After the family meeting, Qi Rui sent Bu Ran to the hotel first. It could be seen that Bu Ran was still quite worried. With the explicit support of Qi Rui's parents, the child finally felt relieved. Qi Rui also felt much more at ease. He settled Bu Ran in. Then, he ran back to his father Vézé's place. After entering the door, he wanted to go to the study, but he didn't expect to hear from his mother, Qi Hongyi, that his father Vézé was preparing his luggage for a long trip. He hurried to the bedroom.
He saw Vézé checking the clothes and necessities he would bring with him on a list. Qi Rui said in surprise, "Father, are you in such a hurry to go out?"
Vézé didn't answer immediately. He checked the list and the items, closed the suitcase, and put away the list. Then, he said to his son, "If I wasn't waiting for you, I would have set off already. Come, let's go to the study. "
Following behind his father, Qi Rui suddenly felt that his father had really aged as he watched his father walk briskly. In the past, Vézé's brisk walk was a natural expression of his body full of strength. Now, Vézé's brisk walk was an action that he exerted himself to complete. Qi Rui suddenly remembered the words he heard in the training at the Party School. "The era of talent, the era of youth, and the era of creativity, everyone's work makes everyone's everything. When the energy and creativity are no longer there, everyone begins to 'be themselves in the past'. "
This was a course for the advanced class of the Party School. Comrades who could participate in this kind of training were considered to be a very good group of people. This made the comrades who had begun to 'be themselves in the past' sigh, while the young and experienced comrades felt that it was an eye-opener.
Qi Rui always thought that his father would not fall into the realm of mortals. Even though he knew that his father Vézé was only a mortal, Qi Rui subconsciously skipped this idea. Now that Qi Rui had personally witnessed his father's old age, Qi Rui suddenly remembered that his father, Wei Ze, was already a 62-year-old man.
Only those who were really close and observant could notice these internal details. Vézé walked into the study at a brisk pace and closed the door. He sat down facing his son. "Miss Bu Ran, I'm a little suspicious that you haven't taken back your heart yet. Treat Bu Ran with the mentality of family life that you look forward to. "
Qi Rui knew that his father would definitely talk about marriage, but he didn't expect that his father would say something so puzzling, but it seemed to make sense. Qi Rui forced a smile, "Father, are you saying that I haven't forgotten Chu Xue? It's been a long time since I thought about her. "
Vézé crossed his fingers and rested his hands on his abdomen. He said in a very calm tone, "What I mean is that your feelings for Chu Xue made you write your expectations about your family on certain neural connections. As for you, you're probably deliberately avoiding that kind of neuronal connection. Generally speaking, it's to avoid touching that kind of emotion. Because touching that kind of emotion, or activating those neuronal connections, you'll feel pain and unease. But from my personal experience, even if you turn a blind eye to it, your neurons and the parts of the connections will still affect your judgment. As long as that part of the content still exists, you'll deliberately avoid it. But I have to say, a large part of the content that you deliberately avoid is actually closely related to family life. You'll leave something missing in the present by avoiding the past. "
Qi Rui was stunned. He thought that his father, Vézé, would use a normal human's vague description of feelings to talk about this marriage. But Vézé used a scientific attitude to describe this matter. Qi Rui felt that he didn't understand, or rather, he couldn't listen at all.
Looking at his son's expression, Vézé smiled. "I can't give you any guidance on feelings. I have my feelings, and you have your feelings. So I can only give you some advice from a materialistic point of view. Whether you listen to it or not, it's your business. I like Bu Ran very much, and I don't object to your marriage. But I hope that everything you do is not a continuation of the past, but a new beginning. After the sun rises, it's a new day. It's normal to not be able to walk out of the past, and not dare to touch the past. But I don't think this is a healthy attitude … "
Qi Rui could understand this cliché. Just when he thought that his father would continue, he heard his father, Vézé, say four words, "That's all." Then he shut his mouth. After waiting for two minutes, seeing that his father didn't say a word, Qi Rui realized that his father had actually finished his ideological education.
Based on previous experience, Qi Rui believed that if he continued to remain silent, his father would kick him out. 'Don't be angry, don't be angry, don't be angry' was the position that his father, Vézé, insisted on. Qi Rui hurriedly said, "Father, you said before that you want me to be transferred out of the army …"
"I've changed my mind on that matter. I'm not going to get involved," replied Vézé.
Qi Rui was stunned. Although he knew the necessity of changing tactics according to the current situation in war, he still felt uneasy. The first thought that came to Qi Rui's mind was, 'Is my father disappointed in me?'
Vézé replied calmly, "The reason for the change is that I originally thought that the people didn't accept the republic. Now, it doesn't seem that complicated. If people are determined to reject the republic, it must be because they feel that they will lose a lot after the republic is implemented. I haven't seen any signs of this yet, and it seems that people aren't very worried about the republic. "
Qi Rui was stunned again. He had thought that he was a very important existence in the republic, but he didn't expect that in his father, Vézé, his own son, Qi Rui, was not as important as the republic. Moreover, Qi Rui believed that he was a member of the Liberation Army, so he couldn't be treated like this. After a few moments of being stunned, a wave of anger born of shame and indignation rushed from Qi Rui's chest to his head.
Vézé looked at his son in front of him and said calmly and coldly, "You are definitely not worthless in my heart, and I've carefully considered your future for a long time. You think of yourself as the core of the world, so you're very angry. I can understand that. But what I want to say is that I don't think of myself as the core of the world, so your imagination of me doesn't match the truth. "
Qi Rui was originally just a kind of indescribable anger, but his father's words made Qi Rui feel as if a bucket of cold water had been poured over his head. While he was frightened, his anger didn't subside because of this. Qi Rui also tried to reply in a cold and calm voice, "Father, I can understand what you're saying. No matter how unhappy I am, give me some time to think about it, and I'll understand that you're right. But can't you speak to me with this kind of attitude just once, even if it's just once? Instead, you're talking to me as a father, not from an absolutely correct point of view. Once is enough. "
"… Then what? After pulling me to your level, will you be able to improve yourself? "Vézé's voice was still calm.
Qi Rui was stunned. Perhaps it was because his father Vézé had always been at a height that he couldn't reach, so he hoped that one day his father Vézé could come down from the high altar and stand on the same level as Qi Rui like a human. But what would happen when that day came, Qi Rui really didn't think about it.
"Qi Rui, I'm not a person who is completely blind to pain and sorrow like you think. On the contrary, I'm a person who has little tolerance for pain and sorrow. In order to avoid pain, I learned to walk a path that doesn't care about gains and losses, and only seeks a clear conscience. After walking this path, I finally got rid of something that I couldn't bear. If you think that I'm superior, it's because I care about you. If you think that I don't value you, it's probably because our values are not quite the same. But there's one thing that's right, you're my son, and I can't not love you in my own way. "Vézé's voice was still calm, but there was finally some emotion in his voice.
Qi Rui's anger and dissatisfaction began to dissipate with his father Vézé's words. He was also a political commissar, so he knew a lot of things. The negative emotions had nothing to do with reason, but because Qi Rui thought that he occupied a large part of his father Vézé's heart. After the anger subsided, Qi Rui's rationality still admitted that his father Vézé really cared about Qi Rui. Qi Rui wanted to show weakness, but he couldn't help saying, "Father, I can understand what you're saying. But I think a lot of things are related to me, and you never tell me about them. "
"That's probably because we have different judgments about whether it's related to you. For example, your brother Wei Kun is already the director of the Nanjing Industrial Bureau, and a member of the Municipal Party Committee. As for you, there's no need to say anything. So some people say that you and your brother Wei Kun are a pair of stars. In the future, you'll definitely have a chance to become the president. Do you think this has anything to do with you? "
Qi Rui was stunned when he heard this. Logically speaking, he knew that this had nothing to do with him, but Qi Rui found that he really couldn't turn a blind eye to it. Even though he knew that someone wanted to use Qi Rui, he still felt a burst of reaction when he thought of the opportunity to become the president.
Vézé sighed, and his voice sounded gloomy. "I'm happy when I get it, and sad when I lose it. These are all human feelings, and I think it's okay. What's even more terrifying is thinking about it in the head. Because there's no effort, you don't feel the pain of trekking, and the tiredness of giving. So when you imagine the possibility of getting it, you feel even better. When you imagine the possibility of losing it, you panic even more. After understanding materialism, you'll probably have fewer delusions. But that's all. A happy life is the same, but an unhappy life can show a myriad of forms. "
Qi Rui nodded. He understood this. He hadn't spent the past 30 years in vain. If he couldn't even understand the basic materialism, Qi Rui definitely wouldn't be able to stand out among the group of heroes.
Vézé continued, "So hard work, courage, and determination are called virtues, but no one has ever called intelligence a virtue. Virtues are probably because we don't want to bear the reality of failure, loss, unfinished work, and so on. So through many efforts and many pains, we forcibly change our way of doing things and attitudes. If we improve a little more, we can even find our own way of life. "
Qi Rui continued to nod. These were all the paths he had taken.
Vézé looked at his son. Seeing that his son's expression was not perfunctory, he said, "I think I should continue to work on this, and then realize that I actually don't have the ability to make myself the core of the world. I can only choose one of the various options to solve the problem according to the position I've decided on. Other than that, I think the general direction of things can be determined, but the specific process in the middle will always be beyond our imagination. We have to have our own imagination, but we don't have the ability to imagine a world by ourselves. "
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