In the library of Haiyang Medical University, the book in Su Cen's hand hadn't been flipped for an hour. She didn't know why, since that day, the name Lan Xiaobu couldn't fade away from her mind. Not only that, but this name was becoming clearer and clearer.
She subconsciously turned back. Subconsciously, every time she came to the library, Lan Xiaobu would sit far away and watch her. And every time she went out, she would inadvertently turn back and see Lan Xiaobu.
Su Cen shook her head hard. She knew that these didn't exist. She wasn't sure if Lan Xiaobu liked her, but she was sure that Lan Xiaobu had never paid so much attention to her.
In her impression, Lan Xiaobu rarely came to the library. He was too smart and could understand many things as soon as she told him. So every time it was time for exams, his textbook was still brand new. He hadn't even opened it a few times. As for revision, it didn't exist at all. The strange thing was that every time he took an exam, he was still the first in class. The scholarship for the first place was customized for him.
But the more she didn't think about it, the clearer Lan Xiaobu's shadow became. He saw her take the initiative to find Lan Xiaobu and marry Lan Xiaobu …
Su Cen scratched her head hard. Why? She didn't love Lan Xiaobu at all. He was just an ordinary classmate. Even if Lan Xiaobu published a paper on medicine, it was impossible for her to fall in love with Lan Xiaobu, let alone find Lan Xiaobu and marry him. This kind of thinking was too strange and incomprehensible. Su Cen wasn't someone who would let her imagination run wild.
Su Cen lay on the table. She felt a little dizzy.
In the dim room, Su Cen seemed to hear the door creak. This old wooden door told Su Cen that Lan Xiaobu was back.
Su Cen tried her best to open her eyes. She saw the exhausted Lan Xiaobu walk into the room. The first thing he did was to come to her side. Then he grabbed her wrist as if he was checking her pulse.
"Xiao Bu, you're back." Su Cen felt that every word was difficult for her.
"En, Cen Cen. I performed ten surgeries today, and one of them was an official with a powerful background. It seems that the bonus at the end of the month will not be too low. Wait, I brought some medicine for you … "
Lan Xiaobu said as he walked to the kettle and poured a cup of hot water. Then, he carried the hot water to the bedside and sat down. Then, he took out a box from his pocket and carefully took out a pale golden pill. He put it in front of Su Cen's mouth. "Cen Cen, take the pill first."
Su Cen didn't take the pill. She reached out her thin hand and grabbed Lan Xiaobu's hand. "Xiao Bu, this medicine is too expensive. My illness can't be cured at all. Let's give up …"
"No, Cen Cen, I can definitely cure you. You have to hold on for a while longer. Recently, I've been learning Chinese medicine from a very good doctor. I already have some understanding of your illness. Believe me, one day, I can cure your illness … "
Su Cen reached out to touch Lan Xiaobu's hair. However, her hand was weak and she couldn't reach it at all. Lan Xiaobu squatted down a little. Su Cen's hand finally reached Lan Xiaobu's hair.
"Your hair is white. You're not even forty, but you're already old …" Su Cen's voice became fainter and fainter. "Xiao Bu, remember that if there's an afterlife, don't marry me again. Be selfish like me and find someone who loves you … I'm sorry, Xiao Bu. I'm so tired of breathing … "
"No, if there's an afterlife, I want to marry you even more." Lan Xiaobu held Su Cen's hand. There was no room for doubt in his tone.
"Why? I … "Su Cen didn't say it out loud. She knew that Lan Xiaobu understood what she meant. From the time they got married until now, even when she was bedridden, she had never fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu. She felt sorry for Lan Xiaobu. However, there was a kind of love that couldn't be given just because she wanted to.
Lan Xiaobu's eyes were full of gentleness. "Cen Cen, I'm worried that no one will take care of you. I'm worried that you won't be able to sleep well. I'm even more worried that no one will wipe your face when you secretly cry at night. For so long, I haven't said thank you to you. Thank you for marrying me, for marrying an ordinary person like me. I only hate that I can't cure your illness. I hate that I can't let you live a happier life. "
"Xiao Bu …" Su Cen couldn't help but cry. She closed her eyes. In the depths of her heart, she had already made up her mind. She would never be a burden to Lan Xiaobu. A burden to her husband.
Su Cen didn't know how she got up. She rushed out of the protective wall …
What was the protective wall protecting against? Su Cen felt a headache coming on.
However, she soon heard Lan Xiaobu's roar. "Why, why didn't you block her?"
She knew that Lan Xiaobu was angry at the soldiers guarding the exit of the protective wall. If the soldiers could block her, she wouldn't be able to rush out of the protective wall. However, she knew in her heart that the soldiers couldn't block her. For a burden like her, it would be better if she died. At least the protective wall didn't need to give her any resources to survive.
"Hehe, why should we block her?" A soldier coldly said.
"Let me out." Lan Xiaobu calmed down. His tone was extremely calm.
"I'm sorry, Doctor Lan. You can't go out." The soldier's tone was a bit cold.
Su Cen could go out because it was a waste of resources for a person like Su Cen to stay in the protective wall. However, Lan Xiaobu couldn't go out. Lan Xiaobu was a doctor, an extremely outstanding doctor. In this era of pollution, everyone knew how important a doctor was.
When Su Cen heard Lan Xiaobu's words, she was terrified. "Xiao Bu, don't come out. Don't …"
Lan Xiaobu allowed her tears to flow freely. She grabbed the railing at the exit and looked at Su Cen who was outside the protective wall with a look of despair. "Cen Cen, do you think that I can live on alone without you around? Without you, I don't know why I'm alive. "
"Xiao Bu, I'm sorry. I have to go first …" Su Cen suddenly regretted taking the initiative to rush out of the protective wall. The despair in Lan Xiaobu's eyes made her soul tremble. At this moment, her heart throbbed. Was this love?
Why did she always feel that she hadn't fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu? Was it because she had nowhere else to go that she married Lan Xiaobu in a fit of pique? Maybe when she married Lan Xiaobu, she hadn't fallen in love with Lan Xiaobu. But now, she was about to lose Lan Xiaobu. Her soul was in pain. She was worried that Lan Xiaobu would rush out.
"Xiao Bu …" Su Cen wanted to say something, but her eyelids were heavy. Her hand slowly fell. Her consciousness seemed to fall into eternal darkness. She only felt faint regret. She regretted that she hadn't told Lan Xiaobu the words in her heart before she died. She said sorry not because she hadn't fallen in love with him, but because she couldn't stay with him.
They had helped each other in difficult times for twenty years. It was no longer a habit, it was love.
…
"Su Cen, Su Cen …" The violent shaking made Su Cen open her eyes.
She raised her head and saw a familiar face. She subconsciously said, "Mei Xun, what's wrong?"
"Su Cen, why are you crying in your sleep …" Zhang Mei Xun blankly looked at Su Cen's face full of tears and said blankly.
"Ah …" Su Cen woke up. This was the library. She had just fallen asleep on the table. It was just a dream. Su Cen quickly took out a handkerchief and wiped her face.
Zhang Mei Xun also woke up. "Su Cen, you're really something. Even in your dreams, you're so realistic."
"Mei Xun, has Lan Xiaobu been caught?" Su Cen suddenly wanted to see Lan Xiaobu. Why was he always in her dreams recently?
Zhang Mei Xun didn't mind. Lan Xiaobu was their classmate. It was normal for Su Cen to ask about him.
"He hasn't been caught. I really couldn't tell that Lan Xiaobu had such a fierce side. He's usually very shy and honest. He's also the youngest … "Zhang Mei Xun said with a sigh.
"Maybe there's a special reason." Su Cen subconsciously defended Lan Xiaobu.
Zhang Mei Xun shook her head. "No matter what the reason is, he shouldn't do such a ruthless thing."
Su Cen went silent. She didn't know what to say.
Zhang Mei Xun said, "That's right. Senior Ji Ning invited us to a meal. I specially came to call you. It's at Tian Hai Restaurant. Let's go together. "
Senior Ji Ning liked Su Cen. This was something that everyone knew. Moreover, Su Cen also had a good impression of Senior Ji Ning. This time, she came to invite Su Cen to help Senior Ji Ning.
Su Cen forced a smile. "I won't be going. I have some matters to attend to. I'm afraid I'll have to leave Hai Yang for a while."
At this moment, Su Cen wanted to go to Huzhou. She wanted to go to Kunhu Hospital to inquire about it. Without seeing Lan Xiaobu, she felt uneasy.
Since the last time she saw Lan Xiaobu, she had so many dreams and subconscious scenes. Could it be that they were just her imagination? She and Lan Xiaobu didn't have much contact. How could she imagine these scenes?
(Author's Note: Today's update ends here. Good night friends! Please!)
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