I am Eero,
The Shura who only loves himself.
I am Eero, I am the Shura who only loves himself.
I understand the word "myself", and I understand the word "Shura", but what is "love"? Can it be eaten? Oh,
It can't be eaten.
...
Just kidding.
...
Can't I joke? When in Rome, do as the Romans do.
Konoha, this strange place, likes to joke so much.
What's the big deal. Besides, Naruto Uzumaki said that I can write anything in the diary. So what if I write it.
However,
I really want to tell him,
Writing a diary is really boring. If you don't write down what you can remember, you won't forget it for the rest of your life.
What's the point of writing down what you can't remember? Especially this diary with a lock. No matter how strong the latest combination lock is, it's still just a book.
A book that can be opened with a pull, this kind of unsafe thing... and if I understand correctly,
It's locked up so that no one will know. But since no one wants to know, no one will know if I don't write it down.
Anyway,
This morning, Naruto Uzumaki gave me this diary.
The moment I opened the title page, I saw his ugly, crooked handwriting. Happy birthday to my Eero.
I hesitated for a while, but in the end, I didn't tear the book up on the spot. Instead, I slapped the shreds back on his face, which was smiling more and more like an idiot. It's not that I want this book,
But that although I also have a room,
This is his home. As a person living under someone else's roof,
I'm like a hostage.
I'm not stupid enough to offend the head of the household who is standing next to his son and looking at him with a silly smile. His father is Naruto, Bo Fung Watergate of the Fourth Generations! You've heard of it! It's that golden flash! When you were still alive, you were already shouting everywhere. I can't afford to offend him. Can you afford to offend him...
Mom.
Actually, I don't have anything to say to you. You might not be willing to see what I write, but Naruto's son insisted — his father said that when he misses his mother, he should write in his diary so that his mother can hear it. Then, when he dreams, his mother will come to see him … That young master named Naruto Uzumaki! He was already 13 years old, yet he still believed in this kind of nonsense. Naruto was a good liar. How did he raise such a stupid son who dared to believe anything?
Hey, Mom.
Actually, it was already pretty good that Naruto remembered my birthday. Although I didn't want to tell him, I was still rather touched. However … I, Naruto, was indeed born on the 19th of January, but that was the day of the Land of the Wind calendar! As for the Konoha era, who knew how many months and days it would be? However, I wasn't prepared to let that careless math idiot learn how to count the days … After all, there wouldn't be any Land of the Wind calendar in the future.
Mom, did you know that his whimsical father, Naruto, announced to the world at the end of last year that starting from the 1st of January, Year 61 of Konoha, all contracts, documents, and reports of the Wind and Fire Economic Union would be unified into the Konoha era. What a tyrannical decision. Not willing? Then don't do business with the Fire Nation. After all, the Fire Nation is vast and has abundant resources. It's not a big deal to close the nation.
Economic Union. Mom, you must have never heard of an economic union. The Land of the Wind and the Fire Nation had been fighting for 100 years. In the end, in order to let everyone eat their fill, they stopped fighting. They really stopped fighting. The ruler of the Land of the Wind even wanted to marry his daughter to the Fire Nation. Maybe you don't understand, but the war really couldn't continue.
Forget it. Let's talk about Naruto. That kid said that he would celebrate my birthday every year. At this age, I rarely celebrate my birthday. But should I be happy?
I still can't bring myself to smile. Is it because mom …
Mom died on the day Eero was born, just like Naruto Uzumaki. Ah, no. His father said that his mom died because she wasn't taken good care of after she was injured … If Naruto said so, then so be it. But if … mom, if I told the whole truth to Naruto … Naruto, if Naruto was the same as me, and your birthday was the anniversary of my mom's death, would you be happy to celebrate your birthday?
Sorry, I said something bad. Of course, mom, I don't think you care about such a small thing. Actually, I don't really care … I'm a Shura who only loves myself. Although when I was young, I always thought that you loved me and I loved you … because Yakshamaru said so. But later, he changed his words. He said that you didn't love me, you hated me. I'm so sorry … because of me, you lost your life. The Kazekage lost his wife, Kankuro lost his mother, and Yakshamaru lost his sister … I'm so sorry … but why do I still hate you so much? I didn't do it willingly! It was you who gave birth to me! It was the Kazekage who made me into a weapon! It was Yakshamaru who raised me!
Do you still remember him? Yakshamaru, your younger brother, my uncle. He looked like you in the photo at home … Ah, no. I said something wrong again. That wasn't home. That house wasn't home. There should be a father, a mother, an older brother, and an older sister at home. But there was only me and Yakshamaru in that house. Later, even Yakshamaru disappeared.
You know, mom, I was six years old at that time. Only six years old.
What should a 6 year old be doing? Run around the streets with your friends and make trouble … at least, that's what Naruto Uzumaki said. At that time, he had just started school and met a group of good friends. They were training to become ninjas together. They played truant together, fought together, played pranks together, and stood in front of the classroom as punishment. Although I don't think a teacher would dare to teach a Naruto's son a lesson, Konoha is a strange place. If you see Naruto's son taking plates from the cafeteria or sweeping the streets, it's not strange.
Anyway, when I was six years old, I was alone.
Where did Yakshamaru go? He died. His whole body was covered in explosive charms, and there wasn't even a speck of dust left … He accepted an assassination mission from the Kazekage. A medical ninja accepted an assassination mission? That's hilarious. So, in order to complete the mission, he chose to die together with the target. But he died together with the target, and the target was unharmed. That's right, he came to kill the Sand's ultimate weapon, Ichibi's Force Of Human Column, me.
But I was unharmed. The reason is because of you, mother.
Yakshamaru said that the sand in the gourd behind me was you. I used to believe that my mother was still by my side. Even if everyone ran away when they saw me, at least my mother was still protecting me … Since my mother was still watching over me, I couldn't lose to the monster in my body. If that monster stole my body, where would my mother find me … But Yakshamaru died in front of me. If my mother's soul was in the sand, why did she only protect me? Why didn't she protect her beloved younger brother?
But that's not important now. I'm already 14 years old … Mother, it doesn't matter whether you love me or not. People have to rely on themselves to live! Even if you love me, what can you do? You're dead, you're already dead, and you can't come back. I'm not Naruto Uzumaki! How do you expect me to believe that I can talk to my mother by writing a diary?
Naruto, who likes to lie to children, always said that people have to look forward. I think he's right. I'm just 14 years old. I still have a future. Thanks to Naruto's sealing technique! Now I don't have to worry about Shukaku stealing my body! I finally felt like I had a future. Do you know this feeling? Mom … Do you know how good it feels to be able to sleep? Do you know how good it feels to walk down the street and forget to pay for something? Do you know how good it feels to be punched in the head when you make a mistake? Do you know how good it feels to be punched in the head? You don't know.
Moreover, I'm not a 6 year old kid anymore. I've lived with that old fox Naruto for more than half a year.
That's why I've learned to doubt and think. It's really suspicious. The Kazekage must have done it on purpose. He wanted to kill Yakshamaru, not me, Eero. Because there was no need to kill a weapon! No matter how bad the weapon is, no matter how dangerous it is, it's still better than facing a powerful enemy with bare hands … Recently, I've been thinking, was I too dependent on Yakshamaru when I was 6 years old? That's why the Kazekage was afraid that he couldn't control his own weapon.
Mother, apart from that, Yakshamaru might have died on purpose. I've always eaten the food he made … whether it was poison or something else … once I ate it, the sand wouldn't come out and stop me. That fool probably knew that it was because he accidentally took control of the sand's most important weapon. So even if he didn't die because he wanted to kill me, he would have been killed by some strange thing. Since he was going to die anyway, he might as well die in front of me … That's why, mother, I don't believe a single word Yakshamaru said. But it doesn't matter if you love me or not … mother. If you die, you won't come back! Even if you love me, what can you do?
I'm no longer in the Sand Hidden Village. I'm now in Konoha.
Mother, have you seen Konoha? Do you know how much I love Konoha's sunshine, blue sky, white clouds, and trees? As for the Sand Hidden Village, I don't want to go back. There's too much sand in the Land of the Wind, and the wind is too strong. However, I will eventually return to that loathsome place.
Mother, I admit that I've been taught by Golden Flash. Have I been brainwashed? I don't know. Anyway, I know that he wants to use me. I know that I've been used by Konoha, and I also know that I've been used by Kakashi. I don't even know who will use me in the future. I know! But so what? I'm a weapon. I've been a weapon since birth. I'm a Shura who only loves himself. I love myself. I just need to make sure that I'm living a good life.
Although Naruto Uzumaki always says that it feels good to be able to protect Konoha! Even if I become a Force Of Human Column … I don't feel good about it!
That Naruto Uzumaki is a fool. He became a fool because he was too happy! Mother, do you know? He's happy. I really want to kill him. He always says that we're both Force Of Human Column. Who's like him! I'm not like him. Even if we're both Force Of Human Column, it's still not the same … Does he know the pain of being a Force Of Human Column! He doesn't know! Even if he's a Force Of Human Column!
He's an idiot. He's an idiot who didn't even realize that he was drugged with sleeping pills! He doesn't know that his father helps him strengthen the seal on Nine Tails almost every month. He spends so much effort to make him not feel the pain of being a Force Of Human Column! Mother, do you know how to strengthen the seal? In fact, it's not complicated. Kakashi can also do it. The seal on my body was made by him … But do you know the difference between the seal made by Naruto and Kakashi? It's the same as tearing apart the soul of a human and a tailed beast. Kakashi doesn't care how Shukaku struggles in my body and how much pain I'm in. But Naruto will think about it. Naruto's father actually gives blood to Nine Tails in Naruto's body once a month. A large amount of blood from his enemy, Chakra, is used to feed Nine Tails to make his son feel better …
Mother, I'm jealous, really. Naruto said that everything seems complicated, there's a cause and effect behind it. We have to find the cause and effect to solve the problem. Yes, cause and effect … Mother, why do I have to risk my life to protect those guys who run away when they see me? Afraid of their own weapons? What a joke. If father, Kazekage, can be like Naruto's father.
…
If Naruto Uzumaki didn't get his father's protection, even if he was isolated and hated like me, but he was still willing to protect this Konoha … I think I can do it too … protect the Sand Hidden … But, can Naruto really do it?
Anyway, Naruto said that he believes in his son, unconditionally.
But mother, do you believe in me?
But it doesn't matter, I believe in myself. I'm an Asura who only loves himself, I believe that I can live a good life. Mother, I really believe, really, mother. This is my promise to myself … I want to live a good life, I will live a good life …
January 19, 61 Konoha.
There's a promise waiting …
The bright stars are shining, the golden sand has quietly returned to the gourd.
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