Yuan Han poured a cup of water for the visitor. It was a cheap tea bag from the hotel. He felt it tasted pretty good, but he didn't know how the other person felt about it.
"Thank you." Ren Xuanyu took the cup and placed it on the table. Although he looked like he was going to have a long talk, he didn't seem to be in the mood to drink the tea.
He just stared at Yuan Han with bright eyes. Those were a pair of eyes that were born to act. As long as the owner was willing, they could show a hundred kinds of emotions. However, they weren't the eyes of an experienced actor. Actors and actresses were good at practicing their eyes. After a lot of practice, they would have a natural fierceness. Ren Xuanyu's eyes were very clear and beautiful. Yuan Han sighed in his heart. He had both talent and good looks. It was too much.
"Do you want to go through the script?" Yuan Han sat opposite him and took a sip of tea.
"No." Ren Xuanyu said slowly, "Brother Han, although we don't know each other well, I've never told anyone what I'm going to say next. I hope it won't bother you and I hope you can listen carefully."
Ren Xuanyu emphasized his sincerity. Yuan Han had no choice but to cheer up. "I'm all ears."
Ren Xuanyu stared at him and his eyes gradually softened. "I don't know if Brother Han still remembers that eight years ago, you went to U University to shoot a movie …"
Ren Xuanyu had a good memory and was good at telling stories. He narrated the experience in a relaxed manner, which made Yuan Han, the main character of the story, feel enlightened again and again. Along the way, it wasn't that he didn't have moving supporters. However, under his influence, only Ren Xuanyu succeeded in walking the same path as him. There wouldn't be anyone else.
"I admire you. For a long time in my life, I've been looking at you. So much so that … I can't tell whether I admire or admire Yuan Han."
Finally, he got to the point.
Yuan Han straightened his back and leaned forward slightly. He noticed that Ren Xuanyu had a shy expression on his face. Although he hadn't known Ren Xuanyu for long, from their first meeting, he knew that this Best Actor was also a watertight person. However, at this moment, he took the initiative to lower his guard.
"Then, did you come to me because you want to clarify things?" Yuan Hou reached out his hand and placed Ren Jingyu's hands on the table. He moved closer to her.
"No, I just got the answer before I knocked on your door," Ren Xuanyu looked up and said, "What I want to ask you is, do you still love Shen Huai?"
Yuan Han's hand froze.
He moved his facial muscles and made a smile that was flawless even under the 4K lens. He said in disbelief, "Did you hear anything? Now, even 14-year-old fans know not to believe in gossip. "
"I didn't hear anything. I saw it with my own eyes."
"…"
Yuan Han stood up from the chair and walked to the window. He seemed to hesitate for a while before saying, "But just like your relationship with him, I don't think the word 'love' is needed."
Ren Xuanyu also stood up and looked around the room. "In the house I used to rent, the walls were covered with your posters. I have all your DVDs. I was even embarrassed to lend my phone to others because the wallpaper was also you. Because of this, I doubted my own sexuality and went to a gay bar to take a test. I found someone to get a room with, but I ran away. I was no different from those girls who cried when they saw you. I was obsessed with you."
Yuan Han's smile was full of mockery. "So obsessed that you even found the same sugar daddy? Crazy. "
"I might be a little abnormal." Ren Xuanyu smiled. "I walked your path and walked to the place where you stood. Not only did I try to figure out the you in the play, but I also unconsciously tried to figure out the you outside the play. I wanted to know what you thought, how you felt, and how you loved." Ren Xuanyu turned around and looked at him. His eyes lingered on his face for a while. "Even now, I'm curious about what you're thinking. Are you angry, helpless, or have your fighting spirit been aroused? You're wrapped in layers of disguise, and you're addicted to the play. What will be the real exposure when it's taken away? "
Yuan Han clenched his fists and quietly held them by his side.
"… You're the one who's addicted to the play, right? I'm just trying to make myself look more presentable. "
Ren Xuanyu tilted his head, indicating that he was puzzled.
"I'm talking about Shen Huai." Yuan Han sat down at the table. "I did like him, but we can't be together. Let's not talk about whether the future that I've worked so hard for will be ruined by my sexual orientation. I can't even keep Shen Huai. He's the kind of person who is born with everything. Ideals and love will be dim in front of him. For him, they are just icing on the cake. He won't understand, and he doesn't want to understand. The things that we think are sparkling and worth pursuing for our whole lives may be just a drama performance that is worth applauding for. He may shed a few tears and let out a few heartfelt laughs, but after the curtain falls, he will fall asleep on his feather pillow. It won't disturb him every morning. "
Ren Xuanyu didn't know what to say for a moment, so he picked an obvious question and asked, "Us?"
Yuan Han thought for a while and realized what he was asking. He smiled. "Yes, us. You and I are the same as all his previous lovers. I'm not the first person who fell in love with him. I've seen women who tried everything to keep his child. He's very smart, and others can't fool him, but he didn't get angry. He just comforted the woman. He didn't want his child to be brought into this world by the desire of adults. You should know that he's very good at coaxing people. He doesn't make promises, but only gives ambiguous but very reasonable explanations. He will let the love burn, and he will extinguish it. In the end, the woman didn't think about getting pregnant again, and she left him willingly without any resentment." Yuan Han said a lot in one breath and took a sip of tea. "He's the best at getting out of this."
"So you pretend that you're just mutually beneficial with him. That's the so-called respectability?"
"So you're still curious?"
Ren Xuanyu stared at Yuan Han. This person suddenly wasn't so dazzling anymore. He was an ordinary man with desires and even a little cowardly. His strength was only in his performance, and his attractiveness was also limited to that.
Ren Xuanyu could finally extricate himself from the chaotic obsession.
"Thank you, Yuan Han," he said very seriously. "When I won the Best Actor Award, the acceptance speech I gave was all cliché. I have today's achievements, and besides myself, the person I should thank the most is you. You will always be the best idol."
"Thank you." Yuan Han raised his head and returned to his calm appearance.
"Sorry for bothering you today. I hope you'll go easy on me during the scene tomorrow." He joked.
"No problem."
It was unknown whether this was an agreement to go easy on him, or an indication that he could even handle the actor's discretion with ease.
Ren Xuanyu nodded politely and turned to walk to the door. When he opened the door, he heard a deep question behind him, as if he had been holding it in for a long time.
"Are you in love with him?"
Ren Xuanyu turned around.
"Yes, I'm in love with him."
There was a smile in Ren Xuanyu's eyes. For a moment, Yuan Han wanted to find a trace of acting in those eyes, but he didn't succeed. In Ren Xuanyu's eyes, there was the honesty of a promise, and the lightness of a bee's wings to deliver love letters to flowers in spring. This made Yuan Han believe that Ren Xuanyu had even said those words with the intention of showing off.
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