The carriage jolted along the way, carrying his thousands of thoughts and melancholy. In a trance, he returned to the scene of reality. He looked at Nangong Xue's side profile. Her beautiful face was extremely pale. There was a kind of heart-wrenching despair, but also a kind of tranquility that seemed like it would disappear in the next moment.
Ever since Lu Qian's death a year ago, Nangong Xue had suffered a great blow. It was not easy for her to hold on until now, but then she had a big fight with Li Yijie. It was difficult for her to accept one blow after another, which was why she became so dispirited. He sighed and took the initiative to start a conversation. However, what he talked about was the part she was trying to avoid. He asked, "Xue, what do you and Alliance Head Li plan to do? It won't work if it continues like this. Is it going to end here, or … if the misunderstanding drags on, it will only get worse. Both of you are so headstrong, neither of you is willing to speak first and apologize to the other … "
Nangong Xue hugged her knees and buried her head deep in them. She said, "You're here to rub salt into my wound again. On the scales of love, there is no right or wrong. It only depends on who has more weight … Do you know, what I have is just a feather? His side, to me, is the whole world. Tell me, which one is more important? Naturally, I can only compromise and tolerate. But I'm really tired. Why do I have to apologize to him every time we have a conflict, no matter who is right or wrong? I'm tired of this method. Just because I love him, in front of him, I'm deprived of my right to be a human being? I really want to run away from this place, from everyone. I want to go to a strange place where no one knows me. I'm like a hedgehog. I want to protect myself with thorns, but in the end, I hurt the people around me. I'm destined to be alone. Everyone will leave me. It's better to leave earlier than later. You … don't pay attention to me. Maybe Noble Consort Yun is right. I'm a jinx! Sometimes, I wish I could be like an ostrich and bury my head deep in the ground. I don't look and don't think about everything. Although not facing things doesn't mean they didn't happen, at least … out of sight, out of mind. "
Shangguan Yaohua said, "When did you become so weak? The Ah Xue I know, cough … this might sound a little mushy … She always gives the greatest love and confidence in life, and it's not that easy to escape. "
Nangong Xue said, "It's hard to predict a person's heart. Everyone can only see one side of it. In the end … you don't know me well enough. How can I know myself well? Actually, I've always been like this. I'm very weak and I'm very afraid of getting hurt. I once wanted to love this world and everyone, but it was everything I loved that hurt me the most. Can you imagine, when you kiss a rose, only to be stabbed and bleeding by its thorns, what kind of pain and despair would that be? I only hope for one person. I don't ask him to be considerate and take care of me in every possible way. I only ask him to pity me and understand me. Who isn't lonely? Everyone is together just to keep each other warm. Recently, I've been thinking that the feelings I have for Senior Brother might not be love, but a dependence that came from being together since we were young … I want to distinguish between these two feelings. Therefore, I want to leave for a period of time, far away from him. I want to experience what it's like to live without him. I want to experience if I can withstand … losing him. "
Shangguan Yaohua said, "Since the two of you are truly in love, what's the big deal about the doubts of others? Why worry about it? It's because of Lu Qian … "
Nangong Xue hurriedly said, "No, it's not because of him … But it's because of him that I've thought about a lot of things. It's because of him that I want to reevaluate myself. Even if what I see is a stranger that I'm most familiar with, I don't regret it. Many times, it's not that I don't love him, nor is it because I'm angry. It's just that some very familiar feelings suddenly change. Something that was once worth risking your life to pursue suddenly becomes unimportant in an instant. Or rather, to you, it has no meaning at all. It's because of this huge difference that people feel completely empty. I … I don't know if you can understand. Maybe I've been sentimental since I was young, and there are many strange thoughts in my head. Those who know me all say that I'm a weirdo … "
Shangguan Yaohua blurted out, "I understand! Of course I understand! " Just like when he was young, he would painstakingly save up a few copper coins just to buy a little sugar figurine for Xiang Xiang. Looking at her satisfied smile and the joy of eating the figurine in big mouthfuls, he only felt sincere satisfaction. But today, with the money he had, although he could buy hundreds of sugar figurines, they were worthless.
Or maybe it was because he wanted to surpass Lu Qian, but when his target suddenly disappeared, he didn't feel happy. Instead, he felt empty when he used all his strength to hit an empty target.
Or like how the commoners dreamed of getting rich, or how the officials and nobles dreamed of enjoying their old age, when the day came, it wasn't as beautiful as when they were looking forward to it. She said softly, "That's why I keep working hard and climbing up the ladder to fill my time. It's to avoid the silence after prosperity. But even so, I can fill up my limbs, but I can't fill up my brain. It still has to let its imagination run wild, and constantly let its imagination run wild … If you're a weirdo, then I … am simply a weirdo. Tell me, can't we be considered as birds of a feather? You don't have to avoid me anymore, right? "
Nangong Xue giggled. The carriage sped along. She looked at Shangguan Yaohua beside her and said, "That Red Sand Pearl, what exactly is it?"
Shangguan Yaohua said, "I don't know. It's said to be a legendary treasure. I'm afraid it's the essence of a sand monster … To tell you the truth, I've only heard of this name recently. Whether it's real or not, where to find it, and what use it has, I don't know."
Nangong Xue bit her lip. For a moment, she didn't know what to say. She said, "If we go looking for the Red Sand Pearl like this, isn't it like we're rushing towards an empty target? That Miss Ping is really strange. Don't tell me it's just her imagination? Besides, we're not her servants. Why should we risk our lives and come to the desert to look for it just because she says she likes it, and we don't even know if it's true or not? If she's such a willful woman, I'm afraid her future husband will be tormented to death by her. In my opinion, it's better not to marry her. "
Shangguan Yaohua said, "It's not necessarily Miss Ping's fault. There are people who prefer to be her servants. Her words are treated like an imperial edict. What can other people do? Ai, I'm much smarter than them. I'm more realistic. I won't ask for Miss Ping's hand in marriage. I only want you. "
Nangong Xue suddenly saw his affectionate gaze. She was startled and looked away. Shangguan Yaohua also knew that he had scared her. He changed the topic and said, "If we don't look for the Red Sand Pearl, Li Yijie won't have a present. Based on him … Don't blame me for saying this, but how can he attract the Miss of the Ping Family? Then he will definitely be with you. You won't have to be sad for him anymore. No matter what, I don't want to see you two separate. Even if it's a selfish request, try to be tolerant of him and forgive him for his difficulties. Don't leave so easily. "
Nangong Xue nodded slightly and said, "What I want is not a homeless man who is despised by Miss Ping. I want a complete him. His heart is higher than the sky, but he only has me in his eyes. That's my husband. But I promise you, in the future, I won't be so willful and throw tantrums. Ai … Do you think there's really a Red Sand Pearl? Shen Shiyun has disliked us for a long time. Maybe he deliberately used this as a pretext to lure you away from the Imperial City. Then he would set up an ambush on the road to kill you so that we won't be able to return to the Imperial Palace alive — — "
Shangguan Yaohua suddenly felt a chill in his heart. At this moment, the horse suddenly stood up. The two of them who were sitting in the carriage were thrown to the side at the same time. Shangguan Yaohua raised his hand to support Nangong Xue. Thinking that men and women shouldn't touch each other, he hurriedly let go of her and turned away with a red face.
The horse was suddenly startled. It threw the coachman off and suddenly started to gallop wildly. Shouts of "Oh no!", "Run!", "You scared the horse!" could be heard in the marketplace. Nangong Xue stuck her head out of the window and looked around. The horse was pulling the two of them towards a big tree. With such momentum, their heads would definitely bleed. Without thinking, she said, "Let's jump out of the carriage!"
Shangguan Yaohua anxiously said, "Eh? Hey … Ai … "Before he could refute, Nangong Xue had already pulled on his sleeve and almost hugged him as they jumped out of the carriage window.
The two of them rolled on the ground a few times. Shangguan Yaohua unconsciously wrapped one of his hands around Nangong Xue's waist. Their eyes met and they could even count each other's eyelashes clearly. Their hot breaths blew on their faces, causing them to blush unconsciously. Their lips were so close together that it was as if they could touch each other if they leaned forward. However, Nangong Xue's lips were as soft and tender as flower petals. Shangguan Yaohua felt ashamed of his inferiority. He felt that if he couldn't control himself at this juncture, he would be profaning her purity.
Moreover, he was just advising her on how to tie the knot with Li Yijie. How could he say one thing and mean another? Thinking of this, he forcibly stopped his fantasies and struggled to prop himself up. Then he helped Nangong Xue up and said, "Get up, Ah Xue. You … you're not hurt, are you?" He hurriedly dusted himself to hide his red face. At this moment, the heat was so intense that even he felt like he was going to burn himself up. It was not an exaggeration to boil a pot of water or to cook an egg.
The two of them stood side by side and saw that the large carriage they had just ridden in was already charging towards the tree. With a loud crash, blood splattered from the horse's head and it fell to the ground. The canopy of the tree shook violently, causing large amounts of leaves to fall. The carriage had flipped over and only four wheels were left facing the sky. It hadn't recovered from the previous collision and was still spinning.
The carriage had been flattened. It was a ghastly sight. If the two of them hadn't jumped out of the carriage early, who knows what would have happened to them. Shangguan Yaohua heaved a sigh of relief and said, "That was close … Ah Xue, thank goodness you were quick-witted just now …"
Suddenly, he heard a strange laugh and said, "You guys ran fast. Little brat, I'm afraid it's too early for you to be happy. " Shangguan Yaohua and Nangong Xue both shivered and quickly turned their heads. They saw a group of men dressed in tight clothes walking towards them with quick steps. Their eyes were bright and spirited. It seemed like they were a group of martial artists.
Nangong Xue had been frightened countless times, so this time was no exception. After being stunned for a moment, she recovered and took a step forward and said, "I don't know any of you. Why did you launch a sneak attack and block our path? What are your intentions?" At the same time, she secretly wondered where this group of people came from. Logically speaking, they shouldn't be subordinates of the Seven Evil Spirits.
The man actually cupped his hands and said, "Miss Nangong, the Alliance Master has ordered us to invite you over for a chat. He has already prepared the best wine and meat to entertain you."
When Nangong Xue heard the two words "Alliance Master", her mind was blown. She immediately put on a cold and hard expression and said, "He should know my personality best. I don't like to be threatened. If the two of you invited me over with courtesy, perhaps I wouldn't embarrass him too much. But if you force me, even if you kill me on the spot, don't expect me to compromise! I want him to know that the world doesn't revolve around him. If you have the guts, then bring my corpse to see him! "
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