Leng Hongyan noticed that Liu Lihai didn't look at her, so she smiled and said to Yao Haidong and Zhu Dejiang, "It's always awkward for a bride at such an old age."
Liu Lihai still heard what she said. He looked up at Leng Hongyan, but he still didn't say anything.
The meal was finished very quickly. There was a feeling of eagerness to go back to his own life. And this feeling was what Liu Lihai thought he needed the most. Besides, Beijing was a place that made him sad. Was there any meaning for him to stay any longer?
After the meal, Yao Haidong, Zhu Dejiang, and Ma Jinxiu went upstairs to tidy up their things. Everyone did this intentionally. They all gave Leng Hongyan some space. However, when Liu Lihai wanted to leave, he was stopped by Leng Hongyan's eyes. After they left, she asked, "Am I that scary?"
"No, Sister Leng, I, I," Liu Lihai stuttered. He really felt awkward staying here.
"What did Old Master say to you?" Leng Hongyan asked directly.
Liu Lihai knew that Leng Hongyan would ask this question, but he didn't expect her to be so eager.
"Didn't Old Master mention it to you last night?" Liu Lihai asked back.
"Of course he wouldn't mention it when we were in that situation yesterday." Leng Hongyan was also a little embarrassed. After all, she was married, and she let this Little Fool witness her wedding. Moreover, it was on the same day as the woman he loved the most. She could understand his drunkenness last night. But even though she understood, she still hoped that this Little Fool could listen to her and get close to her.
Leng Hongyan didn't know what other women thought, but for her, she wanted to have a family and a power that could protect her from behind, but she couldn't bear to lose her dream of love. In a sense, Liu Lihai was her dream of love. She needed this dream to exist in her life and to exist forever.
If he didn't have a fantasy and desire to possess this Little Fool, Leng Yanhong truly felt that there was no meaning in having this general. Besides, sex is a physical life, obeying the pleasure principle. Love is a spiritual life, following the principles of ideals. Marriage was a social life, and it followed the principles of reality. These are three very different things, and the difficulty of marriage is how to unify them in the same person of the opposite sex. "She did not know where she had read these words, but she had been pretending. However, she had never been able to find a husband who was a combination of all three. Ever since she became a mistress, she probably couldn't find a man who was a combination of all three?
Sometimes when Leng Hongyan looked at her own life, she had a feeling of sadness from the bottom of her heart. In fact, she yearned for the life of an ordinary woman, trying to unify the three. But she had always lived in a state of extreme division. Love was the theme that she had yearned for since she was sensible. This theme had always followed her, like a curse, she couldn't get rid of it. Now, she had become a real general's wife, but she still didn't want to give up her love. Because of this, she once again fell into a greater division of life.
Of course, Liu Lihai saw Leng Hongyan's awkwardness, but what could he say at this time? He wanted to ask about the situation of the Liu Family, which was a knot in his heart that he couldn't let go, but he couldn't ask, especially not at this time. So, he wanted to leave Beijing, wanted to leave these people and things that made him entangled.
In the past, Liu Lihai had a big dream. He thought that once he entered the officialdom, he would definitely be outstanding, he would definitely benefit the people, and he would definitely be able to guide the country. But the helplessness of the reality made him have a feeling of escaping again and again.
"A dream is actually just a stunning prostitute. After she squeezes everything out of you, she will abandon you and climb into another person's bed. This is the fate of all those who are unwilling to be mediocre. And what we can do is to enjoy her while she is still in our bed. " This was said by the female boss in Beijing who took away his virginity. At that time, Liu Lihai didn't agree with this sentence at all. Only now did he understand that the female boss was someone who had been through it and clearly understood what life was all about.
"Say it." Leng Hongyan stared at Liu Lihai and urged.
"He said that you can't participate in politics anymore, otherwise …" Liu Lihai looked at Leng Hongyan, thinking about how to say the next sentence.
"Otherwise what?" Leng Hongyan was anxious.
"Otherwise I will no longer have the possibility of being promoted." Liu Lihai made the problem a little more serious, but his eyes were fixed on Leng Hongyan, as if he wanted to find what he wanted from her face.
"He really said that?" Leng Hongyan stared at Liu Lihai in disbelief.
"Since you don't believe me, why are you asking me? Of course, you decide for yourself. It really doesn't matter if I'm promoted or not. " After Liu Lihai suddenly said this, he wanted to leave the restaurant and end the time alone with Leng Hongyan.
"Little Fool," Leng Hongyan called with emotion, which made Liu Lihai's heart tighten.
"I know you're sad, not only because of me, but also because of Sun Xiaomu. You went to see her last night, right? Last night was my big day, but last night I kept thinking, will you go to see her? Would he run away with her? Every time I thought about it, my heart would ache. I also know that I shouldn't be like this, especially on my big day. But my heart doesn't follow my thoughts, and I don't feel like I can control it.
In a sense, we are a pair of people in the same boat. You want to take Sun Xiaomu away, but you don't have the ability. I want to dominate you, but I don't have the ability either. The old man is a kind of leverage that I need. Only in this way can I make you need me, and only then can I have the meaning and value of my existence. I know it's stupid for me to do this, but tell me, if I don't do this, will there still be a possibility for me to exist for you? " Leng Hongyan actually said these words, and these words were her true feelings. Liu Lihai wasn't a fool, and he heard it clearly.
Because Liu Lihai knew very well that his Sister Leng said these words from the bottom of her heart, he didn't know how to face her. To her, he really needed more than he loved her. And the person he really wanted to love was still Sun Xiaomu, the Little Wood who was willing to marry a vegetable. He couldn't take her away, not because he didn't want to, not because Little Wood didn't want to, but because he and Little Wood didn't have the qualifications and power to elope. Where should they go? Other than going to heaven, where they could hug each other, was there any other place where he and Little Wood could exist? Was there?
"Sister," Liu Lihai called very sadly, and then looked at her face that was still radiant, still as beautiful as a young girl, and said, "Sister, I'm really touched by everything you've done for me, and I'm touched by your selfless help time and time again. But today, we can't go back, we can never go back … "Liu Lihai grabbed his hair again in pain. He couldn't even deal with Meng Anda, let alone Old Master Ji who held military power. Did he dare to snatch Old Master Ji's woman?
"Lihai," Leng Hongyan suddenly called Liu Lihai's name. Liu Lihai put down his hand that was grabbing his hair and looked at Leng Hongyan. There were actually tears in her eyes. At this time, Liu Lihai was definitely lying if he said that he wasn't touched at all, and that he wasn't bitter at all. He was always more touched than this woman, and the most vulnerable side of his heart was always grasped tightly in the palm of this woman's hand. This, Sun Xiaomu couldn't afford to give, and this always made him waver between these two women.
"Sister, please, don't say this, okay? I'm really sad. "Liu Lihai wanted to escape, to run far away. As long as he escaped the capital, as long as he didn't see these two women again, as long as he could return to Lin County, and quietly heal his wounds, he would be satisfied.
Other than licking his own wounds, and watching the wounds heal with a strong smile, did Liu Lihai have any other way to go? The two women in his life didn't belong to him on the same day. They needed him and loved him on the same day. But he couldn't choose. What kind of cruelty was more painful than this?
Liu Lihai couldn't escape, and his Sister Leng wouldn't let him go. She asked again, "Then tell me, what did Old Master Ji say?" Leng Mei went back to the beginning of the problem.
"Sister, he said that he was old, and he needed a wife, a family, and a woman's care and consideration. He didn't need a female official who participated in politics. Sister, if you really care about me, please don't think about going back to Jingjiang's officialdom, okay? If you really want me to be successful, let me be the secretary of the Great Secretary smoothly, okay? Old Master Ji said that whether I can be the secretary of the Great Secretary depends on whether you can stay in Beijing.
Sister, you're right. We're in the same boat. I don't have the ability to take Xiaomu away, and you don't have the ability to take me away. So, sister, let me go, okay? Help me for the last time, okay? "Liu Lihai looked at Leng Hongyan and begged.
Tears still flowed from Leng Hongyan's eyes. Yes, she loved this little man with all her heart, but what about him? And what about him?
"Sister, don't cry, okay? Don't be like this, okay? " Liu Lihai went to get a tissue, but Leng Hongyan walked out of the dining room first, as if the tears on her face were not important. Her heart really hurt. Could she let him go? This little man asked her to let him go again, and she had to help him again at the same time. Could she do that?
Leng Hongyan was afraid that she couldn't see this little man, but this was the result she saw. Although she should have guessed that Grandpa Ji was exchanging something, she didn't care what he did. What she wanted was the man's attitude and his sincerity towards her. She didn't care about it at all. She wanted the man's attitude and sincerity.
Leng Hongyan felt funny at this time. Yes, this little man clearly loved Sun Xiaomu. It was obviously her wishful thinking, but why did she keep giving, keep trying to get him, keep controlling him? Was she playing with fire, or had she always been a loser?
"Sister," seeing Leng Hongyan walking forward, Liu Lihai caught up with her and called.
"I'll see you off," Leng Hongyan said lightly.
"Sister, you promised to stay in Beijing with Old Master Ji?" Liu Lihai asked.
Leng Hongyan wanted to look back at this little man again, but she didn't have the courage. She didn't want to see his eyes that disappointed her. She didn't want to see that he only needed and used her. Although she clearly knew that her existence was the result of this little man, she didn't want to see such an expression so real. Such an expression was too cruel to her.
Leng Hongyan didn't respond to Liu Lihai, which made Liu Lihai's heart sink. She didn't agree? Is her love for me just a superficial? This thought suddenly made his heart blocked again. He should have acted. He should have let her see that he cared about her and hated Sun Xiaomu. He should have done this.
Liu Lihai regretted that he shouldn't have told the truth. The truth was always hurtful. Leng Hongyan told the truth because she had emotional needs for him, and he had to give her such a signal. But he admitted that he couldn't take Sun Xiaomu away, instead of admitting that he couldn't take her away. Which woman could accept such a truth? How could she continue to give?
"Stupid." Liu Lihai scolded himself in his heart. If he wanted to continue on the road of officialdom, no matter how touched he was, he couldn't show his true heart. At this time, Liu Lihai knew that he was wrong again, but he couldn't explain again. If he explained again, it would be more self-defeating.
The silence made the two people unable to speak except for the sound of footsteps. But Liu Lihai obviously didn't want to break this silence. If Leng Hongyan decided not to help him anymore, anything he said at this time would be in vain.
Let's wait and see, one step at a time. At this time, Liu Lihai thought of the method Leng Hongyan taught him before.
？ Leng Hongyan waited for everyone at the entrance of the hotel. Liu Lihai simply packed up and went downstairs. Yao Haidong sat next to Leng Hongyan. Liu Lihai, Zhu Dejiang, and Ma Jinxiu sat behind them. Leng Hongyan just chatted with Yao Haidong and didn't pay much attention to the three people behind them. But Liu Lihai was very clear that he still hurt Leng Hongyan.
Liu Lihai just looked out of the window silently. When he saw the buildings passing by and out of his sight, an indescribable sadness surged in him. This city didn't belong to him, but did this city belong to Sun Xiaomu?
At this time, Sun Xiaomu, Meng Anda, Sun Honghui, and the people of the Liu family gathered in the doctor's office. Liu Yuanyuan hadn't woken up yet. The top neurosurgery professor was also invited. After analyzing Liu Yuanyuan's injury, they all suggested that he should be observed again. No one could give a clear definition.
In addition to trying to comfort the Liu family, Meng Anda and Sun Honghui paid special attention to Sun Xiaomu's behavior. Because of the sudden appearance of Liu Lihai, they were very worried that Sun Xiaomu's mood swings would be seen by the Liu family. In this current situation, everything was because the Liu family had let Sun Xiaomu down. Therefore, as long as Sun Xiaomu pretended to get through this period, if Liu Yuanyuan didn't get better, Meng Anda believed that the Liu family would take the initiative to terminate the contract. This was what they wanted. However, this step needed to be waited. What Meng Anda was most afraid of was that Sun Xiaomu wouldn't be willing to wait for this day to come. After all, she didn't love Liu Yuanyuan. Moreover, Liu Yuanyuan made her suffer such a big blow at the wedding. She wouldn't have feelings for this man. Meng Anda was very clear about this. The more it was like this, the more worried he was that Sun Xiaomu's mood swings would be discovered by the Liu family.
Liu Jingming and his wife were already exhausted. They never thought that such a grand wedding would end with one death and one injury. What made them feel guilty was Sun Xiaomu. She had been quietly staying in the hospital. She didn't cry or speak, as if she had become a wooden figure.
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