Li Rong did not speak. Li Chuan knelt in front of her and looked up at her.
His gaze carried the unique fearlessness of a young man, as if it could break through all the haze in the world.
They faced each other in silence. After a long time, Li Rong suddenly stood up and pointed her sword at Li Chuan's neck.
The overly sharp blade cut Li Chuan's skin with just a touch. Drops of blood licked the blade. Li Chuan did not dodge and met Li Rong's gaze.
"Do you think I don't dare to kill you?"
Outside the door, a cold wind blew, sweeping up the withered leaves. Pei Wenxuan folded his hands in his sleeves and turned his back to the door. He looked at the sudden cold wind and looked up at the dense dark clouds in the sky.
"It's not that you don't dare to kill me," Li Chuan answered calmly. "It's that I have no regrets dying in your hands."
"If it's really like what you said, and I want to walk down that path, then I'd rather my life end here. It can be considered a good end."
Li Rong did not speak. She held her sword and stared at Li Chuan. They were in a deadlock. Li Chuan's expression was full of determination. He did not retreat at all. It was as if he was really prepared to die and was waiting for her judgment.
But how could she judge?
He did not do anything. He was still so good.
But if he ascended the throne, if he grew up, perhaps 30 years later, he would send a cup of poison to her.
Time was too cruel and too vicious.
Li Rong looked at the clear expression of the young man in front of her and suddenly raised her sword.
Li Chuan closed his eyes. The sword fell quickly and cut open Li Chuan's crown.
Li Chuan's hair fell down. He opened his eyes. Li Rong held her sword and panted. "I will return to Qingzhou. In this life, I will never enter Huajing again. I will let you go. "
Li Rong looked up at Li Chuan. "Please let me go in the future."
After Li Rong finished speaking, he threw the sword to the ground and turned to leave. Li Chuan knelt on the ground. When she put her hand on the door, he said hoarsely, "Sister, why can't you trust me more?"
"It's not you that I don't trust." Li Rong lowered his eyes. "It's this world."
There were too many filthy things in this world. She didn't know what Li Chuan would become once he reached the top.
The moment he became the Emperor, she would become an aristocratic family. They would never have a unified standpoint and would have to constantly be suspicious of each other in the depths of the palace.
She knew very well what kind of person she was. In fact, Li Chuan was right to kill her back then.
If Li Chuan died, whether it was Li Ping or Li Xin, when they threatened her, she might not necessarily not cripple them.
Li Rong calmed herself down and her expression slowly returned to normal. Then, she pushed the door open with both hands.
The cold wind suddenly blew in, causing her wide sleeves to flutter. She looked up and saw Pei Wenxuan with his hands in his sleeves, turning his head to look at her.
"Finished talking?"
Pei Wenxuan smiled. Li Rong nodded: "Let's go."
Hearing this, Pei Wenxuan walked over to hug her. Li Rong stopped him: "What are you doing?"
"Your leg, are you going to limp out of the Crown Prince's residence?"
Li Rong hesitated for a moment, thinking that it would be too ugly to limp out, so she didn't make a sound and let Pei Wenxuan carry her. She hung on Pei Wenxuan's body with her head down and didn't say a word. She didn't know why Pei Wenxuan was happy, but he was smiling the whole time.
She felt a little uncomfortable and looked up at Pei Wenxuan. Seeing that he was still smiling, she couldn't help but feel angry. She frowned and said: "Why are you smiling all day long? Are you laughing at me? "
"Ah?"
When Pei Wenxuan heard Li Rong blaming him, he came back to his senses and quickly explained: "No, it's just that I'm happy that Your Highness is back. Everything can be solved. Your Highness is fine, so I don't feel unhappy. "
"Are you that happy?" Li Rong didn't believe it. Pei Wenxuan didn't dare to entangle with her and quickly changed the topic: "How did your talk with the Crown Prince go?"
"I'm going back to Qingzhou."
Li Rong leaned on Pei Wenxuan's chest and said in a faint voice: "I won't come back in the future, but I'll do my best to support Li Chuan. If there's anything, just tell me. I'll leave it to you."
Pei Wenxuan responded: "Your Highness, don't worry. I'll deal with it as appropriate."
Li Rong closed her eyes and responded. Pei Wenxuan sent her to the carriage.
The two returned to the mansion together. Pei Wenxuan let Li Rong rest for a while. Li Rong lay on the bed and watched Pei Wenxuan put down the bed curtain. When the darkness completely covered the bed, she suddenly felt a little scared. She grabbed Pei Wenxuan and called out: "Wenxuan."
Pei Wenxuan stopped. He saw the hand holding his. He hesitated for a moment and then put up the bed curtain again. He softly coaxed her: "You lie down first. I'll go and tell them. I'll be back soon."
Hearing Pei Wenxuan say such words, Li Rong felt a little embarrassed.
She didn't know why she became like this. She pretended to be calm and said: "I'm fine. Do what you need to do. I'll just call you."
Pei Wenxuan smiled and didn't say anything. He went out and told the people to do what they needed to do. Then, he turned back.
As soon as he entered the room, he saw that the bed curtain had been put down. He was afraid that Li Rong had fallen asleep, so he quietly entered the room. After taking off his outer robe, he lifted the bed curtain.
As soon as he lifted the bed curtain, he found Li Rong sitting inside. She was leaning against the wall with her knees bent. She was hugging herself like a child.
This appearance made Pei Wenxuan's heart tingle slightly, but he didn't show any abnormality. He lifted the bed curtain and climbed onto the bed. Like Li Rong, he leaned against the wall and sat with his knees bent. He was some distance away from Li Rong. He wanted to warm up the cold air that he brought back from going out. Li Rong turned to look at him and felt a little strange: "Why are you so far away from me?"
Without waiting for Pei Wenxuan to explain, she moved over and leaned against him shoulder to shoulder.
Pei Wenxuan tucked her in the quilt and wrapped her up from the neck down. He didn't forget to considerately ask: "Are you cold?"
Li Rong leaned on his shoulder and said with disdain: "It's so hot."
"Then why are you still leaning on me?" Pei Wenxuan laughed. Li Rong was too lazy to pay attention to him. She smelled the incense on his body and said lightly: "I'm going to leave soon. One more day is one more day. In the future, I won't be able to rely on you. Why? Can't you give me this little bit of time?"
Pei Wenxuan listened to her words. He pursed his lips and secretly smiled: "Your Highness won't come back this time. You don't even want me anymore?"
"I said, let's separate."
Li Rong closed her eyes and said straightforwardly. Pei Wenxuan thought for a moment: "I still don't understand. What did I do wrong that you want to separate from me?"
"There's nothing wrong. It's all my fault."
"You're making me panic even more."
Pei Wenxuan raised his hand and put it on her shoulder: "I must have made a big mistake. You won't forgive me at all."
Li Rong didn't say anything. She knew Pei Wenxuan was teasing her. She leaned on him for a long time. She whispered: "Pei Wenxuan, we're completely different people."
"That's right." Pei Wenxuan answered decisively, "I knew it when I saw you in my previous life."
"I don't know how to treat you well. I always mess things up. In my previous life, I beat you, scolded you, and bullied you. In this life, I still beat you, scolded you, and bullied you. I wanted to treat you better, so I gave you an official position. You were so angry that you fainted in the imperial court. This morning, I wanted to be more proactive, but you were so angry that you almost cried. "
Li Rong spoke seriously. Pei Wenxuan didn't know why, but he wanted to laugh: "Li Rong, are you really reflecting on yourself?"
Li Rong froze. Pei Wenxuan thought about it. He felt that Li Rong was like a child now. He coughed softly and pulled her into his arms: "Okay, I know you're upset. I won't laugh at you. If there's anything you're unhappy about, you can tell me."
"Pei Wenxuan," Li Rong's voice was very soft: "I'm very bad."
"Oh, I know."
Pei Wenxuan raised his hand and pointed one finger at a time: "You look down on people, you're arrogant, you like to beat people, you're also unreasonable from time to time. You're careless and always ignore my feelings. Your words are very unpleasant. You always talk about rules with others, but you're the one who doesn't follow the rules the most. You even need someone to serve you in bed. Taking the initiative is harder than ascending to heaven …"
"Pei Wenxuan!"
Li Rong shouted angrily. Pei Wenxuan faced her and his ten fingers continued to fall: "You don't allow others to criticize you and only allow others to praise you. Your limbs are not diligent and you can't distinguish between grain and grain …"
"Get out!" Li Rong couldn't stand him anymore. She pushed Pei Wenxuan and wanted to push him off the bed, but her strength was far from enough to push a grown man off the bed. Pei Wenxuan laughed and looked at her push him, scolding her in detail.
He talked about her kicking him when she was sleeping, all the way to her and Su Yongqing teaming up to anger him. Seeing that Li Rong was about to cry, he finally stopped, laughed and hugged her in his arms, coaxing her: "But so what? I like you. "
"Who wants you to like me? Get out."
"I won't get out. I'll stick to you." Pei Wenxuan said and kissed her: "I'll stick to you for a lifetime."
"Pei Wenxuan." Li Rong scolded him with red eyes: "You're so shameless."
"Wife, why would I want to be shameless?"
Pei Wenxuan looked at Li Rong crying. He held her in his arms and patted her gently. "Alright, don't cry anymore. You've been crying for so long today. Don't cry too much. Your temper is not bad, it's too good. You always take responsibility for everything, but people always have a limit. Mistakes may not be made by one person, but it's also not made by you alone. "
"You don't know how bad I am."
"Don't be in a hurry to say that you're not good. Tell me what happened. You've been crying for a long time, I'm still in a daze."
"Didn't you say that you know everything?" Li Rong sniffed. Pei Wenxuan laughed: "Then I have to be sure. Is Your Highness the same as what I know?"
"You've indeed hidden a lot from me."
Li Rong immediately grasped the key point. Pei Wenxuan choked for a long time and sighed: "Li Rong, you've really focused all your cleverness on me."
Li Rong stiffened. Without waiting for her to apologize, Pei Wenxuan continued: "I'm indeed the person you love the most."
Li Rong smiled through her tears. Pei Wenxuan pulled her to lean against the wall and covered her with a quilt. He also took a cup of warm water for her to drink and a warm bag for her to hold. He returned to her side: "Come, tell me. Your husband is listening."
Li Rong turned her head and glared at him. She paused for a moment and finally sorted out her thoughts. She told Pei Wenxuan what Su Yongqing told her.
When she first heard these words, it made her feel pain and disgust. Perhaps it was because she recalled it too many times, or perhaps it was because Pei Wenxuan was there. When she told Pei Wenxuan about it, she didn't have such big ups and downs. She just felt a little stuffy, a little sour, and an unspeakable grievance.
"I've done so much for them in my previous life. In the end, I ended up like this. I feel a little sad. It's just that I feel so wronged and sad, but I can't find anyone to scold. "
"Do you think Chuan'er was wrong?" Li Rong chuckled: "He's the emperor. What's wrong with killing a princess who dared to openly ask the empress dowager to depose him and his son?"
"Do you think Su Yongqing was wrong?" Li Rong lowered her head and sighed: "His entire clan was killed by my younger brother. He was already soft-hearted not to kill me for revenge. In order to protect the bloodline of the Su Clan, for revenge, for power, what's wrong with standing by and watching me and my brother kill each other?"
"As for Shangguan Ya," Li Rong pursed her lips and finally smiled bitterly: "The Shangguan Clan is in a precarious situation. As the empress elected by the Shangguan Clan, how is it wrong for her to stand by and watch me die for the sake of the Shangguan Clan and her son? It's against human ethics for her to have an affair with Su Ronghua, but if the Chuan'er really only favors Qin Zhenzhen, how cruel would it be for her to die alone in the palace? "
"We're all human. I understand."
Li Rong raised her head and said softly: "Why do you think I'm with Su Yongqing? Isn't it because I can't stand being alone? "
After Li Rong said this, she couldn't help but glance at Pei Wenxuan: "What I'm saying …"
"I'm willing to listen." Pei Wenxuan smiled, "I've lost you for more than 20 years. If possible, I want to make up for it. You don't have to worry, I'm willing to listen to you. "
Li Rong smiled. She kept a distance from Pei Wenxuan.
"In fact, after being with you, I've always thought that it's unfair. You were alone for so many years in your previous life. You can endure loneliness, endure loneliness, but I can't. I'm with Su Yongqing because I'm afraid of being alone. I eat alone, sleep alone, and even if I'm sick, I can't feel that anyone cares about me. It seems that no one likes me or cares about me. "
"He cares about me, treats me well, and likes me, so I like him. I like him, so I force him. "
"Force him to do what?" Pei Wenxuan didn't understand. Li Rong didn't say anything. She looked at the bed curtain. After a long time, she said in a hoarse voice, "I can endure it for one year, five years, ten years. But I've always remembered the feeling you gave me. "
"He's disabled, and he's embarrassed, but every time I ask, he'll still help me. He always wears his clothes neatly. I can't feel that he's happy, but I still can't help it. "
"I've thought of keeping a gigolo, and I even almost brought someone back once. But I can't tolerate being casual with someone, so in the end, I sent him away."
"So you know," Li Rong lowered her head and smiled awkwardly, "I'm more disgusting than you think."
"When I hear about Shangguan Ya and Su Ronghua, I feel especially disgusted. But I'm not disgusted with them, I'm disgusted with myself."
"I can't blame Shangguan Ya, Li Chuan, or even Su Yongqing. Since yesterday, I've been thinking that if I'd done a better job, I wouldn't have separated from you so hastily. I should've cared more about Chuan 'er, I should've helped Shangguan Ya leave the palace, I should've let Su Yongqing die, or not let him take advantage of the emptiness in my life, or not be so cruel to him … "
"There are many things I can change. I don't want to be so despicable and disgusting." Li Rong turned to look at Pei Wenxuan. "Would my life be different then?"
Pei Wenxuan didn't say anything. She quietly looked into his eyes. Li Rong smiled. "Do you know why I separated from you?"
"The time I spent with you was actually stolen by me. On the day you confessed to me, I asked you to wait for me. I thought I could change. I thought I could forget the past in this life, as if I was still 18 years old. I didn't sink into lust, I didn't do so many wrong things. I didn't have to worry about gains and losses because of a relationship. I could learn how to treat you well and learn how to accept love calmly. But now I know that I can't learn. "
"I've worked hard. I've worked hard all my life. Maybe I didn't have a good relationship with you in my previous life because I didn't treat you well. But I've been very good to them. "
Very good, but he still couldn't get the friendship he deserved.
Maybe their standpoints were different, but he didn't even get the slightest bit of hesitation and warmth.
"When you're with me, you always have to put up with my mistakes, my stupidity, my ignorance, and my pretentiousness. Why bother? Don't wait until you've worn down your feelings for each other to the point that it's disgusting to look at you. In fact, I'm a very good ally. "Li Rong looked at Pei Wenxuan with a bit of pride in his eyes." If we don't talk about feelings. "
Pei Wenxuan didn't say anything. He quietly looked at Li Rong. Li Rong raised his hand and pushed him. "What are you looking at? Can't you speak? "
"Nothing, I'm just thinking about the past."
"Huh?"
"When I first met Your Highness, I was very nervous."
Pei Wenxuan leaned against the wall with a smile on his face. "I heard that Your Highness is arrogant and willful. I also know that you don't come from a good family. I thought that Your Highness must be very unwilling to marry me. I'm afraid that I'll have to suffer."
"You must be thinking about how to deal with me." Li Rong said with certainty. Pei Wenxuan was a dog who wouldn't let himself be taken advantage of. Since he thought that she was unruly, he must have thought of a way.
"Yes, I was fully prepared. In the end, when you moved the fan away and secretly looked at me, I suddenly forgot everything. I only remembered that you were good-looking the whole night. Then you looked at me, blushed, and obediently drank wine with me. After that, you sat on the bed with me. I didn't dare to say anything because I was afraid that you would dislike me. In the end, you sat with me for a long time and whispered to me, 'Langjun, are you still not going to rest?' "
Pei Wenxuan imitated Li Rong's voice. Li Rong pushed him. Pei Wenxuan's smile widened. "I never thought that Your Highness would not dislike my identity as a member of the cold family. That night, when you cried out in pain, I was so scared that I broke out in a cold sweat. I thought that I might be punished tomorrow. The rules that were given to me by the palace were to be learned by the emperor's son-in-law. In the end, when I woke up the next morning, not only did you not beat me, you even personally got up to tie my crown. You didn't know how to do it at all. You pretended to be virtuous and virtuous, and after a long time, your face turned red. "
"It happened a long time ago." Li Rong was a little embarrassed. "Why are you talking about this?"
"When you accompanied me to the Pei family, you didn't put on any airs at all. You even knelt down and offered tea to my elders. After we came back, you took good care of me. When I coughed, you had people prepare pear water for me. When I was heaty, you had people boil mung bean soup. I often drank. Every time I came back, you personally took care of me. You knew that my stomach was not good, so you specially prepared medicine. I threw up and made a fuss, but you still tolerated me. "
"At that time, everyone looked down on me. Even though I was the top student in the academy for three years, I was actually nothing in the imperial court. But you didn't think so. You always praised me for doing well. You were the first person to say that I was better than Su Yongqing. You were also the first person to say that when talking about me, you didn't say that it was a pity. You were also the first person to not mention my father when talking about me. Li Rong. "Pei Wenxuan turned his head and looked at Li Rong." Actually, it was you who helped me walk out of the shadow of my poor family and my father's shadow. Don't think that I'm very good. In fact, I was once extreme, self-abased, and cowardly. "
As Pei Wenxuan spoke, he put his arm around Li Rong and let Li Rong lean on his shoulder.
"After you and I separated, I saw many things in the imperial court. You are the cleanest person I've ever seen in the imperial court."
"You're talking nonsense." Li Rong laughed. "I'm considered clean?"
"Your Highness, you feel disgusted because you have high expectations for yourself. You are a human, not a saint. What's wrong with having a little desire? It's already not easy for you to keep your bottom line and the gentleness in your heart."
"You punish corrupt officials. You speak out for injustice. You hate scheming against each other. Even you support the aristocratic families not to protect your own interests, but because you think that a stable imperial court is better for the people."
"Everyone in the imperial court knows about the Su Clan's case. Su Ronghua didn't collude with Prince Su, but no one dared to say anything. Only you dared to confront His Majesty. Even if you were beaten, you still protected the old and young."
"When you reincarnated, Concubine Ning committed suicide in the main hall during the imperial court. Everyone avoided her like the plague. You also put on clothes for her."
"You say that you care about power, but you always treat the Crown Prince as your younger brother. You treat Shangguan Ya as your friend. You also trust Su Yongqing. You're loyal to your ruler and loyal to your friends. In this deep palace, you've always used your own way to practice the way of a gentleman. Look, in the past 30 years, other than you, who else has done it in this vat of dye? "
"Isn't there still you?"
Li Rong thought for a moment. "This is what I should do."
"Your Highness," Pei Wenxuan shook his head. "I almost took the wrong path countless times. It's just that when I faced those temptations, I would think of Your Highness. Every time, I would think of how you would look at me. Your Highness is like my mirror, reflecting my clothes. What I did was much easier than what Your Highness did. I followed Your Highness, but Your Highness walked forward alone. My perseverance was because I was bound by Your Highness, but Your Highness' perseverance was Your Highness' original intention. "
"After I was reborn, it was Your Highness who woke me up. It allowed me to walk out of the bigotry of my previous life and enjoy the joy of being reborn. It was Your Highness who taught me how to deal with the conflict between my mother and me. It allowed me to walk out of my humble heart when I was young. It was Your Highness who always helped me and saved me. Without Your Highness, there would be no Pei Wenxuan today. "
"What are you saying all this for?" Li Rong turned to look at him. "Could it be that you want to learn from White Snake and repay her kindness by giving yourself to me?"
"I'm saying all this to tell Your Highness that you and I are husband and wife."
"So what?"
"Your Highness, husband and wife are originally looking for trouble for each other. As the saying goes, through thick and thin together, and in life and death together. When I was insignificant, Your Highness never left me. Now that Your Highness is in trouble, how can I let Your Highness leave alone?"
Li Rong didn't speak. Pei Wenxuan reached out and hugged Li Rong. "Rongrong, everything now is just a hurdle for you. Everything will be fine if you walk through it."
"I'm your husband. I'll walk with you."
"But I'm afraid I can't walk through it." Li Rong's voice was hoarse. Pei Wenxuan laughed. "Even if you can't walk through it, it's already very good now."
"Humans are like fish in water. When they are born in a muddy pond, their mouths are full of mud. When they are born in clear water, their bodies are transparent. Your Highness, having desires, falling into despair, and wavering in the darkness is not a big mistake. It's just a flaw that all mortals have."
"You're an ordinary person. You can love and hate like an ordinary person. You don't have to be particularly outstanding to deserve feelings. "
"You're not wrong."
As Pei Wenxuan spoke, Li Rong didn't know why she couldn't stop crying. Pei Wenxuan's voice was very soft. "You're not wrong to trust Shangguan Ya, His Highness the Crown Prince, and Su Yongqing. If anyone let you down, it's their fault. "
"Moreover, Your Highness, they're actually not as bad as you think. Think carefully, look carefully. This world is much gentler than you think."
"Really?"
"Really." Pei Wenxuan hugged her tightly. "I'm here. Go and take a look. If there's a storm in this world, come back."
Li Rong didn't speak. She listened to the sound of the wind outside and quietly leaned against Pei Wenxuan.
In the darkness provided by the bed curtain, they retained a unique gentleness.
At this time, Fu Lai came out of the palace and ordered someone to enter the Crown Prince's residence. He respectfully bowed to Li Chuan who was kneeling in front of the sword and said calmly, "Your Highness the Crown Prince, His Majesty invites you."
Li Chuan coldly turned his head and his gaze fell on Fu Lai. He was silent for a long time before he finally got up.
Su Yongqing, who was lying on the bed, slowly opened his eyes.
As soon as he opened his eyes, he heard a familiar voice beside him. "You're awake?"
Su Yongqing turned his head and saw Su Ronghua sitting in his seat. His usual frivolity was swept away and his eyes were serious and inquisitive.
"Eldest Brother."
Su Yongqing said dryly. Su Ronghua got up and poured a glass of water. He brought it to Su Yongqing and handed it to him.
"Drink a glass of water." Su Ronghua said calmly. "After drinking, I have a few questions to ask you."
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