(Added chapter! Dedicated to the leader of zhvyhhOq, a chapter full of flowers and hugs. For the sake of Guoguo staying up late, you are not allowed to jump and read it. Do you hear me? Read it word by word for me.)
When Yu Shu heard Jing Chen telling her about the method to destroy a person's life, she had a vague suspicion. However, when she really heard the answer, she still found it hard to accept.
"It's you."
These were the most sarcastic words she had ever heard. She stared at Jing Chen's face, trying to find a trace of a joke on his face. However, his expression was full of guilt and regret, which made her heart sink little by little.
"Are you kidding me? How could I be the person who destroyed your life? If it was me, then why didn't you notice when I was with you for so long?" She asked with a stiff face.
Jing Chen looked up at her with a faint gaze. "It's really you, Xiaoyu. You know I never lie. This is a matter of life and death. If I'm not very sure, why would I say it so easily? There's no mistake. I saw your appearance in the Yellow Spring in the Earthly Altar of the Emperor's Mausoleum with my own eyes. This is the only way to identify a person who destroyed a life. How can it be wrong?"
Suddenly, she remembered the sudden storm on the day of the ancestral worship. Yu Shu finally could not help but take a deep breath. Her fingers tightened on the windowsill, and her face turned green. She had no choice but to believe what he said.
She was the person who destroyed Jing Chen's life, but it was really her!
This was really a big joke!
Just three months ago, his childhood sweetheart junior sister had wanted to kill her in order to sever their relationship, regardless of whether she was innocent or not. Just two months ago, the man in front of her had disregarded the friendship between them for the sake of morality and morality, and had righteously severed ties with her.
In the blink of an eye, she had become the person who ruined his life. He had turned around and said that he wanted to be her husband and wife. He had even given her a huge reason to not allow her to reject him. Moreover, it seemed that she was the only one who clearly remembered all those heartless and heartless actions!?
"Xiaoyu." Jing Chen looked at Yu Shu's changing expression under the dim candlelight. He could not tell what she was thinking and could not help but feel nervous. However, after confessing the truth, he felt a little relieved. He took a step forward and said to her bitterly,
"I've let you down before. You're right. I regret it now. Can you … can you forgive me?"
"Forgive you?" Yu Shu raised her voice. In this quiet attic, even the slight tremor in her voice could be heard.
"Why do you want to ask for my forgiveness? Just because I'm that bullshit Life Breaker. If I wasn't, would you still be standing here and saying this to me?"
"I, I …" Her straightforward questioning made Jing Chen speechless. He was not a person who was good at lying. In this situation, he did not even know how to find an excuse for himself.
"You won't!" Yu Shu gritted her teeth. The veins on her forehead were bulging. She said the pale truth for him, "If I wasn't the Life Breaker, you wouldn't care whether I would forgive you or not. For you, the important thing is who the Life Breaker is, not who I, Yu Shu, am!"
The name Life Breaker hid a heavy meaning behind it. It was like a huge mountain hanging over her head without any defense. As long as she thought about it deeply, Yu Shu's hair stood on end.
Why was Jing Chen intercepted on his way to the capital? Why was he buried with silver needles and abandoned in the river? Why was the person who was hanged on the observatory not long ago? Why was there a note pointing at Jing Chen? Why was there a plot against Jing Chen? She was confused for a while. Now, there was an explanation.
Because he was a great disaster. His existence affected the fate of this country. And the existence of the Life Breaker was related to his fate.
She had become the most crucial point, and also the most fatal point.
She coldly looked at Jing Chen, who was at a loss but unable to explain himself. She harbored a glimmer of hope and asked in a low voice, "Who did you tell about me being the one who broke your life?"
"The Emperor also knows about it." Seeing that Yu Shu's face turned pale, Jing Chen didn't dare to say more.
Yu Shu held a cold breath and said with difficulty, "Let me ask you. Have you ever thought that those who secretly hurt you wanted to hurt you because they knew you were a great disaster? Have you ever thought about why Cao Youling was killed?"
She used to be a top actuary in a company. She could accurately estimate the risks involved in an insurance company.
The person who plotted against Jing Chen undoubtedly had the intention of rebelling. And he was lurking in Anling City. He was so powerful that he could know the secret of the great disaster. He hid so deeply that even the royal family couldn't do anything about it.
There was such a hidden force who wanted to overthrow the imperial court and had infinite killing intent. If they knew her existence, she would be in great danger!
Taking ten thousand steps back, even if she could keep her life, she would not be able to control her life in the future. For that bullsh * t righteousness of the country, she had to marry Jing Chen and bear his children. What about Xue Rui? He was the man who moved her heart endlessly, the man who knew and understood her. Was she going to let his sincerity down?!
Yu Shu couldn't help but think of that night. Xue Rui stared at her with his dark eyes. Such a cunning and smart man respected and cherished her. Even when he hugged her, he was cautious and careful. He had seen her good and bad, insidiousness and selfishness, but he still loved her. The sound of his heartbeat still echoed in her ears. How could she give up?
Yu Shu had a hard time calming down as she thought about all the difficulties she was going to face. Her remaining rationality told her that Jing Chen had his own difficulties and that he had no choice. She shouldn't hold a grudge against him.
However, the reality in front of her told her that the man in front of her, who she had once risked her life to accompany, could abandon her because of a few lies in the past. Now, for the sake of the country, he could push her into the teeth of the storm!
She asked Jing Chen like this to see if he did it knowingly or just foolishly.
She admitted that she couldn't be cruel to Jing Chen. After all, he was the first man who was willing to sacrifice his life for her. How could she just let him go and not care about him at all?
If he was foolishly put her in such a dangerous situation, she could convince herself not to hate him for the sake of their past relationship. But if he did it knowingly, then she would never be softhearted!
"…" Jing Chen fell silent. He looked at Yu Shu's aggressive eyes. He seemed to be able to sense the anger and uneasiness that was emitted from her body because of him.
For the first ten years of his life, he had lived a life of lies. He had long been used to the arrangement of fate. When he first found out the truth, he also felt anger. But after the anger subsided, he still couldn't forget the fate that he was carrying. That was the mark that he was born with. Unless he died, it would always be there. He couldn't throw it away. He couldn't bear to hate it. Because his life existed because of this.
Thinking like this, his eyes that were so clear that people could see the bottom of his heart gradually darkened. It was as if the dust that was buried in his heart had floated to the surface.
"Miss Cao died because of me. The culprit hiding in the dark should know that I am the Great Calamity. He also knows that I am looking for the Fate Breaker. So he wants to act from my side. He wants to strangle the Fate Breaker in the cradle before I break the Fate Breaker. However, you don't have to be afraid. I've discussed it with Big Tipping. We won't reveal the fact that you're the Life Breaker. We've already found a substitute for you. Before we find out who's behind this, you won't be in any danger. "
Jing Chen's voice carried a hint of tiredness. After he finished speaking, he quietly looked at Yu Shu, waiting for her reaction. Only his white fingers under his sleeves revealed his nervousness.
And right now, because of his words, Yu Shu's face was filled with frost and disappointment.
He knew that it was not that he did not understand. But he still chose to push her out, regardless of whether she was willing or not.
Yu Shu's fingers scratched the windowsill behind her, but she didn't notice it. Only her little finger, which was broken because of him, could not be used to this day, but it gave off a stinging pain like ants biting it.
When she thought that her fate in the future would be controlled by others because of the three words "Fate Breaker", and it was the person in front of her who personally pushed her onto this path, how could she, who was proud and arrogant, accept it?
Her throat felt as if there was a mouthful of pus and blood. If she swallowed it back, she was afraid that a tumor would grow in her heart.
The endurance and unwillingness that she had been suppressing for Jing Chen after he recovered his memory finally erupted:
"Jing Chen, I don't think I have done anything wrong to you. I can give up this life for you because I thought you were worth it. But now — do you think you are worth it?"
Yu Shu couldn't suppress her anger and roared. In her previous life, she had died in a hurry and died without a cause. She deserved it. But in this life, she was able to keep her life. She cherished her life more than anyone else. She struggled to live until now, for herself, not for anyone else!
Why did he decide for her? Why did he think that she would understand? Why did he think that she should be that damned Fate Breaker!
The rise and fall of the Da An Dynasty, the lives of his sect elders, what did they have to do with her!
Jing Chen was stung by the aggressive look of Yu Shu. He did not know how many times he had seen her coldly frowning at others. But he never thought that one day, that person would be him.
In this embarrassing situation, his mind wandered. He easily recalled the days when he lost his memory. That smiling face that looked at him all day, and that kiss that gently fell on his cheek in the forest.
That lively and moving Xiao Yu, because of his betrayal, had become so cold.
"I have done wrong to you," His voice became hoarse. He still could not find a word to explain his difficulties. The only thing he could do was not to deceive her.
"Xiao Yu, I know that you no longer have any feelings for me. If I want you to marry me and have children with me, you will find it hard to accept. Don't worry, I will not force you. I will be good to you in the future, very, very good to you. I will let you fall in love with me again, and be willing to be a couple with me. I will protect you for a lifetime, and will not let anyone hurt you."
The promise he made sounded so ridiculous to Yu Shu. It was not that he had not said the same words before. But later, when he was faced with a choice, the person he let go of was her.
Although she was extremely angry, she surprisingly calmed down. After taking a few breaths, she swallowed the ridicule that was about to come out of her mouth —
Fall in love with him again? Impossible. She understood herself better than anyone else. She was a stubborn person. She would not shed tears until she saw the coffin, and would not turn back until she hit the wall. If it was not for the fact that Xue Rui would let her down in the future, even if Jing Chen twisted his head off for her to kick as a ball, she would not fall in love with him.
Even if Xue Rui let her down, she would not go back to him!
Yu Shu did not speak about Xue Rui out of impulse. Jing Chen could disregard her life and death for the sake of righteousness, but she could not use the person she loved as a shield because of selfishness. Moreover, this situation was very important. Even if it was Xue Rui, it was impossible for him to shake the emperor's heart. In this world, the emperor was the most powerful. For his family and country, he could turn anyone who stood in his way into a pile of bones.
"You should give up. If you want me to be your husband and wife, you might as well ask me to die. You can hold my urn and go to the heaven and earth to get married. Let's see if you can break your life." Yu Shu said coldly. She would not pretend to be subservient to Jing Chen just because her life was in someone else's hands.
Although Jing Chen had placed the matter of breaking his life at the forefront, his guilt towards her was the biggest trump card in her hand. When she could stand on an objective point of view and look at this person, she had nothing to be afraid of. As long as she had a sense of propriety, she could completely make use of his guilt.
"Xiaoyu, don't say things out of anger. You won't die. I won't force you. I can wait until the day you change your mind."
Her words stabbed at Jing Chen's heart. In addition to sadness and regret, there was also heartache. This cold-looking girl in front of him had suffered a lot for him. However, after he recovered his memory, everything he did made her sad.
"Ha." Yu Shu sneered. She closed the window behind her and picked up the candlestick on the coffee table. When she walked past him, she paused for a moment. She tilted her head and thought of a question. It did not take long for her to ask.
"You said that you found a substitute for me. Is it that Zhan Xueyuan?"
"… Yes." Jing Chen knew that Yu Shu had always been smart. He only said one thing, and she could guess two or three things.
After confirming that Zhan Xueyuan had become a target for her, Yu Shu did not feel very happy. On one hand, she was secretly glad that they knew to cover up for her. On the other hand, she felt a little sad. She hated Zhan Xueyuan, who was arrogant and proud. She had never thought of letting him take a knife for her.
However, she did not have the final say. She was in deep trouble. She could not even protect herself, so how could she care about others? As the saying goes, a dead friend does not have to die. At most, she did not want the three slaps and did not set a trap for Zhan Xueyuan. She could not do anything else.
There were still many questions in Yu Shu's mind, but she did not ask them all at once tonight. She carefully protected the candle in her hand and planned what to do next. She ignored Jing Chen's hesitation and went downstairs without looking back, leaving him in the dark.
Jing Chen stood in the same place and only turned his head to watch her leave. He did not stop her, nor did he chase after her. Listening to her footsteps, he thought back to her question just now.
Do you think you are worth it?
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