Xuan Tianyan coming to Feng Fendai's place was not the first or second time, it was just that Feng Fendai did not know about it. Most of the time, Xuan Tianyan would come in the middle of the night and leave before daybreak, therefore, he knew that Feng Fendai was suffering from insomnia recently, always unable to fall asleep in the middle of the night, if she was not walking around in the courtyard, she would be sitting in the room hugging her knees, sitting for the entire night. He felt very sorry for Feng Fendai, wanting to go up and hug her a few times, but he felt that that girl was no longer related to him, if he appeared, he would just be embarrassing himself.
He came again tonight because he heard Qi Fang say that when he took in a secondary princess a few days ago, someone scolded Feng Fendai here for two days and two nights. He thought, based on Feng Fendai's personality, who knew how angry she would be! But when he calmed down to take a look, he saw that Feng Fendai was still sitting quietly in the room as usual, her expression calm, without any signs of anger.
He thought again, maybe it was because a few days had passed, her anger had subsided? But that was not right, based on Feng Fendai's temper, how could it be that easy for her anger to subside, normally speaking, she should have scolded for a month before it was considered to be over. He came a little earlier on purpose, rushing to sleep, wanting to see this girl's condition, and also wanting to hear what kind of reaction Feng Fendai would have after finding out that he took in another secondary princess.
However, he still could not see anything, Feng Fendai acted as if she had not experienced those things, not having any reaction, just living quietly.
It was just that Xuan Tianyan still saw that something was off, he did not come during this period before the new year, and when he came in the past, it was mostly late at night, unable to see the life in this courtyard. He came a little earlier today, and because it was the new year, everyone slept late. When he came, he happened to see Dong Ying feeding Xiao Bao. That was half a bowl of steamed meat, it was obvious that it had been warmed up after a meal. Xiao Bao ate mouthful after mouthful happily, even urging Fendai to eat a little from time to time. But Fendai did not eat, just sitting there quietly and watching.
After that, when Xiao Bao finished eating and went back to sleep, he heard Dong Ying say to Fendai: "Young Miss only ate half a bowl of noodles at night, why don't This Servant make some more food for you! Young Master won't be able to finish the steamed meat. There's some leftover rice in the stove. Let me heat it up for you. You can eat some more with the steamed meat. "
Fen Dai shook her head and said: "Forget it, I'm not hungry. If I can't finish the meat, I'll keep it. It won't spoil in the Winter. What if that child wants to eat it tomorrow! It's the New Year, we can't let that child be a vegetarian like us. Tomorrow, cook the remaining meat in a different way. Put some dried vegetables in it. Xiaobao likes to eat them. "
Dong Ying was a little helpless. "It's a pity that we can't afford to hire a chef. This servant doesn't know how to cook! There was only some salt in this bowl of steamed meat. Perhaps the young master didn't like it. Why don't … why don't we hire a chef? She doesn't need to be very good at cooking. Just an ordinary old maid who can cook is good enough. No matter what, the food she cooks will be more delicious than the food I cook. "
But Fen Dai waved her hand, "No need. Even if it's a normal granny, she needs to be given half a tael a month. That half a tael can be used to buy many things. Just for food, it's more or less enough for a month!"
When Dong Ying heard this, she did not say anything else. After taking care of Fen Dai's matters, she went back to accompany Xiaobao. Xuan Tianyan listened to the master and servant's conversation and felt very upset. If he knew earlier that this girl was living so hard now, he should have left her more money when they parted.
Xuan Tianyan's heart ached. But now that things had come to this, the two of them had quarreled like this. Even if he wanted to give it, Feng Fen Dai would not want it. He had no other choice and could only hide in a corner of the courtyard. As usual, he watched Fen Dai silently and only left quietly before daybreak.
It could be considered as spending a New Year with her! Xuan Tianyan thought, on the first night of the New Year, he had at least spent time with her. He would not let that girl spend the New Year alone. Right now, she was the only one from the Feng family who was still in the capital. This girl's temper was not good and was unwilling to reconcile with Feng Yu Heng and Feng Xiangrong. She was unwilling to say some soft words. If she could have those two older sisters by her side, he could feel more at ease. Just like now, how could he feel at ease.
When daybreak came, Xuan Tianyan left. Feng Fen Dai stood up from the chair. Her legs were a little numb and she could only take a few steps after steadying herself for a while. When she walked out of the house, the person who was secretly watching her had already disappeared from this courtyard. Even the breath had been blown away by the cold Winter wind. In reality, Feng Fendai did not see Xuan Tianyan come, but she had a feeling that just last night, in a certain corner of this courtyard, there was a person standing there quietly and watching, and that person watched for an entire night. She wanted to come out and take a look, but when her feet touched the ground, she pulled them back. She knew that it was Xuan Tianyan. In this capital, the only person who could still think of secretly watching her was Xuan Tianyan alone. But so what? Right now, they each had their own lives. She quietly stayed in this small courtyard, standing aloof from worldly affairs. He also took in one girl after another into his manor, continuing his days as a ridiculous Prince. Everyone had their own choices, but they should not have any interactions with each other.
Fen Dai sat down in the courtyard, the stone bench that had been cold for an entire night caused her to shudder, her entire body feeling cold. But she did not get up, letting this coldness continue to spread until her fingertips were cold. Only when Dong Ying came did she say to Dong Ying who advised her to return to her room to sit: "It's fine, it's better to be a little colder, a little colder will clear my mind, it will allow me to differentiate between right and wrong, and differentiate what kind of life I should have."
She was very satisfied with her current situation. Even though she was a little poor, even though the money at the bottom of her chest was about to be used up, even though she had to think of a way to make a living very quickly to allow her days to continue. But Feng Fen Dai thought, even if she continued to be poor like this, her days in the Feng manor were much better than before. She was a little confused, why did she like to fight so much in the past, why did she care so much about the position of the daughter of the first wife in the Feng family. Looking back now, even if she became the daughter of the first wife in the Feng family, so what? Now that the Feng family was gone, even if she was the daughter of the first wife, she was just the daughter of the first wife in a ruined family, she would never be able to become another Feng Yu Heng. In the end, she did not have Feng Yu Heng's abilities, nor did she have Feng Xiangrong's good temper, and she did not have foresight, standing on the wrong side from the start, resulting in her current situation where she had no relatives or friends.
But what could she do? She smiled, there was still Xiao Bao! No matter who that child's biological father was, his mother was Han Shi, he was her younger brother.
"It feels really good to have a relative by my side." She smiled at Dong Ying, but that smile only lasted for a moment, and it quickly dimmed again. She told Dong Ying: "After this new year, I will return the indenture contract to you, you can leave! You don't need to serve me anymore, go and find a master with a good temper to follow, at least it won't be like this now, not being able to eat a mouthful of meat for ten days. "
Dong Ying was stunned, Feng Fen Dai was willing to return the indenture contract to her? This was something she had dreamt of so much in the past! This Feng Fourth Young Miss had a bad temper and was unpredictable, she would either hit or scold her, she had wanted to get back the indenture contract and regain her freedom, she had thought that no matter what kind of master she followed, it would be better than Feng Fen Dai.
But now, when Feng Fen Dai really said that she would return the indenture contract to her, Dong Ying was actually at a loss. She also forgot to be happy, instead she was stunned on the spot, her nose turning sour. She suddenly felt that she was not willing to leave, she did not really want to abandon Feng Fen Dai to start a new life, she was used to following Feng Fen Dai, her life was already completely integrated with the Feng family, with Feng Fen Dai, if she were to leave again, it would be like being chased out of the house by her parents, her heart would feel terrible.
She shook her head, telling Feng Fen Dai: "This Servant will not leave, if Young Miss wants to save money, then there is even less need to chase me away, This Servant does not want money, I just want to accompany Young Miss and Young Master. The days are tough now, but this is nothing, as a servant, what hardships can't be endured? If an eldest young miss like you can live this kind of life, why can't This Servant. Also, when the days were good in the past, Young Miss did not treat This Servant badly, good food, good drink, good clothes, this Servant has tasted them all, this Servant does not have any regrets in this life. Young Miss also does not need to worry about the days to come, this Servant has already thought it through, after the new year, This Servant will go out and do some needlework, even if I can't earn much, I still can't earn little, we can live a simple life, at least we can eat our fill. "
After she finished speaking, she did not wait for Feng Fen Dai to reply, turning around and entering the room, when she came out, she brought a cloak for Fen Dai to cover. Fen Dai was stunned, "This cloak is made of fox fur, it is worth quite a bit of money, I remember telling you to pawn it, why is it still here?"
Dong Ying sighed, "This Servant was not willing to pawn it. Young Miss did not bring out many things from the Feng manor, you have always liked this cloak, we can still live now, there is no need to sell it for money. "
Fen Dai was stunned for a while, reaching out to touch the cloak. The snow-white fox fur, it was a birthday gift from Feng Jin Yuan when the Feng family was flourishing. At that time, she was still young, about nine years old, and her body was not as large as it was now, the cloak now seemed very stingy. But she had always treasured it, not willing to use it, the fur was still shining, it was especially beautiful.
This was the only time that Feng Jin Yuan had ever given her such a good thing, and it was Han shi who had begged for it. In that father's eyes, there had always been only the indescribably beautiful Feng Chen Yu, the other daughters in his eyes were just stones to pave the way for Chen Yu. Now, those people who had once been glorious had all died, and she was the one who had survived. Thinking about it like this, Feng Yu Heng treated her quite well, at least of the people that had opposed her, she was the only one left alive.
Feng Fen Dai smiled bitterly, if she had known earlier that her mood would change like this, she would not have done such a thing for the sake of a lousy daughter of the first wife. However, there was no medicine for regret in this world, the principles that she now understood were all exchanged for by the mistakes that she had made in the past, time could not be reversed, everything could not be turned back.
"My hope is already gone," she opened her mouth and whispered, "Second sister, I cannot allow you to lose hope. Quickly come back! I keep feeling that the capital is not as peaceful as it appears to be! "
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