!
Majin Buu: "Hello, I don't know why, but some people always say that I'm the Great Demon King, but I don't do things that people hate anymore. My current profession is your childhood sweetheart, please accept this chocolate!"
Who wants to eat your chocolate! Your chocolate must be a human! You cannibal! Don't come near me! I don't want to be turned into something to eat!
"Hello, my name is Bin Laden. Americans call me the Terror Demon King. Ever since I was killed by the US military …"
Get lost! Who wants a childhood sweetheart with a face full of beard like you! Just lie at the bottom of the sea and play hide and seek with Godzilla who also lives in the trenches!
"I'm already satisfied that you don't hate me." Xiao Qin said lightly, "As for why my mom asked me to eat dinner at your house, I think it would cause you trouble. If you feel troubled, I'll tell my mom to never mention it again …"
"It's not troublesome! It's not troublesome at all! "I quickly said," As long as you don't mind my family's cooking, you're welcome to eat at my house at any time! Also, you might have to study every day after you enter the third year of middle school. Your house is far away and Auntie Ren is busy with work. If you come to my house for dinner and then take the subway back, wouldn't you not be hungry on the way home? "
After hearing my words, Xiao Qin's eyes naturally showed a look of anticipation, but it quickly dimmed.
"That's good, I can also help you cook, but … it would be awkward if I bumped into your real girlfriend …"
"Huh?" I paused, "Who's my real girlfriend?"
Xiao Qin bit her lips, "It should be the class leader, Shu Sha. Although I've already stopped plotting with Zhuang Ni after I almost caused Ye Lin classmate to die, she still sent me a text saying that Ye Lin classmate and the class leader's relationship has gotten closer … "
Wow! On the surface, Zhuang Ni apologized to me and the class leader, but she's still plotting against me! Is she trying to tell Xiao Qin that I'm philandering in hopes of using her as a knife?!
Did she not slap me enough! Or did she not choke me hard enough! If you continue to court death, I'll choke you until you lose control of your bladder next time!
However, Zhuang Ni's instigation did not have any effect on Xiao Qin, who had already returned to being a childhood friend.
Xiao Qin said as if she had lost something: "The class leader is prettier than me, kinder than me, better grades than me, taller than me, and even … even her breasts are bigger than mine. It's natural for Ye Lin classmate to like her more. Sometimes when I see you two walking in front of me, I feel like you two are a good match … "
Hey! It's only the back that looks a good match! Because the height difference isn't that big … as long as you look at them from the front, there's a sense of incongruity between a police officer and a murderer! Is the police holding the murderer, or is the murderer holding the police hostage!
Xiao Qin paused for a bit and continued: "Two days ago, I heard an old song by Liu Ruoying on the radio, 'I Love You So Much'. It's about a girl wishing her sweetheart a perfect girlfriend. I feel like since we're only childhood friends, even if Ye Lin classmate and the class leader are in a relationship, I should still wish you well as a good friend …"
Xiao Qin said the above calmly. I feel like I would feel a bit better if she cried and complained that I abandoned her.
Because I wasn't sure if my viral heart disease could be cured, or if the negotiations between Ren Hongde and Ai ShuQiao could proceed smoothly, or if Ai Mi could control her own fate, or even if my dad could successfully propose to Auntie Ren … I was troubled with my own feelings.
Of course, if the class leader didn't delete the confession text, then we might already be in a relationship. But since she deleted it, it means her confession was a spur of the moment decision. Even if she became my girlfriend now, it would still be as irresponsible as agreeing to be Xiao Qin's girlfriend.
From Zhuang Ni's point of view, the class leader and I did get closer. But from my point of view, it was only because my heart condition was exposed, so I received extra care from the class leader. Since my brother was spending less and less time at home, she used her maternal instincts on me, a sick person.
I jokingly asked the class leader to call me hubby, proposed to touch the class leader's thigh, and then used her as a lap pillow. To a certain extent, it was all a prank to get back at the class leader for deleting the text.
I'm also heartless enough. The class leader put in a lot of effort when she organized the rescue, and after she found out I had a heart disease, she took care of me meticulously. She really doesn't owe me anything. Although it's true that I scratched my head and felt depressed for a long time after she deleted the message.
My mood was ruined by Zhuang Ni in the morning, so I had to get it back on the class leader. After careful reflection, I was really despicable. If I had to touch someone's thigh, I should have touched Zhuang Ni's thigh.
But since Zhuang Ni had a rash on her legs because she wore stockings, wouldn't she be even more allergic if a man touched her legs?
So Zhuang Ni insisted on wearing stockings not because her legs were allergic to sunlight, but because she was allergic to men's hands.
Did you get molested by men on the bus in elementary school? You can't hate men since you were born.
I don't know if the allergy is physiological or psychological, but if your legs are allergic to men, you probably won't be able to have an intimate relationship with a man. You have to walk the path of a lesbian even if you don't want to.
But you don't have to be too depressed. If you can't find a man to satisfy you, you can always ask our store for help. Our store has a lot of tools that adult women use to comfort themselves.
I just hope you don't have an allergy to rubber …
As for Xiao Qin, I don't think she needs to follow Liu Ruoying's lyrics and wish me to fly in a happier direction. The class leader was accommodating me because she was born to sympathize with the weak, and she was also apologetic for deleting the text.
The relationship between me and the class leader is still uncertain, just like how I don't know where I will go in the future.
Also, I have evidence on hand that can definitely prove that Xiao Qin has an important position in my heart.
That is, the suicide note I wrote on my phone after I fell into the bear trap and lost all hope.
Because I felt like I could die at any time, I felt like the suicide note still had value, so I didn't delete it from my phone.
Thus, it was in the notepad app on my phone with my dad's birthday as the password. If I took it out and let Xiao Qin have a look, it would definitely dispel her uneasiness.
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