"Yes, I am Søren, I am that bastard!"
After getting this answer, Yan Nair 'er's tears couldn't be stopped at all.
She didn't cry out loud, but her whole body started to twitch. Her eyes, which were blurred by her tears, stared at Søren.
This kind of silent crying made Soran's heart ache so much that it almost pulled him up.
He wasn't the real Søren, and he didn't have that relationship with Yan Nair. But at this moment, he was completely in the shoes of Søren, as if he was the bastard who had used her and then abandoned her, the man who had hurt her so badly.
He stretched out his hand slightly, wanting to wipe the tears off her face. But halfway through, he couldn't stretch it out no matter what.
Yan Nair was so sad that she couldn't speak. After a few minutes, she looked at Søren and said in a hoarse voice, "Why?"
Her question of "why" was completely Yan Nai 'er's sweet voice. Yan Shuang's coldness had already disappeared without a trace.
Her question had no head or tail, but Søren immediately understood what she wanted to ask.
Why did he abandon her? Was it because she wasn't beautiful enough, or she didn't do well enough?
Søren closed his eyes, completely immersing himself in the shoes of the prodigal Søren. His voice trembled as he said, "You … are like an angel who has no intention of descending to the mortal world. So beautiful, so pure. I was attracted by your beauty, so I pursued you without knowing the immensity of heaven and earth. It wasn't out of love, but because I was a playboy, because I wanted to conquer beauty. "
Yan Nair said, "So what? I didn't love in the beginning, but I can love you for real in the future. "
Søren said, "The more I interacted with you, the more beautiful your soul was like a whirlpool, causing me to sink into it. It made me afraid, made me feel inferior. I am such a despicable and dirty person, how can I be worthy of such a beautiful soul like yours. I thought about it countless times, to restrain my playboy heart and live with you for the rest of my life. But … a playful child can't restrain his heart. Moreover, I couldn't really marry you because I was engaged to Gui Qinshao. Every time I look at your infatuated and innocent eyes, I will remember that I pursued you with the intention of playing with your feelings. I even planned to break up with you after sleeping with you for twenty times. But looking at your naivety, your beauty, I feel more and more guilty. I can't give you a future, so it's better to just get the pain over with. A scum like me … doesn't deserve to have an angel like you. I should let a man like Liu Chen protect you for a lifetime and treat you like a treasure. "
At this point, Yan Nair 'er's tears gushed out again. She couldn't stop herself from crying, so she covered her mouth with her hand and did her best to suppress her sobs, causing her entire body to tremble violently.
"Furthermore, I'm afraid that I … I will truly fall in love with you. If that happens, it will be a complete tragedy for me and my family." Søren gasped for air and said, "So, not only did I break up decisively, I even chased after Princess Zhi Ning to cut off my own path of retreat. Then, like a playful child, I was attracted to another beautiful woman, so I devoted myself even more crazily. The reason why I chased after Zhi Ning so crazily was because I knew that we didn't have a future, and we didn't need a future. "
Every word that Søren said was the truth. It wasn't his truth, but the truth of that prodigal Søren.
Sauron, that scumbag, would definitely have the chance to cook Yan Nair's rice. Because in order to save their relationship, Yan Nair had already let go of her reservations and took the initiative to please Søren.
However, not only did Søren not touch her, he quickly avoided her.
At that time, he was already protecting and cherishing Yan Nair, this pearl, and he couldn't bear to tarnish or hurt her.
Moreover, it's better to just get the pain over with, so he broke up decisively.
This kind of breakup was also a kind of protection. Because he, Yan Nair, had no future with a scum like him, so he wanted to set her free.
However, he still wasn't mature enough. He let go of this protective nature, and it turned into a greater harm.
That scum, Søren, must have thought this way. He was like the evil devil in the movies. When he saw a cute and pure baby, he would also take pity on her. Not only could he not bear to hurt her, but he would also protect her with all his might.
And Yan Nair, who had just escaped from her father's side, was as pure as a spotless pearl. That's why she attracted Liu Chen, such a carefree and unrestrained genius. However, because Liu Chen loved her too much, he was very careful, afraid that he would scare her even a little. However, such cautiousness couldn't move her.
But Søren, this scum, was different. He was completely reckless, like a wild boar. Regardless of whether it was an ordinary cabbage or a priceless emerald cabbage, he would take it first.
And the tragic thing was, this emerald cabbage was too pure, and it was really taken away in such a rough manner.
Of course, originally, this wild boar, Søren had the chance to eat this emerald cabbage in one bite. However, he eventually discovered her priceless value, and couldn't bear to hurt her, so he carefully placed this cabbage back in the vegetable garden.
…
All abandoned girls wanted an answer, an answer as to why they were abandoned.
Now, Yan Nair got this answer. She didn't know why, but she felt even more sad in her heart.
She sobbed and said, "I, I've thought about the scene of us meeting again countless times, but not once was it like this …"
"Me too," Søren said dully.
"Yesterday morning, when you rushed in with the Blood Fiend's head, the sunlight covered your face. I looked at your figure and suddenly realized that you looked very similar to Søren. But when the sunlight moved away and I saw your face again, I was sure that you weren't Søren, because you were completely different. The face can change, but the eyes can't, and your eyes are completely different. " Yan Nair said, "In the past, your eyes were very bad, full of provocation at all times. It was the kind of gaze that I could use my eyes to take off your clothes, but I wouldn't take them off."
At this time, Søren had completely felt Yan Nair's cuteness. Even when she was talking about taking off her clothes, she was serious.
Suo Ningbing said that Yan Nair was simple inside, serious on the surface, and never beat around the bush. She said what she wanted to say, and when she couldn't argue with him, she would start fighting.
So every time she quarreled with Søren, it would start with Yan Nair's face turning red and stuttering, and end with her fists violently beating up Søren.
"You, really changed a lot. I couldn't even recognize you," Yan Nair said with a complicated gaze.
"You too." Søren said, "You changed so much that when I first saw you, I didn't dare to recognize you at all. I thought you had a sister called Yan Shuang."
Seeing Søren's inarticulate manner, completely different from before, Yan Nair suddenly had an indescribable sadness in her heart.
After thinking for a while, she asked, "I was too far away from you, and I deliberately avoided news about you. How have you been?"
Søren shook his head. "Not very good, father is gone, Suo Hanyi betrayed us, and the territory of Tianshui City has been occupied."
Yan Nair's beautiful eyes trembled. "I'm not good either, my father is gone, and my Silver Wolf Army … is also going to be annexed."
So, the two fell into silence again.
"How is Sister Ning Bing?" Yan Nair asked.
Søren's gaze softened. "Sister, fortunately, her request is relatively simple. As long as I am safe, she is fine."
"Oh." Yan Nair was silent again.
The two, as if they were chatting on QQ, couldn't find anything to say.
Finally, it was Yan Nair who broke the silence.
"Turin Duo said that you came to me for my army. Is she right?" When Yan Nair asked this, her eyes were fixed on Søren.
She had always wanted to ask this question.
At this moment, if Søren said no, it would be a lie. If he said yes, it would be harm.
You abandoned me before, and now, in order to obtain my army, you returned to my side, and even hid your identity with ulterior motives. How shameless is this?
Søren lowered his head and nodded. "Yes."
Yan Nair's eyes widened. "You did not come to see me, but to conquer me, reunite, and then take away my Silver Wolf Army, right?"
Back then, Yan Nair's words had always been so direct. She didn't know how to beat around the bush.
Søren's head almost dropped to his crotch. He nodded. "Yes."
An extremely sad look flashed across Yan Nair's beautiful eyes. Her eyelashes trembled as she held back the tears that were about to fall.
"I, I don't blame you …" Yan Nair's voice trembled. "You are doing this for the family, so it's normal for you to make use of anyone. Just like how I am not pure and flawless. In order to protect the Silver Wolf Army, I have been choosing a man to marry. By doing this, I have already betrayed our love. "
At that moment, Søren was so sad that he wanted to cry.
He could already feel Søren's pain and guilt.
Please, Søren has already abandoned you and fallen in love with someone else in front of everyone. You are still saying that you have betrayed your love?
Yan Nair continued to ask, "If no one exposed your identity, and you continued to stay by my side as Lan Ling, what would you do?"
Søren was speechless. His answer might have been fine, but when he said it, it was indeed very wretched.
Yan Nair said seriously, "After becoming my husband candidate, you will use your talent to help me win this battle. Then, you will make use of the opportunity to take away my chastity. After we become husband and wife, you will gradually reveal your identity and turn the Silver Wolf Army into your army, right? "
Yan Nair was very smart. She knew everything, but she did not want to hide it.
Facing her eyes, Søren finally knew that the most difficult thing to face was not a threatening gaze, but a pure and flawless gaze. This kind of gaze would pierce straight into your heart, leaving you nowhere to hide.
"Yes." Søren really dropped his head to his crotch.
"It's not right for you to plan like this." Yan Nair said, "If everything really happens as you plan, then the moment you reveal your true identity, I will either break down or commit suicide."
Søren's body suddenly trembled.
Yan Nair said, "After you sleep with me and reveal your true identity, do you want me to think of you as Lan Ling or Søren? No matter which one it is, it will be the same as me committing adultery with another man and being caught by my lover. Even if you are the same person, I will not know in my heart. "
Søren suddenly trembled. From Yan Nair's perspective, this was indeed the case.
If everything really happened according to plan, then … the moment he revealed his true identity, it would be the moment Yan Nair died.
Instantly, Søren felt a chill all over his body. His heart was filled with lingering fear. He began to feel extremely fortunate that all of this had not happened.
"Søren, both of us have changed, but you have changed even more." Yan Nair said, "In the past, you loved to lie to people, and there was not a single word of truth in your mouth. But now, you are not lying anymore. "
He was not lying, but he was even more scheming and shameless!
Yan Nair said, "The person I love is the bad Søren who likes to lie, not the current Søren."
Søren instantly understood her words. The person she loved was the Søren in her memory, and not the flirtatious man she still loved now.
Now that she was mature, she would never fall in love with a playboy with sweet words and honeyed words. However, the mark of love had been engraved in her heart. Even if she became mature, this mark would not change.
Some people always couldn't wait to bid farewell to the past, ashamed of the past. For example, the past failure, the past childishness, the past failure of love.
And some people would always cherish their past, even if they became more mature, even if the past was unbearable to look back on.
Yan Nair asked again, "Søren, you want me to stop fighting with Ji Gang and bring the Silver Wolf Army to Tianshui City to pledge loyalty to you, right?"
Søren hesitated for a moment, then nodded. This was indeed his inner thought.
"I'm sorry, I can't do it." Yan Nair said, "If the Silver Wolf Army was not in danger, I would be willing to help you. But now, I'd rather die fighting here than escape. "
Søren nodded and said, "I know, so … I will stay, I will help you."
"No." Yan Nair shook her head and said, "The man beside me can be anyone, but it can't be Søren."
Søren suddenly said in a hoarse voice, "Why?"
Yan Nair said, "I said that I don't hate you, but I will never forgive you. It is impossible to make up a broken mirror."
Søren said loudly, "I don't want anything, I don't want anything, I will stay to help you."
"No, I don't want to owe anyone." Yan Nair said, "Although there is a saying that it is better to remember than to meet. But I am still grateful for today's meeting, giving us a chance to say goodbye to the past, so that I can completely transform Yan Nair into Yan Shuang. "
Søren was burning with anxiety, as if there were thousands of words surging in his heart, but he couldn't say half a word.
Taking a deep breath, Yan Nair walked out and said, "Søren, I will always cherish my love for you in my heart, but it is difficult to take back what is done. We can't go back to the past. From today onwards, we will completely break off our relationship. You go, you do your things, I go do mine. Everyone wishes each other well, but also stay away from each other. "
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