The deeper the dream, the more the master's thoughts would be reflected. (Quoted from Hua Qiangu's Book of the Lost Gods). The Cult Master was almost a necessity for Lil 'Yun's survival. Therefore, in the first dream, the Cult Master did his best to give Lil' Yun what he wanted on the surface. This was very heartwarming, but it also tortured me deeply.
Oh, right. It seems like no one noticed. The Hierarch said, "I have no choice but to make Jiang Liechen the Young Master. He is the son of my enemy." And Xiao Yun nodded. From a normal person's point of view, this was completely illogical. Xiao Yun didn't know the inside story, so he was also a normal person. So why didn't he question this statement? The first reason was that he trusted Jiang Liechen a lot. His dream reflected his own memories, so what the Hierarch said was basically Jiang Liechen's words. An Yesun nodded his head in confusion. The second reason was that An Yesun was dreaming. Of course, his logic was messed up, so don't expect him to question this messed up logic at this time. (Oh, no, please ignore this part.)
The second dream was the question "Is Jiang Liechen good or bad?" that troubled An Yesun his whole life. This question existed in a deeper memory than status, and it tormented An Yesun his whole life. Logically speaking, this question couldn't be answered clearly, so I chose the most direct method — force it.
In the second dream, I used a lot of sign language. Translated, it was:
"All around me is an endless stretch of pure white, like a clear and soft fog, and in the midst of it, I can vaguely see layers upon layers of mountains. There is no sky, no earth, only a vast space that seems like chaos, giving me an unreal feeling of floating in the middle.
(Because he had no background, An Yesun threw away all restraints of identity, and spoke frankly as a brother.)
An Yesun looked around. It was strange, but also familiar. The sound of hurried footsteps interrupted his tumultuous thoughts. An Yesun turned around and caught sight of Jiang Liechen's smile, which was like a red silk. Whether it was his unruly gaze or the two bottles of wine in his hands, it gave An Yesun the illusion that it was still early, that they were still young, that nothing had happened yet. (And the background.)
Perhaps it was an illusion. An Yesun stared at Jiang Liechen's face as he strode towards him. It was clean, without a mask, as if it was illuminated by a soft light. An Yesun was a little confused. Was he dreaming now, or was he dreaming before?
"It's not a dream," Jiang Liechen said, looking at his brother of many years and shaking his head with a smile. "None of it is a dream." (Of course, what happened before was not a dream. As for what happened now, you can refer to Dumbledore's words in Harry Potter: "This is what happened in your mind, but why isn't it real?")
"Let's drink first. We'll talk about the rest later." The wine bottles were thrown on the stone table that had appeared out of nowhere. The crisp knocking sound was accompanied by a special string sound. (String sound: Superior's order.) An Yesun knew that it was useless to think too much. He sat down cross-legged and said nothing, holding a wine bottle in front of him.
"Ding —" The wine bottles clinked, producing a strange bell sound. (Bell sound: Equal communication.) An Yesun and Jiang Liechen kept toasting each other, and began to drink wine bottle by bottle. The wine tasted really good. The refreshing coolness was mixed with a slightly tipsy sweetness. Was it the taste of peach blossoms? An Yesun paused and shook his head. It was not the mellow fragrance of peach blossoms, but more like bamboo leaves, with a hint of a storm. (This wine represents Xiao Yun's life, without the sweetness of peach blossoms — he chased after Chu Menglin his whole life, but failed. Bamboo leaves — his own unyielding pride and persistence. Storm — the suffering of the outside world that tried to destroy his will.)
Storm? An Yesun almost laughed at his own analogy. He had drunk wine his whole life, and he never thought that he would one day use the word 'storm' to describe a wine. (Xiao Yun had suffered a lot.)
Jiang Liechen narrowed his eyes and looked at him. His eyes were curved. Did he find it interesting too? An Yesun suddenly wanted to know. [Hope to get recognition for your life.]
"It tastes good?" Jiang Liechen used his finger to lightly scratch the carvings on the wine bottle, and lazily raised his head to look at An Yesun, who was nodding vigorously. "I think it's not bad too, I like it a lot." [Jiang Liechen's reply — I like Xiao Yun's life a lot.]
"And then?" Dark Night Death didn't know what he was trying to say. He just didn't want to keep quiet anymore. [Little Death is asking Jiang Jianchen what he really thought about him.]
"After that, there's nothing else. Trust me." [Jiang Jiao made Little Yun believe that he and Jiang Jiao were brothers. Jiang Jiao didn't use him, only trust.]
"Hmm …" An Yesun was a little confused, but his heart was at ease, as stable as a castle. (Castle: Xiao Yun's own subjective world.) His eyelids were fighting, but he forced himself to open his eyes and ask, "Can I?" [Yes, trust me. An Yesun hopes that he can trust Jiang Liechen without worry.]
The last image of Jiang Liechen in his heart burned in his mind even after he finally gave in to fatigue and closed his eyes. Jiang Liechen approached An Yesun with a smile as bright as the sun, and said softly, "Of course." [An affirmation, and also recognition for An Yesun.]
Understood. [An Yesun is at ease now.]
There was no extra explanation, only an affirmative answer to the question, "Can I trust you?". An Yesun was just an overly tired child. He was so tired that he did not want to do anything. He just wanted to have one thing in this world that he did not have to worry about. Even if he knew that Jiang Liechen was a dangerous person who could not be trusted (in fact, he was), he would still trust him with his life. The silly child was too stubborn, so I gave him peace.
The third dream was originally Menglin's home turf, but the problem with her was resolved in the first dream. Now that he thought about it, compared to trying to change Menglin's mind, An Yesun spent more of his life trying to become the son-in-law of a Hierarch. From the looks of it, Dark Night Yun's problem had been resolved. Therefore, the owner of this dream realm was a kind person.
Actually, the background of the third dream was An Yesun and Chu Menglin's first encounter. An Yesun was a child who was forced to say, "This world has abused me thousands of times, but I treat this world like my first love." Whenever he met someone, he would cling onto that person's clothes like a Christian waiting for salvation. Menglin's encounter with Xiao Yun, from a certain perspective, was a mistake.
The first time they met, he had to fight a leopard with his bare hands. He won, and the leopard died. From then on, his life was stained with blood.
The first time they met, you made him think that you were kind and weak, while the leopard was evil and strong. But in reality, that was not the case. So in his life, he could no longer distinguish between good and evil.
The first time they met, you were not free. He risked his life to kill the leopard for you, but what was the use? There was someone much stronger than you manipulating everything behind the scenes. Later on, he became a chess piece forever.
He struggled his entire life, but could not escape.
So, if their encounter was not the same cause, the same development, would there be a different ending?
That was what I gave Xiao Yun in the third dream.
A white rabbit, a chase together. This time, there was no one else, only the two of you, acting out your own joys and sorrows in the dream.
The loosening of Menglin's hair band was a small detail I arranged. I still hope that the little Menglin I like can break free from his shackles, and bravely pursue his own happiness like a little dove.
An Yesun's assumption that Menglin wanted to hug the rabbit was understandable. Xiao Yun was a child with low self-esteem, so he would silently give up everything for Menglin. He did not need anything in return. Menglin's happiness was his greatest happiness.
The following dialogue repeatedly emphasized the theme of kindness. Xiao Yun's "I'll listen to you" at the end meant that Xiao Yun would always protect his kindness.
Actually, there was a hidden character in this dialogue — my dear heroine Dyed Jade. As Xiao Yun chatted, he was surprised to find some familiarity. Dyed Jade was indeed a friend of his, and he had let her go time and time again. But the ending … sigh, let's not talk about it.
The "Beauty Yu" that was used to describe Menglin's smile had nothing to do with the following sentence. The last sentence was used to summarize the entire dream, and Beauty Yu's flower language was "comfort, forget and rest." I believed that Xiao Yun would be comforted by Beauty Yu in this encounter that did not actually happen.
Actually, I did think of replacing Beauty Yu with the red spider lilies. Because the red spider lilies' flower language was "I'll wait for you in a place you can't see." Later, I felt that it was a bit cruel, so I replaced it with the healing Beauty Yu.
In the entire third dream, I wrote a lot of white, snowy white, beige white, pure white. I hoped that An Yesun would be able to walk on a clean path in the future, carrying the kindness that he had not yet lost.
In the final fourth dream, it was a need that he had buried for a long time: family.
Actually, Xiao Yun was also a child who needed family. It was just that the heavens had blinded his eyes with hatred. Xiao Yun took his life to take revenge for the injustice that others had done to him. But the massacre of the village became An Yesun's nightmare. This was a strange cycle. What was special was that this cycle was set to be unbreakable from the very beginning. From the very beginning, Xiao Yun had no way out.
So there was no need to explain too much. Xiao Yun only needed to find his parents and vent all the pain that had been pent up for so many years.
The beginning of the description of the environment carried on the theme of the third dream. The sea of clouds represented freedom and kindness. The piano keys represented good and evil. Xiao Yun set out from here and found his home.
The scenery of the village was very peaceful. The stone mill turned into a circle, symbolizing that after a lifetime of exhaustion, Xiao Yun had returned to where he started. Xiao Yun found his parents. Then, he felt that he was still a child. He could peacefully enjoy the sense of security that his parents gave him. He asked, "Do I still have a chance? Can I still enjoy the embrace of my parents? " After what his father had done, after what he had done, after what he had done.
Mother answered his question, "There is more than one key to a door." Actually, his father's actions were not only understandable. An Yesun could have used other methods to achieve his goal. But that was all in the past. The so-called parents, when a child who had done something wrong returned with a body full of pain, would still unconditionally open their arms to understand him, accept him, and comfort him.
Thank you.
Those four sentences corresponded to four dreams (nonsense). It was very healing, wasn't it? After experiencing four dreams, An Yesun finally found the happiness he wanted.
What was happiness? It was being satisfied with what one had, and never regretting it.
And so, it was the "fruit" that was born from the dreams. Here, let's first recite the names of An Yesun and Chu Menglin.
An Yesun: The night without light, the fall.
Chu Menglin: The dream, the beautiful jade (dictionary explanation).
So, the various images in the dreams were explained as follows:
Night boat: Xiao Yun's life. It is always sailing in the night, undulating with the waves of the sea, drifting without a place to rely on.
Thin night: Xiao Yun's life is about to end. The light is coming, but he cannot survive in the light.
Black sea: The dark outer environment.
Meteor: The fall of the life of a broken star.
No one's life will change because of this: An Yesun had almost no one who truly cared about him. His death had nothing to do with others.
The moon in front, the star behind: Setting out from the star to search for the moon, symbolizing his pursuit of Menglin.
Egg jade: The lonely Menglin who protects himself. Egg – sense of security.
Winged cocoon: In some ways, Xiao Yun had the power to break out of the cocoon, but in other ways, he would always be a child who had not grown up.
An Yesun rushed towards the cocoon with qinggong: An Yesun staked everything on a single throw, with no way out.
An Yesun entered the cocoon: An Yesun quietly waited for it to end in the dream of obtaining Menglin.
You've worked hard: Consolation for Xiao Yun.
Goodbye: This means that Xiao Yun will never wake up again.
And so, this long-winded epilogue is finally coming to an end. Speaking of this article, I can finally proudly say that I gave a healing ending to this life. However, please note that the author was just a junior high school student a few days ago, so don't think that a junior high school student can say anything about philosophy. Also, this article took a long time to write (second year of middle school, third year of middle school). If there are any huge loopholes, please read on with tolerance. However, I did put a lot of effort into this article. As my first post on Tieba and the first article that I finished, I treated it with great care. So, if you don't like it, please don't criticize me. Leave me some face.
Finally, there is the conclusion I wrote during the middle school exams:
I still hope that Xiao Yun is still the same Xiao Yun as before, who is obsessed with Menglin, who has endless fun fighting with Jiang Liechen, who messes around with Dyu in his free time, who has an unchanging stubbornness, who follows his unchanging life creed. Only this way can he be the same Xiao Yun that I love so much.
"I don't use my original name anymore. Everyone calls me An Yesun, the Cruel Fiend Star."
Cruel Fiend Life, Starfall Soul.
Eternal Starlight.
(You
life.)
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