The candle on the side burst into sparks with a "pop" sound. Xuan Shuang was slightly shaken. He raised his eyes to look at the source of the sound. He shook his head and smiled bitterly. Bowing his head deeply, he said, "You see, what I said was so touching that even the candle was moved. Why are you the only one who is indifferent?"
His eyes fixed on the flame, which was sometimes high and sometimes low, sometimes flickering. For some reason, he felt a kind of panic, as if the candle of his life had reached its end. The more he didn't want to think about it, the more his thoughts lingered in his mind.
Looking at Cheng Jiaxuan's peaceful sleeping face, he said softly, "Xiao Xuan, at any time, you are the quietest one. In fact, you have many thoughts in your heart, but you are never willing to speak. But I can only say that you are a failure of silence. As long as you are willing to put in the effort, you can find out the secrets behind many things. Since you don't speak about it, no one will care. In this world where the weak are prey to the strong, to use my master's favorite saying, the winner is king, the loser is a bandit. The weak will only be lamented by others, but will not receive any sincere sympathy. I am the only one who sneaks a few glances at you from time to time. I know that you are still like an ordinary person, with desires and needs. "
He got up and walked around the room several times before returning to the bedside. He saw that Cheng Jiaxuan's face seemed to be a bit sorrowful, but upon closer inspection, it seemed to be his own misconception. He sighed, "You see, one is marked by the company one keeps. Now I am just like you, becoming neurotic. You are not the best lover, you are just one of a bunch of pitiful admirers. My master does not have you in his heart, you and I both know very well. But although you 'know the difficulty', you are not willing to back down. For more than half a year, whether it was the initial lack of interaction or the subsequent indifference, you have always insisted on loving him. You are not willing to give up, nor are you willing to take a step back. Your feelings are so humble, yet so strong. Even I can't help but be moved by you. Love is like a net, but you are a useless tailor and a failed hunter. You can't catch his body, much less his heart. From now on, don't consider yourself his savior. You still don't understand him well enough. This is not a grace to him, but the cruelest torture. Just imagine how arrogant he was, and how he wanted to display himself in front of the world with the highest attitude. What he wanted was reverence, not admiration. Your infatuation with him makes him seem no different from those other ordinary men. How can he be happy? The most important thing is that he wins more than he loses when he competes with others. The only time he was seriously injured and on the verge of death, he had no choice but to hide in a deserted temple in the deep suburbs to recuperate, and you just happened to see him. In the future, as long as he sees you, he will naturally remember this great humiliation. How do you think he will feel? He did not want to accept other people's kindness, he would rather the people of the world did not help him. Then it would be logical for him to wreak havoc and become a devil, taking revenge on the world. It is an unchangeable fact that you treat him well. As a person, he was also very good at getting into a dead end. On one hand, he would use this to vent his anger. On the other hand, he would treat you a hundred times worse to make up for the difference. I've said it before, he can only be controlled by others, but he can't be praised. Sigh, actually I can understand the two of you, but I can't help either of you … "
Just as he was filled with worry, he suddenly heard the faint sound of footsteps coming from outside the room. His eyes and ears were very sharp, no sound could be hidden from him. He raised his head and looked around, worried that someone was going to harm Cheng Jiaxuan. He decisively blew out the candle and jumped out of the room through a small window on the side. He circled around and returned to the main hall from the side.
As expected, from a distance he saw a shadow standing in front of the hall. He stood tall, his back seemed to be filled with endless sorrow and worry. Just from this one glance he could tell that he was not an evil person. His inference was often due to some insignificant thoughts at the beginning. He did not want to make any noise and quietly got closer. When he was less than half a foot behind him, he suddenly lit up a torch and shouted, "Who's there?"
That person seemed to be startled and vaguely replied, "Don't attack, it's me." Xuan Shuang said, "Who knows who you are?" He pulled out a dagger from his waist and aimed it at that person's waist. This move was purely to probe and did not have any intention of harming the enemy.
That person hastily turned around and narrowly avoided the attack. Xuan Shuang took this opportunity to raise the torch and shine it on his face. As soon as he saw his face, he could not help but be shocked. "Ah? Prince Cheng? How come it's you? " Shangguan Yaohua saw that he had been recognized and no longer felt the need to conceal himself. He angrily lowered his arms and said with a straight face, "So what? What are you going to do? "
Xuan Shuang laughed and said, "I don't want to do anything. We are brothers, have you forgotten? Ay, now that you are my Shifu, the palace is heavily guarded. You broke into the Snow Song Palace in the middle of the night, luckily you met me. If you ran into the patrolling Imperial Bodyguards, I'm afraid without saying anything they would tie you up as an assassin. When that time comes, Empress Ah Ma will investigate, Prince Fu will not be able to escape responsibility. "Shangguan Yaohua coldly snorted and said," So you are saying that I should thank you? "
Xuan Shuang laughed and said, "You are too polite, you are too polite. I don't dare to accept this." He saw that Shangguan Yaohua's line of sight was evasive, he kept glancing to the side of the main hall. At first he did not understand, but after exchanging a few words with him, his eyes lit up and he beamed with joy and said, "Oh, I know! How could you be in the mood to admire the moon? It's my fault for being stupid! You are here to see Xiao Xuan, aren't you? That's right. These past several days when she was injured, it was Empress Ah Ma and all the princes, dukes and ministers who rushed to and fro to see her. But they only put on a show, who cares if they are sincere or not? You, as her older brother, did not even come to see her once. I even secretly scolded you for being heartless. But now it looks like I can take those words back. "
Shangguan Yaohua's face appeared even darker in the dim light of the night. He said coldly, "She isn't anyone to me. Why should I come to see her?"
Xuan Shuang was not willing to give up so easily once he had set his mind on something. He laughed and said, "You don't? Then why did you come to Snow Song Palace in the middle of the night instead of sleeping properly? " Shangguan Yaohua was just as stubborn as him. He refused to go back on his words and argued, "I was ordered by my adoptive father to investigate the situation."
Xuan Shuang laughed and said, "Sure, investigate what situation? Could it be that you are worried that my Snow Song Palace will be invaded by assassins again, so you specially came to wait and block a sword from time to time? Should I say that your adoptive father is taking precautions, or should I praise him for being able to predict the future? "
Shangguan Yaohua's expression became even stiffer. He said, "You saw through me. That's right, the assassination last time was indeed carefully planned by my adoptive father. He wanted to coerce Noble Consort Yun into submission, and at the same time … "
Xuan Shuang continued, "He was also showing his loyalty, wasn't he? Look at her adoptive son, he was even willing to risk his life to save her. Isn't it obvious whether he was sincere or not? Sigh, who would have thought that he would be such a pitiful sacrifice. The scheming Prince Fu is always careless. Not only me, anyone with a discerning eye can see this at a glance. We can only double our vigilance against his intentions. "
Shangguan Yaohua smiled bitterly and said, "I know that his actions are wrong, but as a son and a subject, I can only obey his orders. How can I have the opportunity to question him? You should know that I can only rely on power to survive, but I can't establish my own sect. In this palace, the only one who can understand me is you. "
Xuan Shuang nodded and said, "However, in my position, I also have to teach you a lesson. As a person, you must have the courage to face yourself. Since you care about her, why don't you say it out loud, and also refuse to go in to see her? You, brother and sister, are the same; for the sake of this damn face, you both suffer a loss. "
Shangguan Yaohua said, "That's not right, I am different from her. In other words, her life is much simpler than mine. What we pursue, and even what we want to protect, are not the same … "Xuan Shuang said," What's the difference? Don't try to shirk your responsibility. You are not such a coward, are you? "
Shangguan Yaohua turned around unnaturally, with his back facing him. Only then did he regain some confidence and said, "If you are not in my position, you won't be able to understand my feelings."
Xuan Shuang angrily said, "I understand! Of course I understand! I know you are worried that once you acknowledge her as your relative, you will bring trouble to her. Prince Fu will not let go of this opportunity to use against her. In order to protect her, you would rather sacrifice a small benefit, and not acknowledge her as your biological brother and sister. You would rather hurt her feelings than endanger her safety. But how can it be so easy to cut off the relationship between flesh and blood? Therefore, although on the surface you do not care, behind her back you still pay attention to her, whether she is cold or warm, whether she is happy or sad. From time to time you take care of her, but you use your own methods. "
Shangguan Yaohua felt as if ten thousand sharp swords were stabbing into his heart; for a moment he was grieved and sad. Raising his head to look at the bright moon in the sky, he slowly said, "You are wrong. If I acknowledge her as my relative, I will also have to bear the burden of being a rebel. No matter how open-minded His Majesty is, even if he spares my life, he will not allow me to stay by his side and work for him. After losing everything, I am nothing more than a commoner who can be bullied. I have had enough of suffering, I really don't want to experience it again. To tell you the truth, I am just unwilling to give up the glory, splendor, wealth and rank that I already have; there is no need to deceive you. Don't think of me as too noble. "
Xuan Shuang angrily punched his arm and angrily said, "Why are you pretending to be a lowly person? I have always heard of hypocrites, but this is the first time I have seen a 'hypocrite' like you. You want to hide all your true thoughts, and no one can understand them. What good does this do for you? "Shangguan Yaohua abruptly pulled his arm back and sucked in a breath of cold air. Xuan Shuang knew that Shangguan Yaohua was not strong enough, so he definitely would not show any weakness. He curiously asked, "Hey, what's wrong with you?"
Shangguan Yaohua quickly adjusted his expression and sneered, "It's nothing. Perhaps you are right; I don't even dare to face myself. But what I have to worry about is something that a pampered young master like you, who grew up with a golden spoon in your mouth, will never be able to understand. You can make mistakes because there is another way to correct them. But I have done my best to climb to my current position. One wrong step and the whole game is lost. "He took large strides and walked back the way he came. His shadow was extremely long in the dim light of the night.
His left foot dragged half a step forward until it caught up with his right foot and could not take another step forward. He opened his mouth again and said, "Everything I said to you today, you can just treat it as if you were drunk and have forgotten everything after you woke up. Don't tell her that I was here. Don't give her empty hope; I will never admit it. If you don't want to become a vile person who speaks without thinking in her eyes, you'd better listen to me. "
Xuan Shuang said, "I am a vile person, so it doesn't matter to me. But you dare to do it but don't dare to admit it. You are a shameless person. " Shangguan Yaohua forced a smile and said, "You can say whatever you want. In any case, my name is used to casually add curses to other people's names. There are many worse names than this, so I don't care if there is one more. " Without waiting for Xuan Shuang to speak, he suddenly turned around and handed over an object in his hand. He said, "Throw it into the medicine jar and mix it together."
Xuan Shuang was confused; he did not understand why Shangguan Yaohua was speaking without any rhyme or reason. He subconsciously took the object and felt that it was cold and sticky in his palm. The edges of the object were also furry.
He had never been a timid person. He opened his palm and moved closer to the torch to take a look. He saw that the object in his hand was a long, emerald green grass. The roots and branches were intertwined and densely packed with many small thorns. The flowers and leaves were oval-shaped, and the verdant ends were a bit withered and yellow. There were many small balls on the flower buds, growing horizontally from east to west. He felt that this object was very familiar, but he could not remember where he had seen it before.
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