I have a Weibo account, Sina. I don't know what to do with it when I first set it up. I just write when I am free. This year, it has been running for a long time. One day, at the end of last year, there was a picture of a sexy woman in my WeChat Moments. I shared it with a smile, and many of my readers commented on it. The most serious person he followed had started a race. The best race of the day belonged to the most serious person, etc.
I suddenly felt strange. In all honesty, I had always thought that I was a soft person. Among my friends, I was known for joking around. But now, I was the most serious person. Looking back, I realized that most of my posts were serious. Because I was too serious, I did not have any sense of entertainment. Sometimes, it was too much to not be entertaining on the internet.
Why did it become like this? Thinking back, it was because of Lin Chong.
Lin Chong's plot line had been prepared when he was writing about Liangshan. The outline had been set for a few years, and there were no changes. This plot line was set up in a strange way. When he was alive, other than Liangshan, he did not have anything to do with Ning Yi. Of course, when the big picture became bigger, his plot line might become clearer. But that was a story for another time.
Lin Chong was the way of the world.
When I wrote these few chapters, Lin Chong was invincible. Some people clapped their hands. The way of the world was to rebel. It was easy to enjoy his invincibility. But what was the point of being invincible? His life had been completely ruined.
The way of the world was: When the question "Why me?" falls, there was no point in rebelling. There was no way to get it back.
In this world, we created the cause based on simple logic. But the effect was chaotic and random. In a bad society, the bad effects would fall on everyone. Even in a stable modern society, there were many people who were wrongly accused. Their lives were ruined because of a setback. It could be a malicious incident in the business world, a fight in the government, or even an ordinary person meeting a hooligan in a bad mood, and then meeting a police officer in a bad mood …
When the setback really falls, you would rebel against the society, and you would be crushed.
Humans only have one lifetime. In our lifetime, we might encounter one or two big bumps. Sometimes, it will completely change our lives. Those who hadn't encountered it mostly scoffed at it, saying that they would just perish together. They were brave, but among my book friends, there were quite a number of friends whose families had indeed met with trouble. Their parents were in debt, or they had gotten into a car accident, and they were treated unfairly. They told me on WeChat that they didn't perish together, and that they still had their families, parents, and friends … I said that this was a good thing, and it required a lot of courage, because I was sure that if you took another step forward, you would definitely not be able to bear the consequences. Even if you survived, you would have to live in hardship for the rest of your life.
Seeing this clearly, the only way was to do something before it happened.
However, the descent of misfortune is a kind of probability. It depends on the level of civilization of the entire society. Each of us bears a probability equally. If I do a good deed, it doesn't mean that my probability will decrease. Instead, the value will be evenly distributed among 1.4 billion people. This way, a hopeless number will be calculated. For example, if a person does a good deed for the rest of his life, he will be able to decrease the probability … It will be the average value, multiplied by 1 in 1.4 billion.
This is the limit that we ordinary people can achieve with all our strength. What's the point? There is no point at all.
However, this is the only thing that ordinary people can grasp.
After seeing this clearly, I actually don't have much of a sense of mission. Whether I do it or not, whether I take it seriously or not, it doesn't make much difference. The world doesn't have to wait for us to save it. However, it's strange. After thinking about this, every time I open my mouth, it feels like I'm looking at a fallen leaf. This fallen leaf, whether I pick it up or not, is just in passing. Even if I pick it up, it might have to be multiplied by hundreds of millions of denominators out of the one in 1.4 billion probability that I can achieve. However, this is the only thing that we can grasp.
Why don't we pick it up?
As a result, as long as I wasn't feeling particularly gloomy, I would actually pick up items every time. Every time I had to choose between entertainment and seriousness, I actually became very serious. After a long time, I became the most serious person on Weibo.
Every time, I wanted to speak seriously, but I couldn't be bothered to entertain myself. When it came to talking about society and patriotism, many people would use their butts to talk about it. This was very fun. In these carnival-like events, people would always be able to satisfy their feelings of "love". I was the only one who told myself that it would be meaningless if I wasn't rational. Then, I would seriously say something that I didn't like. I would say things that I didn't like in the slightest. I would say things that I didn't like in the slightest. I would say things that I didn't like. I would say things that I didn't like when I said that there were no problems with society. Then, I would seriously say things that I didn't like. I would say things that I didn't like.
Some people always think that people like me think too highly of myself because I want to save the country and the people. I write an article and say something about the Dao. I also say that this person is ambitious. In the years that I understood and didn't give up, I understood how insignificant I was. I didn't have the slightest bit of ambition. I was just casually picking up leaves from the ground. When I can say a few serious words, why not? If I can write something in the article and not starve to death, why not? A few years ago, when I went to fight against piracy, it was the same. Some people said that you can't stop piracy. I never thought that I could do anything.
I told myself that it didn't matter if I didn't pick them up. But when I thought about it that way, I picked them up most of the time. Because it didn't matter if I picked them up.
We can only hold on to the little we can.
I was extremely afraid that when the probability dropped, people would say, "Why me?" "At that time, the only dignified choice was to die.
Lin Chong was the Dao of the world. In front of the Dao of the world, I didn't want to lie. I didn't want to say that there was a way out. From the beginning, my description of him was that he was a self-destructive person who wanted to die. Why didn't he have any feelings for Xu Jinhua? Why did he feel guilty? Why did he seem numb to the child? Because his salvation was no longer in front of him.
He was an ancient person. He didn't have the ability to speak up and defend his environment. But in the end, he could see the only place where he could be saved. He held her hand and ran away.
That was his wife, Zhang Zhenniang. But he divorced her.
That was why his last chapter was called "Regret."
I was glad that we could at least reach out and pick up leaves.
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