Sisi's heart was in a mess. Her father was a man who couldn't leave a woman. He hurt her mother, hurt himself, and hurt her even more. He made her live a life that didn't exist at all in these twenty years. She was far less real and trustworthy than Ma Yingjie. Ma Yingjie walked step by step from the soil. He had no background, but he relied on his own hands to create a life, a future, and more needs.
Sisi didn't hate Ma Yingjie anymore. She shouldn't hate Ma Yingjie. The money her father took didn't belong to her family. The money that didn't belong to her family should be returned. A lot of that money was stained with other people's blood and sweat. It was a corrupt official like her father who robbed other people's blood and sweat. She didn't want to use the word "corrupt official" to describe her father. But in fact, her father was just an image. If she stayed in China, she would be pointed at by many people behind her back. A daughter of a corrupt official.
Now, it was Ma Yingjie who saved her and her mother. It was Ma Yingjie who destroyed her dream. When she was twenty years old, the destruction of her dream was a good thing for her. It was something that she could still save in time. If another ten years, or even another fifteen years, when her father's crimes were exposed, would she still have the fighting spirit she had now? Would she still dare to have the fighting spirit?
Twenty years old was a beautiful age. When the dream was broken, it could be started again. When the dream was broken, it could be done again.
Ma Yingjie also hugged Sisi tightly. As long as he could send the mother and daughter safely away again, as long as they went to another country smoothly, his worried heart could finally be at ease.
Ma Yingjie didn't expect that he would meet Sisi at the age of thirty and have such a love with Sisi. Although it was painful, although it would end in failure, he had experienced a love of life and death.
Although love could only contain feelings, it was as pure as a laser and as gorgeous as a laser. Lu Xun once said that love needs to be constantly renewed. When two people came together, their feelings, perceptions, and positions might be coordinated. Some of this coordination was obvious, and some were only subconscious. In the non-stop process of life, if both sides kept up with the times at different speeds, the original coordination might be broken after a long time. Updates are meant to maintain coordination and establish new, broader coordination. A soul that is not nourished by love is lonely and lonely.
Ma Yingjie, on the other hand, had been living a life without love for as long as thirty years. She had been chained up by the shackles of marriage. He used to think that living was everything. He used to think that men and women should live their lives peacefully. It was not until Sisi's appearance that Ma Yingjie realized that there was actually a very beautiful and passionate feeling. It turned out that a man could be so worried about another woman.
Sisi, who was in Ma Yingjie's arms, had softened into a ball of water. Ma Yingjie wanted so much to drink this ball of water, so much that this ball of water would be his, and it would brighten up his future life.
When Ma Yingjie thought of this, he smiled bitterly. He turned Sisi's face and stared at it closely. This face was so young, so lonely, so helpless, and so reluctant to part with it. Ma Yingjie looked at Sisi as if he was thinking about a math problem in a book. This made Ma Yingjie think of a passage from a book: "In fact, women are all math problems. Some women are algebra, they only need to figure out plus and minus. Some women are like functions, they have many variables. Once the domain of definition changes, they will change. " For an innocent girl like Sisi, she only knew algebra and plane geometry. She only needed a few lines to solve it. At times like this, she needed to be more attentive and needed more care.
"Actually, men are also like math. Status is the vertical axis, money is the horizontal axis. In these coordinates, women draw curves according to their needs. The relationship between men and women is more like calculus … "Ma Yingjie also read this theory from a book. But at this time, he had already walked into the marriage that An Qi had created for him. He no longer had any distracting thoughts and wanted to stay with An Qi and live a good life with his son. However, he still did not understand women. He was still chased out of the house by An Qi. It was not until he met Sisi that Ma Yingjie felt that his dormant feelings had awakened. He had lived all these years in vain. Sisi was the other half of his life. But now, this other half was also going to leave. He felt as if he had been cut in half by a knife. It was painful, but he could not bear to leave.
Sisi took the knife for him with her life, but he could not keep Sisi. He could not give Sisi a future life, and he could not afford to give Sisi a future life.
When love met life, love was so pale and powerless.
At this time, other than hugging his lover tightly in his arms, other than giving Sisi a hug and strength, what else could Ma Yingjie do? What else could he do?
Although Sisi's care and love for him was so short, it made Ma Yingjie taste the beauty of being loved and loved. He tasted the intensity and impulse of wanting to protect his lover. All of this had never happened to An Qi. During the few years of marriage, An Qi had never been cold to him. After having a son, An Qi spent all his energy and time on his son. In that family, he was dispensable, almost an extra person. An Qi did not even know what he liked to eat, what he liked to wear, and what things he liked to do. Even if he went on a business trip for a month, he would definitely tidy up his own clothes and buy the things he needed. However, men were born rough in this aspect. When he went on a business trip, he would either forget this or lose that. The most ridiculous thing was that once, in a panic, Ma Yingjie actually took his son's underwear as his own. When he arrived at the hotel, he only realized that the underwear was so small. That time, he had to go to the mall and buy another underwear. After returning home, An Qi could not find his son's underwear. When he asked Ma Yingjie about it, he found out that Ma Yingjie had taken the wrong one. However, not only did An Qi not comfort him, but he also blamed Ma Yingjie for being so careless. Couldn't he see his son's underwear? He deliberately made things difficult for her, causing her to search everywhere.
At that time, Ma Yingjie did not reply to An Qi, nor did he blame An Qi. Anyway, he had long been used to An Qi's indifference and blame. Until the appearance of Luan Xiaoxue, he thought that he would be impulsive for Luan Xiaoxue and fall in love. He even had to constantly suppress himself and cut off this relationship that he could not love at all.
In a sense, Sisi saved Ma Yingjie. It was she who made Ma Yingjie understand what love was. It was she who made Ma Yingjie understand what kind of girl he loved.
The people coming and going at the airport gave Ma Yingjie a very messy feeling. How he longed to experience that night in the countryside again. That kind of reckless kissing, reckless passion and impact.
The airport broadcast was reminding them to enter the station, but Sisi was extremely reluctant. Until now, she still could not figure out what was it about Ma Yingjie that attracted her so much that she could disregard her life for him. It made her hate him so much that it broke her heart. She became so distracted for him. She could even give up everything for him. Love, it was hard to move and hard to leave. Would she meet such a love in the future? Would she meet Ma Yingjie in the future?
Sisi's tears flowed again. Ma Yingjie reached out his hand to wipe away Sisi's tears.
"Brother, will you remember me?" Sisi looked up at Ma Yingjie and asked.
"Sisi, it's impossible for me to forget you. Study hard. When we graduate, I'll come to see you. If at that time, we still love each other, will you come back? I'll marry you! "Ma Yingjie said decisively. At this moment, he made this promise to Sisi. He thought that no words could compare to his promise to Sisi. And this kind of promise was responsibility, was the sublimation of love, and was his eternal concern for Sisi.
"Brother, I will remember your words. With your promise, what else can I not be satisfied with? I think that we don't have a future. With your words, it's enough. My love for you is also worth it. It's just that I don't want to hurt your wife anymore. My father hurt so many people. In the future, I decided not to hurt anyone. I'll pay off my father's debts. I owe a lot of people in Wu Du. Brother, if it's possible, I'm willing to return to Wu Du when I return from studying abroad. I'm willing to do what I can for this city and pay off my father's debt to this city. Brother, do you understand? It's not that I don't love you, but I don't want to hurt others anymore. Brother, I can't hurt people anymore. I can't. " Sisi cried very sadly. She wanted Ma Yingjie's promise. She had been looking forward to Ma Yingjie's promise. She had always wanted to ask Ma Yingjie about his love. Now, she got Ma Yingjie's promise. Now, Ma Yingjie was willing to marry her. But at the same time, she had to tell Ma Yingjie that she couldn't marry him. She couldn't. Ma Yingjie had a wife. That wife was innocent.
Ma Yingjie hugged Sisi even tighter. This silly girl, in one night, she had become so understanding, and in one night, she had become full of debt. Ma Yingjie felt like there were countless sharp knives stabbing into his heart. It hurt so much that he really wanted to say to Sisi, "Sisi, I don't have a wife. I'm single now. I'm a free man now." But reason told him that he couldn't do this. He couldn't do this.
No matter how deep and big his love for Sisi was. He couldn't let Sisi know that Luan Xiaoxue wasn't his wife at all.
Ma Yingjie felt that he was so pitiful. He didn't dare to love the person he loved. He couldn't love the person he loved. He knew that Sisi would slowly forget about him. As long as Luan Xiaoxue was by his side, Sisi would never belong to him.
Compared to his career, what was love? Ma Yingjie scolded himself, "I'm really a f * cking jerk." He had to pretend in front of Sisi. He had to continue pretending in front of Sisi.
Luo Wanzhi walked over. Ma Yingjie and Sisi separated. Ma Yingjie said, "Sisi, study hard. Remember to tell me if you have any difficulties."
"Okay." Sisi nodded her head gently. Then, she walked to her mother's side. She held her mother's hand and walked out of the airport.
Ma Yingjie's eyes were wet. He looked at Sisi's back view and said in his heart, "Sisi, I'm sorry. I can't tell you the truth. Sisi, goodbye. Sisi, take care. Be safe. "
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