She was used to the death of her parents!
She was used to being helpless!
She was used to being wronged!
She was used to all kinds of misfortunes and disasters!
However, she was worried that Fang Yan would not be used to it.
When a person's fate was full of misfortunes and tribulations, when a person suffered too much pain and lost too much, her heart would become hard, and her body would become strong. She would shelter him from the wind and rain, and she would welcome the morning glow and bathe in the starlight for him.
Just like the flowers on the cliff, they were more aloof and independent than the wildflowers and weeds at the foot of the mountain.
Lu Chaoge was the flower on the cliff, and the former Fang Yan was the flower in the greenhouse.
When the flower on the cliff saw the flower in the greenhouse, there would always be some worry, and also some pity. The wind was so strong outside, and the snow was so fierce. Could his thin and weak body withstand it?
Lu Chaoge knew that Fang Yan was suffering unimaginable sorrow, just like what she had suffered when she was a child. However, she gritted her teeth and stubbornly endured it. It was a kind of tearing pain, as if she was awake to remove an organ from her body.
Father, which organ of the body should he correspond to?
I'm worried that you won't be used to it!
Hearing Lu Chaoge's answer, Fang Yan was stunned for a moment.
He looked at Lu Chaoge's pretty face, which was full of concern, and said softly, "The place where I was born, there is a very bad habit — the men there all like to say heroic words like valuing friendship over life and death. For public and private reasons, they don't hesitate to pay with their lives. "
"So, every year, there will be people leaving. Some people die in the strange and dangerous North Sea, and even their bones can't be retrieved. Some people die in the hot and boundless Gobi, and their bodies are submerged in quicksand, staying there forever. Some people die in battle, some people die of illness, and some people die in pursuit of martial arts — sometimes they receive the news of the death of distant relatives on the morning of spring, sometimes they receive the phone call in the summer night, sometimes it's the Double Ninth Festival, and sometimes it's the eve of the New Year — you can choose the day of birth, but who can choose the day of death? "
Fang Yan held the rice bowl and filled a bowl of fresh fish soup for himself, and then sipped it.
"I thought I had seen through this kind of thing very easily. There are even times when I'm hot-headed and think that I can do what others can — "Fang Yan laughed self-deprecatingly and said:" So I can't do it. I'm not brave, I'm a little cowardly. "
"You're not a coward." Lu Chaoge comforted him softly. "You're just too emotional."
Fang Yan shook his head and said, "When I was alive, I didn't even have a good talk with him or drink with him once. What's the point of waiting for him after he's dead? This kind of expression — can't be called emotional, right? "
"I'm just too guilty. When he was alive, I didn't take a good look at his paintings or appreciate his words. I knew he was busy with his art exhibition, but I didn't even go over to ask if it was going well or if he needed any help. He lived in his world, and I lived in mine. Although we were a family, I always felt that he didn't understand me, and I didn't understand him. "
"So, this time, I stayed in Swallow Dock for three years. I looked through all of his previous paintings, and I didn't even miss the manuscripts under the bookshelves. I went through every word and poem he had written, even the mistakes he had made. Some of the words were very good, which proved that he was in a good mood at that time. Some of the words were very bad. At that time, he was probably very annoyed, right? "
"Later, I discovered a secret. When he wrote beautiful words, there would be something that made him happy that day. For example, I received the title of outstanding graduate from school, or my martial arts improved to his satisfaction. On the day I felt the heart of Tai Chi for the first time, he drew a painting called 'A Young Man's Morning Practice'. A young man was diligently practicing martial arts in the morning light. The sun in the painting was dyed red by him, which proved that he must have been very excited at that time — "
Fang Yan couldn't continue and lowered his head to drink the soup.
As the warm and delicious fish soup entered his stomach, Fang Yan's depressed mood slightly relaxed.
"It's not that I'm not used to it, I just don't want to." Fang Yan smiled and said, "I just don't want to. That's all. "
Lu Chaoge looked at Fang Yan, her beautiful eyes filled with deep worry. She said, "Fang Yan, why did you come to Flower City?"
"There are too many things to do, I can't keep waiting." Fang Yan replied, "Besides, my previous students — they are also waiting for me."
"Fang Yan, don't you think this is too risky?" Lu Chaoge didn't believe Fang Yan's explanation. She said, "I know you. I know what kind of man you are. You waited in Swallow Dock for three years, and you waited for three years. You thought that those people would appear again, you thought that they would attack you again — — but they didn't appear, as if they had disappeared from this world. "
"So, you left Swallow Dock, left Yanjing, and came to Flower City, the most dangerous place where your strength is the weakest — — you want to use your life to lure the snake out of its hole? Fang Yan, this is too dangerous. Go back, go back to Swallow Dock. That is the safest place. They're capable of anything — "
Fang Yan's eyes were filled with a terrifying red light, and the white of his eyes were mottled with red veins. He looked at Lu Chaoge and said calmly, "But, conflicts have to be resolved — — they killed my father, so let me kill their entire family. You see, this isn't too much to ask, right? "
"— —"
Fang Yan saw Lu Chaoge's surprised expression and asked, "Are you not used to it? I didn't speak like this before. If I encountered such a problem, I would use another way to say it — — I would tell you that I'm a pacifist, and then secretly kill their entire family. This is my style, isn't it? "
Lu Chaoge nodded and said, "Indeed, that is your style — — I hope that you are still the same as before. Back then, although you had a vicious mouth, your heart was very kind. You were willing to think for others. "
"No, I can't do it." Fang Yan patted his chest and said, "Every night, it feels like I'm being burned by fire, tormenting me to the point that I can't sleep. Only when this fire is extinguished, can I return to my previous self. "
"Then we'll take it slow. Don't be in a hurry, "Lu Chaoge said. "What are you going to do in Rosefinch? Are you still going to be a teacher? "
"No." Fang Yan said, "My current state of mind is not suitable to be a teacher. I'm afraid that I won't be able to control my emotions. "
"Being a teacher is something you're good at. If you don't want to be a teacher, what do you want to be? "
"Security?" Lu Chaoge almost spat out the fish soup in her mouth.
"Security?" Lu Chaoge almost spat out the fish soup in her mouth. If it weren't for the fact that she had to maintain her elegant demeanor, it would have been very difficult for her to control herself.
A rising star in the education world of Huacheng only wanted to be a security guard at a school — — isn't this contrast a bit too strong?
"I used to like to educate people, but now — — I only want to protect people," Fang Yan looked at Lu Chaoge and said with an unprecedentedly serious tone. "Later on, I realized that being alive is the most important thing. I hope that the people I care about won't come to any harm. "
"Doing this is too tiring."
"It's tiring if I don't do this" Fang Yan said. "I didn't do this before, that's why I'm so tired now."
Lu Chaoge sighed softly and said, "What can I help you with?"
"Help me be Chaoyan" Fang Yan said. "I'll need money in the future, a lot of money. I need resources, all kinds of resources — — I don't just want a person to be strong, I need a family to be strong. Only then will I be able to confront those schemers hiding behind the scenes. Only then will I be able to chop off their dirty hands and pierce their dirty hearts. "
Lu Chaoge nodded and said, "You were mourning in Swallow Dock for three years, and I didn't visit you for three years — — I spent all my time and energy on the development of Chaoyan Technology. I knew that this day would come, and I hope that when you come out, Chaoyan Technology can be your strongest support — — I think that Miss Qin also thinks so. "
After Fang Yixing's funeral, Qin Yitian immediately left.
She became her mother's assistant and one of the decision-makers of the Qin family's business.
Her eyes were always on Chaoyan Technology, and she used the Qin family's resources and connections to protect Chaoyan's development.
If it weren't for Qin Yitian's support, if it weren't for the Qin family's support, Chaoyan Technology, which was as fragile as a baby and had infinite potential, would have long been torn into pieces and swallowed by those ambitious people.
It could be said that if it weren't for Lu Chaoge standing in the light to attract the gunfire, if it weren't for Qin Yitian standing in the back to cast thunder, the two small flames of Chaoyan Technology would have long been extinguished by others.
"I owe you too much," Fang Yan said in a deep voice.
He didn't say thank you, because that word was too weak to express his feelings at this moment.
Lu Chaoge smiled silently and began to clean up the dishes. She said, "Go watch TV for a while, and live here with me from now on."
"— —" Fang Yan felt restless.
He felt that he was in a bad mood right now, and it wasn't appropriate to think about the matters between a man and a woman.
Moreover, he and Lu Chaoge still lacked some emotional seasoning. He felt that he wasn't ready yet — — if they slept together, it wouldn't be appropriate, right?
Fang Yan was in a dilemma. He didn't know what reason he should use to refuse Lu Chaoge's invitation without hurting a woman's proud self-esteem.
Because he hadn't spoken much in the past three years, he felt that his language skills had deteriorated seriously.
"I've already cleaned up the room for you." Lu Chaoge walked into the kitchen with the bowls and chopsticks.
"— —" Only then did Fang Yan realize that he was thinking too much.
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