There were still traces of tears on Nangong Xue's face. Li Yijie gently lowered his head and kissed her. His burning lips touched her cold cheeks. His heart felt as if it was being squeezed. For the first time, he realized that tears were not only salty, but also bitter.
There were several times when he almost burst into tears. He picked her up and held her tightly in his arms. "We've been together for so long. I always thought that there were some things that didn't need to be said out loud. But I was wrong. I neglected one thing. You're still a girl. Girls like it when men say mushy words of love. Sometimes, they even say them repeatedly. But I'm so slow. I never know how to pick the words that you like to hear. Why didn't you remind me? When you were awake, I felt ashamed when I looked into your eyes. I never dared to say those words to you. Now that I know that you don't have a single memory of it, I can say those things that I didn't want to say out loud to you without hesitation. Finally, I don't have to hide my feelings anymore … Xueer, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you … "
He said it more than ten times in a row. He reached for the teacup on the table and poured the tea into it. His fingers were trembling so much that he couldn't even hold the teacup properly. With great difficulty, he placed the teacup on the floor. However, the teacup was already splashed with a lot of tea. The floor was mottled, and Nangong Xue's clothes were darkened in several places.
Li Yijie raised his hand, but in the end, it hung in the air. "Xueer, this may be the first time I say that I love you, but it may also be the last time. If we meet again in the future, I won't be me anymore. If I do anything to hurt you in my delirium, I'll take a knife and cut myself into eight pieces first. If we become enemies and make things difficult for you, I'll be free if I die by your sword. But if I want you to hate me, I'd rather not appear in your life at all! You know, other people's opinions are insignificant to me. What I can't bear is your hatred. No matter what happens in the end, I know that you will never forgive me. Our love was wasted in chasing and missing each other, until we completely lost to fate … But it's precisely because I love you that I can't harm you. This show was a mistake from the start, so let me personally end it! "
He took out a paper bag from his bosom, tore it open, and poured a wisp of white powder into the teacup. He shook it slowly, watching the powder disperse in the tea, and finally completely mixed with the tea. He gently lowered her body from his knees and placed her on the ground in the same position as before. He placed her hand on the edge of the teacup and said, "Heartless Powder … Xueer, you've been unconscious for several hours. When you wake up, you'll definitely be thirsty. Therefore, there's a cup of tea next to your hand … When you drink this cup of tea, you'll sever your relationship with me in this lifetime. In your memory, there will no longer be me. This is also very good. Since you are not happy because of my existence, you will naturally not cry because of my departure. I wish you, in the years to come, there will always be only happiness and no sadness. You're really a girl who needs to be cherished. Don't let your future be tainted with haze just to protect our fruitless love. I made this decision not because I don't respect you, but … because I love you. I'm no longer qualified to be with you. The only thing I can do is to withdraw in time and not interfere with the happiness you deserve. I hope that after you forget me, you can find a man who knows how to love you, know how to cherish you, and let you occupy the most important part of his life. He's more suitable for you than I am. He doesn't need to be outstanding, and he doesn't need to have great martial arts skills. As long as he can give you a stable and worry-free life, and give you a pure love, such a man is worth entrusting your life to. Knowing that you will live a happy life, I can also smile in the underworld. Perhaps in this lifetime, we are destined not to be together. In the next life … I hope it will be a peaceful and prosperous world. When we meet again, we won't be involved in the disputes of the martial arts world. We won't suspect each other again, and we won't miss each other again … I don't want to be a big shot anymore. I just want to be by your side, to accompany you, to protect you, until the end of time, until the end of time … "
Li Yijie had almost exhausted all the strength in his body to say these words. Every word was filled with blood and tears. His heart was in so much pain that he could no longer feel it. It was as if someone had cut his heart inch by inch and dyed it into a bloody mess. Time spent together was always so short, but parting was always so long. What's more, after parting today, they would never meet again. There were still so many heartfelt words that he hadn't had time to say. It seemed that in the past, he really didn't know how lucky he was.
If he delayed any longer, he didn't know when Nangong Xue would wake up. At that time, he wouldn't be able to leave anymore. Just as he was about to get up, he suddenly saw Nangong Xue's drooping arm. Her sleeve was lifted up by the wind, and a bracelet made of straw was quietly tied around her wrist. There were also a few sparkling and translucent glass beads wrapped around it. It turned out that there was no limit to the pain in his heart. It could still bring him down into a bottomless abyss. The bracelet in front of his eyes was already blurred by his tears. He muttered, "Xueer, this bracelet, so … you still have it?"
His memory returned to more than ten years ago. On Mount Hua's Jade Maiden Peak, a little girl was sitting on a rock, sulking. Beside her, a little boy was sweating profusely as he tried to coax her. However, when he turned to the east, the little girl's head turned to the west. When he turned to the west, the little girl's head turned to the east. In the end, the little boy was at his wit's end. He stomped his feet, turned around, and left.
The little girl wasn't really angry. After waiting for a while, when she couldn't hear the little boy's voice, she quietly turned her head and looked around. In a small voice, she called out, "Hey, Martial Brother, where are you?" After a while, when she didn't hear anything, she called out again, "Martial Brother, can you come out? I … I'm not angry with you anymore! "
Every time someone threw a tantrum, the more someone tried to coax them, the fiercer the tantrum would be. He wished that the other person would ignore him. But if the other person really left, the other person would be at a loss. What he really wanted was to take advantage of the other person's "refusal to leave" and take the opportunity to scold him.
The little girl looked around in a circle, but still didn't see any trace of the little boy. She couldn't help but throw a tantrum again. "Humph, I only said a few words, and you're angry? You're a dignified man, yet you're so narrow-minded! I'm not going to bother with you anymore! "She deliberately stomped her feet until the dust was flying, and quickly walked down the mountain.
She hadn't walked a few steps when suddenly, a bracelet made of straw appeared in front of her. The one holding it was the little boy. He smiled and said, "In order to make you happier, I specially made this for you. How is it? Do you like it?"
The little girl pouted. She wanted to wave her hand and say, "I don't want it." But when she saw the glass beads, they were clear and bright. In the end, she reached out and took them. She couldn't help but secretly scold herself for being so useless. The little boy smiled and said, "This is my unique craft. There's only one of its kind in this family. " The little girl stroked the beads with a smile on her face. She loved it so much that she didn't want to put it down. However, she still deliberately said, "You're apologizing to me. You only used this kind of cheap straw bracelet. How insincere."
The little boy smiled and said, "This can be considered a genuine product. I'll mortgage it with you first. When we finish our studies and go down the mountain in the future, when I become a great hero revered by the world, I'll buy you a real jadeite bracelet. Then, I'll make those rich young ladies' jewelry can't compare to yours. "The little girl said," Okay, then it's a deal! "
More than ten years later, he had long forgotten the original promise. He didn't expect that she would treat that worthless straw as her most precious treasure. She had always kept it close to her body. Her eyelashes were filled with tears. Her fingers slowly moved between the beads. She said, "If I had known that such an insignificant gift could make you so satisfied, I would have given you a few more … No, I should have treated you better from the start! No matter what I say now, it's too late. Since you want to forget, you should forget completely. You can't leave any clues and cause future trouble … "
She took off the bracelet. The straw knot was so tight that it was almost entangled with her wrist. It was obvious that she had never taken it off in all these years. She smiled bitterly and said, "Xueer, why are you so stupid? Why … why do you love a person like me so deeply? " He played with the bracelet. With a "pop" sound, the string of straw broke, and the beads shot out in all directions.
It was not difficult to use a heavy hand to break the straw knot. The difficult part was to use all ten fingers to move the beads at the same time, so that in a split second the beads would attack in many directions. If the opponent was lucky enough to avoid one, he would not be able to avoid the next one. It was a profound skill in projecting secret projectiles.
'Ding! Ding! Ding! Ding!' ten consecutive sounds were heard, but the beads did not fall. Li Yijie's complexion immediately turned extremely ugly. He had made that bracelet with his own hands. He knew that there were ten beads in total. Now the eavesdropper had unexpectedly caught all of them. In terms of defense, the eavesdropper only needed to block one bead. Striking down ten beads was a deliberate provocation to him.
First of all, the speed of the movement was astonishing. Just the strength of the internal energy cultivation alone was already out of the ordinary. How could there be such a master in the Hall? He stood up and secretly circulated his internal energy. Secretly, he was on full alert.
'Dong! Dong! Dong! Dong!' ten sounds were heard. The beads once again hit the floor and rolled around the room. Outside the door, a person turned around and walked in. There was not the slightest bit of impetuous breathing. It was the Xuan Shuang. Li Yijie let out an almost inaudible sigh. He did not know whether or not he should be relieved. He forced a smile and said, "So it was you. I was wondering who else could have this kind of strength." The Xuan Shuang did not take advantage of the situation to boast. He coldly said, "Have you thought it over?"
Li Yijie was forcefully pulled back to reality. He helplessly replied, "Yes, I have." The Xuan Shuang coldly snorted and said, "What's wrong with you wanting to act alone? It's more like I'm happy to eavesdrop on you. Where's the scapegoat? " Li Yijie saw the Xuan Shuang's gaze drift towards the Nangong Xue. He hurriedly stepped forward and stopped him. He said word by word, "There is no scapegoat." Without waiting for the Xuan Shuang to ask, he explained with a bitter smile, "The person who chose to become a demon is me."
As expected, the Xuan Shuang was startled. He was much calmer than Li Yijie expected. He casually said, "Oh, is that so? Why?" From his tone, it seemed as if he had already expected Li Yijie to make such a decision. He was just making a final decision. Li Yijie did not want to explain in detail. He was even more unwilling to let others judge his "benevolence and righteousness". He asked in return, "Why do you think a person wants to become a demon?"
The Xuan Shuang frowned and sized him up. After a long time, he said, "You are different from others. Only you have this kind of ability. Even if you want to become a demon, no one will think that you want to rule and dominate. However, you wholeheartedly want to win the reputation of being a hero and bring benefits to the people. Once you become a demon, everything will backfire. No one will understand your sacrifice. On the contrary, they will hate you as a demon. Those who are less courageous will hide as far away as possible. Those whose brains are filled with courage will only pick up weapons to make things difficult for you. They will all want to kill you and earn the reputation of a new generation of warriors. The nature of a demon is to kill and destroy. You will not be merciful to the people you once wholeheartedly wanted to protect after becoming a demon. You … "
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