Among the people of the Orthodox Academy, Zhexiu's cultivation was not the highest, but his battle prowess was definitely the strongest. If it was a life or death battle, even Chen Chang Sheng would not be his opponent, because he had an incomparably rich battle experience and a terrifying will tempered through life and death, but he had no experience in this sort of thing, much less any comprehension.
"Doesn't she hate you?" He very directly asked the question in his heart.
Chen Chang Sheng smiled. He didn't know how to answer this question, but this smile made him feel the taste of rust faintly seeping out from his throat. It was the taste of blood. His expression changed slightly, his spiritual sense moved slightly, and he performed Meditative Introspection. He then sank into a long period of silence, his face very pale.
So … it was like this, could it be that his great limit of twenty had arrived early?
He could clearly feel that all the meridians in his body had been severed once, but for some reason, the thousands of wounds on his meridians had already been burnt and coagulated, no longer bleeding. Soon after, he understood why, because he could feel her blood flowing through his body.
The clear and slightly cold lake water slowly flowed around the wooden pillars of the small building. The sound of footsteps could be heard, Xu Yourong and Tang Thirty-Six walked into the building. Tang Thirty-Six indicated for Zhexiu to leave with him, so only Chen Chang Sheng and Xu Yourong were left in the building. The lake water was still slowly flowing downstairs, the little black fish was no longer as excited as before, but the core of the candied date had disappeared to who knows where.
Chen Chang Sheng and Xu Yourong quietly stared at each other, for a long time, neither of them spoke. The scene was very quiet, even a little desolate. He thought to himself, in the end, I am a man, some words should be said by me. He pursed his somewhat dry lips, looked at her, and very seriously said: "I'm sorry."
This simple apology had many meanings, such as he hid his illness, such as his fate was not good, he dragged her down, such as being unable to continue traveling with her.
Xu Yourong calmly stared into his eyes and said: "That night, you said you had a secret you wanted to tell me, was it this matter?"
"Yes, my body has been weak since I was a child. After I was ten years old, my soul overflowed from my broken meridians. My master concluded that I wouldn't live past twenty years old, but …"
Chen Chang Sheng was silent for a while, then continued, "I thought I could at least live to twenty years old. I still had more than three years of time. I thought I could really change my fate. I wanted to try, but I didn't expect that my twenty years would come early."
Xu Yourong said, "And then?"
Chen Chang Sheng looked at her snow-white face and could imagine how much effort she had put in to save him. He said softly, "I'm sorry."
Xu Yourong walked to the window with her hands clasped behind her back. Looking at the night sky full of stars, she said after a moment of silence, "You wanted to tell me, but I didn't want to hear it, so there's no need to apologize."
Chen Chang Sheng was silent for a long time and said, "Fortunately, the engagement has been canceled."
"Or else I'll become a widow?" Xu Yourong didn't turn around, her voice turning cold.
Chen Chang Sheng could feel her current emotions. He was somewhat touched, somewhat comforted, but more than anything, he felt uneasy. He looked at her back and said, "I will die."
Xu Yourong's voice was even colder, even somewhat apathetic. "And then?"
Chen Chang Sheng said, "Zhexiu's illness has a chance of being cured, but my illness truly cannot be cured."
Xu Yourong still said the same two words, "And then?"
Chen Chang Sheng continued, "Senior Su Li is so carefree and open-minded, yet he also doesn't agree to let his daughter marry Zhexiu. How could your parents agree to you marry me?"
Xu Yourong replied, "I don't need the orders of my parents, and my teacher has already gone far away. My marriage is my own matter."
Chen Chang Sheng asked, "Then what about the Empress? She dotes on you so much, cares for you so much, don't tell me you don't need to listen to her opinion? "
Xu Yourong's voice was very calm. "I've never listened to the opinions of others in my matters. Moreover, if you really are Crown Prince Zhaoming, then whether you're sick or not, about to die or live for ten thousand years, the Empress will never agree to my marriage, so your question is meaningless."
The starlight fell on the surface of the lake and was reflected by it, falling on the house. The silver also outlined her figure in a silver line. She looked very beautiful, as if she could fly away with the wind at any moment.
As he watched her figure, Chen Chang Sheng felt that she was getting further and further away. He whispered, "Then what about me?"
Xu Yourong turned to look at him, the sleeves of her dress rising in the wind. Her voice was as cold as the wind. "What about you?"
Chen Chang Sheng looked into her eyes, showing no intention of backing down. "I won't let you marry someone about to die. I don't want you to tell the world about our relationship. Our engagement has already been dissolved. As long as we don't acknowledge it, then after I die, no matter who you marry, it will be much more convenient. For example … Qiushan Jun."
After waking up and confirming that his meridians were all severed, that his vitality was gone, and that his days were numbered, he began to consider a few problems. This was his true opinion, this was his own decision. He thought he would calmly accept all of this, but when he said that she should marry someone like Qiu Shan Jun in the future, he didn't know why, but his heart still gave birth to a sour feeling.
Xu Yourong calmly looked at him, not speaking for a very long time. Just when Chen Chang Sheng thought that she would brush her sleeves and leave, she suddenly said, "Just like you said, our engagement has already been dissolved, so there's no relationship between us. This being the case, what right do you have to use the tone of a fiancé to discuss how to arrange things for me after I die?"
Chen Chang Sheng didn't know how to respond, because everything she said was correct.
"But, I really will die, and I will die very soon."
"Everyone will die. Emperor Taizong and Zhou Dufu will also die. This is a common occurrence."
"I'm just worried about you."
"Don't worry, while you're alive, I can die for you, just like how you can die for me."
This was the most passionate words of love, the most sincere confession, but Xu Yourong said it very calmly and indifferently, as if she was explaining the simplest truth. Water flows downwards, the sun will rise again after it sets, everyone will die, we are lovers who walk the same path, so naturally we can sacrifice our lives for each other.
If it was someone else, they definitely wouldn't be able to adapt to the contrast between these words of love and the situation, and would be stunned speechless. But Chen Chang Sheng's personality was also very special, he didn't feel that there was anything wrong with it, instead, he felt that this was the type of person he liked. Because he was also a similar person, no matter if he was facing life or death, he would put his emotions in the deepest part, and face and deal with it calmly.
"… But I won't live for you. When you're alive, I will live my own life, if you die, I will also live well. "
Xu Yourong looked into his eyes and said, "But first you have to fight to live, I also want to fight to let you live, I don't want you to die."
This conversation about love before life and death came to an end at this point.
She very calmly obtained the final victory of this debate.
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(There's still a chapter at night. The original title was a conversation about love before life and death, I also wanted to name it: Then. But because when I posted it, I found that the word 'love' couldn't be displayed, I got angry, so I insisted on using this title. I don't understand, how is this word sensitive? I'm really angry.)
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