Her heart was originally as calm as still water, but the arrival of her family stirred up her mood again.
Master Jing Hui was right, because there was resentment and hatred, she couldn't sleep at night. If some problems weren't solved, she was afraid that those messy emotions would torment her until she went crazy.
However, how could such a thing be solved?
That wounded heart, that gloomy world, could it be restored to its original state?
Full of grievances and strong melancholy, she returned to her room, only to find that there was another man in her room.
Lotus Temple didn't have many incense offerings, so there were very few nuns here. Including Phoenix, there were only seven people in total, each of whom could have a separate room. If you wanted, you could have two or even three rooms …
The man's back was facing Phoenix, kneeling on the futon she chanted and prayed to every day, kneeling in front of the statue of Guanyin in the room.
His body was straight, making his back particularly slender and strong.
His waist was like a bee's, his long hair draped over his shoulders. Even if one couldn't see his face, one could feel that he was a handsome and affectionate man.
His mouth was murmuring, his voice was hurried but indistinct. It was difficult to tell what he was saying.
He was so focused that he didn't seem to notice that there was a woman watching behind him.
Phoenix looked at the man's back, her body stiff and her face ashen.
She wanted to retreat, but in the end she stood there without moving.
"Aren't you afraid that I'll kill you?" The man said aloud. His voice was gentle, with a husky magnetism.
He was just praying to Guanyin Bodhisattva, but in the blink of an eye he asked such a cold and ruthless question.
He was like a gentleman robber, but also like an elegant pervert.
"No."
The moment she heard the man's voice, Phoenix suddenly became quiet.
She looked at the man and said aloud, "If you kill me, all the karma will disappear at once. The body will be freed, and the mind will reach the other side. Although this solution is not perfect. Perhaps, at that time, I can really have a good sleep. "
"Reach the other side?" The man's voice was calm, but Phoenix could still hear a trace of mockery. "There's no such thing as a pure land of heaven in this world? Does that world have it? If all the eminent monks were as pure as they claimed, why would they need to enjoy the incense of their believers and build their golden bodies? That world is even dirtier than the human world, right? "
"You have hatred for this world," the phoenix said.
"What about you?" The man got up and turned around to look at Phoenix, who was wearing the monk's robe. "How are you doing?"
"No." Phoenix shook her head. "I hate myself."
"En, I can understand how you feel at this moment." The man grinned, but when he smiled, he did not make any sound. It was faint and fleeting. "You have two regrets and two regrets. You hate your family. You hate them for ruining your life. You hate yourself for not having the courage to change your fate. You felt guilty towards Fang Yan. You loved him deeply, ever since you were young … But in the end, you hurt him. You also feel guilty towards me. You don't like me, but you always use me. I couldn't bear to kill you, but they used it to kill me … "
Phoenix's face paled. This man really did understand her. It was much deeper than she had thought.
One of her hands was still holding on to the door frame, and the hand holding the door frame cracked against the fragile door.
"I've let Fang Yan down, and I've let you down …" Phoenix said. "I don't know if I've let you down more or Fang Yan down more. The more I don't understand this problem, the more I hate my family, the more I hate myself … Ever since that happened, I haven't been able to sleep well. Remorse seeps into my bones, and a poisonous snake bites at my heart. "
The man sighed softly. "Do you know why I was kneeling in front of Guanyin Bodhisattva?"
Phoenix shook her head. "I don't know. I heard you say a long time ago that you don't worship Buddha, and you don't believe in ghosts … "
"Yes. I don't worship Buddha, and I don't believe in ghosts. But maybe they really exist in this world? "The man said softly. He looked into Phoenix's eyes with pity. "I can understand that the An family wants to take you back. Your uncles are people who care a lot about face. How could they allow their women to become nuns? I heard the conversation between you and them. I also heard the conversation between you and that old nun … I know you haven't had a good sleep for a long time. You look very tired … I knelt in front of Buddha and recited the Medicine Buddha's Enlightenment Mantra for you. I hope Bodhisattva can bless you with no illness or disaster, and let you have a sweet dream. "
Phoenix's eyes were moist. "Why bother?"
The man grinned. "If I was in a novel or a movie, I would be the number one bad guy in the world … But bad guys also have feelings. Bad guys can also fall in love with a woman. From the first time they see her, day after day, year after year. Even if they know she likes another man, even if they know she's just playing … they're still willing to endure it. "
"Why did you come out?" Phoenix said in a choked voice. "Everyone thought you were dead … I also thought you were dead …"
"I also thought I was dead." The man squinted his eyes and laughed. "But I came back to life. When I opened my eyes, even I was shocked … "
"Bai Xiu, go away. Go far away and don't come back. "Phoenix pulled the man's arm, wanting to drive him out, to a place where no one could find him.
"I will go." Bai Xiu looked at Phoenix and said, "I'm here to take you away."
Phoenix shook her head and said, "I won't go. I won't go anywhere. I live here. There are mountains, water, and Buddhist scriptures … "
"Your attitude towards life is too negative." The man said. "You should have a more colorful life. I can give you such a life. Fang Yan doesn't have such courage. "
"Bai Xiu …"
The man stretched his body and chopped Phoenix's neck with his hand.
Phoenix's body was already weak. She fainted immediately after receiving this blow.
The man picked up Phoenix's body that was about to fall. He looked at her delicate and flawless face and said, "You see, you are also very beautiful like this …"
With that, he pushed the door with Phoenix in his arms and wanted to leave.
"Put her down." A clear man's voice came.
The voice was very abrupt, but it was so clear, as if someone was shouting in his ear.
The man's footsteps paused as he looked at the tall man standing at the corner of the lotus pond in front of the courtyard.
The man sat on a big rock with a small flower in his mouth. His posture was lazy, as if he had just woken up.
"Bai Lilu …" The man said in a deep voice. His voice was still calm. The miraculous appearance of Bai Lilu did not make him feel that it was ridiculous. He was a person who had died once. What else could make him feel strange?
"Put it down. Buddha said to put it down. "Bai Lilu was still sitting on the big rock. He plucked the small flower from his mouth and played with it in his hand.
"You want to stop me?" Bai Xiu stared coldly at Bai Lilu and asked.
"Bai Xiu, you're actually not dead yet. Tsk tsk …" Bai Lilu clicked his tongue. He looked very regretful that Bai Xiu was still alive. "You said you died well. Why did you come back to life? Don't you know … that what you're doing is very immoral? Life and death is a very serious matter. You're alive one moment and you're dead the next. Isn't this cheating people's feelings? After knowing that you died, the people of Swallow Dock were happy for who knows how long. Now that you're alive again, aren't we happy for nothing? "
"Swallow Dock …" Bai Xiu smiled coldly and said, "One day, I'll make those arrogant people pay the price."
"That's a bit too much. Who scolds themselves like that? " Bai Lilu chuckled and said, "Everyone in Swallow Dock knows that before you revealed your true nature, you were the most arrogant and arrogant person in Swallow Dock … Of course, we've never treated you as a member of Swallow Dock. You're just a little bastard who mingles in Swallow Dock. "
Bai Xiu's eyes flashed with killing intent. He stared at Bai Lilu and asked, "Did Fang Yan send you?"
"What do you think?" Bai Lilu said unhappily. "I'm not interested in the little girl in your arms. I just happened to go back to do something and drank a few bowls of his wine. Then, he threw me into this broken temple deep in the mountains to wait for a rabbit to come to me … I know you're very unhappy to see me, but can you understand how I feel? "
Bai Xiu was greatly shocked, but his face didn't show it. He asked, "Fang Yan knows I'm still alive?"
"How could he know you're still alive? He told me with certainty that he stabbed you to death with a sword. For this, he even ran to father's grave with a large barrel of wine and got drunk … "
"Then …"
"You think it's strange? I think it's strange too. He clearly killed you, so why did he ask me to come and protect this little girl? " Bai Lilu shook his thick head and said, "Although I don't want to admit it, Fang Yan is indeed the smartest guy in our group … Many times, I don't know what he's thinking. He asked me to come, so I came. "
Bai Lilu looked at the phoenix in Bai Xiu's arms and said, "Put her down. You can leave or stay … It doesn't matter to me. "
"You're courting death." Bai Xiu snorted coldly, his words filled with killing intent.
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