I'll take you home.
These were the most beautiful words she had ever heard in her life.
She still had a place to belong, a home.
She hugged Pei Wenxuan tightly as if she was the only piece of driftwood in a torrent.
Her tears soaked Pei Wenxuan's clothes. Even though they were mixed in with the rain, they were instantly recognizable because of the scorching temperature.
Pei Wenxuan held her in his arms, his sleeves overlapping to hide her figure. He restrained his trembling, his loss of self-control, and all his emotions, forcing the tears from his eyes to disappear.
She was alive.
No matter what, it couldn't be better that she was alive.
He listened to the cries of the person in his arms, took a deep breath, and slowly raised his head.
Through the curtain of rain, he saw Su Yongqing standing at the entrance of the cave not far away, quietly watching them through the curtain of rain.
The two of them looked at each other for a moment, then Su Yongqing nodded slightly and turned to enter the cave.
Pei Wenxuan stared at the cave while gently stroking Li Rong's back. Li Rong's cries gradually subsided. After a while, Zhao Chongjiu came over. As soon as he appeared in Pei Wenxuan's line of sight, Pei Wenxuan raised his hand to his lips and gestured for him to be quiet from afar.
Then Pei Wenxuan raised his chin in the direction of the cave.
Zhao Chongjiu understood tacitly and nodded, then rushed in the direction of the cave.
Pei Wenxuan saw Zhao Chongjiu's movements and felt Li Rong's emotions slightly calm down. He finally said, "The people searching the cliff shouldn't be far away. I'll carry you there."
He squatted down and let Li Rong get on his back. Li Rong hugged his neck and leaned on his back without saying a word.
The sound of running came from behind. Li Rong seemed to have realized something and slightly trembled. Pei Wenxuan didn't move forward, but she also didn't look back. After a long time, she said in a hoarse voice, "Let's go."
Pei Wenxuan looked up at the sky, then carried Li Rong out of the dense forest.
They didn't say anything along the way. Only the heavy rain fell on the two of them, and it hurt like a rock falling on them.
He carried her through the thorns and through the dense forest. The rain gradually stopped, and the sky began to brighten.
The morning after the rain was filled with water vapor, and the sunlight was hidden behind the blue clouds. The two of them didn't know how long they had been walking, but they finally heard the sound of horse hooves and the voices of people.
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"Let's get on the carriage first."
Pei Wenxuan knew that Li Rong didn't want to talk, so he sent Dong Ye away. He carried Li Rong to the side of the carriage and helped Li Rong into the carriage.
Li Rong had already calmed down. She kept her head down and didn't say a word.
Pei Wenxuan helped her into the carriage and had someone help her change into a clean set of clothes before returning to the carriage.
Dong Ye brought Pei Wenxuan's carriage. Only his clothes were on it. So when Pei Wenxuan stepped into the carriage, he saw Li Rong wearing his clothes and sitting quietly in her seat.
She didn't move at all. She was the same as when he left.
Pei Wenxuan watched for a moment, then walked forward and half-knelt on Li Rong's body. He lifted one of her legs and whispered, "Let me clean your wound first."
Li Rong didn't say a word. She kept her head down. No one knew what she was thinking.
The carriage set off. It was a little bumpy on the cobblestone road. Pei Wenxuan lowered his head and didn't dare to look at Li Rong. If he looked at her, it would be like his heart was being cut by a sharp knife.
He also didn't want to ask Li Rong what she went through.
Actually, Li Rong might know something. Yesterday, when he smelled the fragrance on Xie Chunhe's body, he understood.
He had countless questions and guesses, but he didn't say anything. He lowered his head and observed Li Rong's wound. He chose the right medicine to apply, then took out a bandage and wrapped it carefully.
Li Rong lowered her head and quietly watched him, observing this man.
She felt that she had never truly known Pei Wenxuan in her life.
His kindness, his gentleness, his meticulousness, and his tolerance, she seemed to have never looked back or cherished him.
Pei Wenxuan still allowed her to stare. After he finished bandaging the wound on her leg, he raised his hand to untie her belt. He stood up and bent down, as if he was holding her, and raised his hand to remove her clothes from her shoulders.
There was a charcoal fire burning in the carriage. The airtight space was as hot as summer, but the moment her skin touched the air, Li Rong felt a chill coming from her surroundings. But that chill was quickly blocked by Pei Wenxuan. He held her in his arms. Her clothes were stuck in his hands, and he tried to take them away. He was very close to her. She could clearly feel his temperature, his smell, and even hear his heartbeat. She felt his fingertips touching her, and that faint caress and restraint.
She sensed his emotions. She looked at the swaying carriage door in front of her and said without any emotion in her voice, "Do you want me?"
Pei Wenxuan paused. After a moment, he calmly replied in a low and hoarse voice, "I just want to help you clean your wound."
"Why don't you want me?"
Li Rong turned her eyes to look at the person beside her, "Why do you always think about me and make things difficult for yourself?"
"Don't think too much," Pei Wenxuan didn't dare to look at her eyes. He pulled her clothes away and took the medicine from the side, "I am your husband. I said I won't care about these things."
After saying that, Pei Wenxuan took the medicine from the side and lowered his head to apply it on her.
When the medicine touched her wounds, Li Rong felt a sharp pain shoot through her body.
Her body trembled slightly. Pei Wenxuan looked up at her, "Does it hurt?"
There was no lust in his eyes.
But she knew that he was a normal man. It was impossible for him to not have lust. It was just that his love was greater than his desire. He was the kind of person who could make such a disgusting thing beautiful.
Li Rong's eyelashes fluttered. She lowered her eyes and said in a hoarse voice, "It doesn't hurt."
The two of them were silent. Pei Wenxuan applied the medicine for her, put the medicine bottle away, and said softly, "You sleep first. I will guard you."
As soon as his voice fell, Li Rong raised her hand and grabbed his sleeve.
"I will give it to you."
"Your Highness," Pei Wenxuan lowered his eyes, "I don't think it is as unbearable as you think."
"Is this unbearable?" Li Rong looked up at him, "If you don't even want this, what can I give you?"
Pei Wenxuan was stunned for a moment. Li Rong looked up at him and smiled softly, "I don't care. I am willing. Pei Wenxuan, in the future, in front of me, you should take care of yourself. "
She said, stood up, raised her hand to hold his face, and gently kissed his forehead.
Her kiss was cold.
It was as if the rain of the night had not left.
Like a drizzle, the kiss was soft and delicate, and then there was more and more lingering exploration.
She had never been like this before. Li Rong's love was always a bit lively and naughty. She enjoyed it freely and received the most sincere response. In this kind of relationship, he gave and she received. When he saw her happy because of him, it was the greatest encouragement.
But today she was not like this. She tried her best to take care of him and thought of him all the time. She lowered herself and greeted him like a lowly person, carefully and with all kinds of means to please him.
He looked at Li Rong's "understanding," looked at Li Rong's sudden "growth," looked at Li Rong's thoughtfulness, he suddenly realized that he did not want it.
Compared to Li Rong's sacrifice for him, what he wanted more was for Li Rong to always be the princess in his heart, not bowing down to anyone, not bending to anyone, and be proud to the point of being arrogant.
At this moment, he felt that Li Rong was like fragile glass. He did not dare to touch her and could only watch everything she did.
He knew that she was looking for a way to make herself feel better, but when she knelt in front of him and lowered her head to swallow him, he finally could not endure such torture.
He raised his hand and pressed on her shoulder, stopping her movements, and said in a low and hoarse voice, "That's enough."
Li Rong stopped, and Pei Wenxuan's hand holding her shoulder trembled slightly, "Li Rong, don't humiliate yourself like this."
"Humiliate?" Li Rong looked up at him, "Don't you like it?"
Pei Wenxuan did not speak. He looked at Li Rong's expression, and she quietly stared at him. There was only a fine line between madness and calmness. He suddenly realized that at this moment, he was her only salvation and straw. She had to use her own way to complete her punishment and redemption.
All his rejection would only push her further into hell.
Li Rong saw that he did not speak, so she raised her hand, pressed his hand to the side, and continued her actions.
Pei Wenxuan looked at the person kneeling in front of him. She was very calm and very serious.
It should have been the pleasure of being drowned, but Pei Wenxuan only felt like he was being dragged into the water. He could not breathe, and everything accumulated in his heart, as if it would explode at any time.
He supported himself with both hands on the edge of the seat, and his knuckles began to turn white from exerting too much force. Li Rong's fawning and Li Rong's gentleness were all sharp blades that cut into his heart.
He did not protect her.
He was useless. He could not stop the wind and rain of this world from turning into sharp blades that destroyed her knees and broke her spine.
She was dismembering him.
She was using this method of self-harm to make him suffer, to make him despair.
She wanted to drag him to hell with her.
He suddenly understood how she felt. Under extreme pain, any feeling in the body, whether it was pain or happiness, was salvation.
He clenched the wooden board tightly, and his fingernails were bleeding.
He suddenly hated her.
He called out in a low voice, "Li Rong."
Li Rong looked up at him, and at that moment, Pei Wenxuan pulled her up and pressed her against the wall of the car. She hit the wall hard, and the moment the pain came, he kissed her.
He had lost his usual gentleness. She could vaguely taste the bitterness and saltiness of tears from the kiss. She was almost suffocated in this storm-like kiss. Before she could figure out where the tears came from, she felt that he had suddenly become one with her.
She felt pain.
She grabbed his arm tightly. Pei Wenxuan sensed the change in her. He looked up and stared at her with teary eyes. "Are you satisfied?"
She did not speak. For the first time in her life, she felt pain because of what Pei Wenxuan had given her.
This was actually the most beautiful gift Pei Wenxuan had ever given her, but she had personally turned it into pain.
He pressed her hand and moved closer to her. "I'm after your beauty and your power, but I'm not after you. My feelings are dirty and filthy. Such feelings …" He choked. "Are you at ease now?"
She knew that she had done something wrong again.
She wanted to explain that she really wanted to be good to him. She did not slander his feelings. She just wanted to do her best to make up for him.
But she could not say it. She looked at his hateful eyes. Li Rong's teeth trembled slightly. She smiled. "I'm relieved."
As soon as she finished speaking, her tears fell.
Their eyes met in the air. They were so close, but because neither of them took half a step back, it was difficult to move an inch. It was so close.
Pei Wenxuan suddenly felt sad. He raised his hand and covered Li Rong's face. He wiped away her tears with his thumb. "Li Rong, forgive yourself."
These words were like a heavy hammer that struck a piece of glass, shattering her heart. She wanted to fight back and refute, but in the end, she only asked, "If I forgive myself, who will forgive me?"
"No one will forgive me!"
When she said this, she could no longer suppress the pain she had been trying to suppress. "Everyone is using me. Chuan'er did not believe me and killed me. Shangguan Ya and Su Yongqing watched me die. Pei Wenxuan." Li Rong grabbed Pei Wenxuan's sleeve. She stared at him with tears in her eyes. "How can I forgive myself?"
"No one believes me. You all think I'm not good. You think I'm selfish. You think I'm greedy for power. You think I'm unscrupulous. You think I don't care about anyone."
"So Li Chuan wants to kill me. Shangguan Ya wants me dead. Su Yongqing watched me drink the poison without saying anything. Even you." Li Rong grabbed his clothes tightly. "Do you also think I'm forcing you now? I'm slandering your feelings. I'm in pain, so I'm making you suffer too? "
Pei Wenxuan was stunned. Li Rong lowered her head. She controlled her emotions and tried to calm herself down.
She had hurt too many people. Everyone had abandoned her. She wanted to be better to Pei Wenxuan. She should not indulge herself.
"I don't."
She said in a hoarse voice, "I just want to be better to you. I want to be better to everyone, but I can't do anything well. "
"I don't speak well. I'm too arbitrary. I'm like a hedgehog. Everyone who sees me thinks I'm not good. I can't even like you well. "
"I've done so much for Chuan'er." Tears streamed down her face. "But he still doesn't believe me."
"I quarreled with Chuan'er because of Ah Ya, but Ah Ya still gave up on me for a little risk."
"I've done so much to protect Su Yongqing, but I still can't get into his heart. He doesn't trust me at all."
"I'm not forcing you. I really just want to be good to you. I don't know what to do. I just don't want you to suffer in front of me. But I still can't do it well. "
"I'm sorry …" She looked up at him and said repeatedly, "I'm sorry …"
Pei Wenxuan did not say anything. He looked at Li Rong in front of him. She did not have any manners to speak of. This was probably the most embarrassing moment in his life. Even when he saw her in prison, she still had her clothes and hair tied up. Her posture was calm.
But she couldn't care less about that now. Tears smeared her face. She grabbed his sleeve, and her eyes were full of flattery and pleading. Those pleas were like knives, gouging his heart one by one.
He could not speak. Every time he opened his mouth, he would feel choked up. So he did not say anything. He picked her up and placed her on his body.
He kissed her tears and gently brushed her cheeks.
She kept crying. It was as if all the tears in her life flowed at this moment.
He gave her all his tenderness and love. When it reached its peak, she could not tell where the tears came from and where they flowed to.
They sank into their desires. Until the last moment, she hugged him tightly and said, "I'm sorry."
He closed his eyes and did not say anything. After a long time, he buried his head in her shoulder and said softly, "Your Highness, you did not do anything wrong. Liking you is my business. I don't regret it."
As Pei Wenxuan spoke, he took a deep breath and raised his hand to cover her with clothes. Then, he lifted the curtain of the carriage and glanced outside.
The carriage had entered Huajing. There was noise all around. Pei Wenxuan confirmed the location and turned his head. He kissed her forehead and said, "Don't cry. When we go back, tell me what happened. I will think of a solution with you."
Li Rong did not say anything.
"Pei Wenxuan," Li Rong hugged him. Her voice was hoarse, but it was very calm. "When we go back, let's separate."
Pei Wenxuan paused. Li Rong looked up at him and said, "Don't be sad."
"When I told you to separate before, it was because I was disappointed in you. Not this time."
"This time, it's because I like you too much." Li Rong smiled. "I want to give you the best in the world."
As a lover, not only was she not the best person in the world, she could not even be considered a good girl.
She could not bring any benefits to Pei Wenxuan. She even dragged him deep into the mire. She did not even know how to be good to him.
There was no such lover.
She was only suitable for one person. Silently in the dark, behind him, looking at him, and accompanying him. Secretly giving him money, sending him to a high position, holding power and wealth in front of him.
Pei Wenxuan was so clean, so beautiful. He was her bright moon, her sun. He should be hanging high in the sky and should not sink into the darkness with her.
Pei Wenxuan looked at her quietly. He seemed to understand her heart.
After a short silence, he answered, "Okay."
Li Rong was stunned.
Then she saw him gently move forward, close to her.
Staring at her.
He was so close to her. She could feel their breaths, like the smoke in the incense burner, intertwining, intertwining, and unable to be separated.
He raised his hand to the place closest to her heart. She trembled slightly.
Then she heard him speak calmly and seriously, as if he was ordering her.
"Then give you to me."
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