"I didn't do it on purpose."
Fang Yan crouched down and tried to help Phoenix up in a flurry.
Just as he lifted the Phoenix's body, the sole of his shoes slipped, and he fell to the ground because of the moss on the stone.
At this time, Fang Yan had lost control of his body.
Pa —
His body was heavily pressed against Phoenix's chest, and the two of them heavily collided.
If it weren't for the soft flesh below, the wound on his chest would have been torn open.
Phoenix was pressed under Fang Yan's body. She didn't struggle, nor did she scream. It was as if she was lying on a big bed at home.
She looked at Fang Yan with bright eyes and said, "Is this what you've always wanted to do?"
"No." Fang Yan quickly denied.
After a pause, he said, "I wasn't very sensible before, so I had some unhealthy thoughts —"
Phoenix sighed softly and said, "Yes. You weren't very sensible before, so you had these unhealthy thoughts. After you became sensible, you began to have unhealthy thoughts about others — now you want to do this kind of thing to Ye Rou? Unfortunately, you can only think about it. You can't beat her anyway. "
"— —"
Phoenix looked at Fang Yan and said, "Although I didn't refuse, are you going to keep lying on top of me and chat like this?"
"No, no. I'm going to get up after a rest — — "Fang Yan said.
He got up from Phoenix's arms and pulled Phoenix up from the ground.
Phoenix's back was soaked by the water stains on the grass. Her red hair was also wet and messy, like a red flame.
Phoenix's personality had always been arrogant and domineering. She was like a thorny rose, a woman who always existed like a 'flame'. But after this incident, this flame was completely extinguished.
She lost her original spirit and vitality, and her eyes began to become timid and evasive.
That incident hurt her too deeply, and it would be difficult for her to recover in a short time.
Phoenix looked around and pointed to a big stone in the forest and said, "Let's not go. Let's sit there for a while."
"Okay." Fang Yan nodded.
The stone was a little wet, so Fang Yan took off his coat and spread it on the stone. The two of them sat shoulder to shoulder.
They had a lot of things to say, but when they sat down together, they didn't know how to start.
It was a pus scar, a scar. Even if you wanted to open the wound and apply medicine on it, it would be the most painful when you applied the medicine.
Fang Yan was afraid that he would say something wrong and once again hurt the sensitive nerves of the phoenix.
From the beginning to the end, they never talked about Bai Xiu.
They never mentioned that name. Because it was a curse that could not be undone, but one that he wanted to forget forever.
"Fang Yan, you shouldn't have come —"
Just as Fang Yan was hesitating about what to say, Phoenix took the initiative to start the conversation.
"I told you, if I didn't come, I would regret it for the rest of my life-" Fang Yan said with a smile. He pulled out a sugarcane grass from beside his feet and gently sucked the sweet juice from the grass root. This was something they often liked to do when they were young.
Phoenix also pulled out a sugarcane grass and put it in her mouth. She said: "Before you came, I was hoping that you wouldn't come. Because I was afraid that after you came, I wouldn't know what kind of expression to use to meet you – I also wouldn't know what to say to you. I don't want to say sorry, but I really did wrong you. "
"There's no need to say sorry, you didn't do anything wrong to me —" Fang Yan said: "Even if you did, you've already paid it back. What could be more valuable than using your life to make up for it? "
"I wasn't making up for it. At the time, I thought — — just dying like that is fine," Phoenix said in a low voice: "Because living is too tiring."
"I understand" Fang Yan nodded. "The past is the past, we don't need to talk about it anymore — — but you have to go back with me."
"Go back?" Phoenix smiled and asked: "Go back to where?"
"Home. Or anywhere else — "Fang Yan stubbornly said:" But not here. "
"Fang Yan, don't force me. Don't force me, okay? " Phoenix looked at Fang Yan with a pleading expression and said: "I can't go back, and I don't want to go back — — where can I go?"
"If I go back home, how will I face the way my family looks at me? If I go back to Swallow Dock, how will I — — face their comments about me? "
"Go abroad. Go abroad — — "Fang Yan said. At that time, Li Yun had wanted to send Shangxin abroad, but he intercepted her and brought her back.
From Fang Yan's point of view, it might be a good choice for Phoenix to go abroad. After all, no matter how dissatisfied the An Family was with this woman, they probably wouldn't kill her to keep her quiet — —
"No matter where I go, they will be able to find me. I can't escape, and I don't have a way to escape — — even if they can't find me, can I live a safe and sound life and pretend that nothing has happened? "
"Fang Yan, it's not that I can't get past others, but I can't get past myself — — I have too many distracting thoughts in my mind, and the guilt in my heart is too deep. I will be tortured by these thoughts until I go crazy." Phoenix's eyes were bloodshot as she spoke, and she looked like she was about to go crazy.
"I know that you don't feel good, but things have already developed to this stage, and we have to consider the best solution — — I don't think that it's the best solution for you to become a nun."
"I think so," Phoenix said. "No matter how dissatisfied they are with me, will they still make things difficult for a nun who has become a nun? Also, during the days I've been living on the mountain, I feel extremely peaceful. If I serve Buddha wholeheartedly and study Buddhist scriptures, the pain in my heart will be reduced by a lot — — This is exactly what I need. "
"Fang Yan, before I made this choice, I was at a loss and didn't know what to do. I didn't know what my next step should be, and I also didn't know what my future would be like. However, after I made my choice, my mind immediately calmed down. I know better than anyone that this is the state I want the most — — don't try to persuade me anymore, okay? "
Fang Yan was silent.
He was not willing to accept such an outcome.
However, he did not want to add more troubles to Phoenix. He hoped that she would be able to get through this.
Phoenix reached out her hand to stroke Fang Yan's face. Using her fingers, she gently smoothed out Fang Yan's furrowed brows and said: "Fang Yan, I didn't want you to come, but I am still very happy that you did — — women are always so contradictory."
"Just like what you said earlier, let's let go of everything that happened in the past. Let's act as if we've just met today — — Fang Yan, promise me, okay? "
"Okay," Fang Yan gritted his teeth and said.
"I want to drink strong liquor," Phoenix said.
"Okay. On the way down the mountain, I saw a farmer's family. I'll go find them and buy some meat. "
With Fang Yan's current physical condition, it was unrealistic to use stones to kill rabbits and pheasants. The best way would be to find a hunter in the mountains to buy these things. The people living in the mountains would certainly not be lacking in game.
"I want to eat Ambush from Ten Sides," Phoenix said.
"Okay, I'll borrow a pot from them and make Ambush from Ten Sides for you."
Fang Yan glanced at Phoenix, then got up and ran back the way he came.
Phoenix stared at Fang Yan's back in a daze. She chewed the sugar cane grass in her mouth and swallowed it into her stomach.
It was as if she was Fang Yan!
Fang Yan quickly returned.
He carried a sack on his shoulder and a large pot in his hand.
Fang Yan placed the pot on the ground, then took out the contents of the sack one by one.
Every time he took out something, he would introduce it to Phoenix as if it was a treasure, just like the first time he took her to the mountains to hunt rabbits for Ambush from Ten Sides.
"This is dried rabbit —"
"This is half a pheasant, they only have this half in their house —"
"This is the dough they sent — they originally used to make potstickers at night, but I borrowed it —"
"This is oil and salt — this is dried chili from their wall —"
Fang Yan took out a white plastic bucket from his pocket and said, "You didn't expect this, did you? They also have loose spirits — I just took a sip, it's not as clear as Swallow Dock's shaodao, but it's still very good — that big brother said there's at least three catties of it. I haven't touched white wine for a long time, let's have a good drink later — "
Fang Yan copied Swallow Dock's style and used a few large stones to build a simple stove on a piece of dry land. After washing the large pot in the stream, he put it on the stove.
Then he cleaned the rabbit and pheasant, cut them into large pieces with a knife, and put them into the pot one by one.
He grabbed a handful of wild mushrooms and wild beans and threw them in together, then added a certain amount of stream water.
Because it had just rained, the most difficult step was to find hay and firewood.
Of course, this was not a problem for Fang Yan. He dug out a few rabbit holes, inside of which were soft and dry weeds.
Then he pulled out some old branches from under some rocks that had not fallen in the rain, and then used a lighter from a farmer's house to light the hay. The fire burned fiercely.
Phoenix happily helped to light the fire, and from time to time, she would laugh like a silver bell when she heard Fang Yan's words. Her laughter traveled far, the most beautiful sound of nature in this forest.
This scene was so familiar, it was exactly the same as when they were ambushed from ten sides in Swallow Dock.
When the soup was boiling, the meat was cooked. Fang Yan poured the oil, salt, and seasonings he had prepared into the pot. Then, he threw in a handful of chili and poured in some spirits. The large pot began to emit a fragrant aroma, and even the steam that came out from it could not help but greedily suck it into their lungs.
Fang Yan opened the barrel, gulped down a mouthful, and then handed the barrel to Phoenix in front of him.
Phoenix took the barrel, raised her head, and gulped down a big mouthful.
"Eat meat." Fang Yan handed the chopsticks he had cut from a tree branch to Phoenix.
Phoenix took the chopsticks, picked up a rabbit leg from the pot, and began to eat.
The rabbit leg that had just come out of the pot was too hot, and Phoenix ate it too quickly, so she would occasionally spit out her tongue to blow out a breath of cold air.
However, she still greedily ate without a care.
She chewed the rabbit meat in a sorry state, and big drops of tears flowed down her cheeks.
From now on, there would be no more Phoenix!
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