"Look, you can't do what I want, yet you're begging me to compromise!" Bai Xiaonian smiled at Lu Jinnan, but the smile didn't reach her eyes.
Seeing that Lu Jinnan was frowning and not saying anything, Bai Xiaonian's voice became even softer, as if she was reciting prose. "Why, Lu Jinnan? Why do I have to give in to you? You're the one who wants to be with me, not the other way around … Why do I have to give in to you? Why? "
Lu Jinnan's lips quivered.
Bai Xiaonian smiled at Lu Jinnan, still speaking in that gentle tone. "Lu Jinnan, why don't we do this first? If you don't give up on her, we'll talk about it after she's dead! "
Bai Xiaonian's words were very cruel. Seeing that Lu Jinnan wasn't saying anything, she reached out to pull open the car door.
"Xiaonian!" Lu Jinnan grabbed Bai Xiaonian's slender wrist. "Don't I know you? If I wait until Hong Jinyun dies before looking for you, I'll really lose you forever! You probably won't even want to see me! "
"Since you know me so well, don't you know that I won't compromise on this matter?" Bai Xiaonian's smile was too piercing. Her eyes were clearly red, but she still looked so nonchalant. "Lu Jinnan, it's not that I didn't give you a chance! You're the one who didn't want it! "
In the past, Bai Xiaonian didn't need to explain. As long as Lu Jinnan stayed away from Hong Jinyun, didn't see her, and even forgot about her, he would hide it in his heart and never let her know about it. He wouldn't openly bring Hong Jinyun up to discuss it with her!
Now … Bai Xiaonian wanted to stay away from Lu Jinnan.
"If I don't see Hong Jinyun from today onward, we can reconcile?" Lu Jinnan asked.
"Including Hong Jinyun's mother!" Bai Xiaonian said.
Lu Jinnan was silent for a moment, then nodded …
"You're right. I'm a selfish man. Between Hong Jinyun and you, I'll only choose you. But Xiaonian … if I really ignore Hong Jinyun, I'll feel guilty towards her for the rest of my life!"
"Lu Jinnan, do you want to hear the truth?" Bai Xiaonian gazed at Lu Jinnan and chuckled. "I'm a very jealous person. I can't accept you seeing her now, and I can't accept you hiding her in your heart after she dies …"
"Bai Xiaonian, listen to yourself. What kind of choice are you giving me? Do you think I can lose my memory like Yun Liuli?" Lu Jinnan looked at Bai Xiaonian and felt that she was unreasonable. He frowned and took out a cigarette from the glove compartment in the car. He took out a cigarette and held it between his fingers, saying in an unpleasant tone, "I asked you to look at Xiao Bei. Can you do it?"
Lu Jinnan then turned to look out the window, rolled down the window a little, and lit a cigarette.
"That's different, Lu Jinnan. It's not that I'm treating you differently. I don't have Lu Jinbei in my heart, but you have Hong Jinyun in your heart … and it's deeply engraved in your heart." Bai Xiaonian leaned against the back of the front passenger seat in a relaxed posture. She had no intention of getting out of the car.
The white smoke from Lu Jinnan's fingertips lingered in the car. It was so ethereal that it made one lose their focus.
Bai Xiaonian's throat rolled slightly. She reached out to take the cigarette from Lu Jinnan's fingertips and took a puff in an unpracticed manner. She didn't cough, so it was likely that this wasn't the first time.
When she rolled down the car window to light the cigarette ash, a few drops of rain fell from the back of her hand.
Lu Jinnan asked, "You … when did you start smoking?"
"When I miss you …"
It was clearly words of love, but Bai Xiaonian choked up as she said it, and there was a hint of a nasal sound in her voice.
Lu Jinnan felt as if something was clutching his heart.
"That day at the entrance of the condominium, the morning after you and Hong Jinyun met, she came to look for me …" Bai Xiaonian's beautiful eyes were calm. She took a puff of the cigarette and said, "Other than the part where you killed someone, I know everything about the two of you!"
Lu Jinnan didn't say a word …
"The two of you were childhood sweethearts who grew up together and went through life and death situations together. She took the bullet for you, and from then on, she couldn't bear children anymore. She said that you tried your best to give her the best you could. You told her that she was the only woman in this lifetime! She said that she was cruel to you because she hoped that you could push all the blame onto her. She was willing to go to jail, even if she had to pay with her life! Did she … tell you all of this? "
Lu Jinnan was stunned.
Bai Xiaonian had asked someone to check the records of the case. Back then, Hong Jinyun had indeed said that she was the one who killed Lu Jinnan. However, Lu Jinnan had later admitted to it. Her biological mother had forcefully arranged for her to be sent overseas, and she had completely lost contact with Lu Jinnan thereafter.
Therefore, what Bai Xiaonian was afraid of at that time … was their past passion and passion!
Even if Lu Jinnan had chosen her now, she couldn't guarantee that Lu Jinnan wouldn't leave a large part of his heart for Hong Jinyun after he found out about this.
Bai Xiaonian was an especially petty and greedy person!
If she loved someone, but that person couldn't give her his entire heart, she'd rather not have him!
"I've checked. What she said is true!" Bai Xiaonian took a deep puff of the cigarette, and the cigarette burned very quickly.
Lu Jinnan's palms were hurting. He reached out to take the cigarette from Bai Xiaonian's hand and tossed it out of the window, where it was drizzling. "Stop smoking!"
"How can Lu Jinnan's heart be divided between two women?" As Bai Xiaonian spoke, the white smoke seeping out from the corners of her lips blurred her tear-filled eyes. "Moreover, I don't want defective goods!"
Lu Jinnan raised his hand and tugged at his collar. "So, you've been avoiding me all this time because you're planning to let me and Hong Jinyun be together?"
Bai Xiaonian shook her head. "I'm letting myself go …"
Bai Xiaonian seemed to have thought of something. She lowered her head and chuckled, her nose red. "Let's just get it out in the open!"
Bai Xiaonian said the words that she had planned to keep in her heart forever.
"Lu Jinnan, on January 28th … you angrily slammed the door and left when you saw my colleague Motson coming out of the apartment! But Lu Jinnan … before that, I called you four times. When the fourth call went through, you didn't give me a chance to speak. You just said that Hong Jinyun's mother called you … saying that she had locked herself in her room and hadn't eaten or drunk anything for a day and night. On the way to Hong Jinyun's place, you apologized to me and hung up the call! "
Lu Jinnan remembered that because of Hong Jinyun, Bai Xiaonian hadn't bothered to see him for a few days, and her phone had been switched off. Therefore, Lu Jinnan was surprised and happy to receive Bai Xiaonian's call. However, Hong Jinyun's mother was crying uncontrollably in front of him.
"If it wasn't for the fact that I had no choice, I wouldn't have called you. I was in a daze from the fever … I didn't have any strength in my body, and I hadn't had a drop of water for a day and night. It wasn't easy for me to force myself to charge my phone despite my palpitations and weakness. When I called, you didn't even give me a chance to speak …"
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