Although he was very sad, he still ate the rice bit by bit.
However, even so, tears still fell unknowingly.
Now, he was the only one in the boys' dormitory. However, Lu Fei's mood became more and more sad.
It was a feeling that he couldn't find his own position. This was because Lu Fei felt that he didn't have much ability. Other than running, he could only carry things for others!
It was just that other than some physical work, he felt that he didn't have much of a presence.
Although everyone said that he was very outstanding, Lu Fei became more and more confused. Was he really that outstanding? Then how outstanding was he? Why was it that others didn't want him to show that he was so outstanding?
Just like just now, everyone had done it. Even Sun Yang and Zhang Lanxin, who had acrophobia, had done it.
Everyone had done it. Everyone had been encouraged and applauded. However, he was the only one who hadn't. Everyone was still there, praising him and saying that he was already very good. It didn't matter whether he did it or not.
In any case, the voice in his heart said that he didn't want to leave himself with any regrets.
Whether he failed or not, or no matter what, he wanted to challenge himself.
However, in the end, he didn't manage to do it.
Just like when they were training previously, Lu Fei had always performed so well.
However, perhaps because his performance was too good and too outstanding, they didn't need him to perform anymore.
Every time, no matter what he did, they would say, "Lu Fei, you're already so outstanding. Why do you have to put on a brave front and show off your excellence and make others feel sad for you?"
Just because he was outstanding, just because everyone thought that he was outstanding, he didn't need to do those things anymore.
However, it was precisely because of this that he felt very sad. It was as if no one needed him to do anything anymore. It was as if there was no meaning to it at all. This was because everyone had already given him a position in their hearts. No matter what he did, whether it looked good or not, they felt that they had done very well.
This was probably everyone's opinion of Lu Fei!
Ever since he had come to this military camp, he had wanted to challenge every project.
He just liked the Horse Empress. He just liked her. He just wanted to give it a try.
In the past, he could always do very well, shocking everyone and then applauding him. He was so outstanding, but after being so outstanding, it seemed that after everyone had an impression of him, no one would think that he could not do well, and no one would let him try.
He didn't expect that doing too well would turn out to be bad in the end!
Lu Fei was always strong on the outside but strong on the inside.
He had always been considerate of others, but his concern for his comrade made him feel a little guilty.
The more he ate and cooked, the more he felt that the food was tasteless, and the sadder he felt.
Sometimes, heartache was of a higher level than physical pain.
Some people existed for the sake of others. However, he hoped that he was that kind of person.
"You're back?" At this time, someone suddenly came in from the door and asked him.
"You're eating?"
"Well, yes, I'm back!" Knowing that someone had come in, Lu Fei quickly wiped away his tears.
This was because he really didn't want anyone to see his weakness. Sometimes, this weakness was kept in his heart. It was better to keep it to himself.
He didn't want to be laughed at or seen by others, because in their hearts, he was so outstanding. He didn't want them to be disappointed, nor did he want them to be sad because of him.
It was because he wanted to think of others that he became like this.
However, it was also because of this that people felt that he was more reliable and wanted to trust him more.
It was probably because he had done too well. However, even if he felt that doing too well was a mistake, others felt that doing too well was actually a very good thing.
Sometimes, being a human was like this. Many times, many things were very tangled. In the end, you would not find your own answer.
However, even if you didn't have an answer, so what? No matter what, you did it. Then, it was enough.
"Yes, I'm done eating."
Although his tears had been wiped away, his nose was still sore. Lu Fei couldn't help but feel that he was a little weak.
As a man, a real man, how could he cry so easily? How could he feel sad while eating?
It was just a small matter. Why did he care so much? He felt that he was too weak and incompetent. He absolutely couldn't do this in the future. Even if he allowed himself to do such a thing, this would be the last time.
In any case, it would not happen again in the future.
If he said that it would be the last time, then it would definitely be the last time.
"It's okay. Is there a glass of water?" Huang Zitao suddenly came back from outside, holding a basketball in his hand.
"Then I'll find a glass and pour some for you!"
"Are you hungry?"
In fact, everyone was very concerned about this. After all, he was the youngest among them. Therefore, Huang Zitao received the most care.
Huang Zitao pulled a chair and sat down, then looked at everyone.
"I'm hungry, hungry." After taking a sip of water in his hand, Huang Zitao shouted that he was hungry. However, Lu Fei said, "I'm done.
"I'm done eating. I'm full."
Therefore, he felt that it was better to let himself put this feeling in the deepest part of his heart and then act as if nothing had happened.
Although it seemed to be a little difficult, he still decided to do so because only by doing so could he make his mood slightly better and relax a little!
Also, no matter what, he didn't want everyone to worry. He wanted to make himself feel better.
If it was always like this, even he would feel that he was really hateful!
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