Yasuo finally calmed down. Guilt and uneasiness once again filled his heart. However, the joy of reuniting with his older brother made him very excited. But when he wanted to touch his older brother, he saw his older brother take a step back. His outstretched hand couldn't touch his older brother's hand.
This was absolutely impossible in the past. His older brother was a very gentle person. Although he didn't want to admit it, his older brother's temper would become worse when they were together. But his older brother would only slap his hand away in disdain. Unlike now, his older brother wouldn't even let him touch his hand.
In other words, he was truly hated by his older brother.
The sense of loss and guilt made him lower his head. He didn't dare to look at his older brother because he more or less felt that the thing that constantly suppressed his heart had temporarily left him. His older brother was here to help him. However, his older brother hated him so much. This made him feel conflicted and uneasy. He didn't know if he could obtain his older brother's forgiveness. He also didn't know why his older brother had become like this.
An inhuman appearance.
"How did you become like this …"
He asked. His tone was filled with loss and uneasiness.
"I'm just like you, Azakana … I couldn't believe myself in the world of the dead, and so many of my fellow disciples were killed by you. That's why I developed a hatred for you that you can't even imagine. Then, you betrayed your honor and made my mother endure such humiliation and torment. I couldn't help but want to kill you."
Yonen paused. His hands were trembling.
"Do you know that after we all died, you were the only disciple of Elder Soma and our mother's only son? But what did you do?! "
Yonen's words were filled with resentment. He looked at Yasuo as if he was looking at an enemy.
He could've left this world peacefully, left this world that he had been working so hard for. He could've quietly followed Immortal Fox to the other side and waited for the second Spring Festival to reunite with his mother. However, the unwillingness in his heart to be killed by Yasuo made him attracted to the Gathering of Immortals. In that world, he relived the scene of being killed by Laast, and the unwillingness of only Yasuo surviving.
But even so, he wouldn't say much because Yasuo was his younger brother. Even though the two of them had always disliked each other and would have become enemies if they weren't brothers, Yasuo was willing to sacrifice his life for his brother. And after his death, he finally understood why he hated Yasuo. It was because he was essentially as arrogant as Yasuo, but Yasuo had a talent that he couldn't catch up to.
He looked up to Elder Su Ma because Elder Su Ma had helped them survive. She had even taught them martial arts and how to be a good person. She had protected the village when they were weak. Therefore, he wanted to become someone like Elder Sima. He wanted to become someone that Elder Sima and his mother could be proud of. Therefore, he worked even harder for this and succeeded in obtaining these things.
However, Yasuo appeared. When Yasuo appeared in their home, Yong En even had the thought of living in Elder Soma forever or working as a handyman in a training hall because he didn't want to disturb his mother's happiness because of him. However, his mother had left him behind so that he could have a place in his new family. Elder Suma had taken him in as a disciple, which had greatly reduced their family's difficulties.
Yong En thought that they would live happily ever after.
But that man left after leaving Yasuo behind! He ruined everything!
While Yong En and his mother tried their best to maintain this family, that man left Yasuo, who was crying piteously for food, behind! This kind of irresponsible behavior caused the already unstable family to be on the verge of collapse. Yong En's mother tried her best to provide for him and his brother. But it was impossible for a weak woman to provide for two children. If it weren't for Elder Su Ma's help, Yong En felt that his family wouldn't have ended up well.
This made Yong En attach great importance to responsibility. However, he didn't see this in Yasuo. He only saw a bastard who abandoned his wife and children!
He fought, stole, didn't care about the chores at home, and was lazy when practicing his swordsmanship. He always made his mother cry and sad.
Yasuo enjoyed the peaceful life that they worked hard for, but his mother didn't treat him well. Instead, she took it for granted, just like his father! But Yasuo's talent was terrifying. He was a natural swordsman. He was able to easily learn the sword skills that others would need to work hard to master. He didn't need to train hard to have an extraordinary physical fitness. Even the extremely difficult Imperial Wind Swordsmanship could be learned as easily as if it was his instinct.
This made Yong En extremely jealous.
He was jealous that Yasuo didn't need to worry about his life because a bunch of people were worried about him. He was jealous of Yasuo's talent because even though Yasuo's talent and strength were considered outstanding, it was undoubtedly due to his hard work and hard work. He hated Yasuo because he was the younger brother, but his strength was far superior to his elder brother.
But Yasuo didn't need to do anything and he had everything. He didn't need to work hard to obtain strength that surpassed his own.
But he had always hidden his jealousy because Yasuo was the elder brother, and …
He actually liked Yasuo a lot, whether it was his naivety when fooling around with him, his fierceness when protecting his mother's reputation, or his sensibility when he brought some prey to improve his life. Yasuo was also forced to practice his swordsmanship unwillingly. Yasuo's sad face when he got rid of his bad habits, the changes that his growing strength brought to his family, and the smile on his mother's face.
Most importantly, even though Yasuo became more and more unrestrained, he gradually became reliable, unlike his father who was an irresponsible person. Although he would never like Yasuo's overly flamboyant personality, the fact that Yasuo was gradually becoming a man made him feel gratified.
Yong En felt that his jealousy would slowly be hidden deep in his heart until he became sensible and understood their efforts. He would then replace himself as the pride of Elder Soma and his mother.
When that happened, perhaps he could give up his burdens and reveal his pure swordsman side to compete with his younger brother.
However, everything had changed. After being killed by Laast, he thought that Yasuo would stand up strong and shoulder the honor of the dojo on behalf of him and his dead comrades. He thought that Yasuo would take good care of his mother and allow her to live a peaceful life in her old age.
But what did he see in Celestial Retriever?
A bastard who didn't even care that his blade was placed in a urinal, who drank all day and let his mother do all the chores while he lived in a drunken stupor at home?! A bastard who ignored his master's pain and the expectations of others and immersed himself in his own sorrow but didn't dare to bear the responsibility?! A piece of trash who didn't even care that he was possessed by Azakana and only wanted to escape!
A piece of trash who was exactly the same as his father who abandoned his wife and children!
I sacrificed everything just to let a piece of trash like you live?!
This was something that Yong En couldn't accept because his sense of responsibility made it impossible for him to ignore it. He couldn't accept that his life was exchanged for the survival of a piece of trash. Besides, he could only watch as this piece of trash destroyed everything that he cherished and everything that he worked so hard for vanished into thin air after his death.
He wanted to see his mother live a happy life for the rest of her life. He wanted to see Elder Sima laugh at the achievements of every disciple. He wanted to see his useless brother become a man who could hold up the sky and take charge of the family. Therefore, he couldn't die. He couldn't just watch everything happen. He had to be able to move and return to the human world. He had to possess sufficient strength!
Therefore, after being possessed by Azakana, Yong En accepted Azakana's strength calmly. His heart was shrouded in hatred and unwillingness. He started to wander the land of Ionia in search of information about Yasuo and the monsters who killed him. During this process, he slowly regained his rationality. After witnessing the power of the Void, he completely woke up. His eyes were no longer shrouded in hatred and he found traces of his younger brother.
Yong En suppressed the murderous intent in his heart and the maniacal laughter of Azakana in his body. He resisted the urge to kill his younger brother because he saw that his younger brother wasn't incurable.
He still had honor in his heart, but he didn't dare to face his past mistakes. He was still like a child who yearned for someone to step forward and solve everything for him, just like himself, his mother, and Elder Soma.
He was still like a child. His life had been too smooth. Yong En had thought so much for him, but in the end, he didn't dare to take on the responsibility.
Yong En wasn't around anymore. Elder Soma was old. His mother was old too.
Yasuo had to learn how to take on his own responsibilities. Of course, he didn't want to die and he was jealous of Yasuo. But … His resentment, his unwillingness, his unwillingness to die, and his jealousy towards Yasuo …
"… but I've accepted my current self, Yasuo. My strength comes from my hatred for you. But I won't kill you because you're the only one who can take care of our mother and rebuild Elder Soma's dojo. You have to shoulder this responsibility because no one else can do it except for you. "
Yasuo instinctively wanted to escape. So many people had died. Even his elder brother had died because of his decision. He didn't dare to believe in his own judgment anymore. He was afraid that if he made the wrong decision again, he would cause the deaths of his only remaining relatives and people he respected. He would be alone in this world without a home to return to.
He was afraid of becoming a gust of wind without a home.
He avoided Yong En's gaze and didn't dare to look at his expression.
"I've made a huge mistake. I'm a sinner. I'm no longer qualified to do those things. Now, everyone wants to kill me to wash away Elder Sola's humiliation. As for me … I think it's better for me to die in their hands. Only then can I wash away Elder Sola's humiliation … because I'm the one who killed all of you … "
Yasuo clenched his teeth and said the truest words in his heart. If he was wronged and no one listened to his explanation, he would run away and find the real culprit. But the mistake was his and his enemy wasn't someone he could defeat. The Imperial Wind Swordsmanship he was so proud of couldn't even scratch his enemy's skin. He wouldn't be able to defeat his enemy even if he trained for a few more decades.
Therefore, he might as well die.
Yong En really wanted to kill Yasuo. He wanted to kill this cowardly piece of trash. However, Yasuo's grief for their deaths made Yong En feel a warm current in his heart. The rare affection between brothers flowed into their hearts at this moment. However, neither of them would admit this, nor would they believe it.
On the other hand, Yasuo felt ashamed to face Yong En, especially after knowing why Yong En returned. He wanted to bury his head in the ground and pretend that he didn't exist.
But Yong En knew that his bastard younger brother was destined to wake up the moment he revealed his identity. Because just like how Yong En couldn't stand Yasuo, Yasuo couldn't stand Yong En either. Yasuo had always hated how his big brother disciplined him like a son. He also hated how Yong En used his own standards to demand a genius like him. He also hated how Yong En shouldered all the responsibilities and neglected his own thoughts and actions.
Therefore, Yong En knew that he only needed to say one more sentence to persuade Yasuo.
"So, you've admitted defeat?"
"… Perhaps I'm the one who's wrong."
"Have you ever been right?"
Hearing this, Yasuo couldn't help rubbing his nose and raising his head.
"At least … I've always been right in my swordsmanship."
Yong En raised his eyebrows. This was a fact that he couldn't tolerate and was also the culprit of his jealousy. That was why he mocked Yasuo mercilessly.
"Is that so? Then, can you still lift your sword now? Are you still proud of your sword? "
Yasuo lowered his head and looked at the broken sword in his hand. The broken sword was constantly trembling and humming. This broken sword was now calling out to him. It was calling out to his former high-spirited self who felt that he could go anywhere in the world and that there was nothing he couldn't do. Most importantly, his heart was also calling out to his former self, calling for him to pull himself together.
He took a deep breath. He knew that he could not continue to be dispirited. His brother crawled back from hell for him, and even cut off his connection with Azakana. If he continued to be dispirited …
"I've never denied that I'm stronger than you."
Isn't that admitting that I'm weaker than this bastard brother?
"Bastard."
Yong En snorted and sheathed his sword. Then, his figure disappeared without a trace. The next time he appeared, he was already on the only remaining tree.
Yasuo hurriedly ran two steps and caught up with his big brother. In the end, he asked hesitantly.
"They said that only a fool would believe that I still have hope. Do you really believe that I won't continue to fall? After all, you've beaten me up. "
Yong En didn't reply. His figure completely disappeared in a cloud of mist. Just as Yasuo turned around and left resentfully, a gust of cherry blossom petals blew past him and brought along Yong En's voice.
"Perhaps only a fool would believe that you still have hope."
A petal fell into Yasuo's hand.
"But I believe."
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