"Don't move," he said softly. "Let me hold you for a while." Hearing him say that, I stopped struggling and leaned into his arms. Then, I stayed still and felt his heartbeat.
He held me like that for a while. Then, he suddenly lifted me up and put me on the bed. I suddenly felt shy and didn't know what to do. Duanmu Que climbed onto the bed and lay next to me. He stared at me without blinking. I didn't know what he was thinking.
I thought for a while and asked, "That's not good. Since we've decided to get a divorce, I don't want to sleep with you in order to avoid unnecessary trouble." That was one of my thoughts. However, what I was most afraid of was that he would hurt my child.
Duanmu Que was still looking at me. "Just for a while," he said.
I didn't know why, but I wasn't used to hearing him speak so calmly. Perhaps if he had been fierce with me, I would have argued with him. But now that he was so calm, I didn't know how to deal with him. Duanmu Que held me in his arms and quietly closed his eyes. I looked at his face and felt that it was so familiar. However, he was no longer the one who loved me.
I quietly looked at Duanmu Que for a while. I guessed that he had fallen asleep. I raised my hand and gently touched his face. Although I said that I didn't have feelings for him, I still couldn't let go of him. My love for him had reached the point where it was unforgettable. I touched Duanmu Que's face and looked at him. "Why do I still love you so much when you've already treated me like this? What can you do to make me forget you completely?"
I thought that Duanmu Que must have fallen asleep. He didn't answer me. I looked at Duanmu Que, tears falling from the corners of my eyes. I said softly, "You don't love me anymore, right? If you loved me, you wouldn't have treated me like this. Or were you just playing along with me from the beginning? Did you never love me? This thought has been tormenting me for a long time. Ever since you lost your memories, your attitude towards me has really made me wish I was dead. But there's nothing I can do. No matter what you do, I still love you.
I sneered and said softly, "Right? I'm very cheap. Sometimes, I really don't know what I'm doing."
Just as I was caressing Duanmu Que's face and talking to myself, Duanmu Que suddenly opened his eyes, scaring me. I quickly pulled back my hand that was still caressing his face and tried to break free from his embrace. But I didn't expect that Duanmu Que would hug me so tightly that I couldn't escape. My face was burning, and I couldn't look at him directly.
Duanmu Que looked at me with a serious face. "I'm not paying attention to you, but you're talking very happily."
Hearing Duanmu Que say that, I really wanted to find a hole to hide in. I tried to break free from his embrace again, but Duanmu Que didn't have any intention of letting go. He just lay there and looked at me with a serious face, watching me move around.
Duanmu Que sighed and then said to me, "Alright, don't move." Duanmu Que continued, "I couldn't help but do some extreme things to you. Of course, I admit that I did all of this, but it also included the things I did when I lost my rationality when my temper flared up. However, none of this was my intention. When I found out that I married you because of my parents' arrangement, although I didn't ask, I knew in my heart that we definitely had relations. Moreover, I could see that your feelings for me were very deep, but I did so many things to hurt you. I also knew that I wasn't a good person, but I couldn't fall in love with you. Although there were several times when I fell asleep, I would always dream of you, dream of happy scenes with you, but when I woke up, I found out that these things didn't exist. Of course, I was very disappointed, and your resistance towards me became stronger and stronger. I also couldn't understand what had happened between the two of us in the past, so the conflict grew bigger and bigger."
I didn't know why, but when I heard Duanmu Que say that, I felt like he was looking for all kinds of excuses for himself. I sneered and softly said, "What's the point of pushing everything away?" I pushed Duanmu Que away and lay down in front of him, looking at him.
"I'm not pushing the responsibility away, I'm just telling you the truth."
"The truth is that you don't treat me as a human being! The things you did to me, are those things a husband should do? Yes, we agreed to a peaceful divorce, but what about you? You treat me as if I'm not close to you. One moment you're especially good to me, the next moment you're fierce to me. One moment you're holding me in your arms and lecturing me, the next you're throwing me aside and leaving me bruised all over. What do you want me to do? I'm not a toy that you can play with when you want to play with, and then throw aside when you don't want to play with me. I'm a human being! A real human being! " I was very angry. I sat up on the bed and stood by the bed, spitting out all the words that had been bottled up in my heart for a long time.
Duanmu Que stood up from the bed. He walked past me and opened the wardrobe. It was full of women's clothing, and they were all new. I looked at Duanmu Que with a puzzled expression. I didn't understand what he meant by showing me these things. Duanmu Que turned to me and said, "These are compensation for you. Back then, because I lost my mind, you didn't even have a decent piece of clothing. Take it as my compensation." Then, Duanmu Que took out a gift box from a drawer in the wardrobe. He placed it on the bed and looked at me. "Open it and take a look."
I didn't understand what Duanmu Que meant, but I still reached out and opened the gift box. After I opened it, I was shocked. Inside the gift box was a very beautiful white dress. It was very similar to the one Duanmu Que had given me for my birthday. I looked at Duanmu Que in confusion.
Duanmu Que looked at me and said, "At that time, I couldn't find that dress. Later, Mom told me that I had given it to you. It was a very exquisite dress, and it was custom-made. So, I found a designer and made a similar dress for you. But I think this one looks better. The previous one was too simple."
My heart was no longer calm, and the tears in the corners of my eyes couldn't stop flowing down. I held the dress and looked at Duanmu Que. I thought to myself, Is he remembering the past? Or is he apologizing to me?
Just as I was puzzled, my phone suddenly rang. I took it out of my pocket. It was a call from Han Hao. I lifted my head and looked at Duanmu Que. He also looked at me with a puzzled expression. He asked softly, "Who is calling?"
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