If she was worse off than him, how bad would it be?
Lu Jinnian couldn't accept it just by thinking about it. After he couldn't accept it, he blamed himself.
They were right. This was indeed his negligence. He had loved her for so many years, and every time he made love to her, it felt like a dream. That was why he had forgotten about using contraceptives. Coincidentally, she had forgotten about it too, and that was why this tragedy had happened.
When he was in school, there were boys in the same dormitory who had secretly tasted the forbidden fruit. At that time, everyone was young and ignorant, and there had been cases where someone had died.
He remembered one time in high school, during physical education class, a girl who didn't know she was pregnant had participated in a long-distance race. On the last lap, she suddenly bled profusely. Later on, they found out that it was a miscarriage. At that time, it was high school, and the school felt that it would affect the school spirit. In the end, the girl was expelled. When the girl came to school to pack up, her eyes were swollen from crying. Not long after, the boy got a new girlfriend, and every time the other girls talked about the girl, they would scold her for being shameless.
Another time was when he was in university. The boy who slept below him had a good family background, and he was in a relationship with the prettiest girl in the Chinese department. The prettiest girl had aborted three times, but the boy didn't feel the slightest bit of pity for the girl. Later on, when they were drinking and bragging, he would brag about it. After graduation, the boy mercilessly dumped the girl, and at that time, the girl would never get pregnant again.
At that time, because it had nothing to do with him, he didn't pay much attention to it. After that, he forgot about it. Until tonight, when Qiao Anhao died in the womb and suffered a miscarriage, the two incidents somehow became especially clear in his memory.
At that time, it wasn't like he didn't feel anything. He felt that the two boys were a little scummy, and the girl was too pitiful. He even swore in his heart that if he could be with Qiao Anhao one day, he would never let her experience such darkness. He would give her the best in the world.
But now?
In the end, he still made her go through such a painful experience …
If he hadn't touched her, if he had restrained himself, if he had thought of contraception... If he had seen her vomit a few days ago and thought that it was morning sickness... If...
Lu Jinnian clenched his fists tightly, his throat sore and painful.
There were so many 'what ifs' that could have prevented the tragedy from happening, but back then, he didn't do any of them.
He let her down.
He promised to give her happiness, but he gave her darkness instead.
Lu Jinnian didn't sleep, staying by Qiao Anhao's bedside.
Just as the doctor had said, anesthetics and sleeping pills had caused her to sleep for so long without any signs of waking up. Halfway through, the doctor had come by once and said that there was nothing wrong with her and that she was in a deep sleep.
At seven in the morning, he called his assistant to fetch him and Qiao Anhao, who was still in a deep sleep, from the hospital. They headed straight back to Mian Xiu Garden.
Madam Chen had already woken up. When she saw the car, she immediately came out to welcome them. When she saw that Qiao Anhao was still asleep, she asked worriedly, "Mr. Lu, how is missus?"
It was a summer morning, so it was a little chilly outside. He was afraid that she would catch a cold, so he ignored Madam Chen's words and entered the house.
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