Just like how she felt guilty when she thought about what happened last night.
The stronger her feelings for him, the more uncomfortable she felt. It was very obvious. She knew the reason for this.
It was because of her father, because of what happened 20 years ago, and because of what happened to her mother. She had once intended to forgive him, but now, it had become a huge rock piled up between the two of them.
She wanted to love him with all her might, but when she thought of those things, she finally stopped.
Therefore, the discomfort, self-blame, and guilt formed an invisible barrier between the two of them.
Liang Feifan looked at her deeply. Finally, he got up and helped her close the car door. He walked a little further away to answer the call.
Bai Lu turned her head and looked through the car window at the man not too far away. His back was straight and he was wearing a black suit. It made him exude a calm and reserved aura. Such an outstanding man, no matter what he wore or what he did, even if it was just answering the phone, he would be a mesmerizing sight.
She used to be so happy that she thought it was the best thing she had ever done in her life to have such a man by her side. But it turned out that it was true that happiness was like walking on thin ice.
If she wasn't careful, that world would have long been turned upside down.
Liang Feifan hung up. When he turned around, Bai Lu didn't have time to look away. Their eyes met through the car window.
Bai Lu was a little flustered and instinctively looked away. Liang Feifan's eyes flickered. He put away his phone and got into the car.
He didn't rush to start the engine. After he closed the car door, he fastened his seatbelt. He seemed to pause for a moment before he reached out and grabbed Bai Lu's hand.
Liang Feifan's large palm held her small hand. His thumb gently rubbed the back of her hand. His burning gaze was fixed on her without blinking. His deep voice was a little hoarse.
He said, "Bai Lu, don't be afraid. I know how upset you are right now, so I'll agree to your request. Buck will be flying to England with you this afternoon. I've already arranged for someone to arrange things for you at SGA. "
"If you want to leave, I will fulfill your wish as long as you are happy."
Bai Lu subconsciously pinched his fingers on his knees. His eyes trembled, but he didn't say anything.
Liang Feifan let go of her hand and started the engine. As the car drove out of the villa, she heard him say, "I'll take you to see your mother now. She's already awake and is doing well. After you go to SGA, I'll get someone to take care of her. You can leave in peace."
…
Along the way, Bai Lu did not say a word. It was as if there was something stuck in his throat. It was too uncomfortable.
The atmosphere in the car was too stiff. Actually, both of them knew what the other was thinking. It was just that there were some things that were hard to say.
Liang Feifan rolled down the car window halfway and smoked a cigarette. Finally, he turned on the stereo. A hoarse female voice was singing —
"Thank you for making me love you so much. I don't need anyone to replace me anymore. Thank you for giving me this relationship. Thank you for making me discover myself. Thank you for making me love you so much. Thank you for making me love you completely this time. I want to selfishly have you, but love needs to be replaced by blessings. Why is the future in my fantasy suddenly gone? Should I bear the responsibility? This failure … "
…
"Can I love you again? I'll use all my strength. Even if it's just a blurry image before dawn, it's better than missing you forever …"
"Can I love you again? I'll use all my courage. Even if there's no way out and only a sacrifice, it's better than being lost alone."
…
Bai Lu's heart trembled, and she clenched her fists even harder due to the numbing pain. There was a moment of silence in the car, and the music soon came to an end. However, there was no telling if it was because they were too focused, but the lyrics seemed to have been imprinted in each other's hearts.
Liang Feifan moved his fingers. In the end, he turned off the stereo, rolled down the car window, and smoked another cigarette.
Bai Lu felt her eyes sting from the smoke. In the end, she couldn't help but say the next sentence.
"… Don't smoke."
Liang Feifan's fingers paused. He probably didn't expect her to say something like that. The wind outside the car window blew until only the cigarette butt was left. He quickly crushed the cigarette butt, nodded, and said, "Mm."
Maybe it was because she knew she was really leaving this time. Once she left, she would be gone for a year and a half. What would happen in the future? Right now, she couldn't think of anything. At this moment, there were some things that once said, she couldn't help but want to say more.
"… I can't take my mom away. Thank you for taking care of her."
"Bai Lu, she's my mom too."
When Bai Lu heard this, she felt even worse. When she opened her mouth, her voice sounded a little choked. "… Anyway, thank you."
"Don't thank me."
Liang Feifan furrowed his brows. He felt very upset. The two words "thank you" seemed to put a distance between them. "No matter what, it was Family Liang who let you down, so I should be the one apologizing to you. Bai Lu, I'll send you away for a year and a half. Study hard and don't think about anything else. Leave everything else to me. Buck doesn't have much to do during this time. He knows a lot of people from SGA. He'll be staying in England for a while. If you have any problems … If you don't want to look for me, you can look for him. "
Bai Lu bit her lip and nodded. Her eyes were stinging. She felt like she had to hold it in. She couldn't cry.
The car drove into the hospital's carpark. Liang Feifan parked the car. He saw that she kept her head down, but her emotions were tense. His heart ached. After he stopped the car, he finally reached out and squeezed her little hand. His low voice echoed in the small car.
"A year and a half, Bai Lu. Although I've always wanted to send you to SGA for a year and a half, I didn't want to hide it from you. The Liang Clan still has a lot of problems to deal with. You were quarantined for no reason because of SARS, and our first child … These things weren't coincidences. I was afraid that if you stayed by my side, you would be in danger before I finished dealing with those things. That's why I've always wanted to send you away. "
"But now, you're the one who said you want to leave. I know what you're thinking and why you want to leave. I have no right to stop you from leaving. So, I'm sending you away. When you're there, don't think about anything. Do you remember the letter I wrote to you? Bai Lu, in this year and a half, no matter what you hear or see, you just have to believe that I've always been working hard for our future. Believe me. "
…
He said, "I'll give you a year and a half. You said you wanted to take a breather, so I'll give you a little more time.
But in a year and a half, when you come back, I'll still be here waiting for you. During this time, I won't disturb you or look for you. But our marriage will always be valid. " "You, Bai Lu, will always be Liang Feifan's wife. When you come back, whether you can't figure it out or not, you have to stand by my side."
…
Chin Jin-hee's surgery was very successful. However, after the surgery, she had to undergo a long period of treatment. Moreover, she was getting on in years, so her recovery wasn't as good as when she was younger.
When Bai Lu came to see her, her head was still wrapped in gauze and her hair had been cut short. Because of the sudden car accident, she looked a lot more haggard.
But as long as his mother was still alive, Bai Lu was satisfied. Not everyone could escape death.
"Mom, I'll be leaving in the afternoon."
Chin Jin-hee didn't look surprised. She still had some difficulty speaking. Lying on the bed, she reached out to hold Bai Lu's hand and nodded. "Go to SGA. Go. I'll get better. I'll visit you then."
Bai Lu tried hard to hold back his tears. In the end, he couldn't help but let them fall. They landed on Chin Jin-hee's hand and he hurriedly wiped them away. "Mom, I'm sorry. I left you here alone. Do you blame me?"
Chin Jin-hee shook her head.
Bai Lu took a deep breath and sat on the edge of the bed. Then he said, "Mom, a lot of things have happened while you were unconscious. I know now isn't the best time to tell you these things, but I'll be leaving in the afternoon. If I don't tell you now, I don't know when is the best time to tell you. "
Her eyes were slightly red as she looked at Chin Jin-hee. These were the questions that had been bothering her. Before she left, she wanted to get to the bottom of the last demon hunter. "Twenty years ago, I found out the cause of my father's death. You've known all these years, haven't you?"
As expected, Chin Jin-hee was stunned for a moment. Her eyes flashed with obvious surprise and panic. This confirmed Bai Lu's guess.
However, she heaved a sigh of relief. At least the incident wasn't a big blow to her mother. She continued, "I've always wondered why you simply buried my father after he passed away. All these years, almost no friends or relatives came to pay respects to my father. But these few days, I finally figured it out. Mom, it's because my father's cause of death isn't simple, right?"
"Yes. Who told you all this?"
Chin Jin-hee's eyes flickered. She had always been a calm person, so she was able to maintain her composure. Also, because of her weak body, her weak voice seemed to cover all the turbulent emotions she was feeling. "Did Fei Fan tell you? He's investigating your father's cause of death? Or … Li Tanglin? "
"Fei Fan told me."
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