Qin Yang had been so busy recently that he knew nothing about He Jin's thoughts and plans. He thought that once He Jin had no classes, he would go back to his previous company for an internship or stay at home to write his thesis.
That night, he returned home at almost nine o 'clock. He hadn't eaten yet. He pushed open the door with a hungry stomach and smelled the aroma of food. He Jin had personally cooked for him!
After living together for half a year, even if He Jin was a novice in the kitchen, he often watched Qin Yang cook and learned to imitate him. Braised pork, poached eggs, moss mushroom soup … Looking at the table full of dishes that didn't look very good but were personally cooked by his sweetheart, Qin Yang was extremely touched!
After wolfing down the food, he rubbed his stomach and collapsed on the sofa. Seeing He Jin take the initiative to clear the dishes, he suddenly said, "Honey, you've been treating me better and better."
He Jin stiffened and almost dropped a plate. "What do you mean?" He pretended not to know.
Qin Yang rested his head on the sofa and looked at He Jin's back like a fool. He asked sweetly, "You're so good to me. What if you spoil me?" Although he asked this, Qin Yang guessed that it was because he was famous. He Jin realized how good he was and cherished him even more.
"It's just a meal." He Jin put the plate on the shelf and turned to take out a can of yogurt from the fridge. He gave it to Qin Yang. He didn't dare to look into Qin Yang's eyes. There was too much love in them. He was afraid that if he looked, he wouldn't be able to leave.
Qin Yang took the opportunity to lie down on He Jin's thigh and acted coquettishly. "Feed me."
He Jin: "…"
After returning to the bedroom and turning off the lights, He Jin whispered into Qin Yang's ear, "Do you want to do it?" Qin Yang's low and gentle voice was shy and seductive. No matter how tired Qin Yang was, he couldn't resist He Jin's request. He immediately turned into a beast and pounced on his lover. That night, He Jin was more gentle and cooperative than last time. The two of them were entangled as if there was no tomorrow.
The next morning, Qin Yang didn't have work. He applied for a break from school because he didn't need to go to school. Qin Yang was still lazy and refused to get up after he and He Jin did it until midnight last night.
He had a habit of sleeping late. If there was nothing else, he might even sleep until lunchtime.
In a daze, Qin Yang wanted to hug He Jin, but when he reached out to touch, there was no one beside him. He Jin had already woken up. Qin Yang felt a little lonely. He closed his eyes and called out, "Wifey," but no one answered.
Qin Yang narrowed his eyes and opened his wristband. He sent He Jin a message: "Did you go to class?"
After waiting for a long time for no reply, Qin Yang wrapped himself in the blanket and stayed in bed for a while. Then, he sat up with sleepy eyes, got out of bed, and put on his slippers to go to the bathroom. The bathroom was outside the bedroom, and he had to go through the living room. Qin Yang saw the breakfast He Jin had bought for him on the coffee table. There was also a folded piece of paper … Is it a note?
Qin Yang wasn't fully awake yet. He only sobered up after going to the bathroom. He came out to look at the breakfast and note on the coffee table.
He Jin bought an egg burrito for him. He added ham and crackers, which Qin Yang liked, and a lot of sweet sauce. Qin Yang took it to the microwave and adjusted it for 45 seconds. At the same time, he suspiciously opened the piece of paper with "To Qin Yang" written on it.
When he saw the first two lines, Qin Yang's eyes suddenly widened. His fingers trembled as he came to his senses.
Qin Yang:
I really didn't dare to mention this to you in person, so I could only write to you.
I'm sorry. Let's break up.
…
It was He Jin's handwriting.
Qin Yang didn't even dare to look down. He directly dialed He Jin's number. It rang seven or eight times before he picked up.
"Where are you?" Qin Yang panted heavily. The background noise on the other end of the line was a little noisy, and the signal was very poor. "He Jin, where are you?"
He Jin got up and walked to the end of the carriage before softly calling Qin Yang's name. "Did you see my letter?"
"I didn't!" Qin Yang turned on the video, and the projection was dark. He Jin didn't turn on the video, so Qin Yang couldn't see his face. However, he heard the unique voice in the carriage and asked nervously, "Are you on the train? Where are you going? Why did you break up? "
He Jin: "I wrote the reason in that letter."
Qin Yang gripped the piece of paper tightly and tore it in front of He Jin. He didn't know if He Jin could see it, so he threw the shredded paper and said angrily, "I want you to tell me yourself why!"
He Jin: "…"
Qin Yang: "Or did your parents put pressure on you? You said you wouldn't break up with me because of them … Are you joking with me? He Jin! You're scaring me, right? Answer me! "
Seeing the other party's sorrowful and desperate expression, He Jin felt his entire heart wrench.
Qin Yang hurriedly asked, "Is it because I signed with an entertainment company that gave you pressure? Is someone causing trouble for you? If you don't like it, I'll immediately terminate the contract with them! "
"No, Qin Yang, it has nothing to do with you. You don't have to change anything for me." He Jin choked and shook his head desperately. "It's because of me. This path is too difficult for me. Even without that pressure, we can't be together for the rest of our lives, much less walk openly under the sun … Qin Yang, while you can still turn back, break up."
"I don't want to!" Qin Yang frantically waved his wristband and begged, "He Jin, don't break up. I'm begging you. I'll go to the train station now and buy the fastest high-speed train to City Q. Wait for me. I want to see you, I want to see you …"
He Jin immediately stopped him. "Qin Yang, I've already made up my mind. Be more mature. Don't do anything impulsive, and don't look for me … You've become so outstanding now. Don't cling to me anymore. You'll fall in love with someone better than me, but that person won't be me … I'm not worthy."
He Jin tried hard not to let his voice tremble. After saying this, he ended the call and turned off his wristband.
His body still seemed to have the lingering warmth of Qin Yang from last night. His shoulders trembled, and he could no longer stand. He slowly squatted down and hugged his body. His heart felt like it was about to shatter.
He persuaded himself over and over again in his heart. He Jin, you've indulged yourself. You've been crazy. You've gotten drunk, stayed up late, played tennis, skipped classes, went skiing, and had an unforgettable relationship … You've experienced all those things you wanted to do. You have no regrets. It's time to return to the "right" path and shoulder the responsibilities that belong to you.
Qin Yang couldn't get through to He Jin's number. He kicked the coffee table, threw the cushion, and punched the wall with his fist. Finally, he sat on the floor and tried his best to reflect on what he had done wrong. Why did He Jin have to leave him again? He had done everything he could and was working hard to become stronger. Everything was going smoothly. He Jin's figure seemed to still be in front of him when he cleaned up the dishes last night. But today, he was the only one left in this little nest. He had been abandoned again …
Forcing himself to calm down, Qin Yang picked up the pieces of paper that were floating everywhere. With trembling hands, he pieced them together. Some of them crawled under the sofa and into the crevices of the table, but he couldn't find them. All that was left was an incomplete letter.
"Qin Yang, I'm sorry …"
"Two months ago, my father came to me and told me that my mother was sick. She was suffering from severe depression. I went back to see her. Her mental condition wasn't very good, and her mind wasn't clear. I originally wanted to fight for the freedom to be with you, but she didn't even agree to let me stay in City A to work. When I mentioned it, she seemed to have suffered a huge blow. So, there was no way for me to be with you …"
"When my father found out that I was with you, he slapped me. This was the first time he had slapped me since I was young. He was very disappointed in me. I'm not complaining to you. I just want to tell you that it's too difficult for us to be together …"
"She only gave birth to me when she was 39 years old. When she was 44 years old, my brother passed away. I'm their only son now and their only spiritual sustenance … They're already in their sixties. If I continue to be willful, it will only worsen my mother's condition and increase the pressure on my father. So, forgive me. I can't be so selfish and only pursue my own happiness."
Qin Yang clenched his fists and continued reading with teary eyes …
"I might listen to them and find a stable job in my hometown. Then, I might get married … But I don't know if I have the ability to fall in love with a woman, because the mark you left in my heart is too deep …"
"I don't agree. He Jin, I don't agree. You're mine. I won't allow you to get married!"
"Qin Yang, your father once asked me not to hurt you. I broke my promise. I'm really sorry. I can't hurt my parents, so I can only choose to hurt you … Sometimes, I really envy you. You're full of courage and confidence. You're full of sunshine. I'm very happy to be with you … I'm too jealous of you, so I left. I want you to know that the world doesn't revolve around you … Am I very despicable? Yes, I also think that I'm too bad. I feel inferior and weak, so don't like me anymore. "
"I curse myself to use a lifetime of pain to atone for the sin of hurting you. I also wish that you will meet someone a hundred, a thousand times better than me. I hope that person won't leave you again and again like I did. I hope that he will always be by your side, love you, protect you, and cherish you."
"I don't deserve to be liked by you, Ah Jin."
"Idiot … Idiot He Jin …" Qin Yang held the pile of shredded paper as tears rushed out of his eyes. He was like a lost child who couldn't hold back his fear and wailed loudly …
After crying for an unknown period of time, Qin Yang felt that a part of his body was broken. He stood up and looked around. He found that all of He Jin's things were still there, except for his notebook and tennis racket. The books on the writing desk, the game helmet, and the clothes in the wardrobe were all there … These things gave Qin Yang the illusion that He Jin hadn't left him. It was as if that person had just casually left the door and would return soon. Even if he came back with a cold aura and scolded him for being "lazy," it was like the sound of nature.
As if escaping from reality, Qin Yang lay back on the bed and wrapped himself in the blanket. He slept the entire afternoon in a daze and only woke up in the evening. He hoped that it was just a nightmare, but the moment he opened his eyes, his brain was stimulated by the fact that they had broken up. The room was silent. Qin Yang hugged his head and moaned in pain.
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