149. Waiting for You for a Lifetime.
He Jin's eyes widened as tears streamed down his face. Qin Yang's words made his scalp go numb … Had he said such things to Qin Yang's face? Had he said it while he was drunk?
Qin Yang raised his hand again and threatened fiercely, "Look at me and swear to the heavens. Swear on your parents! Say that you don't want me anymore! Say that you have nothing to do with me! Then I, Qin Yang, will never provoke you again! Say it! "
How could He Jin say it? He shook his head unconsciously. His psychological defenses had collapsed. The mask he had worn for three years was broken to the point that it could no longer cover his crying face.
Qin Yang stared at He Jin's crying face. He had shed his usual cold and forbearing appearance, no longer caring about his face and pride. It was so real and vivid that it made people want to love him.
He hugged him tightly in his arms, and his eyes welled up with tears.
To people, three years was like a blink of an eye. To them, it was like a lifetime — a lifetime of loneliness, suffering, and struggle. He Jin had never thought that the youthful love that he had thought was stimulated by hormones would be so unforgettable.
He had originally wanted to keep their love at its most beautiful moment, but the result of it coming to an abrupt end made both of them feel so much pain that they wished they were dead.
He Jin looked into Qin Yang's eyes with tears in his eyes and asked, "It's been three years. Why do you still …" Why do you still come to find me? Why do you still think of me?
Before He Jin could ask, Qin Yang interrupted him. He held He Jin's face and blurted out, "I've waited for eight years. Three years is nothing. If you don't turn back, I'll wait for you for a lifetime."
He Jin's heart stopped beating and his blood clotted. It took him a few seconds to recover his physiological functions. It was as if he wanted to make up for the missing beat and the short lack of oxygen in his body. His heart and blood beat quickly and flowed, washing away his senses.
He held Qin Yang with trembling hands and took the initiative to kiss this man with his tear-stained lips. Qin Yang was so excited that his whole body convulsed. He kissed back forcefully. At this moment, it was as if their feelings were connected.
He Jin let go of everything and hooked his arms around Qin Yang's neck, unwilling to be outdone. The salty taste spread between their lips and tongue. In the late autumn twilight, by the side of the car in the countryside, they were deeply entangled. Choked against his lips.
It wasn't until they couldn't catch their breath that their lips separated. Taking advantage of this gap, He Jin sobbed and apologized, "I'm sorry, Qin Yang. I'm sorry …"
"I don't want 'sorry'! I want you! "Qin Yang opened the car door with red eyes and pushed He Jin in. Then, he jumped in.
… Here is the dividing line representing purity _ _ …
The temperature of their bodies slowly receded, but the two of them were still hugging each other, unwilling to part.
Qin Yang rubbed his face with his lips, gently licking his red and swollen eyelids like a small animal. There was no longer the scent of tears on them, but Qin Yang seemed to not kiss enough. He kept leaving his own scent on them.
He Jin closed his eyes, hugged his back, and gently stroked him. The two of them were intimately intimate, and the ambiguous atmosphere filled the carriage, fermenting to the extreme, turning into sugar, condensing into wine, and intoxicating the nerves.
"Fool …" In the end, He Jin could not help but speak first. His voice was hoarse from crying, and he sounded like a spoiled child. He touched the back of Qin Yang's head and asked softly, "Why were you so foolish …"
"How am I foolish?" Qin Yang's voice also became lazy. It was no longer as fierce as before, and his voice was full of warmth and magnetism.
He Jin felt as if electricity had passed through his body, and his entire body went numb. He suddenly realized that he seemed to have fallen in love with Qin Yang when he heard his voice four years ago …
After eight years, when he logged into the game again, he heard that person call him Ah Jin gently and ambiguously through his earpiece.
Perhaps, from that moment on, he had already fallen.
He was afraid that the other party would be disgusted after knowing that he was a boy, so he carefully hid it, worrying about personal gains and losses. However, he could not resist the other party's attraction, so he carefully extended his antennae and slowly approached …
He Jin hugged Qin Yang, who was pressing down on him. He did not know what else to say. In the face of such a fool who was willing to wait for him for a lifetime, the power of words was too weak. He could only use the rest of his life to promise that he would never leave Qin Yang.
Seeing that He Jin did not respond, Qin Yang raised his head and asked, "Have we reconciled?" In front of his fans and the public, he was such a cold, confident, and high-spirited person, but He Jin saw vulnerability and unease in his eyes.
"Mhm." He Jin raised his neck and took the initiative to kiss him. No one understood the feeling of regaining something that was lost better than them. Apart from joy, there was also fear. He held onto him tightly, afraid that he would lose him again, unwilling to separate even an inch. "… I love you."
At night, He Jin glanced at his wristband. At 9: 17 pm, he got out of the car.
Qin Yang sat in the car and looked at him. He recalled He Jin's sudden confession just now. Happiness came too quickly, and it felt unreal …
He raised his head and looked at one of the tube-shaped apartments. He had seen the information that Little Zhou had investigated and knew that one of the windows was He Jin's home. It was where He Jin had lived for more than 20 years, and it was also the place that restricted his freedom.
The pitch-black entrance downstairs was like the mouth of a monster. Seeing that He Jin's thin back was about to be swallowed by the shadow, Qin Yang jumped out of the car anxiously and shouted in panic, "He Jin!"
He Jin stopped and turned around. He glanced at Qin Yang before turning back. "What's wrong?"
Qin Yang looked at him and said awkwardly, "Do you want me to go up with you?"
He Jin smiled. There were still traces of crying on his face, but his smile was calm and composed. "Reach out your hand," he said to Qin Yang.
Qin Yang reached out his hand inexplicably, only to see He Jin take out his wallet, identification, and wristband and place them in his hand. Then he looked up and said, "Wait for me here."
Qin Yang: "…"
He Jin walked back steadily. There was love in his heart, and his entire body was filled with courage. This time, it was not for himself but for Qin Yang. He wanted to fight for it again.
Qin Yang looked up and counted the time. It was 9: 30 pm. He stuffed He Jin's things into his trouser pocket, reached out for his cigarette box, and lit it with a trembling hand.
In the days without He Jin, Qin Yang developed the habit of smoking when he was anxious. He was very afraid that He Jin would leave again and not return. He was afraid that He Jin would come down like a defeated rooster and say that his parents didn't agree, so please leave.
Qin Yang knew that He Jin would do such a thing. He was such a ruthless person.
At 9: 45 pm, there were already two cigarette butts at Qin Yang's feet. He seemed to hear someone shouting upstairs. It was hysterical and there was also crying, but he couldn't tell which floor it was.
At 9: 55 pm, the crying and screaming stopped. Qin Yang was so anxious that he spun around on the spot.
At 10: 15 pm, an hour had passed. There were five cigarette butts on the ground. Qin Yang gripped the cigarette box tightly and propped his hand against the car wall. He used his forehead to gently knock on the car window.
At 10: 30 pm, there was finally a sound behind him. Qin Yang immediately turned around and saw He Jin walk out of the shadows. His gaze swayed as he anxiously locked onto his face.
He smiled and walked over quickly. He ran and rushed over as if he had grown wings behind him. He carried the wind, the hope of flying, and freedom.
Qin Yang's uneasiness slowly dissipated, and he also obtained a new life.
Eight years of fantasy-like waiting and three years of torture. Finally, this time, he wasn't left alone.
"Why did you have that expression just now?" He Jin couldn't breathe from the hug. He gently pushed him away and the two separated a little. He Jin looked at Qin Yang's face, and Qin Yang also looked at him.
"Did she hit you?" Qin Yang gently touched He Jin's swollen cheek, feeling his heart ache.
"It's fine. It doesn't hurt." He Jin carelessly brushed his cheek. "It's cold outside. Get in the car. I'll go back to the hotel with you."
"They're willing to let you go?" Qin Yang asked anxiously.
He Jin fastened his seatbelt. How could they let him go? He was also puzzled. At the last moment, it was his father who pulled his mother and said to him with tears in his eyes, "Hurry up and go. Dad is at home." He really didn't expect this.
"What did you tell them?" Qin Yang put down the brake and the car slowly started.
He Jin propped his elbow on the car window and supported the swollen half of his face. He slowly said, "I told my mother that I'm different from my brother. Even if I'm with you, I won't do such a thing, and I won't ignore them."
Qin Yang glanced at him. "I heard someone shouting just now. I thought you were arguing fiercely."
He Jin was stunned. "We weren't arguing."
Actually, the situation was much better than He Jin had imagined. He thought that it would be very difficult to take that step. He was extremely afraid that his mother would go crazy, but his mother only slapped him and cried the entire time. He was the one speaking the entire time. After he explained his reasons and thoughts, he pleaded for his parents' support and understanding. His mother stubbornly refused, and only then did his father step forward.
Although his father promised not to tell his mother about what happened three years ago, He Jin always felt that his parents were mentally prepared to face him coming out of the closet.
"Maybe you heard wrong." He Jin looked at Qin Yang, his eyes sparkling. He was very happy to see Qin Yang again.
The two returned to the hotel and took a shower together. They rolled on the bed and kissed for a while, but they couldn't move. They could only hug each other and talk through the night.
He Jin asked Qin Yang about his situation in the past three years. He had never dared to find out, but now, he couldn't wait to know every little thing related to Qin Yang.
"I heard that you have a girlfriend." He Jin remembered the thing that bothered him the most in the past three years and pinched Qin Yang's hand.
"Who did you hear that from?" Qin Yang pinched back unhappily.
"Monkey said it. He said that he saw you bring a beautiful girl to school, probably before I went back to school for my thesis …" He Jin didn't even know that his tone was full of jealousy.
"I haven't even gotten back at you for going on 18 blind dates! You still have the nerve to be jealous of me? "Qin Yang said anxiously.
"You … You investigated me!" He Jin's eyes widened in shock.
"I just found out yesterday." Qin Yang snorted. "If you hadn't begged me not to leave you that night, I wouldn't have bothered to investigate you."
"…"
"Aren't you the same? There's been so much news related to me in the past three years. Even when I go online or watch TV, it's all about me. You actually asked me how I'm doing? I've already done it so bluntly for you to see."
He Jin's heart warmed. Could it be that one of Qin Yang's reasons for staying in the entertainment industry was so that he could pay attention to him?
He kissed Qin Yang and admitted defeat guiltily. "It's my fault … I don't dare to look at your news. I'm afraid that if I do, I'll miss you, my heart will ache, and I'll feel uncomfortable." It was as if he could suddenly be very honest and didn't need to hide himself in front of his lover anymore. He pretended to be strong.
It was like a crab cutting open its hard shell and showing its softest side to the person it loved without reservation.
It was rare for Qin Yang to see this side of He Jin, so he wasn't angry anymore. He understood the feeling He Jin was talking about. He was also resisting contacting the other party. He was afraid that once they met again, he wouldn't be able to control himself and would stick to him like last time.
"The girl Hou Dongyan saw was the assistant the company found for me. Her name is Li Xiaowen. She's still with me and knows about my relationship with you. Don't be jealous anymore." The two of them rubbed their necks against each other and kissed. The sourness in the air was quickly covered by the sweetness.
"What … do you plan to do in the future?" He Jin finally asked the biggest problem that the two of them were about to face.
Since they had reconciled, they had to be together. But now, one of them was mainly stationed in City A, and the other was working in City Q. Being apart for an hour was like killing them, let alone being separated from two places.
Qin Yang frowned uncomfortably. "I'm flying to City A tomorrow to do a show.
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