Gu Mang stared at this person in a daze. Hesitation, alertness, and confusion flashed across his eyes.
Finally, he stepped forward and tentatively raised his hand to touch Mo Xi's neck.
Mo Xi suddenly looked up and stared at him with reddened eyes.
His breathing was a little rapid due to his agitated emotions. His clothes were slightly open and the lotus curse mark on his neck was pulsating. He was clearly a person who had not been tempered by any evil spirit, but his expression was no different from that of a beast.
"What are you doing?"
"I …" Gu Mang was in a daze. "But I … don't know you …"
"…"
"Why do you also have …"
Mo Xi felt a sudden stab of pain. His pride and resentment made him ruthless. He slapped Gu Mang's hand away and said sternly, "I never needed this kind of thing. You forced me."
"…" Gu Mang looked up at this man who had lost his rationality.
In this dark woodshed where no one could see, in front of Gu Mang, the Lord Xi He who had lost control of himself was like yesterday's boy.
"Haven't you always been the one?" Mo Xi's chest was trembling and the corners of his eyes were a little red. "You were the one who provoked me. You were the one who came to find me …"
When he was frustrated.
When he was proud.
When he was poor or rich, or when his future was uncertain.
It was always you who smiled brightly and took the initiative to approach him.
"It was you who made me believe …"
That there were other friendships in this world, that there was someone who would treat another person well without asking for anything in return.
That there was still kindness, sincerity, and a heart of loyalty that would not regret even if nine deaths were to happen.
"It was you who pulled me back …"
Mo Xi had really lost his rationality. He had suppressed himself for so long and waited for so long for this day. Didn't he just want to ask Gu Mang the truth?
Didn't he just want to see what Gu Mang's heart was filled with …
Why couldn't he even get this little bit of relief?
He had been deceived, abandoned, and betrayed.
Saying that she liked him was a lie. Saying that she was willing was a lie. Saying that she wouldn't leave was a lie.
There was nothing left. In the end, there were only the two lotus patterns on his neck that proved what had happened between them in the past. It proved that he had been so stupid when he was young, so fearless, and so unhesitant.
It proved that he was a young man who was ignorant of the web of love.
She was so stupid that she wanted to give him her heart.
Stupid enough to think that all vows could come true.
Stupid to this day … Stupid to this day, I still feel the pain.
His head buzzed due to his overly excited emotions, and he felt dizzy.
Mo Xi looked at Gu Mang, who was in front of him. In the dizziness, his vision started to fade and become blurry.
He seemed to see the young man standing on the deck of the ship. It was so far yet so close, so familiar yet so strange. Against the sea breeze, he wore a black robe, bandages wrapped around his waist, and a slanted ribbon on his head.
"I will really kill you."
Mo Xi grabbed him and pushed him against the wall. He didn't care what time it was, "Yes … I know you will kill me. Didn't you already stab me once … Why didn't you stab me a second time at Wangshu Mansion?! "
He knew that he had lost his composure. He knew that what he did was ridiculous. But how could a person who had been suppressing himself be able to control himself when he lost control and exploded?
What's more, what Mo Chime wanted the most was to turn back.
It was just an answer.
"You made me believe … In the end, you made me not believe …"
"You said that I didn't care about anything, that I had nothing to lose, so I didn't care …" His voice softened, and he finally choked with sobs, "But do you know what I lost after you went down that path?!"
Do you know what I lost …
Mochime suddenly turned his face to the side and lowered his head. After a while, he squeezed out two words from between his teeth, which were crushed into pieces by his hatred.
"The person who doesn't care about anything is not me."
"…"
"It's you."
"…"
"I hate that I can't …"
He was suddenly speechless.
Because Gu Mang suddenly reached out and carefully, hesitantly, held his face and said, "You … don't be so sad."
Mo Extinguishing suddenly turned his head and met the pair of blue and pure eyes that seemed to have been washed by the sea.
"… I don't know what you're talking about."
"But can you … not be so sad?" Gu Mang said slowly, laboriously, word by word, so clumsily, "… Don't … be sad."
It was like a burning sword that was suddenly immersed in water.
Sizzling smoke rose, but the crazy heat was extinguished in an instant.
His blood cooled down little by little, and his rationality came back little by little.
Gu Mang looked at him and said slowly, "You're not a bad person …"
He said cautiously. His eyelashes fluttered, and he said again, "I don't know you, but you're … not a bad person …"
"…"
"So … don't be sad …"
Mo Xi felt extremely uncomfortable in his heart. Hatred, irritation, anger, and something else, he couldn't distinguish. He looked at Gu Mang's familiar face and looked at the unfamiliar blue eyes.
It was also this person who used to look at him with dark and deep eyes, with a smile, calling him again and again, saying, "Mo Xi."
"It's okay, don't be sad."
"No matter what, we'll always be together. No matter how difficult it is, I'll get through it."
"Let's go home together."
A wave of fatigue suddenly surged in his heart. Mo Xi closed his eyes. He was almost tired, like a dying vulture using the last of its strength to maintain its stubbornness, "… I'm not sad."
He hated him so much that he couldn't wait to strangle him to death in his hands. He wanted to see if he could escape again, deceive him again, and leave him again.
He hated that he couldn't personally see his skull shatter, his flesh and blood flowing out, ending all hope and despair.
But when Gu Mang carefully comforted him and begged him not to be sad. He suddenly thought of something —
Many, many years ago, Gu Mang sat on the edge of a bloodstained trench, summoning his laughable little Divine Martial Suona, which he had never used again after betraying his country, and blowing into it with great indignation.
It was such a lousy song. Everyone covered their ears and scolded him for blowing ghosts and crying at funerals. He only laughed, laughed until he swayed back and forth, and then continued to play the song "Birds Pay Homage to the Phoenix" for those who died in battle. He played it so affectionately and so seriously.
When he glanced at him from the corner of his eyes, the bottom of his eyes was moist.
Gu Mang had a heart.
He had deceived people and ghosts for so many years, but Mo Xi knew that he had a heart.
He still wanted to believe that the things that happened in those years couldn't be all fake.
For this result, he could wait.
"… Forget it. You can't remember. Forget it. "
Mo Xi's voice was moist, and he finally said this.
"I'm talking too much."
"It doesn't matter if you've really forgotten everything or if you've faked it." After a few moments of silence, Mo Xi straightened his body and slowly straightened his clothes. There was no extra wrinkle, and he covered the lotus tattoo on his neck. "I'll wait."
"I'll wait for a result. I'll wait for you to tell me the truth. "
His eyes were still a little red, and so was the tip of his nose.
Gu Mang was stunned. "You're … waiting for me …?"
"Yes, I'm waiting for you."
"No matter what, I'll wait for you. No matter how long it takes, I'll wait. "
"But you have to remember, if you lie to me again, if I find out that you're still lying to me — I can't let the same spot on my chest be stabbed a second time."
"I'll make you wish you were dead."
The surroundings were very quiet.
"…" Gu Mang lowered his head and thought for a while. Suddenly, he was puzzled. "What do you mean by … wish you were dead?"
That confused and innocent tone made Mo Xi look at him coldly. But because the corners of his eyes were still red and wet, he didn't look as sharp as usual.
Gu Mang sensed his gaze and raised his head to look at him. He knew that this man had broken through his sword array and removed his "sharp claws", but he had not bitten his neck or humiliated him like the others.
So Gu Mang asked tentatively, "Wish you were dead … does that mean … you're going to let me go?"
Mo Xi: "… No."
"But you didn't kill me, and you didn't hit me."
"… I don't hit idiots."
Gu Mang didn't say anything and continued to look at him. But suddenly. He leaned over and sniffed him.
Mo Xi raised his hand to stop the tip of his nose. "What are you doing?"
Gu Mang licked his dry lips and said softly, "Remembering you."
"…"
Remembering him? Remembering what? His face? His smell?
Or remembering that he was a person who didn't hit idiots?
But Gu Mang didn't explain. At this time, he let down his guard a little. Or maybe it wasn't that he wanted to, but that the hunger of more than ten days had made him weak. He didn't care about Mo Xi anymore. Anyway, his last sharp teeth were useless in front of the other party.
Gu Mang slowly lowered his head and curled back into his corner. His eyes that were like a wolf's in the dark blinked tiredly.
"Thank you," he said. "You're the only one who's willing to make me wish I was dead."
These words suddenly fell into Mo Xi's heart. His chest suddenly ached.
He stood there for a while and looked at the shabby little house. He looked at the small mattress with cotton wool and the figure curled up in the corner.
"…" Mo Xi closed his eyes and his long eyelashes trembled slightly.
In the end, he went out and brought back some biscuits and hot soup. He fed them to this person who was about to starve to death.
"I've eaten."
"…" Gu Mang hurriedly leaned over to smell it. After smelling it, he swallowed and then hesitated. "But you didn't prostitute …"
As soon as the word 'prostitute' came out, Mo Xi's black eyebrows rose in anger. He didn't say a word and directly slapped the biscuit on his face.
When he returned to the mansion, it was already late at night.
"Master, you're back — Ah! What's wrong? "
"I'm fine."
"But why are your eyes …" Why are they red?
"They got in the wind and sand." After saying that, he left Li Wei and walked back to the bedroom without looking back.
After being tormented in Luo Mei Villa for so long, he didn't feel sleepy at all. He tossed and turned in bed and couldn't fall asleep. He simply put on a black fur coat and stood in the corridor, looking at the moon in the Ming Hall. And Gu Mang's haggard face kept swaying in front of him. He couldn't get it out of his head.
Was he really that stupid …?
Did the Liao Country really send him back just to make peace, or did they have other intentions?
He tried to figure it out, but no matter how many times he tried, in the end, his thoughts stopped at that pair of wolf-like blue eyes.
"Thank you. You're the only one who's willing to let me live a life worse than death."
Mo Xi suddenly closed his eyes.
After that, he didn't go to Luo Mei Villa to see Gu Mang for a long time.
Firstly, it was because there were more things to do. Secondly, Luo Mei Villa was the Murong Lian's territory. It wasn't good to go there too often.
He only glanced at the backyard of Luo Mei Villa once when he led the imperial guards to patrol the city. Gu Mang was squatting there and watching fish again. Beside him was that dirty big black dog. Everything was the same as before.
In the blink of an eye, it was the end of the month. The first heavy snow of this winter floated outside the Military Council.
It was unusually cold at dusk. Most of the people in the Military Council went home early to play with their grandchildren. A few young cultivators also took advantage of the fact that the sky wasn't completely dark and went back to the main city in groups of three to five to drink and eat meat.
Mo Xi was about to go back to his residence when he suddenly heard a timid voice in front of his desk, "Lord Xi He, can I … can I ask you for a favor?"
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Today's small drama is a real story —
Friend: Let me draw a character portrait of Gu Mang and Qian Qian. Can you tell me what their usual weapons are?
Me: Oh … The current setting is that Qian Qian uses a whip, a sword, and a cane. The cane will turn into a big whale! It's very powerful!
Friend: Okay. What about Vast Expanse?
Me: …
Friend: Vast Expanse???
Me: Suona.
Friend (pen dropped): What?
Me: Gu Mang's weapon is Suona = = I'm not kidding …
Friend: …
At least the Liao Country did a good thing. They gave Gu Mang a new weapon and saved his taste. He changed to using a bayonet = =
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