Her words made Kim Yoon slightly dazed. He seemed to have thought of something. He sighed and smiled bitterly.
"Because I wasn't good enough for you at that time … so …"
GongYimo raised her eyebrows.
"Why would you have such thoughts?" Then she felt that this sentence was not right and said, "What I mean is, why would you feel inferior? Is it the same for everyone?"
Could this be the truth behind why Kim Yoon hadn't married for so long?
Kim Yoon recalled the past and smiled faintly.
"It's not the same for everyone, but for you … it's the same."
GongYimo was speechless. She didn't know why he would think that.
Kim Yoon looked deeply at her and said softly, "You know, since I was young … I had a hard time and was very depressed. But I was also very conceited … My royal brothers couldn't memorize the texts for many days, but I could memorize them in one day. Moreover, they were often troubled by the Grand Tutor, but I was able to draw inferences … "
Speaking of this, his lips curled into a smile, but it was a bitter smile.
"Perhaps it was because I didn't know how to restrain myself when I was young, so they complained to me and I couldn't study at a young age. Although I wanted to, I couldn't go against Imperial Father's orders. Now, I can only read. I really don't know anything about poetry and songs."
GongYimo felt sorry for him for no reason. Perhaps, this was the process that beautiful jade had to go through.
He frowned slightly. "At that time, I didn't understand. I was smart, hardworking, and motivated. In terms of appearance and character, I was better than my brothers. Why didn't Imperial Father trust me and even doubt my birth? Could it be … that I didn't deserve those praises? Why couldn't they see my good points and only blame me for my mistakes and call me a bastard?
So I gradually felt inferior. This inferiority may have been deeply rooted. Later on … when I was cross-dressing and dancing, I actually felt satisfied when I heard the exclamations of the people around me. I wanted to be praised by the world and receive their affirmation! Perhaps … I'm already beyond saving. "
"Back when I was in Yuheng, I had already achieved so much. My brothers could no longer stop me. But when I faced you, I still felt inferior. When I faced power, I still didn't dare to take that step.
But after you left, I easily obtained Yuheng's imperial power! Only then did I realize how close I was to these things, just like you back then … "
He suddenly reached out and gently covered the back of GongYimo's hand. GongYimo raised her head and looked at him. Her beautiful eyes seemed to be shining. Even the mole under her eye was full of charm. It was breathtaking.
"You're very good to me. You're beautiful and talented! Just like the blazing sun, anyone who was by your side would receive unlimited power! And I … I'm like a stalk of grass, a flower. You let me grow, but I want to have you. What a delusion!
This idea is laughable, but that's what I thought back then. I knew that you would leave one day, but I couldn't even say the words to make you stay. I didn't dare to admit my feelings for you! "
"So when you asked me, my friends asked me, and even my mother asked me, I would tell them that I don't like you. But every time, I would shout crazily in my heart that it was all fake! I like you! I've liked you for a long, long time! "
His words suddenly made GongYimo feel as if she had been burned by fire. She quickly retracted her hand.
"You think too highly of me. I'm not as noble as you think."
Kim Yoon smiled. "What's the matter? Your kindness to me is like giving me a new life. I didn't dare to say it before because I didn't have the right. But now, I have the power in my hands! "
He raised his voice a little. That faint domineering aura was something that Kim Yoon didn't have in the past.
He was the kind of person who would only get what he got. For example, if he had enough money, he would become very magnanimous. If he had enough power, he would become very domineering. And now, Kim Yoon was moving towards the latter.
She had never expected that Jin Yun would undergo such a huge change, and it was all because of her!
She didn't know that after she left, Kim Yoon's mood was so irritable that even his mother didn't dare to approach him! He suppressed his madness, but couldn't put it into practice. That was why there was a qualitative change now.
GongYimo's face was tense as she said, "Maybe it's because I helped you, so you've developed a dependence on me. This isn't love. In my heart, I've always treated you as an older brother. There's no such thing as love between a man and a woman."
Her words made Kim Yoon's pupils shrink.
Actually, at that time, he had always thought about what to do if Mo 'er rejected him after he expressed his feelings. At that time, when he thought of this result, he felt ashamed and absent-minded. It was hard for him to accept it.
But now, other than his heartache, he felt even more unconvinced!
He already had so much. He was already above others. Why was it that others could have it, but he couldn't?
So he once again grabbed GongYimo and asked in a deep voice.
"Am I not good? What do you not like about me? I'll change, okay? " His voice gradually lowered, "You can't imagine what kind of life I've been living. The prince's residence used to be the place I looked forward to the most. But without you, there wasn't a trace of life there …
When I failed, it was you who encouraged me. When I was hurt, it was you who saved me. When I was in trouble, it was you who pointed the way. In the past three years, my life has been filled with your shadow! You, why are you so cruel to me?! If you can't belong to me, why did you let me meet you? "
His words were sorrowful. GongYimo couldn't answer his words at all.
But at this moment, a murderous aura suddenly appeared! GongYimo quickly pushed Kim Yoon away. On the ground, there was a thin withered branch that was trembling slightly. It fiercely stabbed into the stone floor. If GongYimo had been a little later, this withered branch would have pierced through Kim Yoon's hand!
"Who?!"
Kim Yoon's expression turned cold. He looked up. At this moment, his whole body was surrounded by danger and evil aura! He was really different from the previous him.
Gong Dai walked out from the shadows.
His dark black robes blended into the night. His white face and black jade-like eyes appeared cold and cheerless under the moonlight. But when those cold and cheerless eyes landed on Jin Yun, they carried a murderous intent!
"Gong Dai …"
GongYimo was a little ashamed. Didn't he go back? Why was he still in the palace? And to be caught red-handed at this time, she felt embarrassed just thinking about it.
At this moment, Gong Dai walked step by step to GongYimo's side. At this moment, she was still wearing her brocade robes. The black and red palace dress and Gong Dai's black robes complemented each other, as if they were a match made in heaven.
Kim Yoon didn't sense the danger and narrowed his eyes.
"Prince Qi, is it? Why did you suddenly attack me? Is this how Dai Yu State treats its guests? "
But when Gong Dai heard this, he didn't even look at him. He only looked quietly at GongYimo. Then, he lowered his head and gently kissed her forehead.
Kim Yoon's eyes suddenly widened. Gong Dai's voice was like ice.
"Because you violated a taboo. She … is my woman."
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