After a long while, Lu Jinnan plucked up his courage and said to Bai Xiaonian, "Xiaonian, we'll have another child. Our baby … will come back to us!"
Bai Xiaonian's eyes welled up. She didn't reply, holding her phone in her hand.
Not hearing Bai Xiaonian's reply, Lu Jinnan thought that Bai Xiaonian still hadn't gotten over the hurdle in her heart. His Adam's apple bobbed as he said in a low voice, "Rest well. I'll be next door. Call me if you need anything …"
Still not getting a response, Lu Jinnan said, "Let's go shopping tomorrow. I'll accompany you to pick out the clothes and daily necessities you like …"
Bai Xiaonian pushed open the window and stood by the window. "Lu Jinnan, don't you understand what I mean? I want a divorce … Why are you talking to me about being husband and wife?"
Hearing this, Lu Jinnan opened the door and stood by the door to look at Bai Xiaonian. Sensing the cold breeze, he walked to the window …
Bai Xiaonian didn't look too good. She looked especially weak and pale. The pajamas bought according to Bai Xiaonian's previous size … looked very loose on her!
Now that he was up close to Bai Xiaonian, Lu Jinnan realized that she looked much thinner than before.
The cold breeze blew in from the window and swept up Bai Xiaonian's long hair. Her sunken collarbone and slightly large V-neckline could be seen.
Lu Jinnan's eyes welled up. The child's departure … must have tormented Bai Xiaonian for a long time!
He closed the window for Bai Xiaonian. "I understand what you mean, so I'm trying my best to show you my sincerity. I want you to see how much I love you and how I want to be with you forever!"
Bai Xiaonian didn't lose her temper from the beginning to the end. This was what Lu Jinnan was most afraid of!
Even if Bai Xiaonian gave him two slaps, he could take it. He was afraid that Bai Xiaonian would be so indifferent, as if he was already someone unimportant.
Lu Jinnan panicked because of Bai Xiaonian's expressionless and exquisite face. He reached out and hugged Bai Xiaonian. "Don't be afraid, Xiaonian. I don't want to trap you here. You're free … I just want to stay by your side! You see … I've also improved. I didn't force you to sleep in the same room. I stayed next door and was willing to wait until you were ready to accept me again! "
When Lu Jinnan said this, he was like a child who had done something wrong, carefully showing Bai Xiaonian that he knew he had changed, hoping that she would forgive him.
"Xiaonian, I know there's something about me that you're not satisfied with. You can tell me, and I'll change, okay?" Lu Jinnan's voice was very deep.
"But Lu Jinnan …" Bai Xiaonian's voice was especially low. "You don't know how much I endured to get over the pain. To me, as long as I see you, I'll be reminded of the past, and the scars that healed with great difficulty will be reopened again!"
Lu Jinnan hugged Bai Xiaonian and didn't say anything.
"I still have work tomorrow. I should rest …" Bai Xiaonian said.
After attending Yuan Yuan's one-month celebration, Bai Xiaonian had been flying back and forth in the United States. Today, Bai Xiaonian completely ended this life for her father. She had handed over her work in the United States and officially returned to China.
"Alright!" Lu Jinnan clung to the softness in his arms, but he couldn't disobey Bai Xiaonian. He carried Bai Xiaonian onto the bed and pulled the blanket over her.
"Lu Jinnan, the child has been gone for many months. I'm not so weak that I need someone to carry me around …" Bai Xiaonian's smile was very cold.
"You know what to say will hurt me, don't you?" Lu Jinnan propped his hands on the side of Bai Xiaonian's pillow, smiling but also sad.
Bai Xiaonian couldn't deny it.
"Then, does it make you feel better to hurt me like this?" Lu Jinnan asked.
"A little!"
"Mm!" Lu Jinnan nodded. "If you say that you want to separate from me, it will hurt me even more. If you want to leave my side, all of these will hurt me. If there's more, I'll tell you. You can use them to hurt me …"
Bai Xiaonian looked at Lu Jinnan for a moment, then chuckled. "You're planning to use this method to soften my heart."
"If I can make you forgive me, that's even better …"
Lu Jinnan spoke his mind.
Seeing that Bai Xiaonian had closed her eyes, Lu Jinnan leaned over, wanting to kiss Bai Xiaonian's forehead. However, Bai Xiaonian turned around and avoided him.
The kiss … eventually landed on Bai Xiaonian's hair.
Lu Jinnan could sense that Bai Xiaonian … had finally changed.
She was no longer that flamboyant and hot-tempered girl from back then. She had become cold, calm, and … stronger than Lu Jinnan had imagined. She could even calmly tell him about her past pain.
That volcanic girl from back then was covered in ice and snow, but he knew … Bai Xiaonian still had a fire in her heart.
Ever since Bai Xiaonian lost her child, she had been suffering from insomnia for a long time. She couldn't sleep at all without sleeping pills.
Today, Bai Xiaonian was suddenly brought over by Lu Jinnan, so she didn't bring any pills with her. Even if she closed her eyes and pretended to fall asleep, she was destined to be sleepless tonight.
Sensing that Lu Jinnan had gotten up from the side of the bed and was quietly walking out, Bai Xiaonian only opened her eyes when she heard the door close.
That night was especially long. Bai Xiaonian lay in bed until her bones ached. She got up and pressed her throbbing temples to turn on the lights. From the side of the bed to the coffee table, she heard Lu Jinnan's voice through the door. "Why aren't you asleep yet?"
His voice was a little hoarse.
Auntie Dong had originally tidied up the room next to Bai Xiaonian's for Lu Jinnan, but Lu Jinnan asked her to tidy up the room opposite!
He couldn't sleep, so he sat on the sofa with the door open. He looked at the door that separated him from Bai Xiaonian and smoked an entire pack of cigarettes.
Later, he saw the light in Bai Xiaonian's room turn on!
He walked to the door and heard Bai Xiaonian's footsteps again, so he came over to ask.
Bai Xiaonian gripped the cup in her hand tightly and lowered her gaze to drink a few mouthfuls of cold water. "I didn't bring sleeping pills."
Lu Jinnan, who was standing at the door, clenched his fists. Bai Xiaonian's casual words made Lu Jinnan's heart ache.
Couldn't sleep without sleeping pills?
Fu Huai 'an had been like that in the past. Back then … Fu Huai' an had died in Iraq because of Jiang Ming 'an and Lu Xiangsi.
So … Bai Xiaonian, was it because she had lost their child?
"I'll go get it for you …" Lu Jinnan said in a hoarse voice. "I'll be back in 20 minutes!"
Lu Jinnan put on his home clothes and drove out.
Bai Xiaonian stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows and watched as Lu Jinnan walked out. She watched as Lu Jinnan's car lights turned on, then watched as he drove away.
Previously, Hong Jinyun had told Bai Xiaonian that Lu Jinnan appeared cold and heartless, but deep down, he was the softest man in the world.
It was true that Hong Jinyun had been captured and humiliated because of him! It was also true that she had been injected with drugs … but Hong Jinyun couldn't kick the habit herself, and Lu Jinnan blamed himself for it …
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