Now, Yao Haidong, the man who once had a crush on her, the man who wholeheartedly wanted Leng Hongyan to be a good general's wife, called her again. She really couldn't hide her emotions. She could only be a little more real in front of him. In front of others, even if it was her Little Fool, she couldn't cry or laugh so casually.
This life, it was really an awkward one. Why didn't she cherish the things that were so beautiful in the eyes of others? Was she really wrong? Was it because he didn't know the immensity of heaven and earth? Leng Mei had asked her heart many times, but she just couldn't get rid of her Little Fool. What should she do?
When Yao Haidong heard Leng Hongyan's words, he asked nervously, "Minister, did anything happen?"
When Leng Hongyan heard Yao Haidong being so worried about her, she immediately smiled and said, "Nothing. I'm just a little sentimental. "
"That's good. I'm relieved." Yao Haidong said with a long sigh of relief, as if everything about Leng Hongyan really involved him. This really moved Leng Hongyan. At least she still had a friend that she could trust and rely on.
"Haidong, I don't want to exchange for Xiao Liu, and I don't want to exchange all my freedom. I want to have a showdown with the old man. I have to go back to officialdom. Without my job, I will grow old very quickly. Moreover, I have to stay with the old man every day. He will get tired of me sooner or later. Haidong, do you understand what I'm saying? " After all, Leng Hongyan was still a person with emotions. When she was touched, she told her true thoughts to Yao Haidong.
Hearing that, Yao Haidong was totally dumbfounded. The thing that he was most afraid of and worried about was finally brought up by Leng Hongyan. Grandpa made it clear that he needed Madam's company and care. Of course, what he needed most was peace and silence in the backyard. How many successful men were willing to see their wives show up in public? What's more, he was stepping into the officialdom again. No matter what level he was at, there were always undercurrents and high risks. In such a circle, would Old Master Ji be willing to let Leng Hongyan out? However, Leng Hongyan was not a person who valued fame and fortune above everything else. Such a person was more difficult to deal with than someone who needed fame and fortune. In order to hold on to her feelings for Song Lihai, she had lived as an underground couple for more than ten years. There must be a side of her that held on to her feelings, and this side could not be changed by any force.
Seeing that Yao Haidong didn't say anything, Leng Hongyan couldn't help but say, "Do you men all think that I'm luckier than winning the lottery? Do you think that I don't know the immensity of heaven and earth? Do you think that I'm too greedy and want everything? You might even scold me in your heart for being such a jerk. In the eyes of men, once a woman is over thirty, especially from one to forty, she basically has no chance. She basically has to stay at home to take care of her husband and children, and she has to know her place. If she doesn't know her place, she will be sent to hell by you men. This is too scary. I understand more and more why Wu Zetian wants to hold on to power, even at the cost of her own daughter's life. In a society that is dominated by men, if she doesn't have power, she won't have everything. How can she talk about happiness? "
Leng Hongyan's tone was emotional again, so Yao Haidong had no choice but to speak. He said, "Minister, fate is often like this. When two people's lives overlap, it is the moment when two straight lines intersect. In the end, these two straight lines will separate. Some were separated midway, while others were separated by death in the end. No matter how they separate, they will separate.
Since two people have to separate sooner or later, why not let fate arrange it? Minister, I think so. It's not that it's bad for you to return to officialdom, but Old Master Ji has clearly expressed his hope that you will stay by his side. He needs you. And he truly loves you. Being loved by someone is a kind of happiness in itself. Why do you want to return to officialdom to suffer?
You also know that officialdom is a circle for men. Why do you want to fight to the death with men? After all, time waits for no man. We are already middle-aged. What else can't we let go? Besides, middle-aged people look at things and problems rationally. We can't be like young people who fantasize about the future, the world, and especially love, as if it's heaven, right? And who knows what heaven is like? Maybe there's nothing in heaven. Maybe heaven is worse than hell.
So, Minister, I personally think that young people can do it, but when they get older, they will become poor people, and it will be strenuous and unrewarding. And at our age, we can't afford to do it. We can't go back. We need to take one step at a time, and we are not allowed to go wrong.
This is how time teaches people, from childhood to adulthood, and then to middle age and old age. When you reach a certain age, you should think about the things and problems of that age. This is the right kind of life. How many people will be happy in a misplaced life? Where can we find happiness? "
Yao Haidong sighed as he spoke. The more he acted like this, the more uncomfortable Leng Hongyan felt. At the end of the day, they couldn't accept her returning to officialdom. But she couldn't tell Yao Haidong that she was afraid of the process of making love with Old Master Ji, even if it was only a few minutes, and even if it was warmed up, it was at most half an hour. But women are not men. Women care too much about their inner feelings, and fantasize too much about the existence of a prince charming.
Whether it was a princess's woman or a Cinderella's woman, they all have a prince charming candidate in their hearts. Once this candidate is put in place for a specific man, it will be the love that women long for. And once love blossoms, how many women are willing to strangle the blooming flower?
In fact, women clearly know that no matter how beautiful the blooming flower is, there will come a day when it will wither. Women also know that the so-called romantic love is simply a fantasy to make themselves happy. When we praise the romantic love between San Mao and He Xi, when we sigh that San Mao committed suicide for love, how many people truly understand San Mao's true heart? After she met He Xi, she once chased after Luo Binwang for a period of time. In such a beautiful place as Xinjiang, she left behind her pursuit and yearning for love.
In the yearning for love, there is an essential difference between women and men. But on this point, she and Yao Haidong couldn't clearly explain it, and they couldn't say it out loud.
Marriage is like shoes, only one's own feet know whether it is suitable or not. What outsiders saw was only the difference between expensive and cheap shoes.
This point, Leng Hongyan also felt so deeply after experiencing it. She fully thought that with the title of General's wife, she would be satisfied with all the glory this title brought her. But her tears, her intolerable old man's aura from Old Master Ji's body, she couldn't surpass it.
Even though Leng Mei also knew that she would grow old, and one day, she would also have old man's aura, but now she couldn't contain this General, this man who was incomparably dazzling in the eyes of outsiders. That kind of withered rotten wood always made Leng Mei have nowhere to hide except to escape. The most terrible thing was, the Little Fool she loved needed her to make a deal, and the Yao Haidong who loved her also needed her to make a deal. How did she suddenly become the center of the deal? Was being the General's wife destined to be associated with this and that kind of deal?
Yes, when she was waiting for the official title of General's wife, did she ever think about the price of this title?
Leng Hongyan was not reconciled. The world was already so rotten, she didn't want to continue to be so rotten in her lifetime. Her unwillingness was getting stronger and stronger. She knew that this had nothing to do with love, this kind of unwillingness was the helplessness and speechlessness towards the whole male power society. She used to be such a timid and helpless woman, and once played the role of a mistress to the fullest. But today, when the role of General's wife hit her, did she still have to continue making deals?
Leng Hongyan was extremely unhappy, but she tried hard to suppress her emotions and said to the phone, "Haidong, I think I understand the logic. Also, men have always thought of a woman as long as they give her enough food and clothing, and also give her the title of Madam. Then, she would have to be grateful, and she would have to live a life of only men and a man's world. Is this fair? Tell me, if I live like this, what's the difference between me and dying? I also know that no matter how much two people love each other, there will be a day when they break up. But until that day comes, how many women will be willing to let go? After letting go, her whole world will collapse, do you understand? "
When Leng Hongyan's questioning sounded, Yao Haidong's brain instantly became chaotic. How could this be? Why did she still want love and not the General's wife? This was a huge danger, and it was a terrifying direction.
At this moment, Yao Haidong suddenly felt a lingering fear in his heart. It was a feeling of extreme helplessness.
If Leng Mei had never known Old Master Ji, if she hadn't aroused the love of this powerful man, her thoughts would just be thoughts. But the problem was that she occupied this man's heart, or she had seduced this man's heart. How many men who were seduced by a woman would let go of this woman? Men were despicable. The more they couldn't have a woman, the more they wanted to have her. The more they couldn't pamper a woman, the more they would pamper her.
In the Tang Dynasty after Li Shimin, there were three thousand beauties in the harem. Li Zhi clearly knew that Wu Zetian, as a little maid, couldn't be pampered, but people were strange. The more they couldn't have, the more they wanted to possess. Therefore, from a little maid to a favored concubine, to an empress, and then to an empress, it could be said that Li Zhi single-handedly built this great platform for Wu Zetian. Didn't he know that Wu Zetian couldn't be pampered? But it felt like he had to pamper her. The current Old Master Ji was like this. He clearly knew the entanglement between Leng Mei and Liu Lihai. This, Yao Haidong believed, such a shrewd Old Master Ji couldn't not see it. But this, this old man was willing to tolerate and even ignore it. When he traded with Leng Mei, it was enough to prove that he didn't want to let go of Leng Mei. He had to monopolize this woman.
Because it was impossible for Old Master Ji to let go, and because of Old Master Ji's exclusive love, Yao Haidong was even more afraid. If he didn't play it well, not only would Liu Lihai disappear, he might not be able to escape bad luck.
After the fear, Yao Haidong still wanted to make one last effort. He said very seriously to the phone, "Minister, I can understand your thoughts. But life is always a very tiring thing. Living is tiring. Maybe it's not tiring when you're young, but it will be more tiring when you're old. Maybe it's tiring now, but it won't be tiring when you're old. Besides, many times, without you, others may live better.
So, you have to let go when it's time. And Old Master Ji, one day, he may leave one step ahead of you. But when he's alive, he can give you a lot. Even if one day, he wants to leave, he can arrange a lot for you. If you don't stick to such a person, what else can you stick to? Some things, if you think too much, you'll have a headache, but if you think it through, you'll feel heartache. Just don't think about it, close your eyes and live. When the days are clear, your heart will also be clear. "
Yao Haidong said a lot of truth, but Leng Hongyan's ears were full of noises. She seemed to hear Yao Haidong's words clearly, but also seemed to not understand a word. She was very confused now. She knew that she couldn't persuade Yao Haidong, Liu Lihai, and Old Master Ji, but she still wanted to fight for it. Even if she could fight for a little reason and support, she would be comforted at this time. However, she found that she couldn't fight for it, and it was impossible to fight for it.
"Haidong, I understand. That's all for today. "Leng Hongyan said politely and hung up the phone. She hung up the phone, but Yao Haidong's heart was beating fast. She finally didn't listen to his words. Did she really want to take this step? Not to mention that she couldn't walk out, it was very likely that she would lose everything. The price was too high. But he couldn't stop her. Once a woman went crazy, she didn't care about the consequences, and there were no consequences to speak of.
With this thought in mind, Yao Haidong hurriedly dialed Liu Lihai's number. Liu Lihai was in the office reading documents. There were a lot of documents that had been pushed back. When he saw Yao Haidong's call, he picked up the phone and said, "Hello, Brother Yao."
"I'm not good." Yao Haidong said with emotion.
"Brother Yao, what's wrong?" Liu Lihai's heart was shocked, but he still asked carefully.
"The minister's work can't be done, and she seems to have thrown caution to the wind. She must return to officialdom. Xiao Liu, you have to think of a way. This is not a joke. Old Master Ji won't agree to it. If she does this, the risk is great, do you understand? Now, she probably still listens to you. You must make haste and do her work. This is no joking matter. No matter what happened between the two of you in the past, now you are just a sister and a brother. You can only be a sister and a brother. You must become a solid family, and it can only be family. Do you understand? "Yao Haidong said so on the phone.
Liu Lihai was originally annoyed reading the documents, but when he heard this, he felt a headache. He said helplessly, "Brother Yao, I understand. But if she is willing to listen to me, she won't be so determined to return to officialdom. At this time, if I force her, it may backfire. "
As soon as Liu Lihai finished speaking, Yao Haidong asked, "What does she want?"
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