Xuan Shuang sighed and said, "Why do you have to be so fierce? In the end, I'm just an ordinary person. It's inevitable that my selfish desires will cause mischief. I knew that I would ruin her happiness, but I still didn't want her to hate me. That's why I'd rather run around and scout for information while giving her advice. The reason why I went along with her wishes was so that she would be grateful to me. Is this love for her, or is it love for myself? "
An Yesun's emotions were all stirred up by him. He thought of Chu Menglin, whose whereabouts were unknown. Wasn't this the result of his own indecisiveness? For the first time, he spoke in a calm tone, "My past experience is very similar to yours. The girl I love, we grew up together, but when it comes to our feelings for each other, it's just my one-sided wishful thinking. She never liked me, not even a little bit. I know this very well. I can't blame her. I can only blame myself. Later, she fell in love with a high-ranking official of the imperial court and wanted to be with him. For him, she didn't hesitate to fight to the death. At that time, the Hierarch was furious. He locked her up and didn't allow anyone to get close. I knew that she was spoiled since childhood and didn't suffer much. The prison was cold and damp. How could her body withstand it? I was the Hall Master of the Hierarch's main hall. I had some prestige inside and outside the sect. At least, no one dared to oppose me. That was why I had the opportunity to visit her. She was very haggard. She begged me bitterly, tears streaming down her face … I've never seen her so grief-stricken. At that time, I didn't care about anything else. I thought that as long as it was her request, no matter how much it went against my will, even if I had to be smashed to pieces, I would do it for her. So I followed her instructions and obtained the key to the secret prison. Then I let her go. Once she left, she disappeared without a trace. It's the same as disappearing. I often think that if I hadn't made this decision on my own, perhaps things wouldn't have turned out this way. So what if she married the Young Master? At least she's still by my side. I still have the opportunity to see her often. I, the Broken Fiend Star, have roamed the Jianghu for many years. I've never been sloppy, and I've never even been troubled by the things I've done. Only … only this one thing. I don't know if letting her leave the prison is the right thing to do. "
Xuan Shuang heard that Wei Xiaobao's experience was very similar to his own, and he was deeply affected. The only difference was that he knew the final ending of this story. He could not help feeling bitter in his heart as he thought, "Miss Chu has died long ago. She fell to Shao Shuang's death just because of a fantasy. She waited bitterly for six years. The news of the Devil Cult's daughter's death can be considered to have caused a sensation in the Wulin world for a while. If you put in a little effort to inquire about it, you will understand. But my mother has sealed off the news, she does not want this matter to be leaked. With Young Marshal Yun's personality, he lived alone in a small room every day without any contact with outsiders. How could he know the truth? The development is still completely controlled by my mother. This is too unfair and too pitiful … "
Her lips moved. She almost wanted to abandon her usual style of "minding her own business" and tell him everything that had happened. But just as the words were about to come out of her mouth, she choked on them. She mused, "It's better to avoid unnecessary trouble. Although I have a great kindness in my heart, if I tell him the bad news about Miss Chu right now, other than making him grief-stricken and despairing, it won't do me any good. He definitely can't be considered a good person. Furthermore, it will disrupt my mother's plan. Mother and son will be at odds with each other, and I will bear the accusation of being unfilial. Letting him have an empty hope is better than having no hope at all. Right, I'd better not provoke him. I shouldn't talk too much. I can't say it, I can't say it! "
Thereupon she pretended to clap her hands cheerfully and said with a laugh, "Yo ho, Shao Shuang Shuang, I didn't know you were a great lover. Then I want to ask you something. If I'm being rude, please forgive me. What I want to say is, you love her … so deeply. If she's not happy outside, or if she's been bullied by someone else, and is willing to return to your side, but she … cough … that … is no longer a virgin. Would you still want her? "
The Xuan Shuang was speaking outside the window. The two of them were quite far apart. An Yesun was deep in thought, so he didn't notice his hesitation just now. He replied, "Of course I would. I don't care what happens in the outside world. In my heart, she'll always be the purest and most flawless girl. I'll never abandon her. No matter when or where, if she can accept me, I'll regard it as a lifetime's fortune. She … I … "
In order to investigate Jiang Liechen's identity, the Xuan Shuang also thoroughly investigated the entanglement of the three of them. He understood An Yesun's deep feelings for Chu Menglin. Imitating his tone, he said, "Aren't my feelings for Xiao Xuan the same? As long as she's willing to be with me, I'll definitely treat her with all my heart. If she wants to retire into the mountains, I'll accompany her. If she wants to go to the ends of the earth, I'll accompany her to the ends of the earth! If she wants my heart, I'll cut it out for her. If she falls in love with someone else, it's because I'm unable to keep her. I'm only willing to be a candlestick in her life, silently offering myself to her. I'll sweep away all the obstacles in front of her, but I'll never cause her the slightest bit of trouble because of me. In the past, I was greedy for the throne. I was busy fighting for power and influence. I studied the art of war, the Four Books and Five Classics and neglected the time to accompany her. If I could do it all over again, I'd rather give up all my worldly possessions and marry her. We'll be together forever! "
His speech was full of sincerity, but as soon as he finished, he blushed with shame. He knew that he only had a slight favorable impression of Cheng Jiaxuan, he definitely did not have such deep feelings for him. He was just standing in An Yesun's position, comparing it to his love for Chu Menglin, so he sang a play, choosing his own opinion and expressing it passionately, trying to stimulate his heart to resonate with him.
An Yesun's thoughts were indeed surging like a tidal wave. Xuan Shuang's words struck his heart, expressing all the feelings he had toward Chu Menglin that he wanted to express, but could not. Listening to every word, he wanted to slap the table and shout 'marvelous!'. After a long time, he suppressed his excitement and said, "You, this kid … you know a lot! How old are you? "Xuan Shuang pretended to be serious and said," Xiao Sheng has wasted five years of my life. "
An Yesun laughed coldly and said, "It's true that the new generation of the Yangtze River drives on the old. When I was your age, I was still a child who didn't know anything. The problem I encountered, you faced it more than ten years earlier than I did. Hmm, you're not bad, the younger generation will surpass us in time. "
Xuan Shuang laughed and said, "Did I hear wrong? Today is really an unprecedented day, unexpectedly you said so much to me? To be able to receive a compliment from you, Yun Shao Shuang, I can immediately smile in the underworld. Later on when I show off to other people, I can talk about it. " With a bitter laugh An Yesun said, "In the past, people in the Wulin world called me the Devil Head. In my opinion, this title should be bestowed on you." Xuan Shuang bowed deeply and said with a laugh, "I don't dare, I don't dare. Calling me the Little Devil Star of the Chaotic World is enough. "
An Yesun was not affected by his happy mood. He sighed and said, "You think too highly of me. What am I? Since I was little, I lived in the Sacrifice Shadow Cult's headquarters. Every day I was urged by the Hierarch to practice martial art. On top of that, I worked very hard. Ten days to half a month I rarely slept peacefully. The Cult's rules were strict and clear, the value of a person was determined by martial art skill, success or failure. There was no one close to me. Either they saw my methods and were afraid, or they were jealous of my high position and were eager to find fault with me. Toward them, I could only assume an indifferent attitude, pretending to be neither happy nor angry. "
Xuan Shuang thought about it, and based on what An Yesun said, he expanded the conversation and repeatedly praised, "That's right, I didn't expect that our childhood was also the same! I grew up in the Snow Song Palace, everything was under my mother's supervision. She always forced me to study. Reading to broaden my horizons was one thing, but I had to recite it sentence by sentence. Those doctrines have been separated for more than a thousand years, many dynasties have changed. Today we live in a dynasty, yet we still have to rely on Confucius and Mencius from the Spring and Autumn Period. I can't stand it either. If we imitate the ancients in everything and confine our thinking, how can we make any great progress? On the other hand, Emperor Ama had already promised that when I grew up, he would make me the heir apparent. Therefore, I don't know how many people in the Palace kept a close eye on me day and night. If I made even the slightest mistake, they would immediately exaggerate it to be an unpardonable evil. They were all hoping that the news would reach Emperor Ama's ears and change his mind. This way, the other elder brothers would have the opportunity to become the crown prince, and their imperial concubines would also have the opportunity to 'rely on their sons'. I was thoroughly fed up with this kind of thing, so I simply opened one eye and closed the other, letting them do whatever they wanted. But according to the education I received, facing all kinds of different situations, I was able to react accordingly and deal with it with words. Over time, the words came out of my mouth without thinking, but I lost my true nature. I was nothing more than an empty shell wearing a mask, muddling along and waiting for death. "
An Yesun said, "Life is not as you wish, things are often eight or nine. Since I was born without joy, I have no regrets in death. " Xuan Shuang said, "I also feel that my life is too boring. That's why I have to find another way. I want to pursue the peak of power. I want this vast land to change because of me. I want to leave something behind so that it can be immortal. Oh right, Young Marshal Yun, I wanted to ask you, what do you think are the similarities and differences between the Snow Song Palace and the Shadow Sacrifice Sect? "
An Yesun pondered for a moment, then said, "There shouldn't be any differences. They are both places where the desire for power is at the peak of the world, filled with intrigue and infighting. The environment and incidents are more or less the same." Xuan Shuang said, "Then that's it. Since there isn't much difference between the two, why do you have to be unhappy every day? Speaking of which, your treatment in the Snow Song Palace is better than in the Shadow Sacrifice Sect. "
An Yesun said, "You misunderstand. Ever since I was young, there has never been a day when I was truly happy. In the eyes of outsiders, there was all kinds of glory, but in reality, there wasn't a place that I truly wanted, and I couldn't find any close friends that I could talk to. In these twenty years, I've already gotten used to being alone, and I don't need anyone to interfere. "
Xuan Shuang rested his arms on the windowsill, saying, "You can talk to me! Don't you think that we get along very well? If we form a sect, we might be able to make a name for ourselves in Jianghu. "At first, he was just joking, but the more he thought about it, the more interested he became. He was in high spirits and took it seriously. An Yesun sneered, "Of course we get along well, but your martial arts are too weak to be mentioned in the same breath as mine. I once knew someone, and you … are very similar to him … "When he mentioned that person, his tone became much gentler, as if he wanted to say something but stopped himself.
Xuan Shuang said, "Poor martial arts can be trained, but who can be invincible the moment they are born? Besides, I'm naturally intelligent. When you were my age, I'm afraid you weren't as good as me. You haven't made any progress yet, and that's only because Li Yijie's master didn't teach you well. As long as your martial art is formidable enough, who cares if you are from the Devil Cult? He can also train himself, he has already betrayed the righteous way, yet he still wants to pretend to be a good person in front of me, to put up a front for his master. What a joke! "An Yesun coldly snorted and said," You still don't know who's the joke. Who boasted about their innate talent and intelligence? Li Yijie is stupid and incompetent, can't you learn without a master? "
Xuan Shuang pursed his lips; he was about to answer when a little eunuch came running from the distance. Seeing Xuan Shuang, he was startled. "Lord Baylor," he said, "You … why are you here?" Xuan Shuang leaned against the wall with arms crossed. He smiled and said, "I have nothing to do, so I want to accompany Yun Shao Shuang for a chat. Can't I?" The little eunuch hastily shook his head and walked around him. Separated by the windowsill, he bowed with cupped fists and said in a high-pitched voice, "Yun Shao Shuang, Noble Consort Yun Niangniang invites you to the main hall to talk, she has something important to instruct you. Please don't delay, go immediately. "
An Yesun coldly said, "She forgot my rule again. Right now I am training, nobody is allowed to disturb me, I won't see her. " He was really good at concealing himself; in front of outsiders, his expression immediately turned cold. Hearing that, Xuan Shuang sighed inwardly.
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