A breeze blew, and the window screen was gently raised. The gentle autumn light filled the whole room.
Chi Ying raised her head to look at him. Her slightly flushed face emitted a gentle glow, and her bright eyes were filled with starlight. "You probably wouldn't have guessed that I fell in love with you when I was still young. For the first eighteen years of my life, you were the entire meaning of my life. Five years ago, on the day of the dinner party, I followed you quietly and deliberately knocked on your door in the early morning. It was actually my expectation to have sex with you. Lu Jingyan, this is the truth of the matter and the real me. Whether you restrained yourself or not that night, you were not wrong, so don't feel guilty anymore. On the contrary, it was my presumptuousness that brought you those things that you didn't have to bear. I should be the one begging for forgiveness. "
After Chi Ying said these words, Lu Jingyan held her wrist tighter and tighter. She was nervous and her eyelashes drooped slightly.
"That day, I had the memories of my previous life, but I couldn't accept that form of death for a while. My ending was that I suffered the consequences of my own actions. I could accept my fate, but Chi Cheng was innocent. I brought him into this world, but I could only watch him leave. Maybe my experience in this life was very warm and my mentality was calm. When negative emotions poured in overnight and merged with my emotional system, they destroyed me in an instant. I didn't know how to face Chi Cheng in the future, and I didn't know how to face you, so I wanted to go to a place where you were not there to relax and go back when I could calmly accept all of this. But … "
Her voice was slightly choked. "I didn't expect things to turn out like this. Lu Jingyan, I'm sorry. If I hadn't left, none of this would have happened, and you wouldn't have been hurt. I'm really sorry. "
Lu Jingyan's eyes were filled with emotions. Looking at her wet eyelashes and apologetic expression, his body became more and more tense. He locked his eyes on her and whispered, "Do you think you're a saint? In this world, who can be calm after witnessing the death of a loved one? Who won't be depressed after experiencing such a thing? How can I deprive you of the right to grieve? If it weren't for my status as Chairman Ou Shi, you wouldn't have suffered such grievances. "
As he spoke, his lips turned even paler. "But that doesn't mean that you're not wrong. You didn't even turn on your phone when you were outside …"
"Don't do that again, do you hear me?"
His slightly hoarse voice was filled with fatigue and anger. Chi Ying's eyes were wet as she nodded seriously.
After a moment of silence, Lu Jingyan asked nervously, "So, will you break up with me?"
These two words sounded particularly harsh. Chi Ying's heart tightened, and the sour waves almost engulfed her. She quickly said, "I don't want to break up with you. I lied to you about the real estate agent's boyfriend. I just didn't want you to get involved in danger. "
Halfway through, Chi Ying suddenly paused and her lips parted slightly. She didn't ask. What about him? Once he remembered everything, would he still accept her terrible past and forgive her mistakes in her previous life?
She blinked nervously, her long eyelashes drawing a breathtaking arc in the air.
Lu Jingyan looked at her silently, the surging emotions in his eyes deep and passionate. He stared at her for a few seconds, his Adam's apple trembling slightly, and then he lowered his head and seized her lips.
Chi Ying closed her eyes tremblingly and raised her head to meet his.
Lu Jingyan's kiss still made her tremble, and the extreme numbness spread all over her body. It turned out that she wasn't so resistant, and was even more easily addicted. Between the entanglement of their lips and tongues, her legs were soft, and the emptiness was overwhelming. She bent her knees and was taken into his arms.
Lu Jingyan didn't let her go easily. After a deep kiss, he lingered for a long time before letting go. He hadn't touched her for two months, and his desire was burning more vigorously than ever, as if it was going to burn his throat hoarse. "Do you know how much I miss you?"
Chi Ying hugged his waist, and countless complicated emotions intertwined. Woven together, her heart trembled violently. When she spoke, her voice was uncontrollably soft. "I won't leave again. Since I'm back, I'll definitely live a good life."
In her previous life, her emotions were too intense, and she put all her passion into it. In the end, she was crushed under the car by his fiancée. The pain in her body was far less than a thousandth of the pain in her heart. Subconsciously, she protected herself, and her emotions became blocked. Even if she was a moth flying into a flame, there would be a day when she would know the pain. She was sick, and she had avoidant post-traumatic stress disorder, but she had never realized it.
Even so, after being reborn, she still fell in love with him.
No matter how she was, Lu Jingyan would always be Lu Jingyan. He was her persistent pursuit in her previous life, and the most precious encounter in this life.
He could overcome PTSD, and so could she. She had decided before that when she came back from filming "Stabbing Myself", she would give herself to him no matter how strong the physiological reaction was.
After Chi Ying finished speaking, she tiptoed and kissed his exquisite jawline. "Go to bed and rest. I'll call the doctor. Don't you know how to feel pain?"
The day before yesterday, Lu Jingyan had suffered major and minor injuries in order to protect her. He had been caught off guard by the hit, and his stomach had bled slightly. Back in the warehouse, the man who had pretended to be unconscious and jumped up from the ground to attack Lu Jingyan had never once disobeyed Karl's orders. Chi Ying could clearly see the viciousness in his eyes. Now that she thought about it, she still felt uneasy.
Lu Jingyan recalled the memories of his previous life. Perhaps some of the truth would surface. However, he was very weak now, and he was as pale as a sheet of paper. She did not want him to say too much, so she would ask him later.
After the doctor arrived, the door opened again. Chi Cheng walked in with a small backpack and smiled at her. "Mom, I'm back from school."
"Chengcheng." Chi Ying's eyes were teary. She walked over and hugged his warm and soft body.
This was not the first time she had seen Chi Cheng since she came back. They had been together the whole night last night, and Chi Ying's heart was still filled with intense pain. She gritted her teeth to stop her tears from falling. She wanted to hug Chi Cheng like this forever, but she could not let him feel that something was wrong. She had to let go of him after hugging him for a while.
Chi Cheng missed Chi Ying very much. He smiled and kissed her cheek. Then he turned around and saw Lu Jingyan lying on the bed, looking at them gently. He ran over in surprise. "Dad, you're awake."
Chi Cheng grabbed Lu Jingyan's large hand and comforted him. "Dad, your face is so pale. Does your hand hurt?"
Lu Jingyan shook his head and smiled. "It doesn't hurt."
Then Chi Cheng patted Lu Jingyan's leg and touched his chest. Finally, his white hand gently pressed on his abdomen. "How about here?"
Lu Jingyan gradually broke out in a cold sweat. "…"
Chi Ying quickly pulled Chi Cheng down. Chi Cheng just happened to hook his arm around Chi Ying's neck. She hugged him. "Dad, do you know? Mom just went on a business trip and her phone broke. She didn't leave you behind. I told you not to be sad."
Chi Ying lowered her head guiltily and met Lu Jingyan's faint smile.
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