Seeing that Rozen had fallen into silence, Shi Nai could not help but feel impulsive.
Normally, Shi Nai would never show weakness in front of others like this, let alone a man she had only known in the game for a few days. He was a good prey for her, but it was impossible to show her weakness in front of him.
However, what happened today had finally broken the shell of strength in Shi Nai's heart, exposing her true self.
The real Shi Nai was not strong, calm, or heartless at all. Instead, she was a fragile girl who was manipulated by her own emotions and tortured by an unbearable past.
It was precisely because she was weak that she pursued strength.
It was precisely because she was weak that she pursued strength.
The so-called sniper Shi Nai was nothing more than a mask for Shiina Asada.
Now that this mask had been mercilessly torn off, everything about Shi Nai was exposed.
"Tell me … Tell me …!"
Shi Nai could not help but straighten her body with all her might. She reached out and grabbed Rozen's collar, shouting loudly.
"What should I do to be like you …!"
At this point, Shi Nai was no different from breaking down.
The fear, fear, and resistance to the past made Shi Nai's emotions completely go out of control, and she became blind.
Perhaps it was because Shi Nai sensed that her inner emotions were out of control, that the fear she had to bear had reached its peak, and that she could not bear it anymore. That was why she was like this, desperately pursuing strength.
For Shi Nai like this, the strength displayed by Rozen was her life-saving straw. She had to grab it, otherwise, she would not be able to hold on any longer, and she would no longer be able to hide her weakness.
The real power that could transcend the barriers between the imaginary world and the real world was right in front of Shi Nai.
And that was the goal that Shi Nai pursued.
To learn the calmness, coldness, and ruthlessness of a sniper in this world, and then use this to crush the weakness in Shiina Asada. This was Shi Nai's goal of constantly wandering in this world.
And Rozen was like Shi Nai. He had killed people with his own hands, but he could still be so calm and collected. In Shi Nai's opinion, it was because he was incomparably strong.
In order to suppress her own weakness, in order to control her own weakness, Shi Nai did not care about anything else.
So …
"Tell me!"
Shi Nai bit her lips so hard that if she were in the real world, her lips would have been bitten through.
Rozen looked at Shi Nai and sighed in his heart.
Why was this girl in front of him so stubborn? Or perhaps it should be said that she was paranoid?
Rozen wasn't sure.
However, Rozen knew that there was a reason for this.
The girl in front of him might have had an extremely painful and painful past, which led to her current obsession.
Rozen was certain of this.
Because Rozen had seen the same look too many times.
So …
"Although I don't know what's going on, if you're looking for an answer, I can tell you something first."
Rozen looked straight at Shi Nai and said.
"That is, you can't become like me. Give up on this unrealistic idea."
That one sentence crushed the impulse in Shi Nai's heart.
"There's … no way …?"
Shi Nai's voice was hoarse.
"That's right." Rozen said indifferently, "You're pursuing power and trying to use it to overcome something. But if that's the case, you shouldn't think about becoming like me. My power is something that belongs to me. No matter how much you pursue it, it's not yours. You've got the wrong person."
"Secondly, you've found the wrong way." Rozen looked into Shi Nai's eyes and said word by word, "Some things can't be overcome by becoming stronger. If you just want to suppress it by becoming stronger, you'll only suffer a greater backlash."
That was reasonable, wasn't it?
"Because you're just running away."
Rozen's words began to become merciless.
"You said I'm running away?" Shi Nai suddenly became angry and said loudly, "You don't even know me …!"
Before Shi Nai could finish this sentence, she was immediately interrupted by Rozen.
"Yeah, I don't even know what you've been through and what's the situation now. How much effort have you put in for this and how much have you sacrificed? How can you say you're running away?"
Rozen stared straight at Shi Nai and said this.
"But I still know that you won't be of any help like this."
There was no other way.
Shi Nai's current gaze was something that only a person who was forced to a dead end would have.
To have such a gaze, one didn't even need to think to know that she must have gone the wrong way. Otherwise, she wouldn't have reached a dead end and reached a dead end.
If that was the case, Rozen had to tell Shi Nai.
"Even if you become as strong as me, you can't overcome what you want to overcome."
Rozen shattered the only persistence in Shi Nai's heart.
All along, Shi Nai thought that as long as she defeated countless strong enemies in this world and controlled countless powerful guns, she could make her heart in the real world stronger and finally overcome the pain of the past.
For this reason, Shi Nai worked hard in this world for half a year.
Now, Rozen shattered this hope.
Moreover, he did it in the most direct way.
"If you don't want to admit it, then tell me."
Rozen's voice was clearly transmitted to Shi Nai's ears.
"You must have become much stronger than before in this world, but have you overcome what you want to overcome?"
The question that came from her soul made Shi Nai's eyes tremble violently.
Wasn't that the case?
Ever since she entered this game, Shi Nai had been getting stronger. She became stronger than she was yesterday, and she became countless times stronger than when she first entered this world. But in the end, did she overcome the pain of the past because of this in reality?
No!
Even now, Shi Nai still couldn't touch a gun, let alone see a gun. Even if someone used their hand to gesture a gun, she would suffer a mental impact, dizziness, vomiting, pain, and even fainting. There was almost no improvement.
Wasn't this proof?
This just proved one thing.
That was, Shi Nai was wrong.
Even if she could touch a gun in this world and could even calmly shoot a bullet into the enemy's head and kill them, it was only because everything in this world was virtual, and it didn't cause her mental trauma.
Once she encountered something real, Shi Nai's mental illness would still act up.
For example, when Rozen and Death Gun confronted each other, the atmosphere caused by the confrontation almost made Shi Nai act up.
Another example was in the warehouse, when real death approached, Shi Nai also almost lost control.
All of these were proof.
"Then what should I do … What should I do …"
Shi Nai seemed to have lost all her strength and fell into Rozen's arms.
"If this doesn't work … then I … then I …"
Shi Nai buried her head in Rozen's chest, and tears finally flowed down her face.
Rozen didn't disturb Shi Nai. After a sigh, he let her go.
A few seconds later, Shi Nai began to cry.
Her cries echoed throughout the riverbank.
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