Seriously speaking, at the end of her previous life, GongYimo returned without her armor. There was a reason why she lost her will.
The nightmares that haunted her, the irritation in her heart, and the uneasiness of being cursed and hated by others, were all symptoms of post-war stress syndrome!
Many people who had experienced war would encounter this kind of psychological illness after going to the battlefield. It manifested as a lack of fighting spirit, like a walking corpse, or becoming abnormally irritable, drinking, killing, and so on.
After GongYimo died and was reborn, she got a chance to start over, which made her psychological illness a lot better.
Starting over, she was full of hope for everything!
But now, the entire palace was filled with gloom, and the imperial physician left an assertion that Gong Cheng would not live for long! GongYimo could not redeem all of this, but she could not escape. In the process of facing it, self-blame and guilt greatly stimulated her heart, stimulating her to recall the past that she did not want to remember.
So when she woke up today, she was so uneasy, as if Gong Dai was her last salvation.
But when she received a trace of comfort from Gong Dai at Qi Manor, it instantly disappeared when she saw Gong Cheng.
How could he be so thin? He was like a large skeleton! The silky yellow robe on his body highlighted the outline of his skeleton! All the fat on his body was quickly consumed in the past few days, and his body was damaged to the point where it could no longer absorb new fat, so he would only become thinner and thinner, and finally die of starvation!
Tears unconsciously fell on the back of Gong Cheng's hand. Why was he so thin, so scarily thin?
Gong Cheng's hand moved, as if his heart felt something. He saw the person sitting by his bed crying.
How could he be reconciled? If it were not for the chaos caused by her, he could still be alive!
How could he not be angry? If it were not for her, Chang Xi would not have died! His two sons would not be hostile because of her. If it were not for her, he would not be in a dilemma, saving one and hurting the other.
How could he not hate her? She was so dangerous, but he cared about Gong Dai, so he could not kill her! If he kept her alive, his Dai Yu State's rivers and mountains would be hanging on a knife's edge.
Sometimes, he would also think, how could there be such a troublesome woman in this world?
He was simply a scourge! It was God's punishment, the Snow Clan's curse, retribution!
But looking at her silently crying by his bedside, thousands of emotions flashed through Gong Cheng's heart. In the end, he still couldn't bear it!
She was still a child … She had already tried her best to do everything well, but she didn't know that there was nothing perfect in this world.
When GongYimo saw that Gong Che had woken up, she couldn't hold it in anymore. Her cries grew louder and louder. Not for anything else, but for Gong Che's sunken eyes and his mouth that was so thin that it couldn't close!
She was so upset that she couldn't stop herself from crying!
Gong Cheng looked at her with a pair of terrifyingly big eyes. She cried more and more miserably. Gong Cheng was a little flustered. He didn't know what expression to use to face GongYimo. At first glance, he looked a little innocent.
"Don't cry."
He did not know how to coax little girls, but this was the first time he had seen GongYimo cry so hard.
"I … am not dead yet …"
GongYimo cried even louder!
It was all her fault! It was all her fault! Although she didn't know what exactly she was blaming herself for, she felt an unspeakable sense of guilt and remorse! If she had known earlier, she wouldn't have come back. She should have left Dai Yu State far away. Perhaps Gong Cheng would still be alive and well.
"Don't cry …"
Gong Cheng sighed. At this time, he sat up with some effort. Because of the lack of fat, when he moved, the friction between his bones made him feel extremely uncomfortable! But he just frowned. Half lying on the dragon bed, he reached out to wipe GongYimo's tears.
GongYimo's ears were very sharp. She clearly heard the sound of Gong Cheng's bones rubbing against each other. She wanted to help him up, but she didn't know where to start. It was as if if she exerted a little force, Gong Cheng would fall apart. So she could only cry like a helpless child!
Gong Cheng didn't dare to touch her face. He always felt that if he touched her face, it would probably be flooded.
He closed his eyes and waited for GongYimo to finish crying.
GongYimo was just venting, but it wasn't endless. She cried for a while and gradually calmed down. It was as if her spirit had been sucked out of her. Under the silence, there was only undissolvable melancholy.
"Imperial Father … Do you hate me?"
She thought a lot when she came. She felt that Gong Cheng should hate her. If it wasn't for her, Gong Che wouldn't be like this. If it wasn't for her, he wouldn't be on the verge of death. Chang Xi wouldn't die, and those imperial guards wouldn't die … Sometimes, she suddenly wondered if Gong Dai and Gong Che's lives would be different if she didn't exist in her previous life. Would it be better?
Gong Cheng didn't open his eyes. He seemed to be thinking with his eyes closed. After a while, he spoke softly.
"… When I first opened my eyes and saw you, I still hated you."
The corners of GongYimo's eyes were red. When she heard that, she lowered her head even more.
Gong Cheng smiled gently and opened his eyes.
"But after you sat here for a while, I … suddenly don't hate you anymore …"
GongYimo looked at Gong Cheng in surprise, as if she wanted to see if he was telling the truth. She almost killed him. Why didn't he hate her?
"Perhaps when a person is about to die … he sees things more clearly …"
Gong Cheng's voice was very soft. He looked at GongYimo and suddenly had a desire to speak.
He was disappointed with his two sons. They only cared about personal matters and didn't care about the big picture. However, he loved and hated GongYimo. His love came from her, but his hatred came from his sons.
But at this moment, he knew that he didn't have long to live. He didn't know why, but he suddenly saw things more lightly. He was no longer so constrained by life and death. He really did it.
"Without you, I might have died a long time ago … Back then, Nan Of Gojoseon offered me addictive tobacco … If you didn't teach Gong Dai well … I wouldn't have escaped that disaster. I might have died a long time ago …"
He wasn't wrong. After all, compared to his previous life, Gong Cheng had lived a few more years. But GongYimo just couldn't forgive herself. He could have lived longer!
Gong Cheng sighed softly, "… You have made countless contributions for the country … for the world. In a few years … the world will be prosperous and the four countries will prosper … Half of this is due to your contribution! So, Mo 'er, you are very good … "
She was so good that even his most outstanding child liked her. Moreover, for her, he could give up anything. Previously, he didn't understand. He felt that nothing could be compared to his country. However, after thinking about it, he understood. With such an outstanding daughter, no outstanding man would give up on her.
It was just like how Gong Che refused to let go even though he didn't receive any response. This was because no man would let go after falling in love with her, unless he wasn't by her side. If he was, he would definitely fight until the end.
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