Liu Changan was 18 years old this year.
He was the fiancé chosen by her great-grandfather.
He was knowledgeable, especially good at traditional literature.
He was good at appraising delicious food, which made Qin Yanan feel that he was her bosom friend.
His calligraphy was breathtaking.
He was good at both literature and martial arts. Even Pu Shougeng, a famous man in Jianghu, had no chance of winning in front of him.
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Liu Changan was 18 years old this year.
Qin Yanan glanced at her little cousin in front of her and shook her head. She had been mentally and physically exhausted recently, and was in a somewhat disordered state both physically and mentally. However, she felt much more at ease when she returned to Jun Sha. Although she did not like this city at the beginning, after coming back this time, her recent depressed state had eased a lot.
Especially when she was cooking this afternoon, she was in a very devoted and quiet state. She even looked forward to Liu Changan's comments. The feeling of being appreciated and recognized always dispelled a lot of darkness, negative, and debilitating energy that entangled her.
Thinking about it carefully, this kind of mood also made Qin Yanan a little confused. From May to August, she had known this little cousin for only three months. During this period, they did not meet too many times. When she was willing to obey her great-grandfather's instructions and manage a kind of ordinary relationship with her brother, there were not many psychological particularly intimate moments.
But in the end, their relationship became better. The main reason was that she had a kind of simple and appreciative good feeling for him. It had nothing to do with the love between a man and a woman. It was just an appreciation for an 18-year-old boy and a feeling that it was not bad to have such a brother.
That was all. But why did this not very deep emotional foundation become an oasis to ease her chaotic and depressed emotional state at this moment?
Generally speaking, when ordinary people encountered a crisis, their family, parents, the most trusted, loved, and respected people could give them a sense of peace and comfort.
Liu Changan, this 18-year-old boy, was not a member of her family, nor was he a close relative or loved one. Why would he ease her mood?
Even though at this moment, he had torn open the outer shell of her heart and directly exposed her secret, causing her to panic again, she unexpectedly didn't feel afraid or worried. Because there was a kind of trust that she didn't know where it came from. It made her feel that it didn't matter even if he knew the secret that she didn't want others to know.
In addition to Ye Sijin, Qin Yanan's dream also appeared a man, which Liu Changan did not guess. Qin Yanan did not know who this man was, but the gentle and casual impression of the man in the dream overlapped with the boy in front of her.
But he was only an 18-year-old boy.
The man in her dream had nothing to do with her. When she dreamed of him, she only dreamed of some scenes between him and Ye Sijin.
He was not an 18-year-old boy like Liu Changan. Some of the scenes where he and Ye Sijin were together made him feel ashamed and hot.
At first, the man and Ye Sijin appeared in the dream. Qin Yanan thought he was her great-grandfather, but obviously not.
Later, she thought it was Ye Chenyu, but Ye Chenyu was Ye Sijin's biological brother. How could he do those things that made people blush in their dreams?
Qin Yanan absolutely did not believe that these two seniors would be so ignorant of human relations.
Who was the man in the dream? Could it be that Ye Sijin had an unknown love history? This was possible. Qin Yanan would not think that it was a disgrace to the Qin family, as long as it was only before Ye Sijin and her great-grandfather talked about marriage.
But why did the image of the man overlap with Liu Changan … Qin Yanan was a little numb to this kind of doubt, because recently, she had accumulated too many doubts and mysterious phenomena that tortured people.
"Yes." Qin Yanan put down her chopsticks. It was as if she had finally removed all her disguises and was finally able to relax. She looked at Liu Changan calmly and said, "I feel that I will disappear sooner or later and become someone else who has long disappeared from this world."
"There may be some mysterious phenomena in you that are difficult to understand, but you will definitely be you and not another person." Liu Changan said with certainty.
Qin Yanan smiled bitterly. Although Liu Changan could see the problem in her, he did not know how serious it was.
"I know what you are worried about." Liu Changan's judgment was not disturbed by Qin Yanan's reaction. "If you are Qin Yanan, you will not become Ye Sijin."
"You probably didn't say it out loud, unless I'm Ye Sijin to begin with." Qin Yanan knew that Liu Changan was probably thinking of the same thing that she was worried about.
"Yes." Liu Changan nodded.
"I am Qin Yanan!" Qin Yanan pointed to herself excitedly. "I am not anyone else."
"Don't get excited." Liu Changan shook his head. "I know you are Qin Yanan. Who you are and what kind of existence you are, after all, only you can decide. The perception and label from the outside world about you are just a kind of auxiliary cognition, but these auxiliary cognition can strengthen your sense of existence as Qin Yanan."
"I just want to be myself. I don't want to become someone else. In your eyes, no matter what, I am still Qin Yanan, right?" Qin Yanan grabbed Liu Changan's hand and looked at him expectantly and nervously.
She was a poor girl who was very afraid of losing herself and losing her independent personality. Liu Changan looked at the back of her tender and white hand, but he didn't struggle away as he was used to.
"I don't think you will become Ye Sijin. You are just disturbed by the magnetic field left or recorded by Ye Sijin." Liu Changan would not believe in reincarnation, although the so-called magnetic field theory itself seemed to have scientific meaning, but in fact, it was just a simple explanation like "essence energy".
For example, many people couldn't understand why the earth revolved around the sun. When the concept of gravity appeared, people took it for granted. "Because of gravity."
For example, the phenomenon in Qin Yanan's body could be easily explained by randomly inventing a word like "gravity" before it was clearly studied.
This was the basic operation of a fraud, but there was no other way. To explain an unknown phenomenon in a scientific way, this was the best way.
"The magnetic field left or recorded by Ye Sijin?" Hearing Liu Changan's words, Qin Yanan's mood eased a lot.
"The last time you came into contact with the coffin, did you see a lot of scenes? That was the image of you after the magnetic field recorded it. "Liu Changan pointed at the coffin behind him.
Qin Yanan nodded slowly. "But before I started having the dream about Ye Sijin, and before I sleepwalked and imitated Ye Sijin, I didn't come into contact with this coffin."
"You didn't send it here?" Liu Changan shook his head. "You don't have to come into contact with it directly … Since you were responsible for transporting this coffin, it may have influenced you. The point is, why is this influence related to Ye Sijin?"
"Could it be …" Qin Yanan thought of an unbelievable possibility.
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