It was 1: 30 in the morning, and the street lamps illuminated the wide highway. Wang Zijin was driving a red BMW on the highway. Her eyes were looking straight ahead, and the focus in her pupils would occasionally disperse and contract.
She seemed to have a lot on her mind, but in fact, she was deducing the battle situation in her mind. Should she show a strong side or should she be gentle? The answer was the latter. Like her brother, Yingying Monster was soft but not hard.
But when it came to love, it was not a good thing to be too soft. When it was time to be hard, she still had to be hard.
So she would adapt to the situation later.
Wang Zijin felt that she was an undefeated general who was going to the battlefield alone.
In fact, she had always been an undefeated general in this aspect since she was a child.
Love was a battlefield for any woman, and every woman had to have the awareness and determination to guard their love.
After getting off the highway, it would take another ten minutes to reach the nest. When Wang Zijin was passing through the traffic lights, she almost collided with a Volkswagen on the side. Fortunately, both parties reacted quickly and braked.
The window of the Volkswagen's driver's seat was lowered, and the driver stuck his head out and scolded her.
Wang Zijin looked up and found that it was already a red light. She had unknowingly run a red light.
She patted her face and pulled herself together. Ignoring the driver's chatter, she turned the steering wheel wildly, bypassed the Volkswagen, and drove away.
Driving into the community, she turned on the roof light, pulled down the mirror of the visor, and tied her long black hair with curly ends into a ponytail. Wang Zijin usually did not tie a ponytail, because Qin Ze said that a ponytail would make her face look big. Although it was a joke, she took it to heart.
But a ponytail would add a concise and capable temperament to her, making her look strong.
After doing all this, Wang Zijin slowly exhaled a mouthful of turbid air, driving away all the negative emotions. She turned off the engine, pulled out the key, and locked the car door in one go. She strode towards the residential building. Her back looked like a female general heading to the battlefield alone.
Pushing open the familiar door, the living room was brightly lit. Qin Bao Bao was standing by the window, silently overlooking the city full of lights. If Wang Zijin's back view was that of a general marching into the battlefield with determination, then she was that of a lost queen, lonely and desolate.
Wang Zijin paused and looked at her silently. Qin Bao Bao gazed at the night scenery while she looked at Qin Bao's back.
In Wang Zijin's mind, Qin Ze's song "Don't Talk" suddenly appeared. There was a line in the song that was very appropriate for the situation: "If you want, with a black pencil, draw a silent stage play."
In such an atmosphere, she suddenly realized that all the lines she had prepared did not seem to be suitable for opening remarks.
In this silent stage play, she felt somewhat depressed and inexplicably sad.
At this moment, Qin Bao Bao turned around and smiled. "You're here."
Her smile was the same as before, but Wang Zijin could sense the emotions hidden deep within.
As if there was a needle gently pricking Wang Zijin's heart, she nodded silently.
Qin Bao Bao walked to the sofa, sat down, looked around, and whispered, "I still think this place is good. It's not big, but it's warm. There's only a wall between me and him. When I'm hungry at night, he can hear me when I shout. When he first moved in, I often couldn't sleep. If I wanted to watch a movie in the middle of the night, no one would accompany me, so I just shouted. Shouting once was enough. No matter how reluctant he was, he would come over. But why is it that as the house gets bigger and richer, the distance between him and me starts to get farther and farther? I thought about it for a long time and figured it out. At that time, he and I were like this house, not big, but pure and simple. We didn't have so many things between us, money, fame, the company, and you. "
"Looking at it now, do you think this place is very small?" Her gaze swept across the living room. "But the three of us would stay in this living room every night after dinner. You watch movies, he does mathematical modeling, and I always like to mess with him. I've liked to mess with him since we were young. There's no reason, I just think it's good. "
"When you came to Shanghai, I thought you would only stay for a while, but in the blink of an eye, it's been a year and a half. Actually, I was quite annoyed with you after that. Is it really good to stay in someone else's house so shamelessly? Hurry up and leave. If you leave, this will be our territory again. But when I think of you saying that your family forced you to marry someone you don't like, my heart softened. I've been so good to you … "Qin Bao Bao suddenly couldn't continue and stared at her." When did it start? "
Wang Zijin opened her mouth and answered honestly, "End of last year."
"End of last year …" Qin Bao Bao murmured and smiled sadly. "It's been almost a year. You've been hiding it from me for a year. It turns out that I've been fooled by you guys for a year like a fool."
"Bao Bao," Wang Zijin calmed down and said, "I confessed to him at the end of last year. I love him, I love him very, very much. I've never thought of snatching anything from you, but this is how a relationship is. It's wonderful, beautiful, and selfish. When I first met him, I didn't feel that there was anything about him that attracted me. In my heart, he was the younger brother of a close friend. He might be very interesting because in the three years of high school, my deskmate always talked about her brother. She always talked about how bad her brother was, but when she talked about him, her eyes were always gentle. I thought that this brother must be very interesting and very different. After I met him, heh, seeing him is not as good as hearing about him. In the beginning, he even showed his admiration for me, which made me feel a little annoyed. I thought to myself that if this brother of mine is like other men, I'll move out after I find a job. "
You might not believe it, but it was your brother who pursued me first.
"After getting to know him for a long time, I found that he was indeed different. He was obviously very talented, but he was very timid, as if nothing in the world could be difficult for him. He wanted to pursue me, but he didn't dare to take action. The longer we got to know each other, the more attracted he became to me. I was always so happy when I was with him. But do you know, the person who first made me have the idea of "trying to be his girlfriend" was not him, but you … "
Wang Zijin said in a deep voice, "You can't hide it from me. We've known each other for so many years, and we've slept on the same bed for so long. You've never hidden your feelings from me."
Qin Bao Bao looked at her in a daze. After a moment, she smiled bitterly. "You're right. I like him. No, I love him. No one in the world loves him more than me. "
This sentence was like thunder exploding in Wang Zijin's ears.
It was actually like this.
She had already guessed it, but when Qin Bao Bao said it personally, Wang Zijin's worldview was turned upside down.
"You … Do you know what you're saying?" Wang Zijin was shocked. "You're brother and sister. As the elder sister, how can you say such things?"
"Is it strange? It's quite strange. Maybe you'll think that I'm shameless to actually fall in love with my own brother. When she saw him chatting happily with another girl, her heart was filled with hatred. When I thought of him being intimate with another woman, or even getting married and having children, I felt like killing someone. There's no such elder sister in the world. " Qin Bao Bao leaned back and slammed into the sofa. It was as if she had fallen into the river of time for 20 years.
"When I was very, very young, I knew that he wasn't my biological brother. He and I accidentally eavesdropped on my mother's phone call, but we didn't know who the other child was. I was older than him, so I was more sensible. I scared him not to tell anyone about it. Just treat it as a secret. That way, we could still be a happy family. "
"He wasn't smart and was very ordinary. At most, he was good-looking. It was because he had such an excellent elder sister that his mediocrity was highlighted. However, he didn't hate his elder sister because of this. Instead, he cared for her and gradually accepted his mediocrity. Many times, my elder sister expected better from him. She hoped that he could pull himself together and become a boy with a temper. In the future, he would become a man with a temper. So I started to bully him, steal his things, and add insult to injury when my father beat me. "
"But he was still so good to my elder sister. When he gave his favorite toy to my elder sister, his timid eyes, like a deer's, deeply hurt my elder sister's heart. Azé was very timid when he was young. He only knew how to play behind me. He didn't dare to say anything when someone stole his mother's new pencil case in elementary school. He even had to ask his elder sister to help him get back at them. "
"One year, I was in the fifth grade and he was in the third grade. He was just a little kid. On our way home from school, a group of boys bullied me. They pulled my hair, stole my bag, and poured out all the books inside. They said that if I didn't want to be friends with them, they would cause trouble for me every day. One of them even lifted my skirt … All I could do was cry. No one came to help me. I couldn't count on anyone. Could I count on a brat in the third grade? "
"But do you know, when I was most afraid, it was this brat in the third grade. He stood in front of me and cried, telling me not to bully my elder sister. Then, he fought them to the death."
Qin Bao Bao's mind flashed with images of the past. In the image, the short kid fell down after being kicked and punched again and again. However, he gritted his teeth and stood up, fighting with the boys who were a head taller than him. He was clearly scared and wanted to call for his mother. However, he refused to back down. He gritted his teeth and fought with tears streaming down his face.
The girl behind him cried until her beautiful little face was ruined.
Even though more than ten years had passed, this image was still fresh in Qin Bao Bao's mind. It was one of the most precious memories of her and her younger brother.
"From that day onwards, my feelings for him started to change quietly. I didn't even notice it myself. After that, my younger brother's kindness to my elder sister was no longer pure familial love in my heart. It wasn't pure, but it was very sweet. He was always gentle and modest towards my elder sister. He let me do whatever I wanted and gave in to me. He often complained that his parents' doting caused me to develop a lot of bad habits, but he never reflected on himself. In fact, he was the one who doted on my elder sister the most. "
"All these years, my elder sister became more and more dependent on him. When she was at her most infatuated, she even felt that it was enough for her to have him in the world. Nothing else mattered. A few years ago, when he had his first girlfriend, he came back excitedly to show off to me. Do you know how I felt at that time? "
"It was painful. It was so painful that I wanted to die, just like today." Qin Bao Bao covered her heart and choked with sobs. "It was so painful that I didn't want to live anymore."
Wang Zijin was silent. At this point, all words were useless. She listened to the girl's endless recollection of the past, revealing her feelings honestly and affectionately.
It was a feeling that had been fermenting in her heart for more than ten years. The moment she opened the lid, what she smelled was not a fragrance, but a heart-wrenching pain.
Any words and excuses were suddenly pale and powerless in the face of this feeling.
At the same time, Wang Zijin finally understood why she was scared. She was the third party. She was abrupt and discordant in this love that shouldn't have been. It was so discordant that many times, even she herself felt that she was unnecessary.
So subconsciously, she felt that she should be scared.
"Zijin …"
Unknowingly, this heartless woman had tears streaming down her face.
Qin Bao Bao used an almost pleading tone. "Thirteen years. I loved him for thirteen years. That was my whole life. Please, give him back to me. Give him back to me … "
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