"Secondly." Ai ShuQiao continued, "I expected that you didn't feel guilty for killing Zheng Weizun. I just wanted to make you mature. No matter what method you use to kill someone, it will make your state of mind change subtly and make you … more like me. "
The smell of blood began to spread in the room. Even if I didn't have a sharp sense of smell like the class leader, the stench still made my nostrils itch.
"Dong, dong, dong." A loud knocking sound came from the top of the secret passage. It was probably Peng TouSi trying to enter the secret passage after he realized we were missing.
"You guys can leave." Ai ShuQiao waved her hand on the LCD screen, "My goal for today has been achieved. Both of you should have grown a bit. I hope you guys can grow out of your childishness and become someone I can talk to on equal terms. "
Many movies depict people with nausea and vomiting when they kill for the first time, but I didn't experience any of that.
Maybe I had some cruel genes in my body, or maybe I thought Zheng Weizun deserved to die, or maybe I just wanted to show off in front of Ai ShuQiao.
When I took a step towards the entrance of the secret passage, my steps were unexpectedly heavy.
I don't regret it, I still believe the death penalty is necessary in human society. I just don't want to be Ai ShuQiao's executioner.
Just like what Ai ShuQiao said, she didn't want to instill guilt into me, but she wanted me to blur the line between evil and justice. She wanted to prove that the process of evil can bring about the results of justice. Sometimes the bigger evil will swallow the smaller evil, and the darkness has its own meaning.
Also, when I looked at the left hand that killed my own kind, I felt a subtle change in my heart.
I couldn't believe that I had the illusion of "becoming stronger."
Do I have the personality of a psychopathic murderer? Can I absorb power from the flesh and blood of the dead?
After searching in the depths of my soul, I found that I didn't feel any sense of guilt. In other words, Ai ShuQiao successfully made me justify the murder. The shock to my soul was infinitely close to slaughtering a rabid dog that attacked a baby.
But even if it was a rabid dog, I would still feel sorry for the pet dog I used to raise. After all, they were biologically the same kind.
Killing your own kind without guilt and putting yourself in the position of justice enforcer is a very bad start. No matter how much Ai ShuQiao predicted through the Black Holy Infant that this matter would distort my personality, it was definitely something that I didn't want to see happen.
When I took that lonely step with complicated feelings, the class leader caught up from behind and held my arm to help me maintain balance, just like how I held her not long ago.
"Don't face it alone," the class monitor said softly. "You did it to save me, and he … he's like that. Dying would be a relief."
I was in a bad mood after returning to the top floor. I didn't say a word to Peng TouSi who was asking me about it. The class leader begged Peng TouSi to take us away immediately. She didn't want to stay in Ai ShuQiao's nest for another minute.
"I don't want to go back to school right now, and I don't want to take a helicopter." I said, "DongShan Lake is just outside the Imperial Building, I want to take a walk by the lake."
"I'll accompany you." The class leader blurted out without hesitation.
Ten minutes later, the class leader and I walked side by side by the lake. Peng TouSi volunteered to be our bodyguard a dozen meters away.
There were very few people in this weather. I looked at the willow trees by the lake and couldn't help but feel desolate and sighed.
The class leader grabbed my right hand for the first time and her eyes flickered with concern.
"Ye Lin, you don't feel good? I've studied some crime scene photos before, and I still feel an indescribable discomfort when I see criminals who were killed on the spot. I had to spend a lot of time to convince myself that innocent lives are more important than the criminal's, and I have to shoot for some people when necessary. "
The class leader paused to observe my reaction.
"Ye Lin, legally speaking, your situation is closer to being coerced by Ai ShuQiao. Don't feel guilty, even if you do, you should share it with me …"
"No," I shook my head with a bitter smile. "The problem now is that I don't feel guilty. I've always wanted to kill Zheng Weizun. In the end, I killed him, and I felt a trace of joy in my heart. Maybe I'm a natural killer."
My expression might have been scary when I said that, but the class leader couldn't bear to look away.
"Don't say that, I know it's impossible for you to not be affected by this, but please don't doubt yourself. I believe you're a kind person at heart …"
"But you also saw how terrifying my mother is." I interrupted the class leader, "One of her joys is using her children to kill people. Now both Ai Mi and I are members of a murder club."
"What do you mean?" The class leader was stunned, "You're saying Ai Mi, Ai Mi is also …"
Since I was in a bad mood, I accidentally said that Ai Mi was used by Ai ShuQiao to kill her grandfather. Other than me, Peng TouSi was the only one who knew about this.
What's done can't be undone, I could only tell the class leader the whole story with deep resentment. The class leader shuddered when she heard about how she used her 4-year-old daughter to kill people.
"I, I really underestimated Ai ShuQiao's evil. Ai Mi is too pitiful." The class leader held my right hand tighter, "It would have been better if you told me earlier. Maybe I would have been more on guard today and wouldn't have fallen for her trap."
"Ai ShuQiao can predict the future with the Black Holy Infant." I pointed out dejectedly, "Our reactions were all predicted by her, and we were completely in the palm of her hand. Today's failure was truly tragic."
Unknowingly, the class leader and I arrived at the place where gramps Ren and I learned martial arts. After the Dong Shan city government renovated the place, it was completely different than before. There was a pavilion and stone railings, which would attract tourists during the tourist season.
"Sigh, they say things remain the same, but not only is gramps Ren gone, the scenery isn't the same either."
"Ye Lin, you can't stay depressed." The class leader suddenly stopped in her tracks. Since we were holding hands, I had no choice but to stop as well.
His jet-black eyes were filled with anxiety and sorrow.
"You can't shoulder today's failure alone. I also participated, so no matter how big the blame is, we should share it. If you think you're a murderer, then I'm also guilty. "
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