It was a thin layer of paper with the world's most exquisite patterns drawn on it. It was almost mesmerizing, but Ning Shu broke it with a light poke. The wind and snow hidden behind the paper window slapped Xiao Yunyi mercilessly like a slap on his face, causing his face to turn pale and full of embarrassment.
He was at a loss for what to do. "No, I …"
Mixed emotions filled his chest, making him feel embarrassed, introspective and conflicted. He had always thought that he fought for that throne with all his might for Ning Shu. But why was it that when Ning Shu asked him to give up, those two simple words, he could not say it out loud?
By his ear, Ning Shu's voice was like a gust of wind that could not be any lighter, blowing into his ears through the clouds, the sea of flowers, and the misty snowy peaks. "Your Highness, you thought that everything you did was to help me, but in reality, it was to help the powerless you back then."
The fog in front of him dispersed and Xiao Yunyi's eyebrows trembled. The word 'hypocrite' drilled into his mind cruelly and straightforwardly, sentencing himself to death.
So it was like this … No, no! He really had her in his heart, it wasn't all for himself!
But more thoughts surged into his mind. If he really gave up for her, then what was all the humiliation he had suffered since he was young? What was it when he abandoned his mother eleven years ago and was looked down upon and despised by others? What was it when he endured and hid like a wolf all these years, preparing and plotting? Was it all in vain?
No, it was impossible!
All these thoughts merged together and turned into a dark flame burning in his heart. He gritted his teeth and looked at Ning Shu in pain. "Shu 'er, why do you have to force me to make a choice! Can't I … "
Do I want both?
Five words were about to come out, but in the end, they were stuck in his mouth, unable to leave his mouth. Because now that everything had been exposed by Ning Shu, he knew clearly that it was impossible.
If he insisted on having her, then he would definitely make his Royal Father and Royal Mother unhappy. The result would either be her death, or he would be completely thrown out of that stairway. If he insisted on having the throne, then like what she said just now, every step he took now was the knife that would kill her.
Unless she was willing to be a sparrow raised in a golden cage by him, obediently hiding in the cage, silently enduring all the malice in the world, not fighting, not arguing, not arguing, and not making a fuss … Silently enduring and enduring. Until he ascended to the supreme throne, he would then wash away all the grievances and injustice for her.
But stop joking.
If she had such a mediocre and cowardly personality, she wouldn't have stood up for him eleven years ago when she was only five years old. Then, there would be no possibility of them even knowing each other.
There was no way to get the best of both worlds, not letting down Buddha and not letting down Qing. In the end, it was an extravagant hope with no way out.
Looking at Xiao Yunyi who was completely lost, Ning Shu couldn't help but think of the last moment of that life, when they met with swords and spears at the city gates. She was guarding the high city gates and looking down. He was on the warhorse that was attacking the city, holding the blood-stained Emperor's Sword in his hand. His red eyes looked at her in confusion as he asked softly, "Why did we become like this …"
A feeling of pain that she hadn't felt for a long time secretly slipped out, making her sigh helplessly.
Look, why bother?
Walking the same path again, was her head kicked by a donkey? This three hundred year old ghost, wouldn't he become the laughing stock of the entire Underworld when he returned?
"Shu 'er, wait a minute, I will definitely think of a way …" The intense conflict made his voice hoarse. He hurriedly reached out to pull her back and defend himself.
But she heard a servant suddenly jogging over to report, "Eldest Miss, the Lord Pacifying Manor has sent you a letter, asking for your help."
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