A person's regret was very complicated.
He couldn't say for sure how many things were mixed in that regret.
Perhaps he liked her a little, but more than that, he knew that he had lost Li Rong, his wife, forever.
Li Rong didn't just represent the person he might have liked. She also represented the perfect family he could have had.
If he had known how to be a good husband back then, if he had known how to handle things after marriage, if he had known how to shoulder his responsibilities, if he had known what he should care about and what he shouldn't care about, perhaps he would have had a child with Li Rong long ago, and they would have been able to live happily on their own.
This kind of regret reached its peak when Li Rong and Su Yongqing got together.
He and Li Rong argued. Li Rong slapped him, and he pushed Li Rong. It could be said that they showed each other the ugliest side of themselves. Li Rong scolded him for being a coward, and he said that Li Rong was wanton. They hated each other. For a long time, they argued whenever they saw each other. He felt that this woman was shrewish, unreasonable, and indulgent. She felt that he was vicious, cunning, and narrow-minded.
They argued for so long that he couldn't remember what Li Rong was like back then. He also couldn't remember that in the beginning, he might have liked her a little.
Later on, the two of them spent most of their lives discussing politics in front of their allies. At the same time, they couldn't stand each other's behavior and were suspicious of each other.
In the beginning, when he saw her and Su Yongqing together, he felt unreconciled, regretful, and pained. Later on, when he saw them, all that was left was numbness and dislike.
Because the two of them could lean on each other and keep each other company. Even though Su Yongqing killed Li Rong in the end, Pei Wenxuan clearly knew that Su Yongqing was sincere about Li Rong even before he killed her.
The two of them had been together for twenty-five years, but he had always been alone.
Every time he saw a child or a happy family, he would feel lost. Sitting in a friend's house with a lot of children, he would feel uncomfortable.
The older he got, the easier it was for him to recall memories of his youth. He could clearly remember that Li Rong had once laid on the bed with him, thinking about how many children they should have and whether they preferred boys or girls.
He used to hate Su Yongqing, thinking that he had stolen his happiness. But now, after experiencing life and death, he realized that Su Yongqing was no longer the Su Yongqing of the past. Li Rong had also become the 18-year-old Li Rong. When he looked back, he realized that it wasn't anyone else's fault that his life had come to this point. He had to bear great responsibility.
If he could do it all over again, he wanted to live a good life with Li Rong. He wanted to be a good husband.
However, in this life, Li Rong was still the same old Li Rong.
He would never have a wife who was devoted to him at the age of eighteen, and he lost interest in the marriage. Even if he knew that this marriage might be unavoidable.
Pei Wenxuan was lost in his thoughts as he fell asleep in a daze.
They slept until dawn, and the two of them slowly woke up in the early morning cold.
The fire next to them had been extinguished, leaving only some warm ashes. The two of them unknowingly huddled together in the cold. Li Rong opened his eyes in a daze. He leaned on Pei Wenxuan's arm and called out, "Pei Wenxuan."
Pei Wenxuan opened his eyes and immediately felt his hand go numb. He then realized what had happened. He pretended to be calm and pulled his hand away, then got up. Li Rong looked at him without blinking. Seeing that his posture was very stiff, he couldn't help but ask, "Why are you so nervous?"
"I'm afraid you'll think too much."
Pei Wenxuan replied, "So I'm thinking about how I can prove my innocence."
Li Rong couldn't help but laugh when he heard this. "What innocence?"
"I didn't do anything last night," Pei Wenxuan said seriously. "So don't wrongly accuse me."
"I know."
Li Rong saw that he was so serious and lost the mood to tease him. He yawned and got up. "You haven't reached the stage where you don't feel anything after doing anything."
Pei Wenxuan was stunned when he heard this. Then he reacted and his face suddenly turned red. After a long time, he said, "Li Rong, you have to be more reserved in the future."
Li Rong ignored him and snorted softly. He walked to the river and squatted by it to wash up.
Pei Wenxuan stood there and hesitated for a while. In the end, he chose to wash up by the river with Li Rong.
After the two of them washed up, they got up and walked along the river. When the sun rose, they suddenly heard the sound of horse hooves. Pei Wenxuan grabbed Li Rong and immediately said, "Let's hide first!"
The two of them quickly hid in the bushes. Pei Wenxuan broke off a branch with leaves on it and gave it to Li Rong. Li Rong was a little confused. "What is this for?"
Pei Wenxuan raised the branch seriously and whispered, "Cover."
Li Rong was speechless.
She suddenly knew what the swaying reeds she had seen in her dizzy state were. She had thought that it was an illusion.
Although Li Rong felt that Pei Wenxuan's behavior was really stupid, he couldn't help but raise the branch. He comforted himself that it was better to be safe than sorry and to be cautious.
The two of them squatted for a long time and finally saw the people coming. They saw Su Yongqing riding a horse in front. Behind him were some Su Clan servants who seemed to be looking for something.
Li Rong relaxed a lot when he saw Su Yongqing. The Su Clan was a noble family. Su Yongqing was a gentleman and didn't participate in any party struggles. Moreover, the mastermind this time was Yang Quan. Su Yongqing's people shouldn't be a threat.
She immediately wanted to get up, but Pei Wenxuan grabbed her and shook his head, indicating that she should wait.
Li Rong knew that Pei Wenxuan was always cautious and didn't object. He squatted down again and waited with Pei Wenxuan.
After a while, several Eastern Palace attendants rushed over. Then, a young man's voice sounded. He shouted from afar, "Young Master Su, I heard that you found Big Sister?"
As he spoke, a young man wearing a white robe embroidered with a four-fingered dragon pattern and a golden crown with pearls on his head rushed into Li Rong's field of vision. He stopped in front of Su Yongqing.
Su Yongqing bowed and respectfully said, "Your Highness."
"No need to bow." The young man rode on the horse and looked around. "Where is Big Sister?"
"I saw traces of the fire earlier. She must have gone downstream." Su Yongqing calmly replied. Then, he was a little puzzled. "Why did Your Highness come in such a hurry?"
While Su Yongqing and Li Chuan were talking, Li Rong and Pei Wenxuan were hiding in the dark. When Li Rong saw them, he didn't hesitate and turned to look at Pei Wenxuan. He asked, "Shall we go?"
Pei Wenxuan nodded. Li Rong stood up and walked out of the haystack. He shouted into the distance, "Chuan 'er."
Hearing this, everyone looked over. Li Chuan was stunned. Then, he excitedly jumped off his horse and trotted over to Li Rong.
Li Rong looked at the young man who was running over. He looked to be only sixteen or seventeen years old. It seemed that because he ran too fast, his pale skin was dyed red.
His eyes were full of undisguised worry. He ran all the way to Li Rong and gasped, "Big Sister, are, are you okay?"
"What could happen to me?" Li Rong looked at the young man, Li Chuan. He smiled and said, "You, on the other hand, ran so fast. Don't hurt yourself."
"I'm fine." Li Chuan waved his hand. "I heard that you were assassinated and couldn't be found. I was scared. Big Sister, are you okay? You didn't let anyone … "
Before he could finish, Pei Wenxuan walked out from behind the haystack.
His clothes were stained with mud and his hair was messy. However, his facial features were too handsome. Even in such a sorry state, he still showed a kind of oppressive calmness.
Li Chuan's voice was cut off. Everyone stared blankly at Pei Wenxuan. When Pei Wenxuan saw Li Chuan, he bowed respectfully to Li Chuan. "Your humble servant Li Chuan …"
Hearing this, Li Chuan finally reacted. Without saying anything, he raised his fist and punched Pei Wenxuan. He shouted, "You lecher bastard, I'm going to kill you today!"
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