Drop by drop, huge teardrops rolled down from her eyes, as if she was being questioned by a slap. His Majesty opened his mouth and was momentarily speechless.
Old Princess Consort Yu sneered, her gaze returning to the empty space. She smiled and cried, "He clearly promised me that he would never allow himself to see me get hurt in front of him. But when things came to it, he personally tore his promise to pieces.
The moment the city gates closed, he clearly heard my shouts and even turned his head, but in the end, he still led Your Majesty out of the city gates.
Between his family and the country, he chose the country. Between his wife and his brothers, he chose his brothers. It's not that I can't understand the choices he made, but what I can't understand is why I have to bear all the bitterness and filth by myself!
Three days.
For three whole days, I tried my best to hide. The last bodyguard by my side died, but I still couldn't escape from the claws of those … those … beasts! In one night, I went from being the luckiest woman in the Great Yue Dynasty to being trampled into a pool of disgusting mud! Until General Wen Ya led his men to find me …
I had also thought about whether I should just end my life with a white silk. But General Wen Ya and his wife were indeed good people. They promised me that they would never reveal this secret to a third person in their lifetime and would treat it as if this matter had never happened. Thus, I hesitated.
With this hesitation, the white silk had already been cut by Madam Wen.
A few days later, I returned to the capital. At that time, the prince and His Majesty had also successfully eliminated the rebels and returned to the capital. We had a tacit understanding and no one mentioned anything about what happened during the chaos. It was just that every time it was late at night, the nightmarish scenes of the past would haunt me, causing me to be unable to sleep at night.
The prince noticed my abnormality, so he probed me to see if something had happened. How could I answer? Say that your princess consort was trampled on in the chaos of war and her chastity was lost? In that case, the glory of Prince Yu's Residence and the face of my mother's family would be reduced to a laughingstock. Even my Cheng 'er and Yu' er would find it difficult to establish themselves in this world. Therefore, I could only lower my eyes and smile as I said to him, 'Too many people died in that battle. I was scared out of my wits. In the future, I won't dare to go onto the battlefield again. I'll rest in the manor like the other madams and wait for your return.'
His Highness hugged me lovingly and agreed. To make it up to me, he treated me even better than before. Slowly, I purposely forgot about the shadow. I thought that the nightmare would finally end, and I would be able to wait for the day of rebirth. But I didn't expect that two months later, when I was drinking a bowl of mutton soup, I suddenly vomited. At that time, I realized that I might be pregnant. "
Ning Shu said in a low voice, "So, after that, you used the excuse that you weren't feeling well and moved to the Yan Yun Terrace to recuperate."
Old Princess Consort Yu nodded in self-mockery: "That's right. At that time, I didn't know what to do and was in a panic. I didn't dare to call any doctor to take my pulse. Otherwise, my secret would have been exposed. At the same time, I still had a trace of hope in my heart. What if this child wasn't the traitor's, but His Highness'? But I couldn't be sure. If it wasn't, when the truth came out, how could I face His Highness? How could I face the world's gossip? Therefore, I couldn't tell anyone about this matter. I could only tear it to shreds, chew it up, and swallow it into my stomach. Then, I moved to the Yan Yun Terrace. Using the excuse of cultivating my body, I didn't bring many maidservants with me. I also used all sorts of excuses to avoid meeting His Highness.
I couldn't tell anyone about the depression and sorrow in my heart. I could only secretly tell Madam Wen. She gave me an idea. She said, 'After the child is born, secretly take a drop of His Highness's blood to test for paternity. If it was His Highness's, naturally everyone would be happy and there would be no worries. If it wasn't … … She and Wen Ya had been married for many years and didn't have a child. She was willing to raise it for me.
As the child grew up day by day, my stomach also gradually swelled. Although I kept trying to convince myself that this child might be His Highness's and that I couldn't abort it, it would be too late for regrets. But in reality, I had already sensed it. It was just that I kept lying to myself … … It was as if as long as I didn't admit it, that filthy thing never happened. "
Old Princess Consort Yu's voice was too sorrowful. Ning Shu couldn't bear to interrupt her.
Until Old Princess Consort Yu's empty gaze fell on the banana leaf in front of her. After a long silence, Ning Shu said softly, "So you secretly went to the silversmith shop to make a longevity lock for her?"
"That's right. Actually, I had hesitated. If it wasn't His Highness's biological child, but the unfilial child from that day, should I just strangle her to death? But, that was a piece of soft flesh that grew out of my stomach. Whenever I thought of killing her with my own hands, my chest hurt so much that I couldn't breathe. I hated her, but at the same time, I felt guilty towards her. Because what did all of this have to do with her? Coming to this world was probably a calamity for her. So I thought for a long time and decided to go to the silversmith shop to make a longevity lock for her. After she was born, she was destined to be abandoned by me. That longevity lock could be considered my only wish for her as a mother. "
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