Just like that, Lin Li watched the TV and cried for a while. When she saw some lines in the TV series, she would feel emotional. She would either scold for a while or cry because her nose was sore. In this world, other than her own patients, no one would come looking for her, right?
Just like that, she persevered until eleven o 'clock in the evening. Watching soap operas made her heart ache terribly, and she felt that her life was more and more meaningless. Why was it that everyone else was loved and loved, but she could only be alone like this? She turned on her phone and looked at it. It had been so long, but there really wasn't a single message or missed call.
A wave of sadness hit her, and she couldn't help but throw her phone into the depths of the sofa.
So tired? She curled up on the sofa and actually fell asleep just like that. And the TV was still on. Even when she fell asleep, she was also full of pain. One nightmare after another, torturing her to the point that she was heartbroken.
When she woke up again, she was very confused. "What's wrong with me?" She rubbed her aching forehead, and everything that happened yesterday flooded into her mind again. She shook her head and said loudly to herself, "What's the big deal! Divorce is divorce! Anyway, I've been alone for so many years. What's the big deal if I continue to be alone? "
She actually used some of the psychological methods that she had learned to hint to herself, trying to help her walk out of the thick and somewhat indissoluble sadness.
That's right, people are like this. If you have a certain desire and work hard in that direction, you will eventually succeed. And the psychological hints that she gave to herself were obviously working. Her life was already like this. What else was there to lose? She was originally alone, and Xu Changjun came into her life. No matter what, he had accompanied her for a while.
Now, even if he had to live a lonely life, what did it matter? If he wants to leave, then let him go.
However, when she woke up, she still felt very hungry, so she didn't just order takeout like she did yesterday. Instead, she went to the kitchen and deftly made a few dishes with the ingredients that she had bought. She sat at the dining table and ate alone.
Although tears still rolled down from time to time, her thoughts were different from the day before. In the past, she had only thought about how to please Xu Changjun and how to maintain her small family. Now that she had regained her identity, she only needed to be responsible for herself.
"Isn't that great? He could also eat whatever he wanted at any time. If he didn't want to eat, even if he was hungry, no one would care about his life. Who can say that these days aren't good? "
As she spoke to herself, tears welled up in her eyes, but her mouth did not stop moving.
After feeding Xi to its fill, she finally felt more comfortable. She looked at the time and found that it was six in the morning. She no longer had any concept of time. She just did whatever she wanted to do.
She walked to the window and muttered to herself, "It's still so early. What should I do by myself?"
Looking at the bright sky outside, her heart was as empty as the sky. She couldn't think. She felt that her brain was made of wood. She couldn't think of anything.
She looked out of the window in a daze. Suddenly, she saw two people running in the morning. In the faint sunlight, their figures were so vigorous. This word suddenly popped up in her mind. "Why can't I go?"
So she walked into the room and found her sportswear according to what the others were wearing. After putting it on, she changed into her sneakers and set off. She also wanted to go for a morning run. She also wanted to be like the others. That looked good.
She ran laps after laps along the track in the neighborhood. In the end, she felt as if she was about to collapse. Beads of sweat rolled down her face. The round sun rose straight up and shone on the vast land.
However, she didn't know what she should do now. She felt that the more she ran, the more beads of sweat fell. She felt that her body seemed to be a lot lighter, and the pressure in her heart seemed to be relieved little by little.
If that was the case, then she should continue running. Maybe all the problems would really be solved.
However, her state attracted the attention of the people who were doing morning exercises. Two warm-hearted old people came over. "Miss, take a break. This exercise can't be overdone all at once. "
The other said, "Ancient Rome wasn't built in a day. If you want to achieve the goal of fitness and weight loss, you can't run like crazy all day. In the future, you should exercise every day."
Lin Li listened to their words somewhat mechanically. She realized that she didn't quite understand what they were saying, so she stopped and looked at the two old people strangely. "Aunties, what do you mean by this?"
Her words made the two aunties who came to persuade her suddenly feel as if they had met someone who was in special need of help. The two of them held her hand, and one of the aunties even handed over the towel that she carried with her. "Miss, quickly wipe your sweat. You might be overdoing it this time. "
The two of them enthusiastically pulled her to the side of the pavilion and sat down. In fact, the two of them were also muttering in their hearts, "This girl can't be a fool, right?" She looked pretty, and didn't look like a fool at all.
The two of them looked at each other, and then asked Lin Li, "Miss, do you live in this neighborhood?"
Lin Li nodded. She felt that these two aunties were a little strange, and she felt that something was wrong. A feeling of wanting to escape from here arose in her heart. Thus, she suddenly stood up and ran outside again. She felt that running was a good way to keep sweating, so that the unhappiness in her heart could be released little by little.
"Miss, what's wrong with you?" Seeing that she suddenly did such a thing, the two aunties anxiously shouted behind her. However, they were strangers to her, and they didn't even know her name, so naturally, they couldn't continue to help her.
The two aunties could only shake their heads. "Do you think that something will happen to this girl later?"
"Yeah, why do I feel that there's something very wrong with her?"
But what could they do? He could only wait and see. If something really happened, he would help her call a one, two, zero. They couldn't help but sigh. "She's in such a mental state, why didn't her family follow her out?"
The two of them actually thought that Lin Li had a mental problem, and that her actions were restricted.
Lin Li once again ran along the neighborhood's track. She passed through a house for a while, and then came to this side. She couldn't remember anything, and she couldn't think of anything. She felt as if there was something pressing down on her heart, and it was extremely uncomfortable. And this kind of non-stop running could make her feel better.
Under the two aunties' greetings, more and more people who were doing morning exercises here noticed her. They couldn't help but point at her and say, "Indeed, what's wrong with this girl? Why does she keep running? Look at how sweaty she is! "
Indeed, standing outside, they could see the beads of sweat on her forehead. However, no one knew her. After all, she rarely showed her face in this neighborhood. She usually came and went to work in a hurry. If it wasn't for the fact that she got married recently, she wouldn't even live here. The interpersonal relationships in the city were relatively cold.
Lin Li didn't care about the gazes of the people around her. She just kept running forward, non-stop. It was as if there was something in front of her that was attracting her. She felt that she couldn't stop running. It was as if the faster she ran, the more pressure in her heart could be fiercely shaken off.
"She won't be in trouble, right?" The people who were doing exercises at the side glanced at her and said softly.
Someone else said, "Looking at her, it doesn't seem like there's anything wrong with her. Maybe she's just out for some exercise. Don't make wild guesses like that. "
Indeed, Lin Li was such a pure and pretty girl. How could she be mentally ill?
"Yeah, don't say it like that. We're going to exercise, "someone said. Finally, everyone paid less attention to Lin Li. After all, everyone came out to exercise. Where would they have the time to pay attention to others?
Lin Li kept running. She felt as if little stars were slowly appearing in front of her eyes. Although the pressure on her chest had lessened, she felt as if her legs were being dragged down by something.
"No, I must continue running. This way, I will feel better. "Lin Li actually hinted to herself like this. In her current consciousness, she had already run for a while. Now, she finally felt more comfortable. If she persisted in running like this for a while, she would sweat more, and then her chest would feel better.
Her current thinking ability was limited to what was in front of her. Any more, and she really couldn't carry on.
She dragged her heavy footsteps and continued to run down. However, the stars in front of her were really getting more and more. She ran while shaking her head. "What's wrong with me? Is there something wrong with my eyes? But how could it be? I didn't see it just now. "
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