"I don't know if you know how I feel. It's just that I have a very hopeful and beautiful feeling towards this world."
"It's like the whole world is so beautiful to me. It's so desirable. I even thought that I would meet a man who truly loves me, until I met Lu Fei."
"The first time I met Lu Fei, it was at a press conference. At that time, I had just finished filming the Palace Locking Heart Jade and was already very popular as a scheming actress."
"But at that time, he was already a king. He was a character that everyone looked up to. He was a man that everyone liked."
"At that time, I was still very small. I just looked up to him. I didn't know when I would become like Lu Fei. Perhaps I would be able to stand beside Lu Fei."
"But I always feel that that would make me seem a little too delusional, wouldn't it? That kind of thing didn't seem like it would happen, but I was still fantasizing about it. I really don't know why I was so naive. "
"But you don't know. It was really, really hard. I didn't know how I could do it. I worked very hard. I really worked very hard."
"However, this was very hard work. No matter what I did, I was stuck at a standstill. For a very long time, I was very confused. I didn't know what to do in order to maximize this hard work of mine to the limit."
"That was my lowest point. No matter what I did, I didn't like it. I think you should know that there was a period of time when rumors said that Yang Mi was very arrogant and refused to take on many shows."
"Actually, it wasn't like that. That was my lowest point. It wasn't that I was arrogant. I just felt that I didn't know how to face myself at that time. I also didn't know what to do to make Lu Fei look at me. But at that time, I couldn't be by his side at all. "
"At that time, I didn't understand why no matter how hard I tried, he had so many girls around him. However, so many girls went missing, but none of them was me. There wasn't even a trace of me."
"Then, it seems that every one of them is better than me. What can I do to become as good as them, or better than them? I know I'm thinking too much, but I really want to do that. Because if I don't do that, Lu Fei won't even look at me."
"At that time, I was seventy. It wasn't that I was arrogant. It was just that I thought about and missed a man every day. Later, they told me that if I continued to be like this, no one would want me to act in films anymore. I would continue to be depressed."
"Actually, I have to say that I'm suddenly a little scared. Because if I can't live anymore, then I won't have the money to eat. I won't be able to feed myself and my family."
"Actually, that's not a big deal. Most importantly, if that's the case, then I won't be able to work hard to stand by Lu Fei's side. It's already difficult, so that makes it even more difficult."
"That's considered difficult. It makes me feel like this world is a little scary. I've always persevered and worked hard. At my lowest point, I accepted everything. Later on, no matter what film it was, I would act in it."
"But, I don't have any other thoughts. I just want to continue living. That way, the chances of me appearing by his side will be higher."
"No matter what film it is, whether it's a film or a television drama. I'm even willing to do voice acting. As long as I can earn money and increase my fame, I'll do it."
"But, luckily, my acting skills are there. Plus, Gong Suixin's fame is relatively high. So, I'm afraid that after acting for a while, my fame will increase and I'll have a lot of fans."
"Actually, I'm very happy that way. If that's the case, the chances of me appearing by his side will be higher. I worked hard to act in films, hoping to win a few awards. That way, we'll meet at the awards ceremony."
"Because, you know, he'll appear at every award ceremony."
"Lu Fei. He's such an amazing man. No matter what award it is, he'll always be famous. Every time, he'll win the most awards. Then, he'll sit below the stage and everyone will be envious."
"But, at that time, I didn't even have the chance to sit below the stage and be envious. I just wanted to sit below the stage and be envious of him. I was willing to just win a small award."
"But, even if I was willing, so what? Even God wasn't willing to give me this opportunity. I kept working hard. I filmed many films, many television dramas. Finally, my day of success arrived. "
At this point, Yang Mi's eyes flashed.
Perhaps what he was about to say next was a very important moment in his life.
Because it could be seen in his eyes.
"That was the first time I won an award because of filming. You don't know how I felt when I finally won an award after working so hard for so long."
"My agent ran to me excitedly and told me, 'Secret, you've won an award. You can go and receive the award.' However, the first thing I asked was, 'Then, at this award ceremony, will Lu Fei be there?'"
"Then, my agent looked at me with a very disdainful look and said, 'Secret, you're stupid. Lu Fei wasn't there at that award ceremony. He'll definitely be there!'"
"My agent also told me that Lu Fei received several awards, but I only received one award after Lu Fei!"
"To be honest, you might not understand how happy I was at that time even if I tell you. I was really, really funny. I knew that I could finally stand with him. Even if I had to stand behind him, I was willing to do it."
"Because I didn't have any other wishes before. I just wanted to stand behind him and watch him silently. I wanted to be closer to him. That was enough!"
"I don't want much, and I don't want much. I don't ask for much. I just hope that he can look at me in the eye and congratulate me. I don't even dare to ask for that!"
"I don't know if you can understand that feeling."
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