— "Death."
This was not a strange thing to Shi Nai.
It was not that Shi Nai had experienced death, but death had always been by her side.
At first, it was her father.
Shi Nai had never seen her father's face.
When Shi Nai was two years old, her father died in a traffic accident.
That day, her father and mother took Shi Nai and the family of three went to her mother's hometown to celebrate the New Year. They drove to a county in the northeast. However, while the car was driving along the old single-lane road that extended along the slope of the hill, a big truck driving from the opposite lane did not have time to turn and directly crashed into the car.
At that time, the truck driver broke through the windshield and fell to the road, dying immediately.
The small car that Shi Nai was in, which was hit by the truck on the right side, went over the guardrail and fell down the hill. It was blocked by two trees before it stopped falling.
At that time, although her father, who was driving the car, was seriously injured and unconscious, he did not die immediately. Her mother, who was at the assistant seat, only had a simple fracture in her left thigh. The young Shi Nai was almost unharmed because of the seatbelt of the baby seat in the back seat, so she was not desperate.
Unfortunately, on that road, which was not often used, especially late at night, there were few people. Even the phone in the car was damaged because of the collision. It was not until the next morning that a car passing by the old road noticed the accident.
But that was already six hours later.
During those six hours, Shi Nai's mother could only watch from the side as her father's body gradually turned cold due to internal bleeding. Finally, he died because of it. Finally, his mind collapsed, and his mental age returned to that of a teenager before she met her father.
At that time, Shi Nai experienced the first death in her life that was closest to her.
The second death that was closest to Shi Nai happened five years ago.
At that time, her mother and Shi Nai had already left Tokyo and returned to her mother's family to live a simple life in the countryside.
Fifteen years had passed since that accident. Her mentally unstable mother may have only treated Shi Nai as a younger sister, but fortunately, she still loved Shi Nai deeply. Every night, she would read picture books and sing lullabies to her. So, in Shi Nai's memory, her mother always looked like a fragile girl who was easily hurt. This made Shi Nai often tell herself that she must be strong and protect her mother from the beginning.
For Shi Nai at that time, the outside world was full of elements that disturbed her mother's peaceful life, so she always thought that she must protect her mother.
However, this thought eventually created the current Shi Nai.
Shi will never forget that day.
That day, Shi Nai and his mother went to the post office together, but they encountered robbers who broke in.
At that time, the bandit was holding a Black Star.
The prisoner held such a gun and shot a post office worker who tried to call the police. Then, he vented his anger and pointed the gun at others.
Unfortunately, Shi Nai's mother was right next to him. Overwhelmed by fear, she screamed uncontrollably.
Hearing her mother's scream, Shi Nai almost subconsciously rushed up and bit the criminal's arm. In the struggle, she snatched the criminal's pistol and in the end, she shot the criminal.
Yes.
This was the death caused by Shi Nai's own hands.
Even though at that time, Shi Nai's mind was completely blank and she had a strong desire to protect her mother, which led to that action, Shi Nai did indeed pull the trigger again, again, and again, when the criminal charged at her angrily.
Afterward, the report said that the criminal died because the gun exploded.
As for Shi Nai, except for two broken teeth, two sprained wrists, a back injury, and a dislocated right shoulder, there were no other external injuries.
These injuries were quickly healed.
However, there were also injuries that could not be cured.
Since then, Shi Nai vomited or fainted whenever she saw a gun. Even when she saw a pistol on TV, in comics, or even with her hand, it was impossible.
As soon as she saw the gun, Shi Nai seemed to be able to see the man's face when he was killed by her. She saw the man with a bullet pierced between his eyebrows, smiling at her with blood all over, and her eyes wide open.
In other words, Shi Nai suffered from mental illness.
Post-Traumatic stress disorder.
This was the incurable injury that Shi Nai suffered from.
Shi Nai did not regret choosing to shoot at that time.
However, it was as if her body, heart, and spirit were not under her control. She could not bear to see guns and things related to them.
This made Shi Nai feel that when she said that she did not regret it, she was just saying high-sounding words. In fact, she had always regretted it. She should not have become like this in order to protect her mother.
The psychiatrists would only say things like "we understand you," but they could not make Shi Nai feel relieved.
Therefore, Shi Nai wanted to become stronger. She wanted to gain the courage to say things like "under those circumstances, it was natural for me to do what I did."
Under such circumstances, Shi Nai met Kyoji by chance. Under Kyoji's introduction, she entered GGO and was able to come into contact with guns again.
The magical thing was that perhaps the body in the imaginary world was virtual, or the feeling of touching a gun could not be completely recreated. In this world, when Shi Nai touched a gun, not only did she not have an attack, but she also liked several types of guns.
From that moment on, Shi Nai felt that as long as she became the strongest player in this world, she would definitely become stronger in the real world.
"As long as I continue to defeat enemies stronger than that robber, come into contact with guns more powerful than that Black Star, get used to them, and surpass them, then my experience in this world will definitely become a strengthening agent for my heart and spirit. It will allow me to surpass them in the real world and become stronger."
With such thoughts in mind, Shi Nai pursued a strong enemy almost to the point of paranoia. He used an anti-materiel sniper rifle as a weapon of mass destruction to strengthen his heart and spirit. One day, he would be able to affect himself in the real world.
But now …
"Dong dong … Dong dong … Dong dong …"
Shi Nai's heartbeat accelerated without limit, causing her breathing to quicken. Cold sweat flowed down her body, her body twitched, and her mind went blank. She was completely unable to control herself.
This feeling was exactly the same as when she came into contact with a gun in the real world.
However, this time, Shi Nai did not come into contact with a gun. Instead, it was because she felt the arrival of her third death.
Could it be that she would have to face it again?
Could it be that after the previous two times, he would once again welcome death?
But the first time, she was lucky enough to survive and let her father die. The second time, she tried her best to kill others so that she could survive. This time, who would be sacrificed?
Himself?
Or was it this young man who had come to save him?
If he could escape death this time, then wouldn't this young man in front of him die?
Killed by himself?
"No! Never! "
Thus, fear rose in her heart, causing Shi Nai to cry out.
"You … Hurry up and leave! Let's go! "
Unfortunately, Rozen turned a deaf ear to his words. When the durability of the dagger dropped to 12 points, he raised the dagger in his hand high up and chopped down with even more strength than before.
"Pa!"
With a crisp sound, the dagger cut through the chain.
"Bang!"
The durability of the broken chain was completely reduced to zero. It turned into polygon fragments and disappeared.
"Di!"
At this time, the countdown was — — "0: 02".
Rozen did not hesitate and directly hugged Shi Nai.
Not long after …
"Boom — — —!"
In the warehouse street, the sound of an explosion resounded, causing waves of fire to soar into the sky for a long time.
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