"Are you studying finance and accounting?"
Ding Ning asked.
"She is a certified public accountant."
Celine was proud of her best friend and rushed to introduce her.
"I remember when I was in school, Shanshan's grades were always the first in the grade."
Diba admired her with great envy. In terms of grades, she had always admitted defeat.
"That's old history. You went to school in another place, so you don't know. In Shanshan's college entrance examination, if she didn't fail a subject because of a high fever, she would definitely be the top scorer in science in the province. Even so, she still got the first place in the city, which is enough to get into a major university. If she didn't choose the local Ebony University because she was worried about Uncle and Auntie, her life would not be like this."
Xi Lin highly praised Yuan Shanshan, which warmed Yuan Shanshan's heart. For the first time, she felt understood and valued by others. It turned out that she was not completely useless. At least, her two best friends admired her academic results very much.
"So awesome. I didn't expect Shanshan to be a talented woman."
Ding Ning was slightly moved. He didn't expect Yuan Shanshan to have such a side, so he sincerely praised her.
"How could I be considered a talented woman? In the past, I thought that grades were everything. But after I started working, I realized that grades are just a standard for acceptance in school. They can't solve my problems of employment or even food and clothing."
Yuan Shanshan said with slight self-mockery.
"Society is a very complicated and extensive subject. To be able to make a name for yourself in society is the real application of what you have learned. Although grades don't represent everything, at least your starting point is higher than ordinary people. It's just that you haven't met a stage where you can show your abilities."
Ding Ning said meaningfully.
"A fine steed is common, but a Bole is not common."
Yuan Shanshan said with self-reproach, feeling that her talent was not recognized.
"No, you're wrong. There are Boles everywhere, but a fine steed that can catch a Bole's eye is not common. Maybe you have the talent to match a fine steed, but you don't have the amazing feeling to make a Bole's eyes light up."
Ding Ning's tone was extremely serious as he poured cold water on her. "Your biggest mistake is that you not only think about your own mistakes, but also blame the heavens and blame others. You feel that the heavens are unfair to you and the society is unfair to you. You throw away the broken pot and don't seek to make progress. You just muddle along."
These words were extremely harsh, making Yuan Shanshan feel so wronged that tears almost flowed out. She choked and said, "You're not me. How do you know that I haven't tried?"
Diba and Celine looked at each other, not knowing why Ding Ning would say such harsh words. Just as they were about to complain about the injustice for Shanshan, they heard Ding Ning's voice transmission in their minds. "Don't talk. I'm treating her."
The two women opened their mouths, but swallowed the words that were about to come out of their mouths. They revealed a thoughtful expression.
"Maybe you think you've worked hard. Then let me ask you. You said that once you lose your job, your family will face a situation where there's no rice to cook. Then why did you reject Diba and Celine's offer to introduce you to a good job?"
Ding Ning's tone was aggressive, directly pointing at Yuan Shanshan's most sensitive heart. Her face turned pale and bloodless. She opened her mouth but was speechless. What should she say? She couldn't say that she didn't want them to give her out of sympathy.
Although Yuan Ye felt a little sorry for his sister, he was in awe of Ding Ning and didn't dare to argue with him. However, his face became a little ugly. He bit his lips and sulked there.
Ding Ning didn't wait for Yuan Shanshan to reply at all. He continued to say sarcastically, "You know that the boss has bad intentions towards you, but you would rather reject the good intentions of your best friend and continue to work in the company. Why? Let me tell you, it's not because of how great you are, nor is it because of your ridiculous self-esteem. It's because you're intoxicated. You're intoxicated by the feeling of being liked and pursued by others. Even if the other party is a fat pig that disgusts you, you're still intoxicated by the feeling of being coveted by others. You use this kind of alternative method to prove your existence and charm. "
"Don't tell me that this is not the truth. You can't hide it from me. I can see all your thoughts. Any subtle activity in your mind can't escape my eyes. Yuan Shanshan, ask yourself, am I wrong?"
"Don't escape. Don't be afraid to face it. Only by bravely facing your truest inner world can you walk out of the psychological shadow, be reborn, break out of the cocoon and become a butterfly, and live a brand-new self."
"People are not afraid of facing desperate situations. What they are most afraid of is not being able to face yourself. You have gradually lost yourself in the cruelty of reality. Your heart has been covered with thick dust. If you don't have a major operation, you will only live in your humble self forever. Is this really the life you want?"
"If you want to fight against fate, you need to first defeat yourself. If you don't even have the courage to face your own heart, then your life is completely over. You can only live in your own imagination forever and live in an illusory dream that you can never realize."
…
Ding Ning's words were like knives, mercilessly tearing open one scar after another on Yuan Shanshan's body, revealing the bloody wounds, which made her tremble with pain.
"Ding Ning …"
Diba couldn't help but interrupt.
Ding Ning said seriously, "If you don't want your best friend to live in an illusory dream like this, it's best not to interrupt."
"Oh!"
Diba obediently closed her mouth and pouted in grievance. This was the first time Ding Ning was angry at her, which made her feel a little uncomfortable.
"Be good, it's not that I want to scold you, but the person Yuan Shanshan is most jealous of now is you. The more I treat you well, the easier it is to make her jealous. This is not good for her recovery."
As Ding Ning's gentle voice sounded in her mind, Diba quickly felt relieved. Perhaps Ding Ning's words were a little harsh, but a serious illness needed strong medicine. It was for Yuan Shanshan's good. What did it matter if she was wronged a little?
Yuan Shanshan's head drooped, her expression uncertain. Her eyes were dull and blank as she fell into self-analysis.
Although Ding Ning's words were harsh, they were very accurate. Even she did not realize that these were her truest thoughts.
But when Ding Ning mercilessly tore apart all the masks and exposed her dark heart to the sunlight, she was shocked to find that Ding Ning was not wrong at all.
Why did she refuse the good intentions of Diba and Celine? They were her best friends. Wasn't it normal for friends to help each other?
He clearly knew that the fat pig boss harbored ill intentions towards him, but he was still willing to take that meager salary as if it was syrup, and still self-righteously defended his laughable dignity.
In fact, she had fallen into self-doubt and denial of herself. A serious sense of inferiority was causing trouble. She felt that no one loved her and no one was pursuing her.
So when she found that the fat boss coveted her, she sternly refused and even felt disgusted. But the subtle sense of her existence being recognized made her intoxicated. She did not hesitate to refuse the good intentions of her best friends and insisted on staying in the company that was always making things difficult for her.
Wasn't this asking for trouble?
Things were clear. In fact, it was so simple. It was just that she had been unwilling to face her true heart.
But once she really tore off that layer of disguise and exposed the darkest side of her heart to the public, she felt relieved when things had completely reached the point where they could not be worse.
Just like how people often ran away after committing a crime, they lived a life of fear all day long. When they heard the sound of an ambulance, they would think that the police had come looking for them. Like a bird startled by the twang of a bow, they would live in fear all day long. That kind of mental torture was often more devastating than being in prison.
So, many people could not stand this kind of mental torture and finally chose to surrender themselves to be judged by the law. Even if they were in prison, it was better than living a life of hiding all day. At least, they felt at ease.
Yuan Shanshan felt relieved at this moment. Anyway, things had developed to the point where they could not be worse. She had fallen to the bottom. Where could she fall further?
Therefore, Diba and Celine were dumbfounded as they watched Shan Shan calmly raise her head and say, "That's right. You're right. It's just my inferiority that's causing trouble …"
"Sister!"
Yuan Ye shouted with heartache.
Yuan Shanshan took a deep breath and shook her head calmly at Yuan Ye. "Don't interrupt me. Ding Ning is right. I am too self-abased and too weak. I have never dared to face my true heart. I have always blamed God for being unfair to me. I hate myself for being born in such a poor family. I hate my father for being disabled. I hate Xi Lin for marrying such an excellent husband who loves her so much and living a life of luxury. I hate myself for not knowing my good fortune. I hate Diba for being able to become a big star. When others mention me, Yuan Shanshan, they will say that I am Diba's best friend, but no one will say that Diba is my best friend …"
"Shanshan, don't say anymore."
Diba bit his lower lip tightly. There was pain and pity in his eyes as he pleaded.
Although she had long known from Ding Ning's inference that Yuan Shanshan was a patient with severe inferiority complex, when Yuan Shanshan said it personally, she was still in so much pain that she could not breathe. They were best friends.
"Diba, don't interrupt me, okay? It was not easy for me to have the courage to say the truest thoughts in my heart. If you still treat me as a close friend, can you listen to me? "
Yuan Shanshan's tone was so calm that it made people's hearts palpitate. There was a sense of desolation.
Celine sighed. She shook her head slightly at Diba, who still wanted to say something, and signaled for her to continue.
Yuan Shanshan had a nostalgic look on her face. She said slowly, "The three of us are the same age. We are 27 years old this year. We have known each other for more than ten years, right?"
"Diba and I have known each other since we were young. We were in the first year of junior high when we played with you. We were 14 years old that year. It has been 13 years."
Celine interrupted softly.
"Yes, time really flies. In the blink of an eye, we have known each other for 13 years."
Yuan Shanshan sighed with emotion. Then, she laughed self-deprecatingly. "Because I have a disabled father and a rag-collecting mother, and we live in a shantytown known as the slums. Since I was seven years old, I have had my fill of indifference and supercilious looks from everyone. I was bullied, insulted, and ridiculed. I didn't dare to tell my parents when I was bullied because it would only make them feel more pain and powerless."
Diba and Celine's eyes were wet. Although they did not see it with their own eyes, they could feel that kind of despair and helplessness.
Yuan Ye clenched his teeth and looked at his sister with tears streaming down his face. He held her hand tightly, as if only this could give her comfort and strength.
At that time, he was very young, only two years old. How could he know that his sister had suffered so much? When he was a little older, it wasn't that no one bullied him, but his sister always protected him like an old hen protecting her chicks. She dared to fight anyone who dared to bully him.
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