Lin Chu couldn't continue because the tears that she had been holding back flowed out. Her voice was choked and she tried her best not to cry. She couldn't be so embarrassing, but in the end, she couldn't hold it in.
The hot tears seeped into his shirt and became cold. They stuck to the skin on his chest, but they were terrifyingly hot.
Yan Beicheng's body froze. He pulled away and saw that her eyes were red and tears were falling. That wronged look smashed into his heart.
"I'm sorry," Yan Beicheng said hoarsely. Seeing her cry made his chest hurt.
He couldn't help but feel that he was still worried about something. She was right. He knew everything about her, so why didn't he tell her about his?
If it was him who wanted to know about her but she hesitated and refused to say, he would feel bad and couldn't help but think too much.
"Don't cry." Yan Beicheng panicked and didn't know how to coax her. She had never cried so badly in front of him before.
He held her shoulder helplessly and lowered his head subconsciously to suck away the tears on her face.
"Don't cry, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I'm sorry." Yan Beicheng hugged her and sucked her tears, apologizing.
Sometimes when she cried, the more he coaxed her, the more she cried. It was more like she was acting coquettishly.
Lin Chu shook her head and cried, "It's my fault. I know that you don't want to say it and it might make you feel bad, but I still forced you to say it. Yan Beicheng, I won't ask anymore. If you don't want to say it, then don't say it. When you are willing to say it, I will listen. If you don't want to, then I won't ask. Don't leave without saying a word like you did today. Even if you leave and come back to find me, you know that I don't know. I'm afraid, I thought that you were angry with me and didn't want me — "
Before she finished, her lips, which were still wet with salty tears, were blocked by him. He rolled the tears that flowed into her mouth into his mouth. The saltiness made him feel uncomfortable.
"I won't not want you, I will never." Yan Beicheng sucked on her lips and said hoarsely. His heart hurt from her crying.
At this moment, his heart felt like it was twisted together. He couldn't help but pull Lin Chu back into his arms, hugging him tightly and pressing on his heart. Only then did he feel a little more comfortable.
"It wasn't easy to find you and meet you. How could I not want you?" Yan Beicheng said. "I'm sorry, I was wrong. I won't do that again. Don't cry, I feel terrible. "
Lin Chu shook his head and sniffed. His tears unconsciously rubbed on his shirt.
She raised her head. The tears on her face had all been wiped off, leaving only a pair of bright red eyes like a rabbit.
She sniffed her red nose. "I know it's my bad temper, and I've made things difficult for you. I won't ask about it again, but we'll always quarrel about other things when we live together. If it's not about this, it'll be about something else. With my temperament, I'll recover in a day or two after losing my temper. If I do something wrong and you get angry, can you give me a day or two? You can argue with me, you can reason with me, but don't leave without saying a word like this time. If you feel so angry that you don't want to stay with me right now, and you want to leave, tell me, okay? Let me know where you're going, and I'll come back, okay? "
Yan Beicheng knew that he really scared her this time, and he hated himself for being impulsive this time. He hugged her tightly, not knowing how to calm her down.
"I promise you," Yan Beicheng said softly. "It's my fault this time. I'm sorry."
Lin Chu shook her head. "It's good that you're back."
Yan Beicheng lowered his head and kept kissing her hair, then he hugged her and sat on the bed.
He was afraid that she would be uncomfortable, so he put a pillow behind her so that she could lean comfortably. Looking at Lin Chu's red face from crying, he wanted to slap himself.
Back then, he told her that he wouldn't let her cry or be sad, but in the end, he went back on his words. He had been longing for the girl that he had finally managed to woo, the girl that he wanted to love and dote on, but he had made her sad time and time again.
"I didn't leave this morning because I was angry at you." Yan Beicheng sat opposite her, his tone gentle, but his expression serious. He paused and continued, "I just wanted to go out alone and think about how to tell you about my mother. I don't want to tell you. "
"If you don't want to tell me, then —"
Yan Beicheng held Lin Chu's hand and interrupted her. "It's not that I don't want to tell you, but that I don't have the face to say it. That's not something to be proud of. When I'm with you, I hope that in your eyes, everything about me is good. I don't want you to know anything shameful. "
"I don't think anything about you is shameful," Lin Chu frowned. "Just like my matters, the matters of the Lin family, and as an orphan, my status might be even lower than that of an ordinary person. I don't think I'm worthy of you, but you never think I'm shameful or troublesome. You treat all my troubles as your own. Why would I think your matters are shameful? "
Lin Chu also knew that this might be a man's self-esteem causing trouble. He hoped that in her eyes, everything about him was open and aboveboard, bright and beautiful. It was clearly not shameful in her eyes, but because he cared about her, it was infinitely magnified in his heart.
However, Lin Chu didn't say this. She just looked straight into his eyes, letting him know that she really thought so.
"Because of this concern, you went out early in the morning and smoked so much?" Lin Chu glared at him.
Such a natural reaction made Yan Beicheng unknowingly relax.
"Maybe you think it's stupid, but I really —" A self-deprecating smile appeared on Yan Beicheng's lips. "I've been mentally preparing myself this morning, telling myself that you won't look down on me because of this. I'm also thinking about how to tell you about this. No one has mentioned my mother's matter for many years. She … After so many years, I'm more used to calling her Ms. Jiang. "
"In the era when she and my father got married, there weren't many free love affairs. It was the elders of the family who liked each other, introduced each other, and got to know each other through blind dates. The Jiang family's foundation is in Ning City. Before she went on a blind date with my father, she once had a lover called Lu Zhenting, who was also from Ning City. However, the Lu family's business wasn't as big as the Jiang family's. The Jiang family was one of the best in Ning City. The old lady of the Jiang family, who was Ms. Jiang's mother, was different from my grandparents. That old lady was very snobbish and looked down on the Lu family. Ignoring Ms. Jiang's objections, she married her to my father. "
"And the Lu family also arranged a marriage for Lu Zhenting. That family was much stronger than the Lu family, so Lu Zhenting could be considered to be climbing up the social ladder." Yan Beicheng smiled mockingly. "Although she married my father, she never forgot Lu Zhenting. She and my father were like guests to each other. After getting married and giving birth to me, she considered it as completing her mission. I'm the son of a man she didn't like. In her eyes, it was because of my father that the Jiang family forced her to break up with Lu Zhenting. She felt that if the Yan family hadn't suddenly spread the news that they wanted to find a wife for my father, the Jiang family wouldn't have been so anxious to get her married. As long as she persisted, there would be a chance for her to be with Lu Zhenting. So, she didn't like me. "
"I look like my father, and I don't have much in common with her, so she didn't like me even more. Since young, she didn't even like to look at me. When she saw me, she would think of my father, a man she didn't love. So, many times, I noticed that the way she looked at me was wrong. I didn't know much when I was young, but when I grew older, I realized that the way she looked at me at that time and later was called disgust. "
Lin Chu couldn't help but be angry. No matter what, that was her child. She had been pregnant for ten months, and it hadn't been easy for her to keep him. She couldn't understand why he would look at her own flesh and blood with disgust.
Putting aside the grievances Yan Beicheng had suffered, from Yan Beicheng's upbringing, she knew that Yan Beicheng's father was definitely an extremely outstanding man. In addition, he had such adorable people like the two elders of the Yan family. Raising a son was definitely not wrong. In terms of character and looks, there was nothing bad about him.
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